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Chapter 5 – Heart Versus Mind
Wow. I'm impressed – and normally I'd never be impressed. Thankfully, I had gotten the number one thing that I had requested – single beds.
Single beds... after what somehow occurred earlier today. Great idea, Len.
I could feel a blush coming on.
Why was I that reckless?!
I decide to turn to something else to take my mind off these things.
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I hear Len sigh and turn over to look at him. And realise that he's already looking at me. I blush, and turn towards the window.
Len... what happened earlier surprised me so much... but what surprised me more was how much I liked it. You being like that... thrilled me.
I blushed.
I never knew fingers could be that good...
I blushed even more, and looked down.
Just stop thinking of it altogether, Kahoko!!!!
Just say to yourself – don't think of it anymore.
I sighed.
Don't think of it anymore.
I looked up.
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Kahoko and I tour upstairs and downstairs, going down to carriage 7 to see the bistro. It looks quite new, and I could see myself getting used to travelling on these.
Although, I could probably get more used to my hand being around her back and resting on the side of her waist...
We had actually walked like that the whole way.
Like a real couple...
I couldn't help but smile a bit at that thought. It was funny, how the smallest of things just seemed to make me feel that much better.
Like being intoxicated on her smell of strawberries.
I was reminded of Hihara-senpai when I thought of that, and mentally shook my head to get rid of the reminder.
I don't want to think about anything else but her.
Even though I was touring the carriage, I wasn't really focussing that much. All my senses were filled with Kahoko...
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I wasn't used to this much attention at all. Having spent years without Len, now to be with him all the time... took a little getting used to.
But you didn't need any getting used to when his fingers were in you.
I could feel an evident blush coming across my face.
Although, this was what I wanted, in a way.
I smiled.
I recall the short time I had in Vienna at Len's apartment. It was messy, which was usual for boys. I didn't mind it particularly, but only now I had seemed to notice it.
Funny how only some fancy room on a train makes me realise it. Even this bistro makes me realise it.
Everything was so polished and shiny. If it was just a bit more, I probably would've put my hand over my eyes, and wince at the shininess of it.
I guess I'm not the type of person to obsessively clean up after myself...
I continued slowly eating the food I had bought from the bistro.
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I turn around back to face Kahoko to see that she had finished the food that she bought. I nodded, and hand in hand, we went back.
I kind of liked my hand around her back before...
I was tempted to put my hand around her back again, but I decided I probably should restrain myself.
After all, you're on a train. Lots of people are on this train, too. Maybe even people that recognise you.
I wondered what I'd do if people did recognise me.
I'd probably never let go of her hand though.
I looked towards her, looking around, and smiled wistfully.
I don't care what anyone says.
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How am I meant to keep myself... sane... when she looked like that?!
My eyes went from her slim legs which were showing, towards the small feminine curves that the silk was showing off, eventually towards the top half of her body, admiring at the paleness of her skin clashing against the bold black of the nightgown.
Is this heaven? It feels like I've died and woken up to an even more heavenly apparition than before...
I could feel myself becoming slack-jawed, but wanted to kind of stay in control.
Once more, Len, you do realise you're on a train.
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His reaction... I must admit I would have expected it. Except... I think I also hoped that he would say something like "You look good" or something... I quickly get out of the doorway and take the single bed nearest to the door, the one that I was testing out before.
Why didn't he say anything? He nearly looked like he would have.
I could feel a sad expression coming on my face.
Is it because we're on a train that he... can't do what he wants to do?
I stood up, and slowly headed towards the bathroom.
Surely if we're both locked in the bathroom it wouldn't matter... besides, I've always wanted to try being hot and wet... especially with Len...
I blushed.
How could you even think of that, Kahoko?!
I knocked on the door of the bathroom lightly.
"Len..."
There's no response. My expression downhearted, I decide to head back to the bed.
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I didn't want... what I was wearing... to disturb Len anymore.
Or is it that I just want this day to be over... it has been really long, after all...
Come on, Kahoko, just sleep. There are better things tomorrow.
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Chapter 6 – On The Way
Now knowing that she has that dress to wear to sleep, I know I definitely won't be able to control myself.
But it really did look good on her. Just like her being wrapped in a towel. Besides, losing control of yourself means you get to smirk more often.
I consider that argument. I kind of enjoy smirking, especially at Kahoko.
Knowing that I can get away with being a bit naughty and a bit demanding... after all, we only have so long.
I could feel a grin coming on my face.
No grinning, Len. You don't want to look like a complete idiot.
I focus back on the conversation on the phone, and thankfully haven't missed anything.
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But was it me or did his face show disappointment?
What's he disappointed about, anyways?
My mind was running through a million scenarios.
Maybe I'm just dreaming.
I mentally nod to myself.
Of course I'm just dreaming.
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She changed?! Oh what... I was hoping to...No, Len. Don't go there.
Don't go to thinking how much you just want to run your fingers on every single bit of her, how you want her to moan your name as you explore her...
I was silently hoping that my face was not showing any evidence of me having these kinds of thoughts.
Your knee positioning itself between her legs, your mouth on her mouth, your bodies touching and feeling, tongues exploring, minds going blissfully blank, knowing nothing but the other...
I could feel a smile slowly come on my face.
That'd be heaven... if it happened.
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I lock the door first, and look to the shower. It's wet. I turn to the back of the door, and realised something. Was that...
Pink, with lace – brassiere.
My feet moved me towards it to touch it, and I marvelled at the feel.
It would look good on her... and it feels good too. Is she planning to wear this soon?
I close my eyes and imagine a naked Kahoko, besides her brasserie and underpants. Pink, lacy ones. Oh god, it looks good.
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I opened the door, and sheepishly held it out to her. I was more than embarrassed... I couldn't even meet her eyes...
How could I tell her how fascinated I was by this thing?!
I mentally told myself to keep those thoughts as thoughts, and nothing else.
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I shake my head. It wouldn't happen. At least, I hope.
But if it does happen...
I grin like an idiotic fool.
If it does happen, I'm going to let her know that I am human, that I have needs, and that I want to be inside of her.
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It had taken me a little while to get composed... once again it consisted of a long period of deep breathing, talking to myself, and overall wasting time to ease the tension that would be between us if I came out early.
Although, I spent half that time dreaming of near-impossible situations... Kaho and I having sex, being able to taste her wet folds with my tongue, doing all sorts of things that couples normally do...
I wanted to tell myself not to think of them. But I knew better than that.
I've tried... and I've failed.
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I slept on and off on the train. When Len kissed me softly, I woke up... when the train was stopping in other cities I could feel myself wake up... and when I turned around to Len, I instantly turned back onto the other side and told myself to not think what I just saw.
You were sleeping with such a peaceful face, and... and...
I could feel myself wanting to blush.
The pyjama that you wore, some of the buttons must've slipped out of their buttonholes... I could see your skin and tone and it was... it was so hard!!! I wanted to go over and rip your pyjamas off and just run my hands and fingers on your body...
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At least, I think I could do that.
Not that confident after last night's dilemma of whether to go over to his bed and jump his bones or whether I should stay in my own bed...
I blink.
When did my mind use terms like 'jump his bones'?
I decide to get rid of this stuff blocking my thoughts and focus.
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I wonder if I should ask him to teach me...
But what would he want in return?
I blink. I hadn't thought of that.
He's always taught me willingly though... so I'm willing to pay some kind of price... as long as it's payable.
I wonder if he wants the same thing I want...
I could feel myself becoming more aware... his gazes at me, the fact that his eyes never left my face – but I knew that time when I wore that negligee he wanted to jump me.
And I would've gone ahead with it, too.
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