Hi Everyone! I'm not sure if my disclaimer posted on my previous chapters but all FSOG characters belong to the talented E.L. James. Thank you so much for reading! Any reviews are graciously welcomed!

Leila's POV

The past three weeks with Ethan have been incredible. After the lunch date at Giovanni's we have been inseparable. We've had lunches, gone out, seen a Broadway show, and fell asleep together on my couch. The night we fell asleep together, I felt so comfortable and peaceful. I remember him kissing my forehead and lips so softly as he readied himself to head out to work. I wanted him more than anyone I have ever needed in life. Even more so, than Christian Grey.

A knock on my bedroom door awakens me from my reverie.

"Hi Lele, whats up?" Olivia saunters in waking me up with a gentle voice as she makes her way to crawl into the bed next to me.

"Not much…just waking up. It Saturday. I like Saturdays."

"And you like Ethan?"

That damn Cheshire cat grin glows across my face. I can't hide my feelings for Ethan. I think I'm falling in love with him. Truly falling in love with him.

"Olivia, I think I'm falling for him. Hard."

"Have you guys made a homerun yet?" As she asks me this question, she's circling an area of my bed sheets with her finger with her tongue slipping through her teeth. She is wanting something juicy….wait till I tell her my response.

"No, Olivia, we haven't had sex if that's what you are inquiring."

"What! You guys have been hanging out like everyday this week, going to movies, going to a damn Broadway show, dinners! What the hell Leila?"

"Oli! Look I really really like this guy, borderline love, adore! He is sweet and he respects me. We are taking things slow seeing where things go."

"Ya well after I saw his tongue down your throat last night when I came home from work I highly DOUBT you'll continue your plight for celibacy."

"Oli, I really like him I'm giving it time. Taking it slow. Enjoying the ride."

"Yeah, yeah. Okay so listen….tonight, you, me, Sabi, Leah, Hunter, and Mitchell are heading to Tequileras….Say it with me "T-EH-QUI-LERRRASSSS.! She shakes her hips in a mambo fashion. "If you want you can invite Ethan. We can all hang with him. I assume he is more outgoing then Christian Grey."

Why is she bringing HIM up. I know that she didn't like him much after she realized our relationship wasn't quite as typical as a normal relationship. I never told her the extent of what we were. For all she knows, I was used by a CEO billionaire for sex. Not a sex crazed man who was bent on punishment and sexual fetishes.

"I might just invite Ethan tonight!"

"Good! I want to see what this man is really about. Have a conversation with him. Not awkwardly run into him when you guys are tongue wrestling!"

"Yes I will invite him out tonight." I smack her on her face with one of my pillows. She returns the gesture when I'm not looking.

"Good! I need to head out. I promised Sabi I would go baby shower shopping with her. I'll see you later tonight and hopefully with Mr. Kavanagh."

I give Olivia a big hug. "You know I love you Oli."

"Of course! I love you too! And my miss cleo powers tell me he loves you too!"

As she gets up from my bed she quickly picks up another pillow and slams it at me! She nonchalantly begins to exit with a ha ha I got you smile. I softly smile back at my sister as she leaves my bedroom. Once she leaves I immediately dial Ethan's number. After three rings he answers.

"Hey babes! How are you?"

"Good honey! What are you doing tonight?"

"Just be with you."

"Would you want to go with me to Tequileras, it's a bar/dance club, with Olivia and some friends of ours?"

"Baby of course, what time?"

"We will leave a nine."

"Alright I'll be at your apartment at 8:30pm to see you in your freakum dress!"

"Ethan! Behave"

"You behave!"

"Bye Ethan!"

"See you at 8:30 babe, be safe."

"K, bye."

"Bye."

I giggle like a schoolgirl whose daddy just told her she got a pony for Christmas. I can't wait for everyone to meet Ethan.

Later that night…..

"OLIVIA! GET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN HERE!"

"LE! WHATS WRONG WHAT HAPPENED?"

I hold out different outfits in front of her "Is this to skanky? I mean really, tell me the truth. I'm going for hey I'm a lady but a hey I can be freak in the sheets!"

Olivia raises her eyebrows while eating some chips. "I thought you were into the whole I want to be celibate forever thing."

"Well I want to leave something for the imagination ya know!" Help me! By the way! You are almost done with that entire bag. Didn't you have dinner?"

"Well me and Sabi went baby shower shopping for her coworker and we ate at like 4. Sabi then needed to head home to do some stuff and then get ready for tonight. I cam home THINKING there was food here because someone promised to do the groceries this week…and that someone didn't cough YOU! Now I can't drink on an empty stomach so this is the next best thing."

"Damn! I forgot about the grocery shopping this week! I'm sorry Olivia. My mind is just.."

"Its been stuck on Ethan. Its cool, I'm a big girl I can feed myself. I'm just teasing you. Now lets see what you can wear."

Olivia picks out a black lace mini dress with a plunging neckline.

"You should wear this. Your boobs and ass look awesome in it."

I put it on. It does look amazing and I do love this dress. I probably love it more because it is actually a dress I bought on my own. Not one of Grey's purchases. That's also probably why I feel so relaxed in it. As I stand in front of the mirror I feel as if I'm about to hyperventilate.

"Oh Lele, calm down, what is so different about other nights that you've been out with him compared to tonight?"

"Well he's meeting all of you, I really want to have a good time. I care about your opinion. I'm super nervous!"

"Le, calm down! He obviously has a serious affect on you. We all have noticed your disposition these past few days. Your happier. Leila, we want you to be happy."

"Thanks love."

"Anytime Le."

I then head to the bathroom and fix my hair and touch up my makeup. Ethan should be here any minute. I hear the doorbell ring!

"HEYAAAAAAAAA! Olivia come over here and give us a huge ass hug you dumb batch!"

Its only Sabi, Leah, Hunter, and Mitchell.

"C'mon hugs, hugs!" While the estrogen fest rears its ugly head among the women Hunter and Mitchell head straight to the fridge and grab beers. I head out my bathroom and into the living room.

Mitchell is the first one who addresses me as I walk out.

"Hey Lei, when is this mystery man of yours supposed to appear?"

"Mitch, he is not a magician. He will be here in a few minutes I'm sure."

"Alright sweetie." He downs a Newcastle quick. I'm really hoping tonight will be fun. I really am hoping!

The doorbell rings again! Olivia rushes to answer the door.

"Hi Ethan!" Olivia gives him a polite side hug to which he responds.

"Hi Olivia."

"Leila is ready right in the kitchen."

I'm starting my first beer and then see my man bear come in.

He grabs me, circling his arm completely around my waist, and leans in forward passionately embracing me in a kiss.

Everyone stands in silence just watching us. Guess this is my cue to introduce him to everyone.

"Ethan, these are my friends, you know Olivia and this is Sabi, Leah, Hunter and Mitchell."

Everyone, this is Ethan Kavanagh. We met a few weeks ago….um at a bar." I'm super nervous and I can't believe that is how I introduced him. We met at a bar. Olivia then chimed in after she noticed quizzical looks."

"Okay first off that was the night Leah got us kicked out of the fucking bar. Leila, over here, left right before we got kicked out and being the wino she was that night took a fall and Ethan here, well, he helped her. Luckily he helped me that night as I didn't seem to be getting along very well with our garbage can."

Leah states, "Really Olivia, it was my cousin's boyfriend! What was I supposed to do be cool about it?"

"You really have dual personalities because if you were sober and saw that shit, well guess what….you wouldn't do shit!"

I can see Ethan giggling at my friends banter. They are quite the comic relief, in confrontation as well.

The guys start telling us that we need to go. Ethan takes me by the hand leading me to the door.

"Ready for tonight babes?"

"Its SO ON like Donkey Kong!"

"You guys are so annoyingly nerdy and cheesy!" She gets up and grabs her purse. "Lets head out y'all!" Olivia hails from Alabama. She doesn't have that much of an accent anymore but when it comes out its full force and southern as hell!

We take three cabs each. All I know is that me and Ethan are in a cab of our own. While we ride out to the club I lay my head on his chest in the backseat and take him in. I love this man. I really do. If it ended tomorrow I would be devastated yet the whole "it is better to have loved really loved and lost then to never have loved at all" sets its mantra in my mind. This man has given me three weeks of pure bliss and I wouldn't exchange it for the world. The world of Christian Grey has become a blur. Ethan Kavanagh is my other half. He is my soul mate.

We get to Tequileras within a half an hour. We head inside and Olivia is party mode focused. "C'mon batches! PARTY SHOTS NOW!"

Ethan grabs my arm once we are at the bar. "Lele are you sure you ready to get wild with the rest of them?"

I smirk. "Ethan Kavanagh they will drink themselves to oblivion. This I'm sure of, however, the real focus is on you and me tonight over some shots and whiskey. I'm planning to get wild and out with you. Are you down?"

"I'm down. However, Leila, I'm taking care of you so I will watch my intake."

"Ethan I can take care of myself. Hell, I've done it all my life."

"I wasn't in your life before. I am here now. I will take care of you the best I can." He seems so sincere as his eyes pierce through mine as he says this.

I grab his cheeks. "Yes you will pookie bookie boo! Excuse me! Two shots of whisky!"

"You got it honey!" The bartender grabs a bottle of whisky. She is being very generous tonight…

2 hours later…..

"Keep dancing Ethan." The rhythmic sounds of Rhianna resonate throughout the club. I'm attempting to be a sultry erotic dancer to Ethan however I am almost falling to the floor each time I go down. Could never dance sober and I sure as hell can't do it tossed! Each time I start to fall he picks me up and holds me close to him. I laugh each time.

"Baby you wanna go home?" Ethan is a bit tipsy but far from my level. "My house or yours?"

"I want to go to your house! Wait! Will your dad be there?"

"No", he laughs. We have a place out here that me and Kate use when we come to visit family or when I need to be here on business. My mom and dad prefer to stay in these luxurious five star hotels.

"Well then, to your place Mr. Kavanagh. The house will be super crowded if we head back to my place."

"I can imagine." He looks over his shoulder and sees our group in their own individual wasteland."

"You would think that when they leave they will want to sleep. But no, they'll talk to you until the sun comes up."

"Well then, let me get you home babe."

We head over to the our friends that are probably on their 7th shot each.

"Hey, me and Ethan are leaving. See you guys later. Good times!" I smile and grab his hand to quickly pull him to the entrance so we can leave. I just want to be alone with him already.

Ethan makes his rounds as the girls give him side hugs. Well Leah actually almost fell over him. The guys shakes hands with him and we are out.

As we pull further away from the group Hunter, Mitchell, Leah, and Sabi start whistling and making catcalls. "OOOOOOOOO!" "Score!"

Sabi walks over, actually staggers, towards me. She leans in and whispers in my ear. "Before he womanizes, make sure he condomizes!"

I laugh hysterically. She whispers this in my ear as if she is giving me classified information from the federal government.

Olivia comes out the bathroom and sees us walking out. She rushes towards us with roadrunner speed. "Le, let me speak with Ethan real quick!" She is tipsy for sure but I step aside as she grabs his hand and drags him to the corner of the bar.

"Ethan its Olivia."

He laughs. "Yes I do know you quite a bit more now Olivia."

"Do you like my friend?"

I overhear this question and then see him whisper something in her ear. After he moves away from her she gasps in shock. She smiles and grabs him and gives him a hug. She looks at me, runs towards me and gives me a huge bear hug!

"Olivia is everything alright? What did he say to you?" I'm nervous and on edge.

"He said he really liked you. He said not to worry about you tonight that he was yours to protect now. Oh Lele he only wants to take care of you. Oh and he's taking you to his place." She winks at me as she says this last sentence.

"Whats with the eye twitch."

"Maybe tonight is the night."

"Yeah right, I don't think so. I just want to fall asleep with him that's all."

"Sleep…..riiiiiiiggggghtt. Okay well I'll see you in the morning, hopefully both of you.

We hug goodbye and catch a cab to his apartment. He helps me upstairs and as soon as we are through the front door I plop myself down on the couch.

I scan his apartment. It is much bigger than me and Olivia's place and nicely decorated.

"You have great style Ethan."

Can't take credit for all this. Its mostly Kate's handiwork however my efforts here shouldn't go unnoticed. You will be pleased to know that I picked the soaps for the showers and I change the toilet paper when needed. I giggle at his cuteness.

"Can I get you something? Water? Do you feel sick?"

Lovesick. No I'm good, thanks. I don't feel sick at all anymore. I could use another drink or beer. Do you have anything?"

"I have some beers in the fridge."

"I'll take one. Have one with me? Its just us now."

"Of course."

He takes the beers from the fridge and brings it to living room. He opens mine and his. Before we drink he insists we cheers on something.

I hold up my beer first. "To not falling on concrete today!"

He smiles up at me and grabs my free hand enfolding his fingers with mine. He lifts his beer and says, "To Leila, I've never been this happy before. When I'm with you I embrace each moment. You have painted a permanent picture on my heart. I don't want to ever let you go." I instantly clink his beer and drink. I then look up at him and he kisses me. I back off quickly to talk to him more.

"Ethan, I just want to let you know that I am so blessed to have you come into my life. I want us to be honest and open with each other. Look not too long ago I had a nervous breakdown of some sorts." Im fighting back tears as I start to tell him part of a dark chapter in my life.

I talk to him softly hoping not to scare him. I have a doctor, a psychiatrist type doctor. When things went badly for me I broke down into a psychotic episode and was sent to a wellness clinic here in New York. Olivia doesn't know about this stuff. Please don't judge me Ethan. I am not that person any longer and then I met you and…I breakdown and cry. I pull myself into a fetal position. Ethan then comes and sits behind me and unwraps my arms from my legs. He puts his arms around me so that my arms are now resting on his arms. He whispers in my ear.

"I don't judge you baby. You are a strong person." As he says this tears still stream down my eyes. If he only knew more. "You left your family and went out on your own to come out to Seattle to start a career in art. You came to New York and started a brand new life. You have friends that genuinely love you. You are amazing with people like Mr. Giordano who gave you your own art studio. There is something special about you Leila and I see it. I see what everyone else sees."

Lightly sobbing I continue to speak. "Ethan I just don't want you to think that I'm some dumb psycho bitch with personality problems. I wanted to start a brand new life and then you came into the picture. It felt destined and it felt right, more so than anything I have ever felt."

"Leila why did you get hurt?"

No, I can't tell him about Christian Grey. He probably has heard of him and then will think I'm real fucking mad. Oh Ethan yes, um, I had a breakdown because I was a submissive in BDSM relationship with a Christian Grey, oh wait you know, Christian Grey multi-billionaire of the entire United States of America. I signed disclosure agreements anyways. He would have my life I believe if anyone found out what our relationship was really like. Even though its true it really does sound crazy! I just won't tell him that I know him.

"Some real rich guy really knew how to make me feel important and then tear my heart out. I knew the whole time it couldn't be love however I wanted it to be love so bad that I had myself convinced that if I loved him so much he would eventually love me back. That backfired tremendously. Funny thing is, when I met you the feelings I had for him didn't compare to you to in the least.

He glares at me in confusion. My words right now are definitely thought provoking for him I'm sure. I continue before he becomes dismayed.

"What I thought about him was in no way comparison to what I feel for you and what I think about you. I don't need much in life Ethan. I don't need fancy this or fancy that I just need you. You are the riches I desire and I need and I want Ethan."

"Baby I love you."

My heart stopped. It was beating and I felt it stop however I was still breathing.

"Ethan you know we really like each other, I like you, you like me, and we have had a ton of alcohol this evening." There I go with my die-hard habit of rambling on. He presses his hand across my mouth and turns me around. He is sitting on the floor and I'm now sitting on top of him legs straddled around his waist. I realize the dress I'm wearing is riding up towards my stomach but I do not care.

"Leila I was drawn to you the minute I looked into your eyes. I know you love me too don't you?" He stares into my eyes waiting for an answer. He starts kissing my shoulders.

"Ethan Kavanagh, I do love you."

We begin kissing slowly then become more aggressive as minutes pass by. I get up from his embrace and pull my dress back down. He stands up with me.

"Please take me." I become vulnerable to this man. I am going to offer myself to him tonight. Maybe Olivia was right. However, in this situation I am not a past time. I am not a pleasant distraction. I am the object of Ethan Kavanagh's affection and I want him now.

"Baby are you sure. I don't mind taking things slow. You mean so much to me Leila."

"I've never felt so ready." I was being completely honest. All the sexual relationships I had previously had been provoked by the men. I consented but I was never truly ready. With Ethan I knew that I was ready.

He makes his way closer towards me and takes my hand. In what seems to be the longest walk I have ever taken he leads me to a back bedroom that has a large canopy bed with flowing fabric wrapped around the bedposts. There are French doors on the side of the room that leads to a balcony that overlooks the city. The furniture is Victorian style. It couldn't have been anymore romantic.

I lay on the bed. He lies next to me. I stare into his eyes and can see his soul. He is a beautiful soul. He takes his hand and pushes my hair behind my ears. He smiles at me but says nothing. He gently pulls my face towards him and starts kissing me slowly. He pulls me closer to him. I feel his hand gradually make its way from the small of my back to my derriere. He then makes his way to the zipper of my dress not losing his focus with his mouth. The sound of my zipper making its way to the bottom activates all my senses. Ethan stops kissing me and asks me to stand up. I do as I am told. I know he won't hurt me.

I stand on the edge of the bed with my dress hanging onto only by my shoulders.

"Let it fall."

I take the straps of my dress and let my dress hit the floor.

He brings me back to the bed and lies me down softly. He begins to kiss my neck and nibble at my ear as he gently caresses my body. I feel an explosion of moisture between my thighs as I ache inside for this man. I go for his shirt and start undoing the buttons one by one as he kisses me all over my neck. I pull his shirt off and nearly climax just by looking at him. His chest was perfectly built with broad shoulders. The perfect fit for when I lay my head against him.

As our lips continued to touch, tongues entwined, moving steadily and fast, Ethan moved his hands from my waist to my breasts and cupped them in his hands, massaging them gently. He then reached towards the back and unclipped my bra pulling it off of me.

He put his hand over my chest massaging each of my breasts but stopping in the middle each time. Leaving my mouth, he would make his way to my nipples and swirl each one with his tongue. I let out soft groans as they became erect and alert to his mouth. I felt disconnected from the world around us. I was his possession.

I felt his hands grab my panties and pull. I shuddered as he slid them down my legs.

As he held my panties he felt the inside of them between his fingers.

While rubbing my panties his eyes never lost contact with mine. His gaze was impenetrable.

"Baby, how ready are you for me to be inside of you?"

"Touch me."

I bring his fingers toward the apex of my thighs. Slowly he slips a finger inside of me and I let out a large gasp. As he takes his finger out of me he wipes my moisture on his hands. Without saying anything he stands up in front of me and begins to unbuckle his belt. He then pulls me from where I am laying on the bed and puts my hands on his jeans button. I quickly unbutton his jeans and undo his zipper letting his jeans fall to the floor. Before he can say anything I grab his boxer briefs and pull them down to the floor.

He falls onto me onto the bed. His erection pressed against me. I rub my hand slowly against him. He grabs my fingers wanting them to rest upon his secret spot. I stroke him gently and he begins to let out soft moans. While I caress him he slips his fingers inside of me moving from circling motions to up and down. My body trembles at his mercy. My legs begin to feel weak. This feels so natural, so comfortable. I'm nervous yet comfortable. Do those two feelings really go together?

"Hold on baby."

He gets up and walks over to the dresser and pulls out a condom. My breathing is staggered at this point.

He walks over to the bed and hovers over me. I hear the packet tear and hear him ready himself, my eyes never breaking focus off this man.

He catches my gaze and grabs my face between his hands.

"Leila I want us both to experience a change tonight. You and me were two different people before but now we are one in the same, connected to each other. No matter whats happened in the past we've let it go. Right now we are letting it go."

I nod my head in agreement consumed by passion and soft tears of joy.

I meet Ethan's mouth with such quickness as his tongue darts inside of me. A moment later he lifts my body off the bed and enters me. I scream as the anticipation matched expectation. He thrusts in and out of me with cruel intensity.

"Always be mine?" He looks at me and asks me as his body pounds into mine.

"Always."

We match each others rhythm and pick up speed. I can barely contain my composure.

I grab his face so he can look me. My eyes are lowered and I am panting. I'm ready to release. His face never leaves mine, his eyes closing every few seconds and his breathing becoming heavy. He wraps his arms around my waist pulling me off the bed thrusting into me hard. I find my release. At the same time so does he, the condom expanding within me as my moisture encloses it.

After a few more moments he pulls out of me. He leans down and kisses me softly. In a blink of an eye he carries me up into his arms and makes his way towards the bathroom to clean up. I love this man.

After we've cleaned up a bit we get back into bed together.

"I think it is safe to say that we have completed all matters of interrogation Mr. Kavanagh."

"I believe you may be right Inspector. Did I meet you expectations?" He asks me in a playful tone with a large grin.

I leap on top of him straddling him playfully.

"That and more. Always more." I lay on top of him and he wraps his strong, protective arms around me.

"Goodnight." I mutter.

"Goodnight baby." He brushes my hair back kissing my forehead. I lay on his chest and fall asleep. I have reached Nirvana.

The next morning I wake up to raindrops falling against the windowpane. He looks so heavenly laying there under the covers. I decide to shower and get ready for a very likely round 2.

I decide to write him a cute note to leave on his pillow while I'm showering. Naked, I run to find my purse in the living room as I have a notepad and pen in there. Dammit! Where did I leave it! I'm in panic. I hope I didn't leave it in the cab. No, I know I had it with me. I scan the area of the living room. As I'm bent down I hear the front door latch. SHIT! FUCK! I'm naked hiding behind a sofa and someone's here.

"Ethan!" "Ethan I saw your car downstairs I know you're here!" "Its Kate!"

"Oh shit! Its his sister. Oh I'm going into a full blow anxiety attack right about now!" She makes her way to the bedroom. She stops and picks up something. She found my purse.

I hear her rush into the bedroom.

"ETHAN!"

"Kate! What the fuck are you doing here!"

"Your naked?! Well….this tops one of the most awkward moments ever."

"What are you doing here?" I can hear the frustration in his voice.

Well you've been shining me off for quite sometime I was worried about you. Dad said you were here so I told Elliot I needed to get away for a few days to see my family."

"Is he here too?"

"No just me."

"You didn't bring Anastasia right? You two are conjoined at the hip."

"You swear Christian would let Anastasia leave anywhere with me for a few days. I'm in town until next week then Elliot will come to get me."

It can't be. It fucking can't be. Kate is with Christian's brother. She is friends with Anastasia Steele. The world around me is getting dimmer. The only chance I have is that she doesn't know me. Hopefully. I wrap my head into a fetal position.

"So where is she Ethan?"

"Where is who?"

"Don't be coy! I saw a woman's purse in here." Kate starts opening doors and looking under the bed. I grab a pillow from the sofa to hide my um….goodies…and scramble to find a better hiding place.

"Kate get out! I'll call you in a couple hours we will hang I promise.

I turn the corner to get into a bathroom (so I thought) however little did I know the layout of the house in that the door that was in the bedroom wasn't connected to a bathroom it was connected to the other bedroom. Kate storms in and we are face to face.

Holding the pillows against me I look her straight in the eye.

"Hi, I'm Ethan's girlfriend, Leila, pleased to meet you!" I smile out of sheer nervousness.

Kate drops my purse in stunned silence.