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A/N: So the wonderful Ariana Grande gave me (Ari_Loves_Bows) a shout out today and that persuaded me to upload this :)
Btw I changed this story from 2 parts to 3 because I just kept writing and writing and writing…...
XOXO
Jade's POV
Everything has been going well. I guess you could call it the calm before the storm. I just know that something bad is bound to happen soon. I hope I'm not right.
I was over Tori's house to check up on her. It's been about a month since her dad got arrested. I would've brought Cat with me but her brother did something that I don't even want to know about and she had to handle it. I walked up to Tori's room and peeked in to see that she was taking a nap. I decided to run her a hot bath for when she wakes up. I made my way to her bathroom and turned the tub's faucet on. I added some bath salts and bubbles to it then sat on the toilet lid as I waited for the tub to fill. I was thinking about how much Tori had been through until something on the sink caught my eye. Was that a bottle of painkillers? I picked it up, but something was off, it felt kind of light. I poured the remaining pills into my hand. There were only about ten left. The sound of Tori's bed creaking pulled me out of my thoughts.
No POV
Tori woke up and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. She became aware of the sound of running water coming from her bathroom. She forced herself out of bed and went into the bathroom.
"Oh hey baby." Tori smiled. "What are you doing here?" She gave Jade a kiss that the pale girl was reluctant to return. Tori gave her a weird look.
"I came here to check up on you, which apparently was a good idea." Jade showed Tori the pills in her hand.
Tori looked like a child who'd been caught with their hand in the cookie jar. "I had a headache so I took a few." She tried to explain.
"Try again." Jade narrowed her eyes at the girl.
"Jade, it's really not a big deal, so stop making it into one." Tori sighed.
"It is a big deal Tori!" Jade yelled causing Tori to back up a little. "You just got these pills a few days ago and there are only like ten left. The bottle says that there were forty-five pills in here! Tori you have a problem." Jade calmed down as she put the pills back into the bottle.
"I know." Tori whimpered out. Jade pulled her into a tight hug.
"How did this even happen?" Jade asked quietly.
"I don't know. I just took a few and then I took a few more. Now I just can't stop." Tori shed a few tears then buried her face in Jade's shoulder.
"And what's Cat going to say? This would really break her heart." Tori said, lifting her head in a panic.
"Shh, we don't have to tell her yet, but you're telling her, not me." Jade responded. "Just take a hot bath and we'll handle this."
"Will you get in with me?" Tori asked with a pout.
"Sure." Jade smiled. They stripped off their clothes and got in the hot water. Tori leaned back against Jade chest and sighed contentedly.
"This addiction is just another hurdle baby. We got over the last one and we're sure as hell getting over this one." Jade promised. She then began to sing to Tori in order to make her feel better.
There's only one thing
To do
Three words
For you
I love you
Tori smiled a snuggled closer to Jade. Jade's voice was so angelic and always made her happy. After the bath they changed into some pajamas and watched movies. Around 11pm Cat came over and they all laid on the bed together just enjoying each other's company. Eventually they fell into a peaceful sleep. Well, at least Cat and Jade did. Tori, on the other hand, had other ideas.
Tori's POV
I wiggled out of my girlfriends' arms and quietly went to my bathroom. I just needed a few more. That's it. I spotted the bottle on the sink and opened it. I poured two into my hand. I looked down at them and said, "Jade is going to hate me for this."
"Why is Jade going to hate you?" A tiny voice said from behind me. I turned to see Cat rubbing her eyes and pouting adorably.
"It's nothing Kitten, just go back to sleep." I urged.
"What is that in your hand?" Cat asked.
"Nothing." I lied.
"I'm not stupid Tori, I saw you." Cat walked closer, grabbing my hand and yanking it open. The two pills fell to the floor.
"I had a headache?" I tried, but it fell on deaf ears.
She then spotted the pill bottle. She grabbed it before I could and looked inside. She gasped.
"Tori?" Cat whimpered. I knew that she'd put two and two together. She was with me when I got the pills a few days ago.
"Why?" Cat had started crying now.
"I'm sorry." I said shakily, releasing a few tears.
Cat's sadness turned to anger. She walked over to the toilet and dumped the remaining pills into it.
"No! Cat I need those!" I screeched out.
Cat looked me dead in the eyes as she pushed down the handle. The flushing sound resonated throughout the bathroom.
"Why would you do that!" I shouted. How was I supposed to make it through tomorrow without those?
"You didn't need them!" She shouted back.
"Yes I did!" I screamed as everything went red. I hadn't had my pills and I was just a little on edge. Ok, a lot on edge.
I was so furious that I shoved Cat. I guess I didn't know my own strength because the next thing I knew Cat was on the ground sobbing, Jade was pushing me away from Cat, and I had a sick feeling in my stomach at what I'd just done.
No POV
Jade looked Cat over and repeatedly asked if she was ok. Cat nodded and held tightly to Jade. Jade whispered sweet words in her ear in an attempt to calm her down. Tori stepped towards Cat, but she just whimpered and got closer to Jade. Tori just stepped back, ashamed that Cat was afraid of her. Jade picked Cat up and carried her outside to the car.
"I'll be right back." She kissed Cat's wet cheek softly before going back into Tori's house. She went up to Tori's room and started getting some of her and Cat's things.
"Y-You're leaving? Please don't, I'm so sorry!" Tori cried.
"Don't talk to me right now! How could you do that to Cat?" Jade looked at her incredulously.
"It wasn't me. It was the drugs!" Tori whimpered out.
Jade sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. "Look, Cat and I will help you through this, but you have to let us. Stop pushing us away. Literally."
Tori nodded. "Are you still leaving?"
Jade nodded and Tori's heart cracked.
"Only because I want to take Cat home. I don't think that she can handle being around you right now." Jade said.
"That's understandable." Tori sighed.
"I'll see you tomorrow." Jade gave Tori a quick kiss, left, then drove away with Cat.
Tori couldn't hold it in any longer. She sank to the floor and just broke down. She was so messed up. None of this would be happening if she'd never had a dad who beat her and a mom who was too scared to do anything. She just let out the long overdue tears.
Crying isn't a sign of weakness. It's a sign that you've been too strong for too long.
XOXO
Tori woke up the next morning not remembering how she ended up in bed. She remembered crying on the floor so she must've fallen asleep after that. The shades were closed so it was kind of dark in her room. She then had that sudden urge. The urge to take more pills. As if reading her mind, a pair of arms tightened around her.
"Don't even think about it." Jade said from beside her.
Tori breathed out a sigh of relief and held onto Jade with all of her strength. "I want to get better." Tori said. "I don't want to hurt myself anymore. More importantly, I don't want to hurt you and Cat anymore. What I did last night was uncalled for and I'm truly sorry. I just hope that Cat will forgive me."
"I've already forgiven you." Cat said quietly as she walked out of the bathroom.
"Really?" Tori asked with hopeful eyes.
Cat crawled onto the bed and kissed Tori softly. "I know that you didn't mean it. Jade and I had a talk last night and then we came back over here."
Tori pulled Cat into her lap. "I promise to never hurt you again Kitten."
"And I promise to help you get through this." Cat smiled softly.
"Thank you." Tori smiled tearfully.
"We love you baby." Jade smiled.
"I love you guys too." Tori sniffled.
Cat then spoke up. "Can we get food now? I'm hungry."
Jade got out of bed. "Let's go." She picked Cat up by her waist and spun her around causing the redhead to squeal with glee. She laid Cat down on the bed and tickled her sides.
"Tori help!" Cat shrieked through her laughs. Tori then began to tickle Jade. It's a little known fact that Jade is indeed ticklish.
Jade screamed with laughter and removed her hands from Cat. Cat laid there and tried to catch her breath. Tori finally had mercy on Jade and stopped tickling her. Jade pulled Tori down so that Tori was on top of her. The two girls shared a somewhat passionate kiss before pulling away at the sound of a growling stomach.
"I told you that I was hungry. Not my fault." Cat blushed.
"C'mon baby, let's go get some food." Jade picked Cat up and walked downstairs with Tori.
XOXO
Cat and Jade were determined to help Tori. Jade took out her laptop and looked up the side effects of pain killer withdrawal. Tori was already starting to experience some of these. Her loss of appetite was evident during breakfast and she was currently shaking while Cat held her. Jade scrolled down the list and saw that irritability was there. She would have to talk to Cat later about her level of giddiness around an irritable Tori.
"I feel sick." Tori said suddenly as she ran to the bathroom and threw up in the sink. Cat rushed in after her and held her hair back. Jade was surprised that Cat could do such a thing; Cat had a really sensitive stomach. Jade put her laptop down and went into the bathroom also. When Tori was done emptying her stomach she brushed her teeth and nearly fell to the floor. Jade was quick to catch her. She carried Tori to the bedroom and laid her on the bed. Cat laid next to her and stroked her hair.
"I feel like shit." Tori stated.
"Try getting some sleep." Cat said.
"I can't. I'm not tired." Tori responded.
"Insomnia is one of the side effects." Jade sighed.
Cat pouted. "I hate seeing you like this." She kissed Tori's forehead.
"It'll only last about a week. We have to wait for the drugs to get out of her system."
"A week?" Tori whined.
"It won't be that bad." Cat said.
XOXO
Tori was beginning to show signs of improvement. Her appetite was coming back and she was starting to sleep through the night. Now the hardest part was making sure that she stayed off of the medication. Jade had a theory that maybe if they got to the source of the problem, Tori would feel less compelled to take more painkillers.
"Ok, now we have to get to the source of this problem." Jade said.
Tori laid back on her bed, cradling Cat on her chest. "Where do we start?"
"As long ago as you can remember."
The three girls talked for hours about everything Tori had been through in her life; all of her accomplishments, heartbreaks, and letdowns. Together the girls shared tears, laughs and everything in between. They were now on the subject of Mr. Vega's arrest.
"How did you feel when you saw him being arrested?" Jade asked.
"Relieved, but I still don't feel happy. It's like I have some unfinished business or something."
"You want revenge?" Jade smirked.
Tori rolled her eyes. "No."
"Have you forgiven him?" Cat asked quietly.
Realization showed on Tori's face. That's what she needed. She needed to forgive him.
"Forgiveness isn't for the other person, it's for yourself." Cat smiled. "That's why I forgave you. Being upset with someone is a horrible feeling that I don't like, that's why it's so easy for me to forgive."
Tori smiled and kissed Cat's forehead. She looked toward Jade. "Can we go see him tomorrow? I have to tell him that I forgive him."
Jade nodded and gave Tori a gentle kiss. She pulled away and looked into Tori's eyes.
"I feel like such a terrible girlfriend." Jade sighed.
"Why?" Tori questioned.
"We've been dating for almost 8 months and I still don't know when something is wrong with you. Your dad had been beating you since we met and I had no idea. Then you start taking pills and I just..." Jade let a tear slide down her cheek.
Tori quickly wiped it. "It's not your fault. I shouldn't have tried to hide it."
"Well you did a good job. Stop being such a good actress." Jade huffed.
"I'll try." Tori smiled softly.
To be continued...
A/N: I actually looked up some stuff about painkiller withdrawal so I hope that the information is right. Please correct me if I'm wrong.
The song that Jade sings is 1, 2, 3, 4 by Plain White Ts