I do not own Private, Kate Brian does though!

It had been 3 days since I had last talked to Josh, walked away from him, been accepted back in to Billings and been in that hospital. I hadn't heard anything new on Ivy and as far as I knew she was still unconscious. I had only slept for about 5 hours in the last 3 nights. I was exhausted, I was scared, I was angry, but most of all I felt guilty. I felt guilty because of what had happened to Ivy, I had let it happen, I had led Sabine to almost killing the girl that I now called a friend. She would have probably been sitting in her room with Josh talking and having fun if it wasn't for me.

I let this happen

I was bought out of my day dreaming (If you could even call it that) by my phone ringing. I looked at the picture and saw the most beautiful boy ever; Josh.

"Hello"

"Hey Reed its Josh"

"Oh, um, er, is everything ok?"

"Yeah, um, I just wanted to call and see if you were maybe free to come to the hospital, because Ivy has woken up and she wants to talk to you."

Oh, damn.

"Yeah, um, ok. I'll be there soon."

"Ok…bye"

"Bye", I hung up the phone. Just sat there, wondering if I had made the right decision. Then I knew I had to go, I had to make everything good between us and get it off my chest.

Half an hour later I was ready. I was wearing this really cute tee that had this big panda face on it from Wet Seal, my Chrissie skinny jeans, my uggs and my new DKNY Nappa leather hobo, courtesy of Noelle of corse. I quickly added some of my Stila lip glaze and I was ready to go.

I arrived at the hospital about 20 minuets later, I had borrowed Noelle's bright red Mini S Cooper convertible. I walked in to the entry and went to the lifts, I got in pressed level 7 and the doors were just closing when someone put their hand in to stop it. The person looked up and beautiful blue eyes looked straight in to mine. Great, I had to come to this hospital to talk to the girl who was in pain because of me and now I even had to be in the elevator with the same girl's boyfriend, who is also my ex and did I mention I was still in love with him? Ironic much?

"Hey", he was the first to speak.

"Hey"

"I was just getting coffee, want one? I can always go back to get Gage another."

"Sure.", he handed over the coffee and our hands just slightly brushed against each others, I felt a pang of electricity go through me. Then I must have not been holding on to it properly and it fell. Coffee went everywhere and all over my jeans! I quickly bent down to pick it up and so did Josh.

"Ow!" I knocked my head with his and fell back. He quickly had me in his arms, "I'm so, so, so sorry Reed!" "It's fine".

Then I realized just how close we were, I could look up and our lips would basically touch. I started to bring my head up and I felt him move closer. This was it, we were going to kiss, we are going to kiss, yes we…

Ping!

The doors started to open and we were pulled out of our moment, I pushed him away quickly, got up, straightened out and walked out and started down the hall that Ivy's room was and didn't even look back to see what Josh was doing, I just kept my head p and walked in the direction that was away from him. This direction was the direction that was going to determine what my next year and a half left at Easton was going to be like.

And my first point was:

From now on Josh and I are friends; I will not get tangled up in a love triangle. It was Josh and Ivy and me and um, friends for now.