DISCLAIMER: Stephenie Meyers owns these characters. We've only borrowed them for this story.
Chapter 10
Edward's POV
I waited for Renesmee in the driveway for a couple of minutes while she packed at vampire speed, but those couple of minutes were enough for my mind to wander. I'd never been to this place before, even after I left Bella. I never felt this degree of despair. At least then, I knew she loved me, but now, it was just… beyond my comprehension.
This can't be happening. The rational part of me told me there had to be a sensible explanation, but then again, what Nessie saw was so obvious, it was as if Jacob and Bella were right in front of me. But Bella had chosen ME. She chose eternity with ME. It was ME she said she couldn't live without-not Jacob. I couldn't have been wrong about that. It doesn't make sense. Maybe it's all been too much for her and she hadn't had enough time to be human. I mean she got pregnant right away, and there was no way we could delay her transformation. She became such an extraordinary vampire, I was sure she was meant for this life. I thought about this. I am a vampire-I feel no pain-I don't need to breathe-my heart no longer beats, but somehow, all these emotions seemed overwhelm me- to shutter me at the core. I could cease to exist right now and it would not hurt as much. How could she do this to me? To our daughter? I no longer cared for my own existence but I had to be there for Nessie. She is my daughter and she needs me. While I stood there contemplating these things, Nessie was coming down the drive. I noticed the look on her face. If I thought I was in pain, my daughter was just about to fall to pieces in front of me and I couldn't let that happen. I have to be brave for her. This is no longer about just me, it is about her. How can they do this to her?!
We had been driving for a while and we still didn't know where we were headed. "Nessie, honey, where do you want to go? Should we just get a hotel? Maybe we would see things in a different light after we take a rest?" "No dad, please, please just take me as far away as you can from here, from this place, from him, from mom." At that moment, the only place that came to mind was the Amazon. I mean we were supposed to be going anyway right? It was the right decision. I was sure of it. So I drove to the airport and we took the first flight out of Seattle.
When we landed in Brazil, my cell phone rang and reluctantly, I picked it up. I knew it was Bella but I wanted to hear her voice regardless of recent events. "Edward? Where are you? What's happened? Are you ok? Is Renesmee with you?" I had promised Nessie that I wouldn't reveal where we were. She and I both knew that they would follow us and she wasn't ready for that confrontation. All I wanted to know was if it was true. So I took a deep breath- not that I needed it- and asked "Bella, is it true what Renesmee saw between you and Jacob?" She immediately responded "Yes, Edward, it's true, but we wanted to wait until the trip to tell you about it. I knew that you wouldn't take it well." I just couldn't listen anymore. I felt each word stab into my heart as she spoke them out loud. I just simply said "That's all I wanted to know. Goodbye Bella. "And I hung up the phone and threw it in the garbage.