Chapter 18
As Light had predicted, it seemed to take forever for the bus to arrive to take them back to their resort, and then forever for it to arrive at the hotel. Then there was the slow elevator and even the keycard to the door decided not to work until the third try causing Light to use colorful language and L to burst into laughter behind him as he did.
Once they were behind closed doors, Light grabbed L and pulled his body against his own, capturing his mouth with the kiss he had waited hours to get. His hand held L's head in place as he continued to attack, forcing his tongue into L's mouth without waiting for permission, beating L's into submission and completely taking over.
L moaned into the passionate kiss, his own need for the intimate contact just as strong as he allowed Light complete dominance in it, the intensity of it taking his breath away and making his knees weak. As he had been caught by surprise, his hands had been in his pockets when Light grabbed him and now he slid them out and wrapped his arms around Light, his hands moving up his back, into his hair and back again.
When Light finally released him, L expected to feel his mouth bruised from the almost brutal kiss, and realized what kind of evening he was in for, which he wasn't against at all. He was then surprised when Light then laid his head on his shoulder as he continued to hold him close, obviously enjoying the closeness he had wanted all night. L felt his heart rate pick up as Light was dangerously close to his neck, his body tensed and his breathing became labored as he tried to fight the rising panic he could feel. Light immediately felt the change in L's body and lifted his head quickly. He stared into the wide eyes that were staring back at him, and saw the fear that he recognized there beginning to fade away again.
"Light I…." Light quieted him by kissing him softly and stroking his face with his fingers.
"It's alright, it was my fault for not realizing that would be too close for comfort. I love you, L." he said quietly and L sighed deeply and looked away from him.
"I love you too, and I'm sorry that I ended that incredible moment with my weakness…" Light moved his head back to face him.
"I'm not, because now I have an excuse to do it again," he told him and once again attacked his mouth. This time when Light released him he laughed and brought his fingers to his passion-bruised lips.
"What's so funny?" Light asked staring in surprise.
"I can't feel anything, they're numb!" L answered continuing to laugh and pulled away as Light leaned forward again; "I believe I need to give them a break before we continue!" he added and headed for the kitchen. Light followed him and grabbed him from behind, his hands traveling down L's chest to the top of his jeans sliding them past the waistband and inside as he rubbed up against him. He stopped short of going inside L's boxers but grabbed him through the fabric.
"Light…" L began as Light held him tightly and began to stroke his rapidly hardening member, groaning and letting his head fall back against Light's chest.
"Just so you don't take too long," Light nearly purred into L's ear. He removed his hand and then walked away from L and into the bedroom, pulling off his shirt as he walked away. It took L a moment to realize he had stopped breathing and started again before he passed out. He reconsidered getting a snack and just following Light into the bedroom and then realized it was probably going to be a long night and decided he'd better build up his stamina.
Light was standing in the middle of the bedroom when a thought suddenly came to him. L had told him earlier that he no longer saw Kira when he looked at him, that he no longer felt threatened. He decided he'd give something a try, not only because he felt like being a little different tonight, but he also wanted to see if L truly felt safe with him again. He walked into the closet and pulled out two of the three ties he had brought with him just in case, and smiled. He walked over to the bed and found a spot below the headboard to attach them to on either side. He looked around the room to think of something to use for a blindfold and finally settled on the remaining tie and decided that doubled over it would work perfectly. He reached for his robe as he kicked off his shoes and socks and undressed completely before slipping into the robe.
L grabbed what was left of the strawberries Light had purchased for him, after eating several cookies. He carried the bowl into the bedroom and stopped dead when he saw Light seductively lying across the bed, white robe falling open, propped up on his elbow and smiling warmly at him.
"I wondered how long it was going to take you," Light said to him sitting up and L nearly dropped his bowl of strawberries as he watched the robe slide revealing more with every movement. L couldn't understand exactly why it was affecting him so deeply; but with every slip of that robe, the more aroused he became. Light looking up at him with heavy lidded eyes and licking his bottom lip didn't help anything either. Light rose from the bed and walked over to him, allowing the robe to open completely. He took the bowl of strawberries from him and placed them on the bedside table, then turned back to L and kissed him softly. He reached down and pulled the bottom of L's shirt up, pulling it completely up and over his head.
"Do you trust me?" he asked as he gently kissed him again. L looked at him, confused by the question.
"Why are you asking me such a stupid question?" he returned and Light smiled at him.
"Just answer the question L Lawliet, do you trust me?" L couldn't control the shudder that went through him at the whispered sound of his rarely used full name and he nodded slowly.
"Of course I trust you, you know this. I trust you with my life," he answered and Light nodded and kissed him again.
"Then come here," he said pulling L to the bed. He pushed him down onto the bed as he kissed him again, his lips trailing down L's shoulder and across to his chest. He leaned up and kissed his mouth again, while at the same time he pulled one arm up and began to attach his tie to L's wrist. L started slightly and turned to see what Light was doing.
"What…" Light kissed him again and ran a hand through his hair.
"Just trust me," he whispered smiling down at him. L nodded slowly and returned the smile, even if it was a little shaky. Light kissed him once again, and then leaned over him to attach his other wrist to the waiting tie. Once tied L tried to move his arms and discovered movement was incredibly restricted. He tried not to feel the slight panic that was coursing through him, he knew he was safe with Light, but that small fear that he had believed he had completely killed, began buzzing in the back of his mind like an annoying mosquito.
Light pulled the last tie from the pocket of his robe and held it up in front of L. For a quick moment L imagined him wrapping it around his throat and strangling him with it and he quickly closed his eyes and banished the vision, ashamed that he even thought of it in the first place.
"L? Are you okay?" he heard Light ask him softly and he took a deep breath and opened his eyes.
"Yes, yes I'm fine." He answered with a smile and Light nodded.
"Good. I've always heard that your remaining senses are heightened when one of them is missing," he leaned forward and covered L's eyes with the tie, fastening it behind his head, "And now I wish to see if it's true." He leaned down and kissed L again, starting softly at first and then increasing the intensity as he realized seeing L like this was an incredible turn on for him. When he released L's mouth he leaned up and put his lips against his ear.
"Are you still feeling okay with this?" he whispered and after a moment's hesitation L nodded.
"Yes, I'm okay, I trust you," he answered and Light smiled. He could see and hear the uneasiness in him, but he wasn't afraid and that's what was important. He wanted him to be a little uneasy; to not know what was coming next, that was part of the fun.
"Good, because you're mine now, to do with as I please," Light whispered in his ear and then pulled away. L could feel from the movement of the bed that Light had gotten up from the bed but he couldn't tell where he had gone. He nervously twisted his wrists in the ties, testing again just how tightly he was bound, and tried to see under the tie that was across his eyes. All he could see was just a glimmer of light, but nothing else. He could feel his heart pounding in his chest and he tried to calm it down by taking several deep breaths, all the while straining his ears to try to hear where Light had gone.
Light had quietly walked to the foot of the bed where he could see the entire view. He was amazed at how aroused he was getting just looking at L tied up and blindfolded like that. Somehow having him under his complete control was an incredibly strong aphrodisiac. As he thought about it, it probably harkened back to his Kira days when he wanted nothing more than to best L, and in a way, now he had done just that. He closed his eyes for a moment, not liking the thought process. He never wanted to link any of his thoughts about L with his Kira self.
When he reopened his eyes, he could see L was getting slightly uneasy, he had lifted his head and was obviously trying to see under the makeshift blindfold, his hands pulling at the ties.
"Light? Light are you still in here?" he called and Light laughed softly.
"Yes, I'm right here, L." he watched as L's body relaxed visibly and he lay back on the pillow.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm enjoying the view," he said honestly and L chuckled.
"Oh, I see. Well…actually I can't…" he said making Light laugh again. He walked forward and kneeled by L's legs on the bed, reaching up and grabbing the waistband of L's jeans, pulling them and his boxers down slowly; finally pulling them completely off and dropping them on the floor by the bed. He frowned and then immediately picked them up and laid them across one of the dressers, unable to leave them there.
He smiled looking at L's obvious arousal, which let him know that so far he was enjoying this almost as much as he was. He crawled up L's body and began kissing down his chest, dragging his tongue along, stopping at his navel and dipping the tip of his tongue in, making L squirm beneath him. He then moved down to L's thighs, kissing and nipping the sensitive insides. L moaned above him, his arms pulling on the ties, as he moved.
Light had been correct, the feel of his mouth was always wonderful, but now that he couldn't see where he was going to go next and just feeling it was driving L crazy. Every nerve ending was on alert waiting to see where Light was going to touch next, making it more delicious when he did. He wasn't sure he enjoyed not being able to touch Light when he wanted to, but at the same time he was fascinated by the way it felt to be completely at Light's mercy. He continued to ignore that buzzing in the back of his mind; Light loved him and he wouldn't hurt him. Kira was gone, he didn't have to fear him any longer.
He cried out and pulled on the restraints as he felt the moist heat of Light's mouth engulf his cock and suck gently. Light smiled to himself when he heard L's cry and felt him squirm beneath him. He continued to tease him, licking around the head and sucking gently, his hands holding L's thin hips to keep him still. After a few more moments of teasing, he released him and moved back to the foot of the bed, watching as L pulled against the ties as his body continued to react to what he had done, and listening to the groan of disappointment once he had stopped pleasuring him. There was a fine sheen of sweat covering his body now and the color of passion on his face. He then watched as L realized he'd left the bed and his head moved in trying to find him.
"Tell me L, are you ticklish? I've never bothered to ask or find out before," he said moving towards L feet. He watched as L began to draw his feet back and away from him.
"I…don't know, it's never come up…Light…don't do it…"
"Don't do what, L?" he asked sweetly as he readied to run a finger down the bottom of L's foot.
"What I know you're thinking of doing! Ack!" L cried out as Light lightly ran the tip of his finger down L's foot, making him cry out and draw his foot back. Light laughed and made sure he stood out of the way of the flailing foot as he did it again, loving the giggle that came out the second time. He'd never heard him giggle like that before and he wanted to hear it again. He tickled one foot and then the other again before stopping.
"Light! Stop!" L cried in between giggles and Light crawled on the bed next to him.
"Okay, okay I stopped. But I guess the answer is yes, isn't it?" he said and leaned down, capturing L's mouth as he did. He let his hands roam L's chest, his fingers drawing circles around his nipples, and then rolling them between his fingers until they were hardened nubs. He heard and felt L moan against his mouth as he did, and took the opportunity to plunge his tongue inside. He reached over into the bowl of strawberries, grabbed one and when his mouth released L's, he placed it on L's lips. L's mouth immediately opened, the feel and aroma telling him exactly what it was. Light allowed him to take a bite and then pulled it away and smiled as he watched L lean forward in search of the rest of it.
"You want the rest of this strawberry?" he asked and suppressed a giggle as he watched L's head cock to one side.
"Another ridiculous question!" he said and Light laughed.
"True, but you have to earn it," he said and L groaned.
"You are being incredibly cruel Light, you've left me hanging in every way possible!" Light reached down and began to stroke him again, making L's head fall back against the pillow and groan softly.
"You're right, I am being cruel. But I like knowing you're completely dependent on me right now for all your pleasures," Light told him, stepping up the speed of his strokes. He watched as L began to move against his hand, his hips rising to meet his strokes. He leaned down and attacked his mouth at the same time, his tongue matching his hand movement.
L felt his orgasm rushing towards him harder than he could remember feeling it before. It was as if it was building from somewhere deep within him and rushing through his veins, pulsing with every beat of his heart. He kissed Light back furiously, letting the young detective swallow his moans as his mouth was continuously plundered.
Light felt L's body tremble with his oncoming orgasm and increased the speed of his strokes yet again, changing the pressure at the same time, and rubbing the tip with his thumb. L pulled away from his mouth, his head pressing hard against the pillow and his arms pulling desperately on the ties as he finally came, Light's name echoing through the room as he did.
Light rode out L's orgasm before moving his hand, allowing the raven-haired detective to get control of his breathing again before kissing him deeply and running his hand through the sweat dampened black hair.
"I love you," he whispered and then grinned, "Now you can have the rest of your strawberry," he told him as he popped it into his mouth, "I'll be right back, don't go anywhere," He said, laughing as L snorted at him when he got up and walked to the bathroom After getting a towel he returned, wiping his hand and L's stomach.
L chewed and swallowed the rest of the strawberry while at the same time his body came down from that amazing orgasm. He literally saw stars behind his blindfold, thinking that at any moment he would simply explode into a million pieces and hoping that Light would be able to find all the pieces. He giggled to himself at the absurdity of that thought and then gasped when the blindfold suddenly disappeared and he was looking up into Lights honey eyes.
"I realized how much I missed looking into your eyes," Light told him as he leaned down and kissed him again, "and I think I made my point." He added and L nodded.
"Yes, I definitely agree with that," he said and Light laughed, "I do have one request," he added and Light raised an eyebrow.
"What would that be?" he asked and L tugged on the restraints, feeling the burn in his shoulders and wrists.
"Could you please let me go now? I am finding it very difficult not being able to touch you," he asked. Light smiled and ran a hand through L's hair.
"I think I can do that now, but did you enjoy it?" he asked and L grinned at him.
"More than I thought I would, it is a different feeling being restricted. Perhaps next time I can tie you up?" Light laughed as he reached around to release the first tie from the bed.
"I don't know about that, but maybe," he said and was suddenly covered in detective as L flew forward and wrapped himself around him, L's arms holding him tightly as he kissed him almost desperately. He pulled back finally and stared deeply into Light's eyes smiling.
"Although not being able to touch you or see you is a definite draw back," he said and leaned forward again for another kiss. They sat wrapped around each other like that for a while, L sitting on Light's lap, his legs wrapped around him, as he tried to make up for not being able to hold or kiss him for so long.
"When we get home, I have many sets of handcuffs perhaps…" L began and was surprised when Light suddenly stiffened in his arms. Light suddenly had a flash of being handcuffed naked, helpless and at Kenji's mercy. L watched as Light's eyes changed, not with the look of Kira, but they were suddenly haunted. He reached up and touched Light's face.
"Light what's the matter? If you do not wish to that's fine, just because I enjoy it..." Light shook his head catching himself and smiled at L.
"Nothing's the matter, I'm just not sure I want handcuffs, but I'll consider something else," he answered and then pushed L back against the bed, lying on top of him and grinding against him, "But let's not think about that right now, I'm not done with you," he told him. L knew immediately what had happened and he mentally kicked himself for not thinking before he spoke. He would make Light discuss it with him later, and it would have to be later because with what Light was doing to him now, he couldn't put a coherent thought together.
Light had grabbed another strawberry and bit into it, leaning forward and offering it to L. L met Light's mouth with his, biting on the strawberry as well, and moaning slightly as Light continued moving against him. Light allowed him to take it, licking whatever juice escaped from L's mouth. He sat up and reached for the lube, poured it into his hand, putting it on himself and then moving down and putting it on L's opening before pushing a finger in. He leaned forward and kissed L again, swallowing L's moan of pleasure as he moved his finger in and out and quickly added a second. L reached up and grabbed Light's face, sitting up slightly and holding him as he took over the kiss, his tongue beating back Light's as he held him in place. It wasn't until Light added the third finger that he released him, his arms dropping to his sides as he moved against it.
Light removed his fingers and reached down for L, pulling him up and once again into his lap. L moved onto his knees, lifting himself up and slowly bringing himself down onto Light's waiting cock, wrapping his arms around Light's neck. Both men groaning in unison as pleasure washed over them both. After a few moments L began to move at the same time that Light did, rising as Light pulled out, and meeting his upward thrust by lowering himself back down. They moved together as one, arms wrapped around each other, mouths claiming each other's and letting go only to breathe or cry out as their passion increased.
As he felt himself getting close, Light held onto L tightly and pushed him backward onto the bed, grabbing his legs and putting them over his shoulders as he pushed into him harder, his pace increasing. L held Light's arms, looking up at him, their eyes locked into each others, and watching as a trickle of sweat ran down the young detective's face and dropped onto his own sweat covered chest as if mirroring that they were one in every way possible. He closed his eyes and welcomed the release that came rushing through him as every nerve ending in him was on fire, finally feeling as if they were exploding when he finally came. Light's own release hit him at the same time as L's, his body trembling with it until he emptied into L's body, finally falling forward, his head resting on L's chest. Once he had caught his breath he lifted up, kissing L once again as before rolling off of him and lying next to him.
"It's ridiculous how much I love you," he said smiling and L laughed.
"Then we are both ridiculous," he answered as he moved sweat dampened auburn hair from the front of Light's eyes, "I love you just as much." He leaned over and rested his head on Light's chest, his favorite spot.
"How about I fire up the Jacuzzi," Light suggested after a few moments, "We still have some wine too. We can decide if we want to go out or have dinner sent in," L nodded lazily and then remembered the look in Light's eyes when he had mentioned handcuffs. The last thing he wanted to do was ruin the mood, but he did think that they had to talk about it. It wouldn't be impossible for Light to be suffering from the same thing he was from that brutal beating; as a matter of fact he was surprised Light didn't have any kind of emotional upset from it at all. He imagined Light's pride, which he already knew was formidable and stronger than his at times, wouldn't let it surface unless something forced it out, and apparently the thought of being in handcuffs again was that something.
Light kissed the top of his head before gently moving him aside so he could get up. He watched Light as he got up from under him, grabbed his robe and walked over to the Jacuzzi to start it up, and then headed for the kitchen. L sat up, a thumb coming to his lips as he tried to decide the best way to approach the problem. He remembered how Light had handled it with him; it was more like an ambush than anything else, but it did work. He also remembered how Light had behaved when he brought the subject up at dinner the other night. He sighed and reached for a strawberry, this was going to be difficult.