DISCLAIMER: Stephenie Meyers owns these characters. We've only borrowed them for this story.
Chapter 5
Nessie's POV
I looked at my mom. I knew she sensed him too. "Do you want me to get it?" I hesitated. "No, thanks mom. This one is all me." She nodded and accompanied me to the door. She gave me a small kiss on the cheek and whispered "don't worry it will all be ok." As I opened the door she politely greeted Jacob with a kiss on the cheek "Hi Jake, nice to see you. Come up to the house later and we'll all go hunting." She turned to me and winked and walked away. Jake looked at me with a solemn look on his face. "Hi Jake. Come on in." as I turned and stepped into the living room, I felt him follow me closely. "Ness, I came because I had to talk to you…the way you left earlier…I need to say something." I gave him a worried smile, expectant of the heavy discussion ahead. "I need to speak with you to. Let's sit."
He moved slowly to sit next to me on the couch. I had my head down looking at my hands fidgeting in my lap. "You first." He said. I looked up into his warm dark brown eyes and nodded. Thoughts whirled in my head. I took a deep breath. I had to say it or it we would never get passed it. "Jacob. You are one of the most important people in my life. The only way to get through this is to say it outright so we can work it out." I paused. Breathed again. He looked at me with a different look on his face now. Almost with dread. "I was wrong to speak to you that way today. It was rude." I could see was going to attempt to stop me. I raised my hand up to halt his words and I continued. "Yes, it was. But I realized it wasn't out of anger as I had thought. It was out of…frustration. I wasn't sure why then, but when you mentioned the club you would be going to with the guys---I felt so…so…betrayed." There I said it. He looked so confused, he began to open his mouth. "Wait, let me finish. I knew that was irrational. That was exactly the reason I left. Now that I've had some time to think about it and the only conclusion I could come up with was…my feelings for you have changed." He abruptly stood up in protest.
"Ness, what do you mean your feelings have changed? I don't understand. If it's something I've done…Shit! Wait! Can I just say what I came to say please? I'm sorry to interrupt you but I need to get this out or I'll explode." I was taken back by his statement. Suddenly, I felt nervous again. But the excitement of the feelings I had discovered were quickly being squashed into a knot in my stomach. He sat back down and took my hands in his.
"Renesmee. My best friend..."- oh no, my best friend? This is can't be good-I thought. "It took me a while to get here, but I knew it would come. We've been linked since the day you were born." He paused and kissed my hand. "You must know that I love you, right?" Sure he loved me, just like a friend right? I just nodded and he continued nervously. "But I am also completely and totally in love with you. I had to tell you because I feel it is our destiny and we couldn't go on without you knowing my true feelings." I blinked a couple of times and began to tear up. Jacob looked at me with regret in his eyes.
"Oh Jacob." was all I said. Then, I began to giggle. I was overjoyed. He must have thought I was crazy. He sat back and looked at me with surprise. I stopped and composed myself. "Oh, Jake, I'm sorry. I'm not laughing at you. I'm laughing at the circumstances. All along I've been worrying because my feelings for you had changed, and that our relationship would be over because of it." I reached out and touched his check with my hand. "But now, having heard what you said, I can tell you with total certainty. I feel exactly the same way. I am in love with you too."
His eyes immediately registered what I had said. In that next moment he leaned in and kissed me gently on the lips. Then pulled me in tightly. I had never felt this way before. His kiss was so powerful. So warm. I melted into his arms. When he pulled away all I could say breathlessly was "wow." He smiled wide and looked into my eyes "yeah, wow is right."