Sorry for the slow update. I've been working on two other Fics that really took my attention - Living For a Purpose (Wrestling Fic) and A La Emmett. Check them out and don't forget to review.

Ok so this is a bit of a filler chapter, i just needed to show a bit of how not being able to have children affects Alice, as we never really see that side of her in the books.

Chapter 4

Bella was so fragile. Her skin was pasty white, clinging to bones that now protruded through. She tried to keep a smile on her face when Edward was in the room. But when he left, which was rarely, her face would fall and she would look to me. Her expression was heart-wrenching, but I knew why. She was putting her life on the line for something that she loved. Growing inside of her was a person, another living being and I could not fault her once for it.

She had managed what I couldn't, but I couldn't feel remorse or envy towards her. She was giving our family something so precious, something we all longed for. Esme, whom had already lost her own child; Alice, who had never expressed her maternal urge in public but still yearned for a child. And me. Bella was giving me so much. Even though I knew that it would not be the same as having my own biological child, there was going to be a new baby that I could spoil.

A child that we would be able to coo to and love unconditionally. This would be a perfect way to make our family complete. It didn't matter to me that the baby could be have Vampire, I would love it no matter what. It could be fully human with a heartbeat and it could not bother me. I would never let any harm come to this baby, even if it could never be my baby.

I was stood in the kitchen contemplating this when Alice came in. One look at her face and I knew what was wrong. She wasn't bouncing around like she normally was, but then again , none of us were. She looked tired even though sleep was impossible for us. Alice slid up on to the counter top next to me and we just looked at each other. Alice let out an unnecessary breath and spoke,

"I guess I know how you feel now" I raised a perfectly shaped eyebrow, she continued "every time we go past a play area, or a new set of parents. I know it never affected me the way it does you, but it still hurt a little." she bent her head down now, not bothering to look me in my eyes.

"Yeah it's pretty hard. They have everything I ever wanted. And now so does Bella." but I couldn't begrudge her for that.

"I don't know Rose. It's like seeing her for real, pregnant, it makes it harder to deal with. Children are the one thing I will never have. I thought I'd come to terms with that, but it's I was wrong. Jazz keeps telling me that it will be ok. That we don't need to have babies, that we could do what Esme and Carlisle did and Adopt. I know he's right but …." she trailed off. Her thoughts matching mine.

"but it's not the same. You want to be able to look at that child and see part of yourself in them. A Part of you and a part of him, to make one whole, beautiful little child. One that you can watch grow and go through all the things it should." I finished for her. I looked up at her again and she smiled.

"Yup that's about it." Her smile grew wider as she looked over my shoulder. I turned to see what had caught her eye. There, stood in the doorway, were our two husbands, each carrying a bouquet of Roses. A grin instantly adorned my face as Emmett made his my over to me. He leaned down and smirked, whispering in my ear, "I love you my sweet Angel" If I could cry I would be. Emmett really knew how to brighten my day.

Sometime during our encounter Jasper and Alice had disappeared, and a faint slamming of a door could be heard from upstairs. I giggled and looked back to Emmett. His grin was huge and he picked me up bridal style, taking us upstairs so fast that I didn't even notice. My eyebrows rose at him as he kicked the bedroom door open and took a large step over the threshold, before throwing my softly onto the bed. He climbed over me and smirked again. Oh I love that sexy smirk.

He leaned over by my ear again and breathed, "Gotta get some practice in before the big day" I giggled and pulled him closer, kissing him full on the lips.

Right now I did have it all. I had a loving husband, a caring family and a soon to be Niece or Nephew.

ok i know i sounds like the final chapter, but This is not the last chapter I promise !!

We still have the wedding to go !!!

Update 27/01/09

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