Ava Adore

Yay new chapter. Hopefully you find it better written. Read. Enjoy? Good then review please.

Warning: swearing, masturbation, threesome fantasy

Chapter 2: The End of All Hope

He couldn't help but feel like he'd betrayed Shinji. He'd kissed his lover's best friend right after his lover's funeral. What the hell was wrong with him? He'd loved Shinji. Hadn't he? So why was he dishonoring that love by doing something so…traitorous. And it wasn't fair to Akihiko-senpai either. And yet he'd liked it and seen how much Akihiko seemed to like it too. No. It was just grief, the need to hold someone and be held. To be comforted. He pulled his clothes off and slid into bed, crying for…who was he crying for? Shinji? Akihiko-senpai? Himself? He wanted to believe it wasn't for himself.

That was selfish but Minato couldn't help think that had he been stronger Shinji might have lived. Lived a long life by Minato's side. Minato shook his head. Who knew what might have been. He was so tired and lonely. He curled up in a ball and fell asleep, dreamt the dream that wouldn't leave him be. Forced to watch his lover die again and again all while blaming himself. Shinji, of course, had never blamed him for anything, never did more than love him unselfishly, protect him, care for him. Shinji had a big heart like that. He cared about everyone, wanted to protect and save everyone he came across. And that is what had gotten him killed. That unwavering will of his. That tender heart that tried not to hurt people, but still kept them at arms distance. The dream melted into a memory that was quite possibly one of Minato's favorites.

*Flashback*

Shinji's lips pressed lightly against his. Surprised, he let the kiss continue.

"Shinjiro-senpai?" Minato asked when Shinji pulled away.

"Sorry." Shinji said looking away. "I shouldn't have done that."

"Don't apologize. I'm glad you did." Minato said softly.

Shinji leaned forward and kissed him again, longer more insistent and this time Minato joined in, kissing back just as passionately. Touching Shinji and having Shinji touch him was like heaven. He couldn't get enough.

*End Flashback*

Minato shot up in bed, he could almost swear he'd felt Shinji kissing him, touching him. Aroused and sweaty he moaned out loud.

'Hot. So hot. Shinji.' Minato thinks trailing his fingers down his chest, dipping into his belly button and delving into his pants. He thinks of the dream, the way Shinji kissed, the way he tasted and felt. His hand moves slowly. For some reason his mind slips to Akihiko kissing him and he moans. His mind produces a rather delicious image of Shinji just watching as Akihiko touched him, a small smile perched on his lips and his eyes dark with lust.

"You want Aki to do you?" Shinji purrs in his mind. Minato nods almost frantically and holds his hand out, wanting Shinji to touch him too. The fantasy Shinji slides forward, caresses Akihiko's bare back and up to his head, pushing it toward Minato's lap all the while smiling predatorily at Minato.

"Oh. Shi…t" Minato groans and comes too soon. In his mind Shinji frowns at him. "I'm sorry. Sorry. So sorry." Minato whispers guiltily to the empty room. He was embarrassed, sad and angry with himself. He'd defiled and betrayed both of them in his mind

TBC Sorry it took so long. Hope you like this chapter.