YUKI's MIND
I'm getting wet.
Flashback
I ran out of the house and into the forest even though I heard Tohru calling my name after me, I didn't look back, I just kept running. I had to lock myself away from the world. I didn't understand, how could Kyo my arch enemy who had always wanted to kill me, love me? It made no sense, all those times he had fought me and told me he hated me, he loved me all along? But there was a bigger question. Did I love him back? I shook such nonsense out of my head, and focused on the road ahead. I had no idea where I was going and whether I was coming back but I got the answer to my question. I hated Kyo. All my life I had been tortured by fear of Akito, and shame of what I was, and finally things had started to look up, I was happy for the first time in life. But now this happiness was over.
I should have known it was coming to an end of course, at the end of a golden summer there is always a bitter winter. I had started making friends and experienxcing what every other teenager feels, and now because of Kyo, this feeling was a distant memory. All I felt now was pain and shame. And happiness. It was the weirdest thing in the world. Despite the shame there was a little light in my heart. Why? I had no idea but it was there, sunlight in the darkness. I continued to run. It was raining. Ironic, right? In every movie it always rains when the hero was sad. But I was no hero, and I saw the rain as an advantage rather than a symbol of my misery. Rain meant that Kyo couldn't follow me. None of them could. Shigure could sniff around as much as he pleased but the rain would wash away my scent.
My heart was beating, the sweat was racing down my face - though I couldn't tell if it was sweat or rainwater, and I couldn't tell if I was hot because the rain was cooling me down - but I knew I had to keep going. Ohh, I knew how worried Tohru would be, and this caused me to slow down, but then I pictured Akito's face, sneering with disgust and I quickly sped up. It was so unfair, when I thought about it, it was as much my fault as it was Kyo's. I led him on. I knew that relationship's was a tough subject with the Sohma family, our spirits prevented us from being able to embrace the opposite sex. Therefore, it was only natural that Kyo fall for me. I was a man, he was a man, we were both posessed by evil spirits and therefore both at a disadvantage when it came to relationships. Not to mention that we are foes and therefore we have the whole Romeo and Juliet thing going on. It's kind of sexy, yet so wrong at the same time! A relationship with Kyo? He's the exact opposite of me, that's why we hated each other! Or is this a case of 'opposites attract'?
End Flashback
I have to keep running, I cannot stay with Kyo, we can't have a relationship, we're not gay and more to the point we are Sohma's! The idea of getting intimate and loving and caring for that foul creature repulses me, yet intrigues me. No, I will stick to my morals. I do not love Kyo. I will never have a relationship with Kyo. And if I have to run away from my life to achieve this, then so be it!