1D one shot
Inspired by Blow Me(One Last Kiss) by P!nk

Forever and Always

"Where are you going?" Niall called out to me, obviously getting tipsy.
"Why do you care?" I retorted, still walking up the stairs.
"Because this is my party that my girlfriend threw for me and I deserve to know." He said, opening another beer.
"I'm your girlfriend, you idiot. I threw this party for your birthday and you're already to drunk to thank me!"
I started to turn around and shout at him.
I loved Niall so much, but you absolutely hated whenever he got drunk. Anything could happen and he wouldn't remember any of it the next day. That's what you had planned. I knew he'd be curious as to where you were going so I purposely did this. He wouldn't remember that night. At least, I hoped he wouldn't.
I love Niall with all my heart, but he just wasn't enough a reason to stay alive. Everyone else hated me, the fans, my family, my ex-friends. They showed me that I wasn't good enough for him.
I have no idea why someone like him would ever even want to date me. I'm disgusting. I'm a tall, pale, ugly girl with scraggly ginger hair and everyone knows that gingers don't have souls. How could I not? What with all the fans telling me I don't have feelings or emotions.
Well I do.
That's why I had to do this. The hate was really getting to me. And I knew that.
I took Niall's hand and guided him up the stairs into my bathroom.
"You won't remember this in the morning, but I just want you to know that I love you. I'll always love you. Forever and always. And...I'm sorry for everything I've ever done. I'm sorry that I'm such a screwup." I whispered to him, smelling the familiar stench of alcohol on his breath. "No you're not. Don't say that. You are beautiful. You. Are. Mine. Forever and always." He tucked a loose piece of hair behind my ear, making me smile. But it wasn't enough.
I kissed my prince for the last time. Then, I took out the bottle of pills and made myself swallow them dry. I deserved it. I told myself.
"Princess?" The boy I knew was coming back to reality too quickly. "Princess, please don't do this to yourself." He said, slamming the bottle of pills out of my hand. They fell in a mess all over the floor. "Please, you are perfect to me whatever you do. Whatever you say. You are a blessing in my life and I can't let a miracle slip out of my hands just like that." He said to me, already in tears.
"Nialler, I'm so sorry. But please don't be mad at me. If you really did love me, you'd want me to do what I want. And besides, it's already too late." I said to him, quietly. I'd taken the whole bottle and was already feeling a bit dizzy.
"Princess, I. Love. You." He said, wrapping me in a big hug. I hugged back, with everything I had in me. "Forever and always." He repeated, whispering it into my ear with great sincerity.
"Forever and always." I whispered into his shoulder.
That was my last memory of him. The last one before we made many more, in heaven. Together, forever and always.