DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!!

BPOV

Another three months later…. (six months after Bella has seen Edward)

School. Do I really need to say more, I used to like school but now I didn't as much. Of course I was at the top of all my classes but that's only because I would spend all my time that isn't spent with the Cullen's submerged in my homework.

I actually use to hang out with my friends a lot but now it seemed like a didn't have the energy or really just didn't want to pretend to be happy. That's what I would be doing, pretending, happiness was a foreign emotion to me now, I would feel the ghost of the emotion when I was with the Cullen's and I would experience a fake happiness when Jasper was around but I knew what could make me feel the real thing, but I was only half way through my time in hell.

"Bella!" I heard someone call, I was making my way over to my lunch table, on my own.

I didn't bother to look, if it was important then they would call to me again and maybe I will respond then.

"Bella" this time the voice was close, I looked up to see Mike standing at the end of my table.

"Hi Mike" I said softly and he grinned at me like a mad man, probably happy that he got a response from me.

"So Bella, I was wondering if um maybe we could do something this weekend?" wow I was not expecting this, I mean people usually left me alone because of my so called 'zombie state' but Mike was asking me out!

"Um Mike, thanks but i'm actually quite busy this weekend" that was a lie, the Cullen's were going 'hunting' this weekend and I would be left alone, well not really alone because one or more of the Cullen's usually stay behind to keep an eye on me, you know just in case.

This time Carlisle was staying home but he would be at the hospital but he assured me that if I needed anything that he would call in sick or just make up some excuse, but I couldn't do that. I have already caused so much problems for this family and I wasn't going to take Carlisle away from his job, even if it was just for one weekend.

"Well maybe next weekend then?" Mike asked, did he ever give up?

"Um Mike, i'm actually seeing someone right now" if you could call what Edward and I had a relationship but I liked to think we had something, we never had the time to discuss what we were but all Mike needed to know is that I wasn't available and in truth I could never be available to any one but Edward ever again.

You might think I sound dramatic, because I had barely met Edward before I knew I was in love with him, but consider it a regular Romeo and Juliet story, except this is so much harder in reality. I mean Juliet only knew Romeo for less time then I knew Edward and they decided to get married.

I loved him, I love him. I will always love him and for Mike to think he actually stood a chance was actually quite humorous but I just couldn't find the energy to laugh, maybe it was that lack of happiness.

"Really? I didn't know, who is he?" Mike seemed genuinely surprised, was it really that unbelievable that I could be with someone?

"No one you know" I answered truthfully but I could tell that he wasn't going to let it go so I cut him off before he could ask any more questions because quite frankly I just didn't want to talk about it. It was ok to talk about it with Alice because it just felt natural to talk to her about him, I didn't think it would help to talk about him but actually it does help, but only when I talk with the Cullen's, definitely not Mike!

"Look Mike I got to go, thanks for asking me out, I'm sorry" I was anything but sorry but if it made him feel better than I guess it was alright to lie to him.

I got up from my seat and threw my untouched lunch in the garbage and slowly walked to my next class. I was really early but I didn't care, I just pulled out my book and started reading.

I must of got really into the book because before I knew it people started walking in and the bell rang. Funny, I couldn't remember a word I had just read.

Class was normal and I got all my work done so I didn't have any homework.

When the bell rang I groaned, I had gym next and worse, it was with Mike and it was bound to be awkward.

Surprisingly gym wasn't awkward and Mike stayed away from me and I was happy about that, well happy was just a figure of speech.

When the bell finally rang I went as fast as I could without causing myself of another harm to my truck. I had to whole weekend to myself and I had basically no home work and I was alone. What the hell was I supposed to do?

I contemplated different activities as I drove home but none of them sounded particularly appealing.

"Mum?" I called when I entered my house, there was no answer.

"Mum?" I called again as I walked around the house. Still no answer.

I walked into the kitchen and found a note on the table.

Basically mum and Phil are out for dinner and that she had order a pizza for me, she left a number to in case I needed to get in contact with her.

I sighed as I put the note back down, and then the phone. Eager for something to do I ran and picked up the phone.

"Hello?" was the eager really that obvious in my voice?

"Hello, is that you Bella?" said a slightly familiar voice but I couldn't put a name to it.

"Yes, its me" I answered back with confusion swirling in my words.

"Ah, its so great to speak to you, its Billy Black. You probably don't remember me but I am an old friend of your fathers and I live on the reservation just out from Forks" he told me and I was slightly familiar towards him but I didn't remember him much, but it wasn't like he was expecting to remember him other wise he wouldn't of told me everything about him.

"Oh hello Billy" I was unsure of what to say.

"Its probably quite a surprise getting a call from me but as you know your fathers birthday is coming up and we were planning a surprise birthday for him and I thought the best surprise we could give him was your presences" he said.

"Oh" was all I could respond. I never really liked Forks, but it was my fathers birthday and I do miss him so there really isn't any reason why I couldn't go there. The Cullen's would get a break from always having to look after me, because lets face it, who would need looking out for in a place like Forks?

"That sounds great Billy" I answered as eagerly as I could.

"If it's a hassle Bella I understand but I know Charlie would just love to see you" he said in a rush.

"No, no, Billy it's a great idea" I told him and in the first time in six months when it hadn't concerned the Cullen's I was actually excited.

"When should I come down?" I asked him, the sooner the better.

"Well, have you got any plans this weekend?" he asked me and I could hear that he was unsure.

"None at all" I answered back.

"Well then" I could hear the smile in his voice "I will ring the airport and have a ticket waiting for you, is tomorrow too soon?" he asked me.

Was I actually smiling?

"Tomorrow is perfect" I answered, actually right now would be perfect but tomorrow is good.

"Great then, I cant wait to see you again Bella"

"Me too Billy" I told him and I hung up.

There was so much to do, I had to pack and call mum and I had to go see Carlisle at the hospital. Maybe tomorrow is better than today.

Damn, I thought. I forgot to ask what time I had to be at the airport. That can be easily fixed though, I couldn't ring Billy back because I didn't have his numbered so I got on the computer and looked up the time for flights leaving to Port Angels.

Unfortunately, or fortunately, I really could decided but that flight was leaving early.

I ran up to my room the first thing on my to do list is to pack. I nearly had the suitcase filled when I heard the doorbell ring. With a resigned huff I had my way down the stairs.

I opened the door and I was greeted by the pizza delivery boy.

"Hey" he said with a smile that was too big for my liking. Was he actually checking me out? I watched as his gaze lingered on my chest.

"Uh hi" I said with venom leaking from my voice.

The guy didn't stop looking at my chest so I took the pizza from his hand and shoved the money in his hand to replace it.

"Keep the change" I said as I slammed the door in his face.

I ate a couple of slices before putting the rest in the fridge.

Ok, now that I was packed I still had to tell mum and Carlisle where I was going and since mum wasn't home I made my way out to mums spare car to go see Carlisle.

I didn't know if he would be working or not but it was getting dark enough for him to come out in public and besides he would be under cover.

The fresh clean smell of the hospital that was all too familiar to me hit my nose as I entered through the big glass sliding doors and made my way up to the receptionist.

"Hi, i'm here to see Dr Cullen" I told her with a polite smile.

"Do you have an appointment?" she asked.

"Umm no but-" she cut me off.

"I'm sorry but Dr Cullen is actually busy at the moment, can I take a message?" damn, um should I leave a message? Well I couldn't wait around for him to become unoccupied, I mean he was a doctor and I didn't have the time.

"Umm sure. Can you tell him that Isabella Swan is going down to visit her father in Forks and that she will be home in less than a week" did I leave anything out?

"Of course, I will give him the message as soon as I can. Would you like to leave a number that he can contact you with?" oh right that was probably a good idea. I gave the receptionist my fathers home number and said a quick thankyou before I made my way out of the hospital.

Right, now I have taken care of packing and I have sort of informed Carlisle of my impromptu trip, now I had to tell mum.

I really didn't want to interrupt mum while she was at diner but I had to go to bed early because the flight was leaving at some ungodly hour.

I guess I had no choice but to ring her.

When I arrived at home I picked up the phone and dialled my mothers number. After getting the message bank several times I decided to call the restaurant she was dinning at.

"Maddies restaurant this is Callie speaking" the voice was pleasant but I could tell that she was bored.

"Hi Callie this is Bella speaking, my mother is dinning at your restaurant tonight and I have to talk to her, is it possible for you to put her on the phone or at least give her a message?" I asked adopting her pleasant tone.

"I could leave a message for her" she replied.

I told her the message that I wanted to give my mother and then went into descriptions of my mothers appearance so she could pass on the message I also told her what Phil looked like just in case. When I set the phone down my gaze was now locked on the envelope that was on the table, between all the chaos I forgot to check for my letter from Edward. It had been six months and not a day has pass when I haven't received a letter from him, it was like an antidote that helped with the feeling of pain caused by his absences but I knew I couldn't fully be cured until I had him hear, with me.

I picked it up and let my fingers trace the elegant script that was on the front of the envelope and exhaled an almost painful sigh.

I would save it, Edward wouldn't know to write to my fathers house and I could go just under a week without his letters, so I would save this almost sacred letter.

With everything finally organised for me to leave bright and early tomorrow I decided to go to bed to get some needed sleep. I brought the letter upstairs with me and put it in my suitcase before I got into the bed.

It felt like I had been sleeping for two minutes when I heard the phone ring and when I checked the clock I had indeed only been sleeping for two minutes.

I quickly went down the stairs, being extra careful because I was usually more clumsy when I was half asleep.

"Hello?" I answered quietly trying to wipe the sleep from my eyes.

"Bella, its Carlisle I hope I didn't wake you" I smiled when I heard who's voice it was. Who cares if he woke me.

"No its fine Carlisle. Did you get my message?" I asked him and my voice was slowly getting the less tired effect.

"Yes I did Bella, that's actually why i'm calling" he replied.

"Oh. Is it alright I mean its my fathers birthday and his friend called me and told me about a surprise party and he wanted me to come along to surprise Char- dad." it was all in a rush but I knew he understood me.

"Bella its fine I just wanted to know what time the flight is so that i'm not late" he told me and I was confused beyond reason, why would he be late?

"Oh um, its fine Carlisle you don't have to see me off" I gathered that's what he must of meant.

I heard his soft laughter ring through the phone "no Bella, I will be joining you" he told me.

"What?" now I was really confused. Why would Carlisle want to come with me to Forks?

"I will be joining you on your journey to Forks" he said it a bit slower this time probably hoping I would catch on.

"Its hardly a journey Carlisle, i'm just visiting my father for his birthday" I told him.

"Nevertheless I and the rest of the family for that matter would be more comfortable if I accompanied you" ok this whole 'protect Bella' thing was getting out of hand, I mean it was Forks, population my dad and a couple of other people that could surely cause me no harm.

"Carlisle, really I know you promised Edward you would keep an eye out for me but-" he cut me off.

"Your family Bella, and I don't think any of us would like to feel the wrath of Edward when he finds out we left you alone for one second Bella" he told me and I was actually getting a bit emotional when he referred to me as family and instantly all arguments left me and I agreed for him to accompany me.

After telling Carlisle the flight details I said my goodbyes and basically floated to my bed.

EPOV

"This is pathetic you know, when will you finally accept the fact that you are meant to feed on humans not animals?" Jane hadn't let a day pass since the six months that I have been entrapped in this hell when she hadn't tried to persuade me into feeding on humans.

"When will you finally accept that I will not consider any other source of food besides animals, I will not be a monster like you" it was harsh to say such words but they were truthful and she knew it and besides, she deserved it.

"Believe it or not Edward, we are one of the same and choosing to feed on animals instead of humans will not change that fact" she had to be kidding, I am nothing like her.

"Your wrong yet again Jane" I responded. It was a strain for her right now for her not just to unleash her power on me and inflict pain on me in order for her to receive her payback.

"Jane" sometimes, like times like these, I was actually grateful for Aro's interference.

Immediately Janes attention was at the mercy of her master whereas I refuse to let Aro have such power over me.

"We have discussed this many times my dear and it is as it always will be, Edwards decision, he will change when he is ready" he said and I held in a snort. 'I will change when I am ready' he is seriously delusional to believe that I will change to be like him, a monster.

I don't argue anymore, well not with Aro anyway, because it is just a waste of time. Not that I minded because all I wanted was to waste time especially now that I only have another six months until I get to see Bella again.

Her name brought on a new surge of pain. I tried not to think of her too much but despite my efforts every second of every day she is constantly on my mind.

"Edward?" I looked towards Aro.

"May we speak for a moment, in private?" I actually laughed at his question.

"Since when has privacy been an accepted term of whom we are and where we are?" I asked him with laughter still present in my voice. It wasn't happy laughter, no it was far from it. Happiness has become a foreign emotion to me now and any other emotional that is linked to joyous is now foreign to me.

He laughed along also, except his laughter was actually genuine.

He motioned for me to follow him to a private room, well as private for it gets for a vampire anyway.

"Edward, this is starting to become ridiculous" he said as soon as he turned to face me.

I raised my eyebrows in response and he let out a frustrated sigh.

"When will you accept the fact that you are one of us? That you are not human anymore?" he asked me.

"I was never under the impression that I was a human, far from it in fact" I replied and he let out another angry sigh.

His thoughts gave nothing away in terms where he was going with this conversation so I just waited it out.

"I was hoping that this was just a phase, something that would just pass with time." he took a deep unnecessary breath and continued. "she is human Edward and I know you have no intentions of changing that so why waste your time with something so insignificant?" by this point I was ready to rip his head off. Would he never accept the fact that at the end of the twelve months, which was only in six months time that I would decide to leave?

"She is anything but insignificant" I growled back.

"She is human" he said it like it was a dirty word and it took everything I had not to pounce.

"Yes and I have every intention of keeping her that way." I answered back with much difficulty.

Aro's face was incredulous, he couldn't believe me, he thought me a fool. I guess in some cases and especially in last six months I would have to agree with him.

It was rare for me to actually agree with Aro over something but in this case he was right, I was a fool but I wouldn't let that get in my way, or rather the way I feel about Bella.

"In time you will see it my way Edward" he told me.

"I doubt that" I told him and I simply just exited the room because if he referred to Bella in any other way than perfection than I might not be able to contain myself with ripping him apart.

I trashed my room completely the second I was in it. I could kill him, I will kill him. No that would just make me more like him and if he wasn't dead then he would actually be glad that I had given into my anger.

I turned the upturned desk the right way up and collected my writing utensils.

Bella, I wrote.

Although it might feel as the year I said that I would be away from you has repeated itself many times over I can honestly say that I am pleased to no end that my time away from you is half way through.

Today signifies the exact day when six months ago I first met you and that was the day when I truly started living.

After so many years of being alone its amazing how one person can make all your insecurities, all your fears and all your loneliness disappear. For me Bella, that person is you. You mean more to me than I can ever comprehend and I hope that one day I can interpret these feelings into words so that I can resite them to you but these feelings are way too strong for that to be ever done and I can only hope that you feel the same way but somehow I think that would be impossible.

I hope my family are keeping you company and better yet I am hoping that you are enjoying their company because I know that they would be enjoying yours, who wouldn't?.

With all the love in the world that can never be expresses into words, Edward.

Forever and always yours, I love you.

I slipped the neatly folded piece of paper into an envelop and sat it back on the desk. I will post it when I go out hunting later tonight when the rest of the guard is feasting upon innocent humans.

It's the beginning of the holidays and i'm treating my readers of this story and my other one to an update. I will get more time during the holidays to write so hopefully there wont be as long as a wait between chapters as there was before.

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