Chapter 15: Thinking of you

Sitting at her desk in class, Kagome was avoiding Hojo's frequent looks her way. She had been avoiding him all day, ever since the kiss, trying extra hard to not even make eye contact with him. She keep her eyes fixed on the clock, waiting for the class to end seemed to be such a hard task. Out of the corner of her eye she saw Hojo stand and head her way. Panicking, she looked at the clock as if trying to make time speed by.

'Come on…one more minute!'

Once it seemed that her plan of ignoring him was about to fail, the bell rang. Kagome sprang up from her seat and bolted for the door, even though she heard her name being called, she didn't bother to turn around. She ran out of the school and to the parking lot. Getting in her car she leaned back and sighed. She started the car and pulled off. Flipping through radio stations, she stopped when she heard Thinking of you by Katy Perry. As she listened to the lyrics, she gripped the steering wheel tighter, her knuckles turned white and she gritted her teeth. Shaking her head slightly, she slammed her hand on the radio to stop the song. She pulled on the side of the road and rested her head on the steering wheel. She looked at the radio and hesitantly turned it on.

'What would you do....if you were the one who was spending the night…I wish that I was looking into your eyes..'

She turned it off once more and took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, she pulled her phone from her pocket and opened it.

'Should I? What would I say?'

She gripped the phone tighter and shut it. She pulled off and headed home.

"Mom! I'm home!"

"Kagome dear, I'm in your room….come up here a second please"

She followed her moms voice and entered her room.

"What is it mom?"

"Well there's someone here to see you."

Looking at her bed she gasped.

"H-Hojo?"

"Hey Kagome. I tried to catch up with you at school, but you left."

"Ok, so what are you doing here…like in my room?"

"Oh, I just wanted to see it is all, your mom said it was ok."

Kagome shot her mom a look that said 'Thanks a lot'

"Well, I have to get to the laundry, so see you two later."

Her mom smiled and left the room. Uncomfortable, Kagome sat her bag down and leaned on her dresser.

"What do you want?"

He stood and walked over to her.

"To see you, duh?"

"You saw me at school."

"I know, I wanted to try this again."

Hojo leaned in and kissed Kagome and pictures of Inuyasha, his smile, his scowl, his smirk, and his eyes all flashed through her mind and if she closed her eyes she could imagine he was the one in front of her. She closed her eyes but she just couldn't get past the fact it wasn't him. Hojo's kisses didn't mean anything, were as though Inuyasha's meant everything, even his smile could harm her heart.

'He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth'

She pushed away and looked at the ground.

"Hojo, I thought I told you, I just cant."

"But why?"

"Well….um.."

She looked up at him.

"What? Is there something wrong with me?"

"No…its just that…I..I love someone else."

Hojo stepped back and Kagome smiled slightly.

"I'm sorry, I just cant help it."

"I understand, but where is he then? Does he feel the same?"

She looked away.

"Yes, he told me. He said, he loved me more then I could ever know."

"Then why isn't he here with you? If he really cared he would be with you."

"It's my fault. I pushed him away."

She rose her head, she just realizing something.

"I get it now…I've been blaming him this whole time….when it's been my fault too. He came all the way here to tell me that we could be together and I just slapped him and pushed away. Why didn't I accept the apology…if I did then id be with him right now…..I'm so blind!"

She ran for her phone and flipped it open. Quickly dialing his number she stopped.

"Wait…no. what if he's not home, I couldn't just call and think its going to be ok."

She sat down her phone and sat on the bed.

"Kagome. Go."

"What?"

"Go to him. Let him know how you feel, if you don't….you'll live your whole life wondering what if…like me. If I had told you how I felt back when we were small…then maybe I could be the one you love. Don't live in regret."

He walked over to her and kissed her forehead before leaving her alone. She fell back on her bed and looked at her phone.

'I cant, its not that simple Hojo….no matter how bad I wish it was.'

The next morning Kagome was looking at her alarm clock, waiting for it to go off. She had been up all night thinking. She couldn't help but feel that her and Inuyasha's relationship was to complicated and she couldn't just call him and everything would be ok. So many people had been giving her advice and she couldn't follow any of it. Sango says to forget him, which was out of the question, Hojo said to go to him and tell him how she felt, but she didn't have the courage to do that, and her mom says to do what's best for her, and she didn't know what that was. It seemed to be slowly eating away at her will power, she couldn't close her eyes with out thinking of him or picturing something they did together. She hit her alarm clock as soon as it went off, going to school was not an option today. She snuggled under her covers more and thought of the times she slept in the same bed as Inuyasha. She pulled the covers over her face to try and get rid of the memories, but that only brought on more. His kisses were all she could think of and it was killing her.

"Stop….go away…."

She rolled over in her bed and closed her eyes, falling asleep she pictured Yura and Inuyasha kissing.

"Kagome! Wake up! You missed school."

Kagome sat up slowly.

"I know mom, I don't feel good, so I'm not going."

Pulling the covers over her, she laid back down.

"Ok well, I have to run out, so keep your phone close ok?"

After her mom left, Kagome reached for her phone and pulled it closer to her. Just as she was going back to sleep, her phone went off.

"Hello?"

"…"

"Hello?….hello?!"

She shrugged and shut the phone, but then looked at the caller ID.

'Inuyasha!'

She quickly dialed his number.

"Hello?"

"H-hey, um did you just call me?"

"Uh, I don't think so."

"Oh ok then…..bye Inuyasha."

"Kagome wait."

"Yes."

"I-I um…..well I miss you."

She froze, what should she say?

"Oh ok."

"Well bye…."

"B-bye."

Shutting her phone Kagome sat up.

"What the fuck Kagome! Why would you say that!! Why cant you just be honest with him! Tell him you miss him too…is that so hard!"

She put her head in her hands and began to cry.

'What am I going to do? I'm a mess…I cant live like this. If I do go to him, id have to forgive him….can I do that?…ugh!'

She ripped the covers off her legs and walked to the bathroom. Once inside she had flashbacks of when Inuyasha was in the shower, the smell of the air was so sweet. A blush crept over her face as she remembered him moving the curtain and his wet form in a towel. All these thoughts made her think of what they were in Okinawa for. Deep inside she wished everything would have went according to plan, even though she would never say it, she wanted Inuyasha enough to run to him and jump him on his bed room floor, figuratively speaking. Not knowing what else to do, Kagome got into the shower and got dressed. She walked outside and began walking down the street.

'I want to see him…so bad. I wonder if he wants to see me.'

Back with Inuyasha, he was sitting on his bed, looking at his phone. Wondering if he should call her, Inuyasha pictured her beside him, smiling like she always did, or even blushing.

'I'm sorry Kagome. Why cant you see that?'

Just as Kagome did, Inuyasha thought of when he had changed her clothes while she was sleep. These thoughts led him to thinking of what they went to Okinawa for in the first place and how it almost happened. Inuyasha sighed in frustration and walked out front and sat on the steps.

'I guess she's moving on….there is no more us. I guess I should get my bags and go.'

Kagome looked at the passing traffic as she wondered down the street. She smiled to herself and looked in front of her. Breathing in, she caught a familiar scent, one she loved. She looked around trying to find the source.

"Kagome?"

She turned to see Inuyasha walking out of a apartment building with a bag.

"W-What are you doing here?"

"Well, right now I'm going home."

"Oh…ok then."

She wanted to keep walking, but her legs wouldn't move. He sat his bag down and looked at her, she felt weak at the knees when there eyes meet. She felt tears began building up.

"Well, I came here because I am in love with this girl…she's so beautiful and sweet and…I don't think she knows how much its killing me to leave her."

The tears streamed down her face.

"Don't…don't do that. That just makes leaving harder….so just…"

He wiped her tears but more replaced them.

"You know… I love someone…"

He looked at her.

"I mean…he breaks my heart again and again…..but each time I find myself loving him more and no matter how hard I try….I could never forget him…..I don't think he knows how I long to have his arms around me…to feel his touch again…. And its killing me because he's leaving."

"Does he have to leave….cant you forgive him?"

"I-I don't know, all I know is I cant live this way anymore….I want…..I need him here now….do you think forgiveness could wait?"

Inuyasha placed his hand on her cheek and smiled.

"Yea…it can."

Kagome threw herself into his arms and tightened her grip around his waist when he hugged her back. Crying into his chest, Kagome pulled back enough to see his face.

"Inuyasha."

She stood on the tip of her toes and wrapped her arms around his neck. Kissing him, Kagome felt Inuyasha's arms wrap around her waist and some stray tears fell. She pulled away and rested her head on his shoulder.

"Is this a dream……just another one of my fantasies?"

"I was thinking the same thing….but it cant be."

Kagome looked up at him.

"Why?"

"Because if this was my dream…we wouldn't still be clothed."

Kagome blushed and pulled away. Inuyasha laughed.

"There's what I've been wanting to see."

"So….what are you gonna do?"

Kagome looked over at his bag.

"Isn't it obvious? I'm staying here!"

Kagome smiled at him.

"Wait!"

She placed her arms around his neck and hugged him, inhaling his scent.

"That's what I wanted…"

She laughed when she saw Inuyasha's confused expression.

"So…what do we do now?"

Kagome shrugged and bite her bottom lip.

"Well….you could shut up and kiss me."

Inuyasha smirked and did as she said. His kiss was all she wanted right now, besides wanting to forgive him, for everything. With that thought, she pulled back and looked away.

"About Yura…"

Inuyasha placed his hand over her mouth.

"Taken care of."

"How?"

"Well, you see. If Yura date some one else, the contract is legally broken."

"Ok so?"

"So, Sesshomaru is what she really wants, and I got him to agree to go out on one date with her, and that alone is a breech in contract. Nether one of us is suppose to date someone else, that's why I couldn't be with you, if you break the contract you serve time, how much I don't know."

"So Yura will go to jail?! That's not fair!"

"No, her dad will get her out of it. But the contract is still broken."

Kagome smiled and grabbed his bag.

"Lets get this bag back inside, shall we?"

He nodded and they headed up stairs.

"Who's apartment is this anyway?"

"Miroku's, don't tell Sango but he's moving out here."

She nodded and walked in. Sitting down on the bed she looked at Inuyasha.

"I really want to forgive you….but its hard, I mean I just feel like I'm to soft if I forgive you now."

Inuyasha smiled and stood in front of her.

"That's cause you are soft."

"I'm not kidding."

"Kagome, I really am sorry. You have to know I'm telling the truth, so why is it so hard to say you forgive me."

"I can say it….I just want to mean it."

Inuyasha took her hand and enlaced their fingers.

"Then don't say it…not yet."

He bent down and took her chin and tilted her head up. Rubbing his thumb over her bottom lip, he kissed her. Kagome put her hands on each side of his face and then around his neck, pulling him closer. Inuyasha leaned in more, pushing her on her back, he held himself up with his hands on either side of her body. He looked down at her and slid his hand down the length of her body, from her neck to her thighs. Kagome grabbed onto his shirt and pulled him down to her. He kissed her and then began trailing kisses down her neck and to her collar bone. He lifted her shirt over her head and kissed down to the space between her breast.

"Kagome, I'm sorry."

After pulling his shirt over his head, Inuyasha reached behind Kagome and unclasped her bra. Pulling it off her shoulders, she pulled him down kissing him and pressing there bare chests together. Again, Inuyasha kissed down her neck.

"I'm so sorry."

He looked up at her and then went back to his kisses. He reached for the pull cord on the blinds and closed them.

A/N: Short? I know and I'm sorry. I just had to add that song, Thinking of you by Katy perry, its all i have been listening to so yea...Hope you liked it! They finally did it….lol. But anyway, I just cant bring myself to write a lemon, so if that's what you wanted then I'm really sorry. Just use your imagination! ^.^

TTFN!