It's be about an hour since Peyton, walk away from him, He figured she would be back at the house in bed already. As he open the door quietly, hopping everyone was asleep, so he didn't have to explain what happen, As he closed the door he noticed that everything was off, so he was relieved that they didn't wait up on them. He went into the kitchen and, grab a beer, he hop up on the counter in sat there. He was deep in thought, when Haley enter the kitchen, she notice his distance look and , shook her head.

" I'm sorry, Lucas," she said as she walked over to him

" for what" he asked

" for whatever happen between you and Peyton" she sighed

" it's don't your fault, Hales, at least she was honest with me." he said as he took another slip of his beer.

" what?...she was honest, she told you how she feels." she asks with confusion

" yeah, she told me, she wanted to be with me, that she missed me everyday for the past month," he sighed and, run his fingers though his hair

Haley stood there watching him closely, she grab a bottle of water and hop on on the counter, beside her brother in-law, She patted his knee, and give him a small smile.

" Okay, I don't understand, she told you all that stuff, you been waiting to hear, did you guys talk about the letter?" she asked trying to see where it when wrong.

" we did, we talked about the letter, she apologize for the way she left, we talked about starting a relationship, we got everything out in the open, well kind of, there was one thing I wanted to talked to her about, but I didn't get the chance to. " he took a deep breath.

" well, what didn't you get to tell her, if you don't mine me asking." She replied, quietly, looking at Lucas.

" In the letter, she wrote, she asked me, what makes her different, than the other girls, and, I wanted to let her know, what makes her different,but it didn't get that far." he shook his head and closed his eyes. Trying to get those words out of his mind "I DON'T LOVE YOU,"

Haley watch him, for a moment, she could see that he was really hurting, but she still didn't get why Peyton, walked away from him,

" Okay, I'm confused," came the voice from the door way

Lucas and Haley looked over to see, Brooke, standing there with her hands on her hips,

" Oh, Brooke did we wake you up?" Haley asked in a sorry like voice

" no, Hales I was up waiting on Peyton, but she hasn't come home yet," Brooke said as she walked over to them

" she not here" Lucas asked in a high tone

" no, but don't worry, I know where she is, I was going to go fine her, then I heard you guys talking, So are you going to tell us what happen" Brooke asked looking at Lucas

" I did, we talked, we laughed, we kissed, she ran, what else do you need to know," Lucas snapped

" Okay, first don't snap at me, second your whole story doesn't make sense. Something happen to make her run, I know Peyton, so can you please tell us everything, so we can help you," Brooke begged

" Look, we when to the river court, we sated in the middle of the river court, I held her while she told me she wanted more with me, and that she missed me, we talked about the letter, we talked about the past month, we kissed, " He paused " I said I love you,"

" oh" both girls said

" see, it was perfect, everything's just complicated." he sighed loudly

" What was her reaction, when you said I love you" Brooke asked , thinking she knew where this was going.

" she didn't really reacted, she looked at me, her eyes, were a little distance, but she was still calm, and she was smiling at me," He said as he jump down off the counter

" so when did she actually pull away from you," Haley asked, as her in Brooke made eye contact. both thinking the same thing.

" Well, to pen point the exacted moment, if was when I said, I'm in love with you," He said,

" DAMN IT , LUCAS" both girls yelled

" Why didn't you just tell me that at the beginning of are little chat," Haley asked with Faustian

" we could of saved so much time," Brooke said, " look I'm going to go fine Peyton, now that I know why she walk away from you" She said as walked out of the kitchen, a few minutes later, they heard the front door slam.

" What the hell, did I miss something, Hales" Lucas asked, angrily

" Your a fucking moron, you don't tell a girl, who is afraid to get close to someone, that your in love with them." Nathan said as he walked in the kitchen.

" she didn't response, after you said that, she just walked away" Haley asked,

" yeah, she did............" he said, as he turn away from the staring out the window, " she said, I don't love you, Lucas," he said, in a whisper fill with so much hurt.

Nathan and Haley stood there speechless, watching, him try to act like it was no big deal, but inside he was hurting.

" Lucas." Haley said as she walked over in touch his shoulder, " please, don't give up on her, She really does care, just give her sometime, I promise everything will work out,

" I love her, Haley, But I don't know where to go from here, I thought she feel the same, " He said as he finally made eye contract with his sister in-law.

" she wants to be with you Lucas, she scared, she's never had these feelings, in she is more confused and worried about getting her heart broke, " she said in a calm voice

Lucas nods his head, " me too", he whisper

" hey, for what its wroth, I believe she loves you to, " Nathan said, as he walked over to his brother in patted him on the back.

" what" Lucas asked, with an arch eyebrow

" the way, she looks at you, man, " Nathan said, " give her time, let her come to you, okay"

Lucas nods, and watches as the two walk out of the kitchen, He throws his bottle away, then heads up stairs, hoping that Brooke fine's his girl.

Brooke got out of her car and frown at the sight. Peyton sat there in from of her mother's grave, tears still running down her face. Brook slowly walked over to her and, sat down beside her. Peyton was starring in space, she didn't notice her best friend. After a few minutes. Brooke nudge Peyton, but Peyton didn't response,

"Peyton, Peyton," Brooke snapped her fingers in front of her best friend's eyes.

" what.... what are you doing here," she replied, she quickly wipe her tears

" I was worried about, " Brooke said as she pulled a tissue out of her pocket and, handed it to her.

" I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me" she said as she wipe her face with the tissue

" yeah, whatever p, I'm still going to worry, It's my job as your best friend, " she said, as she smile at her

" god, we haven't been here and, years," Brooke said

" I know, I feel bad about about that," Peyton said sadly

" hey, your mom understand, we had to grow up , Peyton," Brooke said,

" I know, but we used to come here every Sunday, remember that," she said as she looked over at Brooke

Brooke nodded her head,

" yeah, but life got in the way, she probably so disappointed in me, for the way I've been living my life" Peyton replied, as she fell more tears fall down.

" Hey, Peyton, no your wrong, your mom is proud of you, just like me and Haley are too, We both have made some mistake's that we can't take back, but I believe we learned from them. we grow out of those partying girls, one night stand girls, who didn't care about love.

" you did, I didn't" Peyton whisper

" yeah, you did, it just took you longer, " she said,

" Brooke, I still have one night strands,"

" you do, when was your last time," Brooke asked,

" well, a week before I met Lucas," she sighed

" so, why haven't you had one since, Lucas," Brooke asked, as she watched her, bite her bottom lip.

" I guess............. well I just didn't want one, I try one a couple of weeks ago, but the whole time he was kissing my neck, all I could think about was............

" he wasn't Lucas," Brooke finished

" yeah, but I screw that up tonight," she said, as she looked up at the sky, " why does everything have to be so complicated," she sighed loudly

" no, no you didn't, believe me, that boys is head over heels, for you girly," Brooke said, as she pulled her into a hug " I know, what happen tonight, between you guys, he's pretty messed up right now, he's hurting, even if he doesn't let it to show, we can still see it." she said, as she made Peyton face her.

" I was honest, with him Brooke, just like you guys said, I told him I wanted to be with him," she said, she looks down in takes a deep breath " I don't love him, well, I don't really know how I feel," she looked up at Brooke

Brooke shakes her head, she seen the sadness in her eyes, she can tell that her friend is really fighting against what she is really feeling,

" Peyton, I love you, you know that" Brooke said, in a serious tone

" yeah, I know I love you to," Peyton response, wondering were her Friend was going with this.

" good, because, I'm going to be honest with you, I believe you are lying to yourself, I think you do love Lucas or, at least feel something close to love, but you are afraid, you don' t want to get hurt, I understand that, but you are only hurting, yourself if you push him away, someone else is going to snatch him up because, he is a good, caring, sweet, honest, reliable, strong, smart, hot, while not as hot as my man" she said as she winked at Peyton. " I just don't want you playing the what if game?, I want you to be happy, and, I believe with all my heart that your happiness is here in tree hill, she paused, " with Lucas"

" I don't know, what I'm feeling, but I do know that I want Lucas, in my life, but I don't want to get hurt, " she admitted in a whisper

" first off, I believe he would never hurt you, if I'm wrong I'll kill him," just kidding, she laughed, happy that she finally got a smile out of her. " no matter what happens you will always have me and Haley, we got your back peyt, and, the truth is, everyone is going to hurt, you just have to decide ...........who's worth the pain., " Is Lucas worth it, just think about okay, come on, let's get you home"

" Brooke, " Peyton asked as they were getting up" can I asks you something

" yeah" Brooke said as they started to walk to Brooke's car

" Is love really worth risking your heart," she asked,

" yeah, It is Peyton, I never been in love before Julian, I was scared to, it's a whole new world, but with Julian beside me, I was able to face it, because I wasn't alone and, if something happens right now and, we end things yes I will be hurt, but I will always have the memories, remember this Peyton forget the risk, take the fall, if it's meant to be, it's worth it all" Brooke said, Julian told me that on are third date, and he was so right, take the fall Peyton."

The drove back to Haley and Nathan's with out a word. Brooke knew that Peyton was deep in her thoughts, As they pulled in to the drive way. Peyton finally spoke

" I think it's time to face it" she said, in a whisper

" yeah, go Let me know what happens in the morning" Brooke said, as the walked up on the porch

" maybe.... I'll wait till morning, it's after midnight Brooke," Peyton said, quietly

" Peyton, I bet he's a wake, no more excuses" Brooke said, as she open the door

They walked up the stair stopping in front of Brooke's room, Peyton looked down the hall, Lucas door was cracked open, she felt like she was going to be sick. Brooke notice her discomfort

" Peyton, it's going to be okay, please you will sleep a whole lot better if you get this off you chest, he deserves to know that you kinda love him" Brooke says laugh

Peyton push her lightly, and rolled her eyes, but she was laughing, she didn't feel sick anymore

" well, here I go, wish me luck" Peyton said, with a jump be voice

" oh, please you don't need luck, you have him wrap around your finger" Brooke said, with a wink. Then walked into her room.

Peyton stood in the middle of the hallway, going over what she wanted to say to him. praying he would listen to her. She slowly walked over to his door. She pushed it open, she smile as she spot him laying across the bed, he was asleep, While at least she thought he was asleep, She decide to go to bed herself, she didn't want to disturb him. She closed the door behind her in walked into her room. She started to get undressed,

" SO, I see you made it back, " he said, as he lean up against her door frame, smiling at the sight of her in her black bra and pantie

She turn around, locking eyes with him, she nodded her head because, she just couldn't think what to say, she had everything plan out just a few moments ago, but now that he was standing and front of her she was speechless.

Lucas, was frozen in his spot, he want to go over grab her, throw her on the bed in finish what the started down stair early, He couldn't take is eyes off of her. He watched as she turn away in put on her black sleep short, than a blue tank top, he watched as she brush her hair, wishing he could run his fingers though her soft blond hair. He lick his lips and, closed his eyes, he took a deep breath,

" Peyton, I

" I'm sorry, Lucas, I'm sorry," she interrupt him, she walked towards him, stopping right in front of him " Listen I need to.................

" no, Peyton, no don't alopizge, I can't make you love me, " he said, with so much hurt in his voice, that Peyton felt her heart break

" Lucas, that's what ..............

" Peyton, stop okay, I need to tell you something, I won't been able to sleep, till I do'' He said, as he walked further into her room. She sat down on her bed and, watched him pace back and forth, She wasn't really sure were this was going, but she had a bad feeling.

" Peyton, I could say, I don't love you , but that would be a lie, because, I do i feel it, I can't tell you when it happen, but it did, " He stop pacing and, looked at her, her head was down, he walked over to her and, kneel in front of her, He lifted her chin, His eyes started to burn, at the sight of her silently crying.. he wiped her tears,

" Peyton, you got to quit crying on me, it breaks my heart when I see you cry," he pleaded, with her

She smile at her and, nodded her head, he kissed her forehead, he was still on his knees in front of her, he wrap his arms around her waist, she wrap on legs around his,

" Meeting you was faith," he smile at her " talking to you, was a choice," he cupped her face and, kissed her nose, " but falling in love with you was beyond my control. " he kissed pressed his lips to her's and, a very sweet innocence kiss, she open her mouth and, he smile as he felt her tongues enter his mouth. She pulled away smiling, she comb his head with her fingers.

" I want to be with you Lucas, I do, I want everything with you," she said, looking him in the eyes

" I wanted that to Peyt, but I love you, I do, and I just don't think...................

She pressed her fingers to his lips, then kissed his nose, she sighed, then took a deep breath, she closed her eyes for a moment preparing herself for what she was about to say. She open her eyes, his blue adorable eyes were burning though her,

" I think, I love you." she whisper, so soft, that if he wasn't that close, he wouldn't of heard her. She smile at him, " I do, I love you, I think, I know that it's probably doesn't make no sense to you, but I never felt what I'm feeling now, I don't know if is love or....................

He kissed her, hard on the lips, she fell back against the bed taking him with her, she giggles , as he pulled away, he push her hair out of her face.

" Are you sure? I mean you said that you didn't just a couple of hours ago, what change your mind," He asked, still on top of her

" I was scared, when you said, you were in love with me, the last time I heard that was right before I lost my virginity, Part of me thought you said that because, we haven't when that far yet, she replied, quietly, with sham in her eyes.

Lucas, face fall, he was shocked, that she would ever think something like that. He open his mouth, but was stop by her voice

" I know now, that you said that because, you do love me, I wish I was able to say it back, but I still confused , but I want to be in love with you someday. I want you Lucas, Brooke made me realize to night, that I was scared of you and love, she told me to take a fall, and I want to take the fall with you because, " she paused and stroke his check, " I believe you are worth it, if you still want me.

He lean down in captured her sweet lips with his, he suddenly lifted her up off her bed, her legs still wrap around him, there lips stay intact, they make to the middle of the hallway, when she pulled away, laughing,

" were are we going?" she asked, breathless. He didn't response, he just move his lips to spot on her neck, that he fine there first night together, She was so losted in what his lips were doing that she forget what she asked

He layed her down on his bed, his lips still on her neck, she felt her back hit something soft and, she open her eyes, she started to laugh

" Lucas, Lucas,"

" hmm"

" why are we in your room, we could did this in my room"

" no, uh uh, my .. bed... is ... soft.." he said, in between kissing her neck, he moved down to her collarbone, than slip his hand under her shirt, He looked up at her, in smile. " you are staying with me, tonight, right, " he asked, with hope in his voice

She lean up in started to kiss his neck, smiling with he let out a moan of pleasure " I guess.........I have to,,,,,,,I'M way to tried..........to walk.... back to .........my room," she said, in between kissing his neck. She pulled away smiling, he return the smile,

" I was hopping you, say that, I love you, that why we need to stop before we go to far," He said, as he pulled away from her. Peyton lay there wondering what just happen. She sat up in watched him, he pull his shirt off and, throw it in a corner, than his jeans, leaving him on in his poke dot boxers. He walked back over to the bed, then pull the covers down. He sat down on his side, taking his watch off, he climb in under the blanket, " are you going to join me?" or sit there" He asked, with a yawn.

She didn't move, she wasn't sure what happen, she though they were finally going to have sex, something she has been dreaming about, She shakes her head, then got up, walking over to the door,

" were are you going," he asked, He was now confused, she did turn around to face him, she stop as she open the door "

" I'm going to bed, goodnight Lucas," she said, in a calm voice

" why, i thought you were staying with me," he said, as he got out of the bed in walked over to her, He turned her around to face him " what did I do, I thought it was okay to say i love you, I know you're not ready yet, but..................

" NO! THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE I LOVE YOU PART," she said, loudly then she intend to. "never mind, I'm tried" she sigh, but he were let her go. " let me go please" she begged

" no! because, I don't know what I did, please I need to know what pissed you off," he demanded

"fine , why did you stop are make out session" she asked. angrily

" oh! that's what this is about, baby, listen I didn't want to stop, but I just didn't want to go to far," he said, with honest, he see the confusing in her eyes. "come here" he pulls her towards the bed, he sat down then pull her on his lap. " Peyton, I love you, I do, but I don't want to have sex with you, "

" okay, well, thanks," she try-ed to get up, but he wouldn't let her.

" Peyton, baby, listen to be I want you badly, I do pleasssssssssssssssse believe that, I've had a lot of hot dreams about you, " he pulls her face towards him so they are eye to eye. " I don't want to have sex with you, because sex is something I've done lots times. I want to make love to you, something I have never done, I'm so in love with you, and I know you aren't there yet, but I believe one day you will be, and when that day comes, I will give you everything, my heart, my soul, my body, because I want your heart, and I want your soul, I want your body, god I want your body, But not tell we are in love, I want everything with you, " he wiped away her tears that had fell during his little speech " you know what I want to do now?"

" no," she whisper

" I want to lay down, with you in my arms, " he said, in the same tone, they layed down. He held-ed her close to him, They kissed a couple more times, before her eyes started to grow heavy,he watched as she started to fade away to dream land, " I love you." he whisper, than kissed her forehead. He smile then closed his eyes,

'' I love you Lucas," she whisper, and her sleep.

Lucas's eye shot open he looked down at the beautiful girl laying in his arms, she might be a sleep, but she still said the words he heard her. He kissed her once more then join her in dream land with a smile on his face.

Okay, people here is my next chapter, my longest chapter I can't believe I wrote all this, I'm not a big writing fan, anyways I hope you enjoyed this chapter, we finally getting then together, I have two chapter left, then I will be done with this fiction. So as always thanks for the reviews,

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