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CHAPTER 6: The biggest mistake of my life

I didn't stop walking until I was behind my room's door. Tasha was with me but I didn't pay much attention to her. However I knew I couldn't help but answer her questions. Because she definitely had questions for me to answer.

"What happened out there? One moment you are fine and the other you disappear running like hell. What's wrong?" she asked. I could hear interest and concern in her voice. Now, what could I say? I wasn't good at lying but I couldn't tell her the truth either. What would I say? That I was in love with my 7-years younger student and I got jealous when I saw her kissing another guy? Instead I remained silent..

"You aren't going to tell me, are you?" she said silently.

I wanted to forget all about Rose. To forget my love for her, my pain..everything. Before I could stop myself or think what I was doing, I had caught Tasha's head and forced my lips against hers. She looked at me in shock but responded to my kiss. Don't think, don't think, I kept repeating to myself. When we broke the kiss to breathe, I heard her say.. "Dimitri I … do you..?" I didn't let her finish what she was saying and got back to the kiss. There would be no talking tonight. I let my hands fall on her hips, at the zip of her dress. She shivered but I didn't stop. She was my distraction for the night. I didn't pay much attention to the clothes that were falling on the floor. I didn't even realize when we got curled on the bed, naked. I wasn't thinking, just doing.

Suddenly Rose's face was in front of me. She was the one I was making love to. She was the one I wanted, the one my body yearned for. I stopped there just to look at her. But then Rose spoke with Tasha's voice; "Dimitri, what is it? Why did you stop?" she asked. And then it hit me. Realization hit my face like cold water. What the hell was I doing? I couldn't do that. It felt like being unfaithful, like cheating. She wasn't Roza, so what the hell had I been doing? I was so lost in thought, I didn't hear the door opening.

"Dimitri, I really need to talk to you about.. Oh my God..!" I jerked my head just to see a frozen Rose, frozen out of shock standing at the door.. No, Roza please this is not what you think..

"I'm so sorry! I hadn't realized things were hot and heavy in here. No worries, I'm leaving." She moved too quickly so that the next moment she had disappeared.

"Shit!" was all I could say before I got up to find pants. I had to find her, to explain that what she had seen was nothing, that I was thinking she was the one with me.

"Where are you going?" Tasha asked. Shit, again. What had I done? I was clearly succeeding at not giving her the wrong impression, I thought with sarcasm. She would think that I loved her, that I was accepting her offer.

"I have to go find Rose like now!" my voice was sharp and I hated myself for that because Tasha didn't deserve any of this and I was being a class one asshole.

"You can always talk to her tomorrow. She's old enough to realize that when two people are in love then.." Just then I cut her off. I was frustrated and her words just added anger to my already bad mood.

"I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU! I'm in love with HER! I LOVE HER! I have to find her and explain this." I yelled at her. She was staring at me shock and hurt all over her face.

"You what? All this meant nothing to you?" she was heartbroken and it was my fault. Why? Why do I destroy the lives of the people I care about?

"I was…I just.. I wanted to see if things could work between us. Once we..began, all I could think about was Rose. I'm so sorry. But I guess this gives you, your answer.."

"It does. But Rose? She's.."

"Yes, I know. She's my student. You think I don't know that already? Do you have any idea what I'm going through since I realized my feelings to stay away from her? It's killing me! But I need to find her NOW! We will talk later.." I said and closed the door behind me. I run, run at the hallway hoping to find. I had looked at every public area in the lodge, before I run back to her room. I knocked impatiently. Please Rose be in. Lissa opened the door and she was surprised at my being there at that of the night.

"Dimitri, is everything alright? You look upset!"

"Princess, is Rose in? I need to talk to her. Like really need to talk to her." I was sure my voice sounded desperate but I couldn't help it. I was.

"No. I actually have no idea where she might be and I'm kind of worried. She was pretty upset when she left the room and didn't mention where she was going.." Oh no, Rose was already upset when she came in my room? How could the day turn even worse. Couldn't see a way.

"Thank you Princess. If you find out anything, please let me know." I said.

"Yes, of course. You too! Damn why does the bond have to work one way?" she said angry all of the sudden. Yes, why?

"Goodnight, Princess!"

"Goodnight Dimitri! Oh and do me a favor.. Call me Lissa please.."

"OK then goodnight Lissa!" I tried to smile and left the room. As I was walking down the hallway I heard someone calling my name;

"Belikov!" Selest called.

"Hello, Selest. Is there a problem?" I said guardian mask on.

"Huge one. There was another Strigoi attack. This time at the lodge." She announced. What? Another what?

"When did it happen? How did it happen?" I needed more information if I was about to help.

"Well, the first testimony about someone's disappearing was half an hour ago and we just had another so we believe the attack was about 2 hours ago. However we have no clue about the about the way. The wards were more than OK, nothing like broken or damaged. So, we'll still blind." Selest said ending the filling in.

"So what do we do now?" I asked.

"We're gathered at Janine's room to study the clues and plan our strategy. So, follow me we're going to need all of us."

"Yeah, let's go!" I couldn't see a way of how the day could turn worse, huh? Well I should better get a hold of my mouth next time. We reached Janine's room and there were everyone..discussing strategy, studying plans. Right then Stan Alto came in holding a paper. He looked sad.

"So, I have the names of the loses.. Jesse Zeklos, Kamil Koda, Mason Ashford and Rosemarie Hathaway have gone missing. Two Moroi adults got killed." He announced. WHAT?

"What?" someone screamed and it wasn't me. We all turned to look at a devastated Janine, ready to break down. I couldn't recall ever seeing her like this before. "Rose was taken?" she said in a crying voice and I thought I saw tears forming in her eyes. But that moment passed and she quickly forced herself into a guardian. "So, four students have gone missing. What are our plans?" she demanded.