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Chapter 19

-Dougie POV-

I climbed out of bed and I had the biggest hangover ever but I had to admit last night was great! I hadn't forgot any of it and I was happy. I slumped over towards my jacket and pulled out a pack of aspirins. I was always prepared for times like these. I grabbed a glass of water and gulped it down. Danny awoke as soon I returned from the bathroom and he looked terrible. I got him some aspirin as well. "Morning!" I smiled and handed him the glass of water with that aspirin pill. "Thanks mate" he smiled back, one hand on his head. "Last night was fun" I said, trying to make conversation. "Yeah, I needed a break from all the stuff at home, you helped as well" he sighed. "Glad to help, I couldn't handle being at home with Tom as well, he tried to talk to me about it, fix it, he just doesn't give up" I said, feeling anger bubble up again. "Maybe you should... I just wish it we're different, maybe we could've been together" he frowned but I cut him off. "I am not getting back with Tom, I won't! And it can be different! Just leave Harry, it'll be fine, I'll be with you" I said sitting down on the bed next to him. "We better get back" he said then got out of bed and started pulling his clothes on. I felt terrible, used and just stupid... Is he just stringing me along for sex? I sighed and followed him out of our room.

-Danny POV-

I can forget my feelings for Dougie! I know I can! I just need to stay away from him for a while... Hell, he might even reconsider getting back with Tom but I'm not going to choose to break Harry's heart... The drive home was silent and I could tell my words hurt Dougie, I didn't mean to be sharp with my words. "Look, Dougs, I am sorry but I don't think it's right" I said shortly and brought my eyes back to the road. "Well then, why sleep with me all those times?!" he shouted and got out the car and slammed the door. I sighed and got out. He'll calm down eventually.

"Where in hell have you two been?" Harry glared. "We went to a bar then decided to stay at a hotel cause we couldn't be arsed to come back" I said trying not to make a deal of it. Oh yeah! And I slept with Dougie! But I wasn't really going to say that was I? "You could've at least called, I waited up all night for you" he said and I could tell it was true. He had dark circles under his eyes which were red and puffy, indicating that he'd been crying as well. "Sorry, I won't do it again" I smiled hugging him. Well, until the next time we argue but next time I won't take Dougie with me.

I just wanted to keep Dougie at a distance for a while until my feelings for him were gone. This is endangering my relationship with Harry and my friendship with Tom, if he finds out who knows what he'll do to me. But Dougie's been trying to make as many excuses to be alone with me as possible but I also do my bit try to avoid him as much as possible, he's making this so difficult for me. I'm staying as close to Harry as possible, it's getting the tiniest bit better but I feel sorry for Dougie... No! I can't! I have to talk to Tom...

I walked up to his room and knocked. "Come in" he said. I opened the door and Tom turned from his desk. "What's up Dan?" he smiled then patted the bed after sitting on it himself. "It's about Doug, maybe you should try to get him to take you back... I don't like seeing both of you unhappy" I said, making up an excuse. I wasn't lying though, I wanted to see them both happy. "I've tried Danny but it always ends in either an argument or him ignoring me... Is that all cause I have tons of stuff to do" he said getting up and opening the door. I got up and left, well that failed! I went downstairs to Harry and just hugged him, being in his arms made me feel a lot better. "You okay?" he smiled at me and I nodded into his chest. "Yeah, but Tom and Doug aren't" I sighed. "Well, there's nothing we can do about that, we've tried this before" he sighed with me then kissing my head. I leaned up and kissed him passionately. "I love you" I said. "I love you too Dan" he said back.

-Tom POV-

I had to kick Danny out, I was close to tears... As soon as he was out I was sobbing on my bed. Who the fuck does he think he is? Telling me to try, I've tried so hard and now he's just brought it up again, just when I was getting used to being without him. I picked up one of Dougie's basses that I 'borrowed' from his room, it was like a safety blanket to me, it made me feel like I had a part of him with me, and it always made me feel better apart from now. I went to my en suite and got out my razor, and cut my arm, I promised myself that everyday that I wasn't with Dougie I would punish myself for not trying hard enough, or maybe I thought that I could someway blame him for destroying me.

Now that I knew I could trust no one it seemed that I would no longer talk to them either...maybe Dougie, yeah, only Dougie. I went back to my room after a while of watching myself bleed. Somehow, I enjoyed it, the pain would only last a short time but after that, it was all pleasure. I picked up the metallic blue bass and played the first song that came into my head, the song I wrote with Dougie on that terrible day when I found out that Harry didn't really like me. I continued playing the bass line of Ignorance, feeling even more hollow without Dougie. I just wanted him to be here to sing it with me. I ran downstairs after having enough of sitting upstairs alone amd I sat on the sofa and just stared at my laptop. After just staring at the picture of me and Dougie as my wallpaper I decided to do a bit of tweeting, give some people a bit of happiness that I couldn't have. I followed a few people and retweeted others, at least I knew I could make some people happy.

I closed the laptop and just sat there thinking but I was quickly interrupted by a hand waving in front of me, Harry. I took a deep breath and just sat there, looking at him and then looking away. What did he expect? I bet he was in on what Danny did as well, telling him that I wasn't good enough for Dougie and told him to go and rub it in my face. I saw his mouth open and close but no sound came out. I had managed I block him out... but maybe not becauseI noticed a sound, my iPod earphones were in... When did that happen? Did I just put them in when Harry started talking to me? Oh well, they all deserve it.

-Harry POV-

I didn't understand, why was Tom ignoring me. He didn't even want to hear what I had to say. As soon as I opened my mouth, he pulled out his iPod and put it on full blast. "Guys!" I shouted up the stairs and both came down looking at me for the reason I had called them. "What's wrong with Tom? Did either of you say anything to him?" I asked, looking sternly at them to show them that this was serious. "What's wrong with Tom?" Dougie asked. "He has gone completely unresponsive, he's ignoring me and I know I haven't done anything so I thought it would be down to you two" I said. "Well I haven't done anything, he's just attention seeking" Dougie huffed and ran back up to his room. Tom doesn't attention seek! "Danny?" I asked and he bit his lip. "I won't be mad" He told me all about his chat with Tom. "I didn't mean to upset him, I wanted to make them both happier" he said with his eyes tearing up. "It'll be fine, Tom will go back to his normal self soon, just give him some time" I half smiled at him. I hope he goes back to normal and I hope he doesn't hate us.