Ok i know this is short but i wanted to have a chappie strictly on her changing and the cullens finding out about her 'death' so sorry for the shortness. If i done up date tomorrow HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT!!!

By Myself – Chapter 7: To Be Dead Or Not To Be Dead?

Alice POV

There was a car wrapped around a tree and the drivers' side was covered in blood. The scene grazed over two people; one on the ground and one's back facing me.

"Hang in there Bella; don't go toward that warm and fuzzy light. Come back for Jake, for Edward, Alice, Charlie. Anyone just come back." A girl was giving Bella CPR while she was sobbing. There was a big gash on Bella's face and she was extremely pale even for a vampire. Then the vision was blank.

"NO!" I screamed from my spot on the couch in our living room, while we all watched TV. Edward had creamed the same time I did but more a scream of emotional pain than an actual word. I held my head in my hands sobbing. Bella was dead?

"Alice, what did you see?" my husband asked. He was rubbing circles on my back trying to calm me down.

"Bella…Car…Blood…Death," was all I could say between sobs. I wish I cry the tears I wanted to shed.

"Was she with anyone?" Carlisle asked. He was home from the hospital which was odd from him. He was recently spending a lot of time there.

"There was a girl giving her CPR but Bella's face was so pale, it was hopeless," I said and then continued sobbing. Esme was being comforted by Carlisle. Emmett was being comforted by Rose and Edward was just staring blankly. I wonder what was going through his mind. "Edward, please say something for God sakes!!!" I cried at him. But my request was denied when he was walked up the stairs in to his room and closed the door.

"Was there anything said?" Carlisle asked. I nodded.

"The girl said; 'Hang in there Bella; don't go toward that warm and fuzzy light. Come back for Jake, for Edward, Alice, Charlie. Anyone just come back.'" I looked at world bleakly now. I didn't know where she was. I could help her, I could just wait. Wait like everyone else. I was loosing my sister and my best friend. Carlisle and Esme would lose the girl they loved like a daughter. Emmet would lose his little sister he always picked on and Jasper and Rose would lose the one thing that made this family whole. Edward. Poor Edward; he lose the love his life, the light in his darkness. Please Bella, please be alright.

Edward POV

When Alice put the words Bella and death together my world came crashing down. Everything just caved in, nothing mattered any more. I sat in my room un-sure how to express myself. Without Bella I was nothing absolutely nothing. I listened to my family's thoughts from downstairs.

Oh poor Edward, poor Bella please let everything be alright. – Esme.

My little sister gone? No she wouldn't just die on Edward like that. – Emmett

Oh boo hoo, the humans gone. I give it 10 years everyone will be Bella who? – Rosalie

Mia said she would be safe, something really horrible must have happened. I wonder what Mia will do? – Carlisle. Who was Mia? I would have to ask later, when my life wasn't falling apart at seams.

Everyone is so upset, none of the calm waves I'm sending aren't working. Everyone is so depressed. Please get through this Bella. – Jasper

Bella, the girl that turned our world upside down. That was my best friend, the one I could dress up and always made the family feel whole. Now she is gone, I don't know if Edward will ever recover. – Alice

I will never get over Bella, but we still had to hope the girl could save her. For the first time in years; I prayed; I prayed for a miracle that would bring my love back to me, one way or another.

Bella POV

It seemed almost a dream. The fire coursed through my veins but I didn't have the energy to scream. I was drifting between sweet peaceful death and the burning painful fire. I knew what that fire was I had felt it once before in the dance studio. I was changing into a vampire and I couldn't scream someone please dear god kill me now. I just was there in the shell of my body. There was a pounding against my chest that kept me barely from sinking in the depth of darkness. It was almost like sitting in a bathtub and holding your breath and keeping your head just below the surface. A voice was breaking through the surface but it was my insanity coming through the darkness.

"They are leeches Bella, scum of the earth," Jakes voice called out. That's was what I was going to be to him. Scum after everything we have been through together? One thing and that was all forgotten?

"Our kind and theirs don't mix well Bella. We are Enemies by our nature." Edward's voice called out to me. He was right every time one of the vampires met a wolf they started growling at each other. Jacob was gone from my life that much was sure of. Leaving me with Edward and his wonderful family. That was it. Why haven't I seen this all along? Edward was the one I wanted to be with…forever. I wouldn't be breakable anymore. We would be equals now. Now and forever but now the question was would he take me back? After all I left him this time, but I did take him back after all I had been through four weeks wasn't bad. My choice helped me break through the dark water and open my eyes.

"Bella!" Mia was pumping at my heart. Now I could feel the pain. I let out a scream. I could get through this. I clawed at the dirt and began to twist under Mia's hands. "It's alright, I'm here. Hang in there for Edward,' she soothed me. "Just two more days hang in there." Two more days. Two days I could do this I know I could. I would do this for Edward. I hoped he would take me as a vampire. The thought of an eternity with Edward just made the pain that much softer and that much more worth it.

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