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AN: Good Monday morning to you all. I am not in the brightest of moods today. One, my beloved Cowboys lost by two freakin' points to our most hated rivals. Ugh. Two points!! I'm still in shock. Secondly, I'm being visited by my monthly friend and I am not a happy camper. Thirdly, I left that stupid thing I save all my chapters on at work and I couldn't work on my stories all weekend, so I got nothing done. I felt so naked…good thing was that I helped my son with his solar system project for school. I guess it wasn't a total loss.

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Song: Disturbia by Rihanna

BPOV

I awoke on Friday morning, not on my bed. I realized what I had done, but didn't find any regret in me. James was a great lover, even if my thoughts had been preoccupied.

He started to stir in his sleep as I made my way out of his bed.

"Bella?" he asked sleepily.

"Yes James. I'm still here."

"Oh good. I thought maybe you left already."

I smiled as I thought about his worry. He was really too good for me. "I haven't left, but I actually need to. I've got some stuff I want to take care of today."

"Sure Bella, no problem. Just let me get ready and I'll take you home."

That was the good thing about James. He didn't pry. He just let me be and I couldn't thank him enough for that.

We were ready to go within the hour, and oddly enough, we weren't uncomfortable with one another. It wasn't like it usually is where you don't know what to say after you've had sex with someone for the first time. It was nice with him. He made me feel so comfortable.

"Listen Bella, I'd like to celebrate my birthday tonight with all of you. I've already called Emmett and he said he'd be there with Rose. Jasper is bringing Alice and Edward is bringing Tanya. Do you think you could be my date?"

Did he just say Edward would be there? My mind started to race. James called me back to reality.

"Bella, did you hear me? Would you like to be my date tonight?"

Oh. That's right. "Yes, of course. There's nothing I'd like more."

He dropped me off at my apartment as I busied myself with my to do list. I had no idea when Alice and Rosalie would be home, but I hoped soon. I didn't worry about them though; I knew they were in good hands.

The girls did stop by the apartment, but just briefly. We gossiped about last night, in which they told me they totally put out. They asked about me and I figured, what the hell, and told them I did too. Of course that was met by their loud squeals as they kept telling me how happy they were for me. And then, they asked that all important question: How big was he? And I told them he was very long and thick…I know, I know we have no shame.

Evening came around and I was left to dress myself. Turns out the girls were too busy servicing their men to bother to pay attention to the clock, so I was left to fend for myself.

As I was dressing, I couldn't help but think of tonight. I wanted everything to go right…for me, for James, for everyone. There's no telling what the night would hold.

I arrived at the club with James. I was really nervous considering I would finally see Edward, after a long week without him. I kept telling myself to behave; this was James' birthday party and I wanted to be there for him.

I scanned the room, looking for anybody that I recognized, mostly my friends. I didn't see anyone, but then, I spotted a tuft of bronze colored hair…along with blonde hair.

Tanya.

Edward spotted us and smiled our way as he tugged Tanya with him to greet us. I'm actually surprised he spotted us with the crowds being so big; after all, it was a Friday.

"Bella! James! It's so good to see you guys!" Edward yelled over the music. We shook his hand and he led Tanya forward.

"I want you to meet my fiancée Tanya. Tanya, this is James and his girlfriend Bella."

I'm not sure if there are words to describe how I felt about Tanya. She was definitely a beautiful, leggy blonde who showed an air of confidence that rivaled Rosalie. I immediately felt small and ugly compared to her.

"Bella, James, nice to meet you." Tanya cooed. The tone she took with us was almost as if we were beneath her to even speak to. I definitely saw why everyone had taken a disliking to her.

"Hey James, thanks for the invite man. I heard you were having it here at Club Fuego from Jasper and Emmett. I hope you don't mind, but I took the liberty of getting us a private room in the back where the noise is not so bad."

I gaped at Edward. I had no idea clubs even had private rooms. And how in the world did Edward pull this off? Surely, something like that would cost money and even though we may not have been hard up for money, I was sure Edward was not just going to blow it away like that.

If I was stunned, it was nothing compared to the way the birthday boy looked. He was speechless at first and then managed to stammer out, "Edward man, you really shouldn't have. You didn't need to go and spend all that money."

Edward raised up a hand to cut him off. "As much as I would like to admit I spent tons of money on our private room, I didn't. My father owns this place and it was just a matter of a few phone calls to get us this room. Don't worry about it."

Edward's father owned this place? Wow, I had no idea his parents were well off. That must've been the friend that Jasper said owned the place when I had my first date with him. And now, I was majorly attracted to said friend. It's a small world.

We thanked him as he showed us toward the back of the club. The room was only covered by a thin curtain, no door. It made it accessible to people just wanting to roam in and out of the club floor or back to their private room.

When we walked in, I couldn't help but marvel at how beautiful it was. It might've been a club, but the room was done in wonderful taste. It was a big square room, painted in a dark color and lit up by dim lights, so that even the atmosphere in there was dark and mysterious. The room was littered with dark furniture…couches and love seats, along with chairs. There were even tables there for us to put our drinks down. It was perfect.

I noticed that we were the last ones to arrive. The gang was already here and so James and I took the only seat available…a love seat that sat next to Edward and Tanya.

Great. Now I could have a great view of them getting all nice and cozy.

"Guys! What took you so long?" Alice pouted at me. She was curled up on Jaspers lap as she held her drink in one hand. Jasper had his arm around her protectively. I smiled at that. They really were the cutest pairing.

"Don't tell me you made a quick stop to James' apartment? Didn't you have enough last night?" Rosalie smirked. I felt my face go red as I glanced over at Edward. I thought I saw a look of fury flash through his eyes, but it quickly vanished.

"No, we did not. I just took a while to get ready, that's all. It didn't help that the two of you were over at their apartment, when you guys usually help me get dressed." I glared at the two of them. I was mad that Rose had made that comment…sometimes, she could be so dense.

At that moment, the waitress walked in and took our drink orders. I was so happy to see her. I think I needed something to get me through the night. "I'll have some tequila and coke."

I noticed I got weird looks from everyone.

"What?" I looked at the girls.

"Bella, you usually drink something a bit lighter. Are you sure you want to start off with that?"

"Yes, I do. Tonight is a night to celebrate, right? I mean, I've got James here, whose birthday was yesterday and Edward finally has his fiancée back. What's not to celebrate?"

I saw Edward move a bit from the corner of my eye and saw that Tanya was leaning against him. He had his arms around her waist as he was talking to Emmett to his other side.

Look, he's comfortable. If Tanya is who he wants, then you shouldn't have any problems Bella. Just be comfortable with James. He's a really good guy and you're killing yourself over Edward. Make this a great night for you and James.

I had made up my mind. If Edward could be happy, then I could be too. I snuggled closer to James and he looked down to smile at me. He was pleased.

We talked and laughed as the drinks kept pouring in. The waitress did a great job; when our drinks were low, she'd bring more in. She must've known the owner's son was in this group.

"Edward, I just wanted to say that I'm glad the guys were able to track you down and give you the invite for tonight. It's seriously been too long. And then to meet your beautiful fiancée as well. I'm just glad you finally found love Edward."

I could feel the alcohol churning in my stomach at the word love. I had never really thought about it before, but James was right. Edward was in love. You don't marry someone if you don't love them. What he had with Tanya was sure to be strong. I didn't want to ruin it. I couldn't ruin it.

"Yeah, I'm glad we actually got a hold of him too." Jasper started. "He wasn't answering his phone last night and he didn't get back from Tanya's house until late this morning. I didn't think he'd make it, but he did."

Tanya smiled brilliantly and said, "Yes, sorry about that Jazz. We were up all night long, making up for lost nights…"

The blush on Edward's face was enough proof for me. I quickly got up from my seat and shot my hand out toward James. "Do you want to dance? The dance floor is just calling out to me."

Rosalie scrunched up her eyebrows. "Wow Bella, that drink must be working on you because you never want to dance."

I'm not even sure what emotion was on my face. All I said was, "I'm getting tired of sitting. James?"

"Why of course Bella. I would never make you wait."

He smiled at me as we led the way out. I could hear noises behind me as I could only assume the others were making their way to follow. I didn't care. I just needed to get the hell out of that room.

EPOV

Well, that did not go as planned. In fact, nothing tonight was going as planned. But what did I expect? I was bringing my fiancée with me to torture myself seeing Bella with James. It was bound to get awkward.

It didn't start off so well when Tanya found out that I was hanging out with Rosalie because she had gotten with Emmett. I kept reassuring her I didn't find anything in Rosalie that I wanted. She didn't believe me at first, but she eventually came around. Besides, it wasn't Rosalie she should be worried about…

Before Bella and James came, the conversation had been going awkward. It didn't take a rocket scientist to know that Rose and Alice didn't care for Tanya either, so the conversation was very sparse.

I had stepped outside to see if I could spot Bella and Tanya joined me. I saw them both walk in through the door and I felt my heart stop for just a brief moment.

Bella.

She looked amazing. She had on a short dark blue dress with her hair down framing her face. The heels she wore made her a bit taller, but still shorter than James. He had his arm wrapped around her, guiding her around the floor.

It pained me to see her with him, but she deserved happiness…and that was something an engaged man couldn't give her.

After introductions were made, we made our way toward the back. They sat right next to us on a love seat as well.

It wasn't long before I got confirmation that Bella had indeed spent the night with James. The fire in my eyes and in my stomach was something that I had never felt before. But as quickly as I felt it, I put it aside. She wasn't mine.

All through the night, I noticed that Bella was a bit edgy. She had her hand and arms all over James, but yet, there was still a type of caution around her. What it was, I had no idea.

Then, the conversation turned on me. Suddenly, Tanya was letting everyone know we were going at it all night long. This wasn't entirely true. Sure, we had sex, but it wasn't like she had said it was. I blushed because I had never been in a situation like this before.

Bella jumped up from her seat then, claiming to want to dance. James of course followed her, and I was left alone without her, feeling sick.

What had happened?

"Come one everyone, let's get our dance on!!" Alice led the way out to the dance floor. I got up and held Tanya's hand as we walked out. I spotted Bella right away, grinding against James as he had his hands on her hips. I had to tear my eyes away and concentrate on the task at hand.

"Sweetheart, where do you want to go?" I was steering Tanya away from Bella, to keep my mind sane.

She had other ideas.

"Let's dance over here honey." She led the way and we were only a few steps away from her. This was torturous.

Tanya demanded my full attention as she raked her hands up and down my chest, kissing my jaw and then my neck. I closed my eyes as I held onto her, not sure what she was doing. She turned her body around and we started grinding together, along with the music.

Bella was still doing the same as I kept stealing glances her way. I wondered briefly what it would be like to dance with her, and then realized I could never allow that to happen. I couldn't let myself be that close to her.

I spotted Rosalie and Alice dancing with their partners. They looked to be having fun and really enjoying themselves. I really wished at that moment that I was them.

After a series of songs played on, Bella made her way over to us. "We're going to go back to the room and take a seat for a bit."

There was no way in hell I wanted to leave them alone. I was being tortured enough as it was. "We'll come with you." I said.

Tanya nodded as we made our way back to the room.

We sat down, all four of us on the larger couch when Tanya stood back up. "You know, I'm getting pretty thirsty. I'm going to see what else I can get me."

"I'll go for you Tanya. What do you want?" I got up from the couch.

"No Edward, it's fine. I'm not even sure what I want right now. I'm just going to go and take a look."

She turned around and walked out. Bella then turned to James and said, "You know, I'm a bit thirsty too. Do you mind getting me something?"

"Sure, of course. What would you like?" he said.

She thought for a brief moment and then said, "Surprise me."

He smiled and walked out toward the bar. I sat back down on the sofa, a bit closer to Bella than I once was.

"James is a great guy Bella. I'm glad you like him." Okay, it wasn't entirely true, but I had to say something.

"Yes, he is. He's always been kind to me and I'm grateful that I've found someone like him. Tanya seems to be very nice as well."

I half smiled at her. "She is. She can be a bit of a handful sometimes, but you know…" I didn't know what else to say.

I couldn't stop looking into her eyes, how big and brown and beautiful they were. I moved closer to her; I knew I shouldn't have, but I couldn't stop myself.

"Have I ever told you how beautiful your eyes are Bella? How they just light up when you're happy and excited?" I got even closer. I noticed she was doing the same.

"You know, when we were planning to get our friends together, you were so excited and happy for them, even if that meant you would lose Jasper."

She said shakily, "I love them. Their happiness has always come first. I knew they were right for each other."

I cupped her face in my hands. I had no idea what the hell I was doing, but if felt right. "And what about you love? What do you want?"

I knew what I just said, but I was past the point of caring. That would be my name for her. We stared at each other for what seemed like hours, when I finally just thought fuck it and I dived right in.

I lowered my head to hers, and grazed my lips against her soft ones. I pulled back to see if she wanted me to stop. She pushed her self forward and our lips crashed again. This time, I let my tongue slide out and lick her bottom lip, hoping she'd let me gain entrance.

She did.

We kissed each other with such passion and fervor. It was nothing I'd ever experienced before. She tasted sweet, the remnants of the liquor and coke still there and I hungrily lapped at her. I was so afraid she'd push me away at any moment and then slap me for my stupidity.

I grasped harder at her face, pulling her closer, sucking on her tongue and lips, remembering what she tastes like, what she felt like in my arms. Her hands were running through my hair, tugging and pulling with a sense of urgency about them. This could never be enough…and yet, it had to be.

I was about to lay her down and climb on top of her when I felt this sudden urgency of danger close by.

Tanya.

James.

I quickly broke off the kiss and looked deep into her eyes once more. She seemed to understand why I pulled away so quickly.

I scooted over to the far end of the sofa and ran my hand through my hair. Just then, they walked in with our drinks.

I had never felt my heart beat so fast before. I had pulled away just in time. The feeling of Bella's warm lips still lingered on my own, as I took my drink from Tanya and she sat down.

BPOV

I don't know what the hell I was doing. I saw Tanya leave the room and I sent James out as well. I just wanted to be alone with Edward, if even for a moment. We had never once been alone, and I was aching to talk to him, one on one.

Edward sat back down on the sofa, closer to me than he was before. I felt my stomach start to tingle in anticipation.

He spoke first to break the silence. "James is a great guy Bella. I'm glad you like him." Did he really think that? Or was he just trying to be nice toward me? I couldn't tell.

"Yes, he is. He's always been kind to me and I'm grateful that I've found someone like him. Tanya seems to be very nice as well." I actually didn't care for her at all, but there was no way I was going to tell Edward that. I would hurt him and that was the last thing I wanted to do while I was sitting next to this god.

I stared into his deep green eyes. They were gorgeous. I'm sure that if I was allowed to, I would sit and stare at him all day. I was probably embarrassing my self sitting and staring, but when would I get a second chance?

"Have I ever told you how beautiful your eyes are Bella? How they just light up when you're happy and excited?" How funny. I was just thinking the same thing about him. I realized I was getting closer to him than I was before. Oh boy.

"You know, when we were planning to get our friends together, you were so excited and happy for them, even if that meant you would lose Jasper."

I wasn't even sure if I could speak anymore. I was so close to him…I could feel him breathing on my face, and he smelled wonderful. "I love them. Their happiness has always come first. I knew they were right for each other."

He took my face in his hands. That should've been a warning to me. What I was doing was wrong. He was engaged, and I was fully aware how hurt Tanya would be if she found out. But I couldn't think straight…all I could see was Edward and nothing else.

"And what about you love? What do you want?"

Did he just call me love? My heart was ready to burst out of my body…I loved the way Edward made me feel. I wanted to scream I want you!! but I couldn't. I didn't have a voice anymore. I could see his eyes, conflicting as he was trying to decide what to do. The sane side of me wanted him stop and step away. But the insane side, the bad side, the horrible part of me, wanted him to kiss me.

And he did.

He lowered his head toward me, as I felt his warm soft lips up against mine. He pulled back to look into my eyes once more, asking for permission. Against every sense of reasoning I had, I crashed my lips against his. This time, his tongue came out to caress my bottom lip, asking if he could come in.

I let him.

I kissed him with reckless abandon, so afraid he'd pull away as soon as he remembered about Tanya and his engagement. I let my mouth and my tongue, feel every bit of his mouth, biting and sucking on his lips.

I wanted to remember this, to remember what he tasted like and felt like. I knew this would never happen again. I couldn't let it. So I enjoyed this one moment with him. I let my hands run all through his hair, tugging and pulling at him with a sense of urgency to great for me to handle. This could never be enough…and yet, it had to be.

I wanted this to go further than just this kiss, to feel his hands roam up and down my body, to take me. I felt him stiffen at the same time I remembered where we were and who we were with.

Tanya.

James.

He quickly broke the kiss and pulled away from me a bit, to look into my eyes one last time. I wanted him to know I understood why he pulled back, and I could only hope my eyes conveyed that to him.

He scooted over to the far end of the sofa and ran his hand through his hair. I didn't realize how I had made it stand up, but he just made it seem like it was his fault.

Just then, they walked in with our drinks.

My heart still beat in double time, and I was fighting to breathe correctly. We hadn't gotten caught but I knew what we did was wrong. It was wrong on so many levels, but I couldn't bring myself to care. The feeling of Edward's warm lips was still fresh on my own, as I looked up at James and took my drink from him.

"I hope you guys weren't too bored without us." James said as he sat down.

Edward came to my rescue. "No, no. Just talking about random stuff, that's all." He smiled brilliantly at James, never once faltering. He was a good liar.

The others came in shortly after, and we continued to laugh and talk as we always did. I kept sneaking glances over at him and noticed he did the same.

I wasn't sure what I wanted. I was confused, now more than ever. I didn't want to break up their engagement. This was important to me. There were plenty of free, available men out there, including the one sitting next to me. I didn't need to take Tanya's man.

I couldn't do this. I thought about Jacob and the pain he had caused me. How hurt I was when he left me for another woman. As much as it hurts me now, I couldn't let this go further. I would always remember this kiss, and how wonderful it was. Magical, even.

I needed to try to ignore Edward as much as possible.

The night drew to a close, and we got up to leave. By this time, it was the early hours of Saturday. I noticed Tanya getting feely with Edward, so I knew he'd have to satisfy her tonight. He shot me an apologetic look, but I just smiled back at him. This was right; this was what was supposed to happen between them. And as much as it hurt me, I would let it.

I took James' hand as we walked out. I let him lead me back to his place; to try and drown out the memory that was Edward.

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