Chapter Nineteen

Toby sat on the white fluffy couch in Hanna's loft, waiting for her arrival. She had given him the key only two weeks ago, and after what he was about to tell her, he debated to himself, if she would take it back. Would Hanna hate him? Would she break up with him, making his child's life terrible, not even knowing what it feels like to have a true family. Would they have to go to court for custody rights? These were his biggest thoughts. Also, other thoughts lurked deep in his mind. What Spencer had said, about them not being able to even be friends any more if he told Hanna. Toby felt like Hanna needed to know, maybe she would understand. He was vulnerable, and tired. He wasn't thinking straight, but that was the denial talking. Toby knew that the kiss didn't happen just because of him being in a vulnerable state, or the fact that it was almost two A.M. He knew deep inside, that he still had feelings for Spencer. But right now, he had to push those feelings aside, because he was going to be a daddy. He was going to be a parent, with Hanna, not Spencer. He had to put Hanna and the baby in front of Spencer.

As minutes passed by, Toby got bored and ended up flipping through one of Hanna's vogue magazines, that laid all over the house. After two minutes of reading it, he threw it back on the coffee table in disgust. He really was losing his mind. Toby hit his head against the couch, and closed his eyes. After, the other day, his sleeping schedule got totally screwed with. He had work all week, and the weekend was coming, but not soon enough. It was only Tuesday, sadly. Toby ended up drifting off, Hanna came home, and saw him. She cooed, and decided to let him get some sleep. She cuddled up next to him, and closed her eyes drifting off into a sound sleep.

Toby bolted his eyes down, slightly confused, on when and where he was. He glanced down at the blond beauty snuggled with, and all of his thoughts came back to him. He gulped. Hanna suddenly too, was awake. With a yawn she sat up, greeted her boyfriend with a peck on the lips, and waited for him to speak. "So," he began. He felt like someone was holding his tongue, like the words wouldn't come out.

"Sorry I was late." She rolled her eyes. "I read online that coffee is bad for the baby, so I haven't had any today, and I've been a little slow."

"It's fine." Toby said softly looking down at her stomach. No, she didn't look pregnant. But, it was still early. Hanna followed his gaze to her stomach.

"I can't believe that some one is living inside there." Her voice trailed.

"Me neither." He breathed. You're dad is a dickhead. Toby kept telling him self, how was he even supposed to tell Hanna? She trusted him, and he blew it. They were having a baby, and he was off making out with Spencer. Toby disgusted himself. "Hanna," his voice trailed unsteadily.

"Mhm?" She mumbled still looking at her flat stomach in awe.

How did he begin? "I-" He sputtered. What good would come in telling Hanna? Zip. Although, she deserved to know. If he really loved her he would tell her. Toby swallowed hardly. Telling Hanna would make her stress out even more. "I umm" He mumbled as he convinced himself out of it. Maybe, he should just live with the guilt. Hurting Hanna like that, didn't seem right. "I'm just excited to see if we're having a boy or a girl." He said plastering a phony smile to his face. Hanna beamed at him.

"You're excited?" She said a smiling luring on her face.

"Well, I'm scared." He shrugged. "But, yeah." He nodded.

"Well, I read that you usually don't know till the second trimester, so that isn't exactly too soon. But, I do have a doctor's appointment." She told him. "On Friday morning." She offered.

"Can I go with you?" He asked.

"Yeah," She nodded with a smile. "That would be nice." She finally looked at him.

The days passed slowly, and Toby avoided Spencer. It seemed like she was avoiding him too, she was the only one who knew about Hanna being pregnant. It wasn't a huge secret or anything, just he hadn't really told any one else. Wren was pissed at him, Emily was busy with her own relationship problems with Maya, telling Caleb or Holden was just as useless as telling a brick wall. The only reason he had been avoiding the brown-eyed girl, is because of confrontation He was going to talk to her, at one point or another.

Toby stood in the small hospital room with Hanna waiting for the nurse, or doctor, or whoever. The lights were practically blinding, and the sun was seeping past the blinds. It was a hot day, especially for September. There were practically no clouds, just pure sunlight hovering over the sky. Toby was holding Hanna's hand, and he was physically there. But, the rest of him was completely gone. The guilt feeling in the pit of his stomach seemed like it was just getting more knotted as time passed.

"Hello I'm Danielle Lusmon," A female nurse came in through the door. Her dirty blond hair in a pony tail, and a clip board in hand. She smiled at Hanna, then Toby. "I just have a few questions." She began, which led to, not a few, but a lot of questions. Around twenty questions later, the nurse smiled and put her clipboard on counter behind her. Next, the faucet went on and she began to wash her hands, before slipping some latex gloves on. Next the doctor came over to Hanna, and with Hanna's approval pulled up her shirt and began feeling around her flat stomach.

She moved her hands almost every inch around Hanna's stomach. She pulled out her stethoscope, and then moved it around her stomach too. The nurse's brown eyes seemed flustered, as her eye brows knitted together. "Some thing wrong?" Hanna asked worry lines increasing. Toby stood behind the nurse watching her every move.

"Um," She mumbled. "Let me get ready for the ultra sound." The nurse said, as she warned Hanna of the gel's coolness, before applying it on her stomach. Next she booted up the machine and roamed over Hanna's stomach with the device. Hanna and Toby watched the nurses every movement, and Toby bit his cheek nervously. "I'm going go get Dr. Alliercro." The nurse said a flustered look on her face, before rushing out of the room. Toby and Hanna sat in silence, both confused, and more nervous than ever.

The doctor came in. She had short black hair, and brown freckles all over her button up nose. She too repeated the nurse's actions, and after another fifteen minutes. She backed away from Hanna, picked up her charts and went over them with Hanna again. Dr. Alliercro cleared her throat.

"Now, you said you started feeling the nauseous, the nausea stopped, but this morning you had morning sickness?" The doctor clarified, her brown eyes locked on Hanna. Hanna nodded. Dr. Alliercro fluttered her eyes and handed the charts to the nurse beside her. "What we have here is what we call a false pregnancy or false positive." The doctor began, as both Hanna and Toby looked more alert then ever. "You may have just skipped your period, due to eating habits, a new sleeping schedule, anything really. A change of hormones." The doctor's voice trailed.

"What?" Hanna blurted.

"The nausea could have just been something you ate, or I don't really know. See, your body can play tricks on you. Sometimes, when you think your pregnant, your body developes those symptoms because that's what you think. You send signals to your brain, which controls your body." The doctor went on. Toby didn't even understand. Was Hanna not pregnant?

"So wait," Hanna's voice trailed. Her eyes becoming distant. "What about the baby?"

"There was no baby." The doctor said with a huff.

"But, I took a pregnancy test. It came out-"

"Positive," The doctor nodded. Her black hair bouncing along with her bobbing head, "It's rare. But, it happens. There are many reasons this could happen, the tests could just be plain old wrong, your body could have detected a HCG hormone in your body, it doesn't make sense really. But, it happens. There was never a baby." The doctor said sort of softening her tone. "I'm sorry Ms. Marin."

Hanna gaped, and Toby's eyes became distant. They said there thank yous to the doctors, and excited the hospital. Hanna and Toby sat in her car speechless. Both, not even looking at each other. It was a lot to sink in.

"So, I guess we don't have to be parents." Hanna finally blurted.

"Yeah," Toby sighed with relief. Hanna broke out into a smile, and bit her lip. Toby mimicked her smile, and couldn't deny that this made his life a lot less stress free. Still, the guilt stayed with him. Now, he had no reason, not to tell Hanna right? Toby was so unsure at this point. For now, things seemed to be better. He wasn't ready to be a dad, and now he didn't have to be one.

Life seemed better, although Toby still had much on his plate. He needed to clean off the plate, he knew it had to be done.

After celebrating with Hanna at drinks at the bar, Hanna saying that 'if there's no baby inside me, then I'm gonna get drunk baby!' She ended up getting a tad to drunk, Toby had to nearly pry the keys away from her to drive her home. He tucked her into her bed, and she begged him to stay. Now, normally he would. But, tonight he just couldn't. He didn't know if it was because of the big shock of today, the fact that he had barely slept the whole week and just wanted to be in his own bed, or maybe it was Spencer. He didn't know. What he did know, is that he was going to have to call one of his friends to pick him up. It was nearly two a.m and Spencer had work the next day bright and early, Wren was obviously still pissed, Emily would most likely be sleeping, so he decided to call up Holden, the night owl.

Holden picked him up, and made some sex joke to Toby. Something about Toby 'dining and dashing'. Toby laughed at his immature friend's joke, and Toby knew as sure as hell, that Holden wasn't ready to be a father. After his friend dropped him off at his apartment, Toby nearly flew to his bedroom. Maybe, he could finally have a good night sleep. Although, the thought of Hanna, and Spencer, and the bitter-sweet kiss of guilt found its way back into his mind. Eventually, Toby fell asleep. He would figure out things in the morning.

So this chapter is Bittersweetsweet right? I mean, Toby didn't tell Hanna. Hanna isn't actually pregnant. So, I hope that will keep your pitch forks down for a while. Although, the bad part was no spoby! :p sorry. it's a story. Some chapters have to be like this because, they just do for the story to make sense. Well, there will be spoby in the next chapter. So don't worry.

Also Alliercro was the first one to guess it. So, I wasn't sure if this was the name you wanted me to use. So sorry:x But, I used you as the doctors name and yeah. hahah. And i'll also give a shout out to the others who got it right!

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