I opened my eyes slowly, looking at the people around me. It hurt like a bitch and I regretted doing it. Now, I wasn't dead… only in more pain. I stared at the wall behind everyone's heads. 'Roza, why did you jump?' I looked at one of the few people I cared about.
'Simple Dimka… I'm pregnant to a whore and I'm ready to die.' I had been put in the stupid patient gown things. I hated that I only broke a leg, maybe next time I should just dive. 'When can I get out of here?' I asked the doctor.
'Not until we know you are safe.' I glared at the elderly woman. 'It is for your own safety… everyone except tonight's guard out.' I let them all leave, no one staying. I stood from the bed, grabbing the crutches and walking back to the window. I should really dive. 'Right this way sir.' I looked at the nurse as she brought him in. He smiled a smile everyone that looked at him would say was kind and friendly. The doctor left us alone.
'Lilith.' He said, locking the door. 'So you have escaped. You know, it is a shame… everyone loved you.' I winced, not bothering to move when he touched me. I continued looking out across the grounds. 'You know what must come next don't you?' his voice like silk, attracting the stupid ones… like me.
'Yes.'
'Are you scared?' this man had a soft spot for me, me being one of his norms. I shook my head. 'If only you didn't run.' He murmured.
'I couldn't stay there anymore.' Was all I said. I heard the scraping of the gun coming from his pants. 'If you're going to do it… do it.'
'Sorry it has to be this way.' He murmured, stepping away from me. The tip of the gun against my shoulder. No fear, even at the point of a gun… I must have balls. It was slow motion. I took a deep breath in as the ringing echoed through the bare room. It didn't hurt, it was like a release within itself. I mean, it was amazing to feel so free. Hitting the ground, not so much. I let my eyes closed, letting the darkness drift inside of me. My heart slowing, my breathing stopping all together. Finally, sweet bliss. Thank the lord.