"You love him?!" Loki bit his cheek as Thor screamed above him. He couldn't meet Thor's icy eyes or enraged face, to overcome by fear and anger to move or even breath. "You love him?!" He repeated, the thunder shook behind them as he shouted, looming over Loki's figure on the floor. "Well this is just great- you're a God Loki-" Loki looked up then, his hands were shaking and he had to grip his hair to prevent him punching the wall of his apartment down. He couldn't take Thor's bashing now and screamed to silence him. His loud, almost feminine scream worked and Thor became silent. Loki sighed unsteadily; his shoulders were shaking as he bunched up his legs up to his chest, his fingers were shredding up his scalp, he hissed as he slowly began to draw blood across his head. His tears began to fall down his cheeks thickly as he thought about what a mess he had put himself into.
"Do you think I wanted this?! Do you think I wanted to fall in love with someone, more importantly a mortal?!" Loki screamed, his eyes continued to produce tears as he shouted loudly. Thor instantly backed away three paces when Loki shrieked. "I don't know what to do Thor and you're shouting isn't making things better! Why are you even here, shouldn't you be tending to our father?! Just leave me alone to die!" He didn't care how childish he sounded, his voice finally cracked from the unfamiliar volume and he leant over coughing and crying on his apartment floor, all self-respect Loki had, was now a very long time, Thor said nothing. He watched his brother recover slowly, taking in his tear-stained face and hunched shaking spine, his head was half buried in his folded arms and his long legs were half dragged up to his chest and his whole body was trembling with pure fear for the man he loved. He drew closer to Loki, lowering down to his height and putting his hand on Loki's shoulder. His skin was bitterly warm for a change, regardless of his trembling body. He grabbed his brother's chin, forcing him to look at him.
"Loki…being in love shouldn't be such a burden, I hate to see you like this and I wish I could help you." Loki nodded, his eyes falling across his brothers face for any hints of a lie, but he could find none. Thor sighed unevenly, his thumb tracing Loki's jaw bone. "I am sorry brother but I have worse news and it is my right to tell you…" Loki growled, but his growl came out as a hiccup as he struggled for air under Thor's strong hands pressing into his shook out of Thor's hands, but continued to hold his head towards Thor."Father has fallen to Odinsleep and mother has asked for your return…" Loki chuckled sadly, fresh tears falling down his cheeks. It was just his luck. "I won't push you, but we all miss you Loki, all of us." Thor patted his shoulder, leaning forward and pressing his lips to his brother's brow. "I must leave, but I will return in four days…it should give you enough time to think this through." And with that, Thor was gone.
Loki loved his family, but he loved Tony as well. To weight up the pros and cons would only make him more upset, it would only confuse him further and make him so much more attached to each side so when a decision had to be made, he psychically couldn't. Loki knew what he had to do, he knew what the right thing to do was, but his heart wouldn't follow. He could tell his soul would hate him for it for many years to come, but it would be for the best for everyone and the best is the only option he has.