Second chaparoni! Sorry this chapter is so short, I was more focused on getting the first two chapters out the way so I can advance the story a little bit quicker. Hope you enjoy, PM, review and let me know if you have anything you want to ask me.
CRAIG'S POV:
I walked into school, carefully scanning for Robert. I just have to avoid him. It's not that hard, it's a big school, there's plenty of places to hide.
"Hi, Craig!" Ah, fuck. Already? Are you fucking serious?
"Ugh, hi, Robert."
"How you doin?"
"Not good."
"What's wrong?"
"I just, like, don't feel great, I feel tired and weird."
"Weird how?"
"Just strange thoughts, nightmares, stuff like that."
"What kind of thoughts? I could help, you know. All that research into human psychology wasn't just for funsies."
"Uh, just things I wouldn't usually think about."
"Well, I'm gonna need some guidance here. I don't know what you think about normally."
"I don't wanna talk about it."
"What do you mean?"
"I said I don't want to talk about it!"
"Woah, where did that come from?"
"I'm sorry, it's just..."
"Just what?"
"Follow me a second." I lead him out to the back of the school, just to get away from the prying eyes and eavesdropping bastards.
"Robert, have you ever had thoughts you didn't want to have 'cos it'd mean you would be turning into something you don't want to be?"
"That was a bit hard to follow but yeah, of course, I have 'em all the time."
"Really?"
"Yeah. But it was one of those thoughts that made me want to tell you something."
Please don't say what I think you're gonna say. Please.
"Craig, I'm gay. And I think I'm in love with you."
I couldn't even respond. I couldn't even think of the words that would reply to such a statement.
"Craig?"
I could feel myself going white and light-headed.
"Craig, you look a little shocked. Sit down for a minute."
I had slipped into my subconscious. My body was still working but I wasn't in control. I was almost as if my soul had flown out of my body and I was watching it happen from a third-person perspective.
Robert looked worried and I was almost emotionless. No sadness, no shock, just... nothing. I have never had something like this happen to me.
"Craig, are you okay? Do you want me to get the nurse?"
I finally managed to push a word out of my slacked mouth.
"N-no, I'm... I'm okay."
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said it."
"No, don't be sorry, it was just a big fucking shock. I mean, I didn't think anyone liked me. I thought you were friends with me because you felt sorry for me. How long have you know you were gay?"
"Since I was eight. I just started to feel really weird and girls just suddenly got boring. But I shouldn't have expected you to take the whole "I'm gay" thing well. I just went off things that have happened between us like, you being really nice to me, the hints, the awkward looks, how close we are, the amount you you invite me over to your house. I was just being stupid."
He covered his face as the tears started to pour. I hugged him, just so he knows I'm not going to change how I act with him.
"Robert, do you remember I was saying about those weird thoughts?"
"Yeah."
"Well, I was having weird thoughts about you."
"What do you mean?"
"I think I'm gay as well." He suddenly looked up from my shoulder with sadness and confusion in his eyes.
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, I was thinking about you in a really strange way and I was just saying to myself "You're not gay, you're not gay." but I can't deny it."
He lifted himself up and hugged me tightly.
"Craig, this is great!"
"Is it?"
"Yeah, we can be together."
"Really?"
"Yeah!"
"Is that what you want?"
"I've wanted it for three years, Craig."
This has all happened too fast. So fast that my brain still hasn't wrapped itself around the fact I now have a boyfriend.
"Okay, we can be boyfriend and boyfriend."
He giggled slightly and hugged me again. I think, in some deep part of my mind, I wanted this all along. I was so afraid of being judged, I was putting it off but I can finally be myself.
Things are starting to go my way...