Completely and utterly yours
Bella pov
"I-I-" I stuttered.
"Like it doesn't matter if you feel the same way or anything, like I understand if you don't love me I just," Edward was babbling and I could see he knew it. He looked lost like he didn't know what to do.
Wordlessly I leant over the table and caught him mid sentence, kissing him. Edward didn't respond straight away, I watched his mind click as he processed what was happening. He looked so shocked and confused. I deepened the kiss closing my eyes and I felt Edward respond.
I pulled back smiling to myself as he looked at me dumbly with his mouth half open.
The kiss had lasted longer than I had intended but it was all we needed in that moment. Slowly Edward smiled at me with an odd sparkle in his eyes as we sat peacefully just talking for the rest of the night. And we didn't need any more than that.
Alice pov
"Oh my god, spill" Alice demands as I walk through the door. I moan in annoyance why isn't the little devil in bed?
"Don't give me that your telling me every single detail before you're allowed to go to bed and no buts" Alice commands grabbing my arm and pulling me towards the stairs.
"But Ali not much happened, besides I really just need time to think things over" I say putting on my nicest smile.
"Your terrible Bella, if you need thinking time something big happened now spill" She commanded. We had reached her room and Alice lightly pushed me towards the bed as she closed the door and skipped after me. I sat on the end of the bed while Alice sat cross legged in the middle of it.
"He told me he loved me" I told her then I paused deciding I might as well have some fun while spilling the details of my date.
"No way, what'd you do" Alice asked excitedly.
"he wouldn't stop rambling on and on about how it didn't matter if I didn't love him so I leaned over the table and" I said pausing to look at her.
"And" she prompted smiling at me like she already knew the answer which she probably did the girl was a freaking psychic. I let the silence stretch out until Alice was practically jumping up and down in her seat.
"I kissed him, and he kissed me back and well it lasted a while" I told her.
"That's my girl" Alice says.
I raise my eyebrows at her.
"Wait do you love him?" Alice asked smiling and leaning forward.
"I don't know I guess so" I say smiling.
"You will" Alice tell same then she s=witches the subject for which I am grateful.
"So where'd he take you, what'd you talk about?" she asks and I grin and start from the beginning.
Bella pov.
I had just gotten away from Alice's questions and into my room when my phone buzzed. I picked it up and looked at the idea. It was Edward. I rolled my eyes as I flipped it open to read the text.
Can't sleep : ( figured Alice would be quizzing you still sorry if this wakes you E xx
I quickly answered.
Just got away from her, I haven't even been able to think of sleeping B xx
I turned around and started getting changed into my flannel pajama pants and cotton top that had Mickey Mouse, Minnie and Pluto on it. I was just climbing into bed when my phone rang.
"Hello?" I answered, looking at the alarm clock. It was nearly two in the morning.
"Hey," Edwards's voice said. I laughed.
"What's so funny," he asked and I could hear the curiosity in his voice.
"You," I said grinning even though I knew he couldn't see.
"Well I can't sleep because all I can think of is your fabulous kiss," he said.
I snickered, "well if I don't get my sleep ill ever wake up," I said.
"I'll awake you with a kiss," he said and I could almost sense he was grinning.
"Tuff chance, I'm no princess," I said.
"I disagree," Edward said.
I laughed as a blush spread over my face. "I didn't know you were prince charming," I said.
"Well you'll find you don't know a lot about me, like I have a secret identity as a prince," he said whispering the part about him being a prince.
"Awe damn does that mean you'll turn into a frog," I asked sarcastically.
"Alice wouldn't do that," he said. I laughed at him, I couldn't help it the fact he'd just compared my best friend to a wicked witch was just hilarious to me.
"Will I see you tomorrow?" I asked leaning back so my head touched the pillow. It tilted to the side and I found myself looking at the stars.
"Yes," Edward whispered almost as if I wasn't meant to hear. He was humming something under his breath like a sort of lullaby and I found I was so tired all I managed was a mumbled
"Mmm, good," before my eyes started to droop and I clicked the hang up button not bothering to put my phone on the desk, I just let sleep completely take me until I was dreaming peacefully of happy ever afters.
Edward pov
I laid there thinking of just anything, just trying to get my mind off of Bella but every topic lead to Bella there was just no escaping it.
"Uhh," I groaned flipping onto my stomach and shifting my pillow so it was under my head. The plain white ceiling was becoming a constant movie theater as my mind relived past events and then always flicking back to Bella at the restraint, Alice telling me Bella was pregnant, us fighting on the cliff, her in hospital, her this morning in her cute pajamas arguing with Alice.
My mind wouldn't shut up no matter what I tried; I even tried to count sheep. I've got news for whoever thought of that. Think of something better because counting sheep's an absolute failure. Finally I called Bella.
We just joked around a bit and she ended up falling asleep to me humming Claire de Lune by Debussy.
"A lullaby," I whispered and then I knew exactly what I could do to get to sleep. I rolled out of my bed and grabbed a jumper from the floor.
As I walked down the hallway I looked at all our photos, I looked at two in particular. One was a drawing Jasper and I did together of our whole family. It was a crayon drawing where jasper and I had green and blue spiky hair and half stick figure body's half random squiggles that were supposed hands and arms et cetera, basically your average drawing by a 5 and 8 year old, only doubled.
I smiled at it, lifting the frame staring at it as memories of that day flooded back. I looked at the two squiggly names that were barely comprehensible.
Jasper and I had drawn the picture, both of us lying on the floorboards next to each other our legs bent up so they were half in the air as the moved up and down in time with one of mum's Cd's.
Jasper and I hadn't needed to tell each other what we were drawing we already knew. I remember giving it to mum and her framing it and me asking her "where's daddy mum" and her smiling at me and saying:
"He had to go when we were little and he can't come back, it's just you, jasper and I now, OK Edward," she'd said smiling sadly at me.
The other photo was the same one I looked at the other day with my mum smiling and laughing with an unfamiliar man. It triggered something in my memory but I couldn't place it.
With a smile on my face I replaced both frames onto the shelf and continued down the stairs to the door I hadn't used since mum died.
The door that had my piano in it.
The door creaked but I wasn't worried about waking Jasper. I left it adjar as I walked over to the ancient piano. Its carved embroidery was a bunch of intricate swirls. I ran my hands over the ivory keys as I looked at the blank board where my music rested. I picked it up and put it in a neat pile running my hand over jasper and my initials that we had carved into it.
I sat down placing my hands on the keys and playing a few childhood tunes I remembered before I started playing an unfamiliar tune. Just letting my hands run over the keys of their own accord until they had formed a sort of lullaby.
I thought of making it for Bella but then it seemed a sad morbid tune, I would make her a song later. I decided I'd call it my family instead, each sad note reflecting our sad story.
"It's been a while but you've still got it you know, mum would like that tune," Jasper said. I turned around breaking off mid note to turn and see Jasper who was leaning casually against the door frame, his arms crossed over his chest as he smiled, if not a little sadly.
"She would have," I said and then I turned and kept playing as Jasper walked further into the room and sat next to me resting his head on the piano as we sat together me playing the piano and him listening quietly.
"Do you remember when Mum told us that we'd always be a family," Jasper asked suddenly.
"That she'd never leave us," I finished not even losing my note.
"I think she'd be proud of us now," he said.
"Yeah, but still I've fucked up big time," I said.
"Literally if you mean Bella," Jasper said. I shook my head at him rolling my eyes.
"Even before Bella, just not taking care of you properly when you were 9 or anything, I was more than vacant, I was hardly around, I was always at parties until you straightened me out, I was supposed to look after you," I said.
"We look after each other," Jasper said. I smiled at him still playing my never ending lullaby.
Jasper Pov
I'm not quite sure what woke me but when I woke I could hear the faintest music drifting through the house. It made things eerie in a way, it was about three in the morning and all I could concentrate on was the beautiful soft melody.
I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and got out of bed flicking on the light as I left the room. The music got louder as I walked down the stairs toward Edward's old music room. The first thing I noticed in the dark was the light pooling out of the slightly ajar door. I walked softly towards it then reaching it I pushed it open.
Edward was sitting at the piano concentrating on his fingers skimming over the keys like wind brushing bird's feathers.
"It's been a while but you've still got it you know, mum would like that tune," I say my words shattering the quiet peace the melody created. I was leaning against the now open door frame when Edward turned around looking at me with his cool calculated eyes.
"She would have" he said then turned back and kept playing. I walked over to the two people seat where he sat and sat next to him watching his fingers tap each key creating each mournful note.
"Do you remember when Mum told us that we'd always be a family," I asked breaking the silence. I don't know what made me say it, it just seemed like the right thing to say.
"That she'd never leave us," Edward finished not even missing a note as he turned to look at me curiously.
"I think she'd be proud of us now," I said.
"Yeah, but still I've fucked up big time," Edward said. I couldn't help thinking of his one night stand.
"Literally if you mean Bella," I joked.
Edward shook his head at me rolling his eyes.
"Even before Bella, just not taking care of you properly when you were 9 or anything, I was more than vacant, I was hardly around, I was always at parties until you straightened me out, I was supposed to look after you," Edward said.
I could see the memories pained him and shuddered myself thinking about the nights where I'd lay awake waiting for the door to slam letting me know I was no longer alone. Teaching myself to cook so I wouldn't go hungry, leaving food on the table for Edward when he finally came home.
The happiest memory I had in that time frame was when Edward had came home. I'd been crying and I heard the door slam, I didn't want to show my brother how weak I was so I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. Edward came into my room and kissed me on the forehead.
"I'm sorry little brother, sorry about everything" he had whispered before walking out.
"We look after each other," I said dismissing those memories. Edward smiled at me still playing his never ending lullaby.
Bella pov
I woke up that morning yawning widely as I looked out my open window. Something was digging into my side and I reached under myself and pulled out my phone.
"What," I mumbled. Blinking as my eyes adjusted to the light. Every time I blinked I could feel sleep in the corner of my eyes digging in to my eye lids. I reached up and rubbed them, removing the annoyance.
Then as I blinked on last time at the window I rolled over to stare at my alarm clock. 11:52 was printed neatly across the screen.
"That's not right," I mumbled to myself as I flipped open my phone. It too read 11:52 in neat digital form.
"Shit," I yelled jumping out of bed and running downstairs. The sudden burst of energy helped me climb from my warm sheets. I ran into the kitchen to see Esme making pancakes. She was humming a tune under her breath and I co0uld see she wasn't fussed at all that I wasn't at school.
"What's going on," I asked still full of energy although it was fading.
"I called the school and told them you wouldn't be coming anymore, not until next year," Esme said.
Shock ran through me."Thanks," I said looking at her curiously.
"It's starting to show, that your pregnant I mean, the schools agreed to send you home work, I knew you wouldn't want to be centre of nasty rumors and gossip," Esme said turning around and placing a plate of pancakes covered in lemon juice and sugar in-front of me.
"Thank you, that's kind, and this looks lovely," I said as she turned back around to serve herself some. She just continued Humming that same tune.
"What are you humming," I asked suddenly. I had connected it to last night; it was the same tune Edward had hummed to get me to sleep.
"Claire de Lune by Debussy," she said continuing humming.
"Edward was humming it last night," I muttered. Esme smiled and came to sit across from me a plate full of pancakes on her plate. I took a bite from my own. They were delicious.
"Mmm," I mumbled with my mouth full. Esme smiled at me, finishing her plate and returning it to the sink. When I had finished my own I walked into the lounge room where Esme was walking around with a duster humming a new tune.
"I'll be upstairs if you want me to do anything, I'll be happy to help around the house," I offered.
"Oh god," I muttered before she could reply I was up the stairs and kneeling over the toilet. Esme walked in with a glass of water a few minutes later and held my hair back.
"Thanks," I managed in-between my heaves. I rinsed my mouth and greedily drank from a refilled glass of water.
"Bella I know this is going to be hard and my whole family is here for you still, also it is under my understanding your parents are coming back early, I've told them you've got a permanent room with Alice and that we've still got the spare room so you'll be staying with us because I don't think moving would be good for your health is that alright." She said in a rush.
"Its fine Esme, and thank you again I don't think I could handle being in a house with them both it would be stressful and I like it here," I said.
She smiled. "Im glad," she said.
"Now clean yourself up and come downstairs when you're done, I think a day on the couch will do you well," she said handing me a towel and walking out.
I sighed, a day of good sounded like exactly what I needed. Smiling to myself I stripped off and climbed into the shower ignoring the fact that if was just going to get so much worse and the fact that morning sickness was going to become a constant as were my new sleeping habits.
To everyone still reading this story thank you for putting up with my slack ness on updating. I have the next three chapters ready to update and ill update them a couple days after this one. I love reviews they make my day so make sure you click the green button whether to criticize or compliment I'm open to judgment and ways to improve my writing.
Preview of the next chapter which will be up within the week.
"You look great Bella, as always," Edward said.
I hadn't realized the door had opened and it seemed Alice had already entered and was chatting to Jasper. I heard their voices travel out as Edward smiled and ushered me inside.
I stared at the monitor confused at the blue/black image that was our child. I felt an instant love for the tiny creature although I couldn't make sense of its head nor tail it seemed to have endless arms and legs.
Tagan