Author Notes: I have not seen season 3 or 4 because I just got into this show after Alexz guest star role on Smallville. I have plans for Kwest and Jamie; so don't worry you'll be getting much more of them as chapter go on. I have Kwest being around three years older than Tommy. I am sorry it took so long to updates, but I had finales and they were a killer. But hey just one more semester than I have my degree.

Pairing: Jude/Tommy;

Summary: Tommy shares his past with Jude—Jude confesses her feelings to Tommy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or its characters.

Rate: NC-17

Season: 1

Category: Romance

Spoilers: All of Season One

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Tommy moved around his kitchen, setting the timer on the oven as he put in his pan. He turned around seeing Jude going through the folder of pamphlets that Sadie had handed her when she dropped her off. Jude's parents were out of town until tomorrow afternoon, so that meant she could spend the entire night with him. He watched her uncross her legs and cross them again, sucking in a deep breath as the hem of her skirt rose up. Leaning back he watched her push a piece of her red hair out of the way revealing she was wearing the bracelet he got for.

Walking more towards her he smiled, she wore a white button up blouse with a black skirt today. Darius order her to wear something nice for the meeting they just got done with. She refused to wear green or pink since Shay would be attending the meeting as well. Georgia had wanted Tommy there but both Darius and Tommy thought it best if he missed this one. Jude smiled when she felt the feeling like she was being watched she knew she should have changed before coming over her.

"What do you think," Jude asked waving the pamphlet in front of him. "Because truthfully I'd like to wait as long as possible to have that conversation with my parents."

"Sadie does have a point," Tommy sighed frowning remembering when his mother tried to have the talk with him. "But then your parents are going to know we're having sex when you tell them about us."

"I'm sixteen so they can't have you arrested," Jude half joked getting a glare from him.

"You were barely sixteen the first time," Tommy reminded her, because those thoughts had entered his mind more than once.

"So we are still on the waiting decision," Jude grinned happily, she really did not want to talk with her mother about sex. It was bad enough that Sadie wanted to talk about it with her.

"You leave for tour in a few days," Tommy said coming to sit next to her. "So I don't see why waiting to have the conversation is going to hurt anyone."

"That sounds so weird," Jude laughed all giddy, complexly zoning out the last sentence. "I'm going on tour…I never thought I'd be able to say that even after I won Instant Star."

"I know," Tommy agreed smiling then he started to fake a pout, as he reminded her of the only down side. "For three very long months."

Jude laughed as she saw Tommy fake a pout. Neither one of them were too keen on the fact that they would not be able to see each other for three months. It also did not help that she would be sharing the tour bus with three teenage boys. Though Tommy knew he had no fear with them, Wally had a girlfriend, Kyle was crushing on Portia and Spied was too much like he was. He didn't want a girl like Jude; because girls like her did not hook up they wanted commitment. But the fact still remained; he would have to go three months without her.

Jude moved over to straddle his lap wrapping her arms around his neck. Tommy smiled as he tilted his head up to meet hers in a soft kiss. Jude smiled against his lips as his arms went around her waist pulling her closer. Jude opened her mouth to his, Tommy groaned at the invitation to taste the sweetness that was Jude Harrison. Tommy did love it when she wore dresses or skirts. Jude moaned as he moved his hands from her waist to move up her legs. Tommy groaned as Jude moved her lips, to nibble along his jaw line.

Rolling them over Tommy smiled as he settled in between her legs. Bending down he smiled as Jude welcomed his mouth, pulling his shirt out of his pants to feel his skin. Tommy moaned as her hands made contact with his skin at the exact same second she rocked her hips upwards to make contact with his. Both of them groaned when the buzzer went off telling him that what he had on the stove was done.

"Why can't you be like normal guys and order in," Jude pouted as he rushed into the kitchen before the contents in the pan burned.

"Because I never get to cook," Tommy laughed turning off the fire, as he got a strainer for the potatoes. "Besides there is something we need to talk about during dinner."

"It doesn't have to do with us breaking up, does it," Jude asked scared mainly because he had been acting off all day. She was slightly afraid he wanted to take a break during the three months.

"What…no," Tommy swore shaking his head as he sucked in a deep breath. "It's something I've wanted to talk about for awhile but kept putting it off."

"Okay," Jude said still weary as to what he wanted to talk about, but she could tell that it was important.

Jude watched as he got their dinner ready. The fact that Tommy could cook surprised a lot of people, but he told her that it was one thing his mother gave him. She did love watching him in the kitchen, he moved with such confidence and ease. Jude actually loved watching him do anything in his own place because all his shields came down. There was no fear of someone catching them, this was the one place they could just be them. Looking up he gave her his classic grin that always made her heart skip a beat.

Tommy knew that she had been worried about him breaking it off with her, but that had nothing to do with tonight. Part of him wanted to throw the food down and drag her off to his bedroom. This was probably the last real quiet moment they would have for three months but he couldn't. He needed to tell her the truth he needed to tell her about Angie and Portia. He needed her to understand why he put the shields up that he did. He needed her to see him for who he truly was.

Jude moved over the table as the oven buzzer went off. He had two plates already set with candles already on the table. She would offer to help but it would fall on deaf ears. She could not cook, nor did she pretend to either. It was decided after she made him one dinner that he would do the cooking. Though she did give him kudos for actually eating what she cooked. Looking up she smiled as he placed a plate of food in front of her, then took his seat.

"So what did you want to talk about," Jude asked taking a bite of her food.

"Something from my past," Tommy sighed putting his fork down, he wasn't that hungry. "When I was married to Portia I…I cheated on her with a woman named Angie."

"Oh," Jude mumbled, seeing what kind of conversation this was going to be. "Is that why you two divorced?"

"Yes and no," Tommy mumbled looking down fighting back the tears, then looking up. "Angie saw past Tommy Q, to her I wasn't a musician I was just Thomas. It felt nice to be with someone who wasn't star struck by me."

"Why are you telling me this," Jude asked laying her fork down confused by this confession.

"I had a choice to leave with Angie or stay with Portia," Tommy explained sucking in a deep breath, still fighting the tears. "Leaving with Angie meant no more music, she hated the music business."

"I take it you picked Portia," Jude guessed still wondering where this was going.

"Two weeks after I broke it off with Angie she died," Tommy told her now unable to hold back the tears. "She went out drinking, it was raining and the car went over a cliff into the ocean."

Jude got up from her chair rushing over to Tommy taking him into her arms. Tommy put his arms around her waist burying his face into her stomach as she smoothed back his hair. Jude began to see what Chaz was talking about; he said he refused to see Tommy hurt again. Chaz had been the one who picked Tommy up off the floor the night he got the call about Angie's death. Tommy fell the moment he got the call Chaz had to listen to the rest for him. He had to help carry him to his bed that night. He was the one who told Portia, who started to cry as well. There was no going back, there was not fixing their marriage after that.

Angela Grayson had been a school friend of Tommy's, and being with her reminded him of what he could have had. Tommy did fall for her, and if she had not been so against the music business they might have stood a chance. But Tommy Quincy was a musician; there was nothing else he could. Her family and Darius both agreed keeping her relationship with Tommy a secret was best. That way they could morn in peace, so he arrived a few days later to pay his respect to an old friend.

"We went to school together," Tommy whispered pulling away from her slowly. "I swore after her and Portia I'd never love anyone again."

"Tommy you were barely nineteen when your divorce was finalized," Jude frowned getting down on her knees.

"But I couldn't Jude," Tommy insisted remembering the day Portia told him she was leaving. "I could not go through all that again, so I dated the girls who wanted nothing but one night."

"Until me," Jude smiled, getting a small smile from him.

"You blasted into my life like lightening," Tommy laughed, because that was the only way he could describe it. One night he went to bed thinking about nothing special and the next he was thinking about her. In one day she had changed his life, she had consumed him. "I want you to know that I'm going to need patience...because I could love you."

"I'm not going anywhere," Jude told him sternly, than he looked up smirking softly getting a smile from her. "Well except for tour but you know what I mean."

"I don't deserve you," Tommy whispered as she rested her forehead against his.

"Yes you do," Jude objected softly, and Jude meant that. Tommy deserved to be loved more than anyone she knew.

******

Jude opened her eyes to the shock that Tommy was still asleep. Looking over at the clock she saw that it was past nine, she didn't know that Tommy was capable of sleeping this late. As long as she knew him he had always been up and ready by this time, complaining because she was still in bed. Rolling out of bed she slipped on the shirt he had on the night before. She would let him sleep, after last night he needed as much rest as he could get. His confession about Angie took a lot out of him; she spent most of the night just holding him.

Running her fingers through her long red hair she walked out of his bedroom. It was these moments that she liked to look at the few pictures he had of his past life. Since he and Chaz had made up he added some old Boyz Attack pictures to the collection. There was a few of him and Chaz, then a couple of him with Chaz and Bruno. Looking over he saw one of a younger looking Tommy and a younger looking Kwest. She then saw some people she didn't know, and suspected that they were his family. Her eyes went to Tommy having his picture taken with a man and his bride. The woman was beautiful, her blond hair pinned up with flowers.

Looking down that got Jude thinking about Tommy and Portia's wedding. She knew that Tommy and Portia's wedding was in Vegas, she also knew it was not done at some tacky chapel. Chaz picked one that had a minister who was dressed normal, while Portia went out to get a dress and Tommy went to get the rings. Tommy told her that the proposal, preparations and wedding all happened within a four period. Tommy also said that Darius nearly killed him when they told him.

"Jude," Tommy groaned rubbing his eyes.

"You always look so adorable when you wake up," Jude gushed smiling.

"Thanks," Tommy rolled his eyes still squinting at the sunlight. "What are you looking at?"

"Just you and Kwest," Jude smiled walking towards him. "You two have been friends a long time."

"Kwest is the one person who has always had my back," Tommy told her with a soft smile as he remembered all the time Kwest picked him up. "I can't tell you how many times I called him at three in the morning…he came every time."

"Anyone can see you two are like brothers," Jude answered softly taking a picture down of a younger looking Tommy and Kwest. "Kwest really admires you."

"After Angie I realized I wanted more than just Boyz Attack so I made the decision to leave and Kwest was right there for me," Tommy smile softly taking the picture from her, then frowned remembering when he thought he was all alone. "When Portia left me he was there...I didn't even have to call him he just showed up. For a long time he was all I had."

Tommy walked over to his couch just looking at the picture. Though in the picture Tommy looked happy the smile on his face was a fake. This picture had been taken only a week or so after Portia left. Kwest had taken him out for lunch and they bumped into a few friends, next thing he knew they were out on a boat. Kwest never left his side that day, staying by his side that night after he had too much to drink. Kwest helped him inside shutting the curtains so the sun would not wake him up the next day. Kwest saved him in those few months, without him Tommy knew he wouldn't be here.

Jude watched Tommy look at the photo she knew it was at least four or five years old. She watched Tommy quickly wipe the tears away as memories came crashing down on him. The fight he had with Kwest's mother who swore Tommy destroyed her son's bright future. Tommy had met Kwest at a party one night. Kwest had just finished his first year of college; he was supposes to become a lawyer, meet a nice girl, have a few kids and die in the small city he was born in. Kwest had taken over for the guy who was doing the music; he was a natural at all the technical stuff. So Tommy got Darius to hire him for the summer, but Kwest never left.

"Did Chaz and Kwest always dislike one another," Jude inquired remembering the tension between them during the recording sessions.

"No, at one time they were great friends," Tommy nodded his voice getting real low he leaned back as Jude sat next to him. "Portia left me a couple months after I left Boyz Attack. When Kwest called, Chaz told him that I was getting what I deserved. Kwest just can't forgive him for that, for turning his back on me when I needed him the most."

"That is what kept you guys from making up isn't it," Jude realized now really understanding why Tommy didn't want to forgive Chaz at first. "It wasn't really about you leaving, but because you couldn't trust Chaz not to turn on you when you needed him again."

"I can't say I have fully forgiven Chaz," Tommy sighed putting the picture down on the coffee table, leaning his head to the side to look at her. "But I do know Chaz hates himself for how he handled it, and he won't forgive himself until Kwest does."

"What do you think Kwest will say when he finds out about us," Jude smirked as she moved to straddle his hips, getting a grin from him.

"He'll kill me," Tommy shrugged then laughed at Jude's expression as his hands move up her naked legs to rest on her hips, biting back a groan as he realized all she had on was his shirt. "You remember what he said to me before your party, trust me he'll have a lot of words about it…and none of them will be good."

"At least you'll die happy," Jude told him leaning forward to capture his lips hungrily.

"Very happy," Tommy mumbled.

*******

This seemed so unreal to her right now, she just could not believe that she was about to go on tour. The last few days had been unbelievable to her. First there was Tommy's confession about his past. That had struck her heart because of the amount of pain Tommy had been. The hurt in his eyes had stayed there all day he just could not shake it. But at the same time she felt more connected to him. That no matter what happened, she would always be apart of him and he would always be apart of her.

The second was being told her new single; Pick up the Piece was in the number five spot. If it made it to number one this would make for her third number one hit off her debut album. She knew that she had Darius to credit for that, though she knew he was a jerk he did know how to do his thing. Plus despite the fact that Portia was Tommy's ex-wife she really love working with her.

And then there was this moment, the moments of getting ready for her first tour. She was moving stuff around in the bus she was just so giddy about this she could not stop herself. The only thing that would make this better was that if Kat had not left yesterday for her New York Internship. Looking to the side she saw Kyle's and Wally's bags. Kyle had moved their stuff in a few hours earlier, and Spied was on his way. She just stood there in the middle of the bus taking in the fact that this was her tour bus.

Tommy looked around as he walked nonchalantly to Jude's bus. He stopped to watch her as she moved around the bus moving things around to her liking. He laughed because there were times he saw him self in her and there were times like now that he saw Chaz. Chaz would rearrange all their items because he liked everything in a certain way. Opening the door he smirked as she turned around to smile at him, he just laughed as she blushed. No matter how much he looked he knew he would never find another girl quite like Jude Harrison.

Jude opened her mouth but was stopped by Tommy crushed her mouth into his. She moaned as he devoured her mouth, running his fingers through her hair. His hands slip down to her butt to lift her up so that her legs went around his waist. Then he pressed her against the door that closed off the sleeping area until he opened it, than opened another door. As he pushed her walked them inside the room that would be their bathroom she smiled against his lips. Right now he was really wishing that she had on a dress, it would have made this so much easier. Moving his mouth to her ear, Jude gasped as he nipped at the sensitive spot. As his hands went to her shirt, reality set in and Jude shook her head.

"Tommy we can't," Jude mumbled trying to resist she would not be caught like this by anyone. "Spied is on his way, we can not do this now."

Those words fell on deaf ears because he placed her down on top of the toilet. The bathroom if that is what you wanted to call it had a small shower, a sink with a mirror, and a toilet that he had advised them not to use. Actually Kwest had gone as far as to tell them not to go inside here if they could help it. This tour bus had been used by hundreds of new artist so only god knows what has passed through here. All Jude knew was that what ever story Kwest told Spied crept him out.

Just tried to push him away but Tommy took back her mouth as his hands went straight to her pants. Jude tried to stop him, but a girl could only do so much. Lifting her butt up, he quickly pulled them down her knees. Tommy broke this kiss and Jude leaned back against the wall to try and reclaim herself. Tommy smiled against her skin as Jude tried once again to push him away. Then he laughed when she let out a scream as his mouth attached itself to her swollen little nub. Tommy moaned to find that she was still wet from earlier.

It had only been an hour since they had started a very intense make out session in the back of his Viper. But they were interrupted by a call from Portia who want to know where she was. Portia then gave Jude twenty minutes to get here or else she was putting her in clothes her mother wouldn't wear. So they quickly but reluctantly tore apart, and she showed up to have Portia go over her first week of tour--again. EJ had gone over the same schedule only the day before but Portia said there had been changes, there hadn't.

Pulling her pants even more down her legs he tossed them on the ground. Tommy than moved her legs to go over his shoulder as he scooted her more toward his hungry mouth. Jude dropped her head back as she pulled at his hair. Tommy moved away from her center to her thighs, to move up to her stomach. Tommy smiled as Jude wiggled against him again, being with Jude was just too much fun sometimes.

"Tommy," Jude mumbled getting him to look up at her, he was going to miss this. The look she had in her eyes when he turned her one, when he brought her a little too close to the edge.

"No one will catch us," Tommy swore leaning forward to kiss her lips softly. "Kwest is picking Spied up and he says he won't be here for another two hours, and the rest of them won't be back for like four."

"Actually I was going to ask about protection," Jude explained knowing he didn't have any on him. They realized it after Portia called.

"Shit," Tommy mumbled as his head dropped down, he had forgotten.

Jude smiled as she slipped down from the toilet to where there were four bunk beds. Jude had lost the coin toss and was stuck with a bed underneath of Spied. She smiled at him as she took off her shirt tossing it to land on his head as she went to her purse. Tommy smiled as she pulled one out, than charged towards her as he started to undress. Jude quickly got rid of her bra, laughing as Tommy stopped to look at her in amazement.

By the time he got to her they were full undress, Jude smiled as he lifted her up. She groaned as her moist center came into contact with his hard erection. Bending them down to the bed that was hers she smiled. Moving his mouth to her breast he wanted to savor the taste of her skin. It was going to be at least three months before he could taste her again. Moving lower Jude gasped as he took no time in taking her clitoris into his mouth again. Jude grabbed her comforter, arching into his mouth. Using his thumb he separated the folder of her pussy. Jude raised her hips as he plunged two fingers inside of her. She was always so willing so giving; he was going to die without her.

Jude cried out as her first orgasm hit her hard in no time. This did not surprise him she had been really close in the bathroom. Usually they waited, allowed her to recover but not right now she wanted him now, plus she was still scared Spied would just show up. She pulled him towards her he smiled as his mouth crushed into hers. He took the foil package from her, knowing it was left over from their car sex a few days ago. He really loved his Viper that was one car he would never get rid of.

Jude dug her nails into his back as he entered her in one swift movement. Tommy broke the kiss he just wanted to enjoy the feeling of her. He wanted to put this encounter into his memory, so all the lonely night in the next three months were not so bad. Jude was the one who was eager to increase the pace, he smiled he had created a monster. She was getting as bad as he was. Tommy lost his control the moment she dug her nail into his butt as her teeth sank into his shoulder. This was one of the ways she had learned to get him to snap, and lucky for her it worked each time.

Capturing her mouth with his he hoped that he could swallow most of her cries and that she would swallow his. Normally he loved that he could make her scream, but seeing as the fact that someone might hear her he didn't want that. She brought him in as a deep as he would go, then he withdrew from her and slammed into her again. Digging her nails into his back Tommy swallowed her screaming out his name as her body shook, causing him to follow her soon after.

"I am going to miss you," Tommy mumbled rolling them so that she was on top of him, the bunk bed was just too small for two people.

"What if you meet someone while I'm on tour," Jude asked quietly.

"What," Tommy asked sure he didn't hear her right.

"This has nothing to do with what happened before," Jude assured him, because it was a thought that had been swimming in her head. "I just wondering…three months is a long time."

"Why would I settle for second place when I've had the real thing," Tommy told her smiling as he moved her hair out of the way. "I'm yours Jude you have all of me…besides I'm not the one who is going to be getting guys throwing them selves at them."

"Tommy, you can't pick up milk without getting offers," Jude reminded him laughing, getting a small laugh from him.

"Jude I am serious," Tommy stated calmly. "You have more of me than any other woman ever has."

"Tommy I know you said you could love me in time," Jude smiled widely. "I want you to know I am patient and I don't want you to ever say what you don't feel."

"But," Tommy frowned afraid he was not going to like this.

"I love you," Jude stated softly touching his face; Tommy's reply to was rolling on top of her as he connected their lips again.

Kwest looked at his watch as Spied carried his guitar on the bus. Everything had been moved in, and they were set to leave in less than three hours. Despite the fact that Spied seemed to be somewhat of an airhead, he was not that bad of a guy. Sucking in his breath Kwest smiled as he saw Spied's look of glee as he walked onto the bus. He knew for all of them this was beyond a dream come true, not only were they going on tour but a major tour. Kwest just took a moment to take in Spied's reaction, because there was nothing like a musician's first tour.

Spied look up at Kwest when he heard something in the back of the bus drop, Kwest gave him a look back when he heard male laughter. He knew that Kyle and Wally were not here yet. Kyle was at G-Major for another hour doing something for Portia, and Wally was at lunch with his family. Walking towards the door slowly he suspected it to be some teenager. Though it was not a real shock, there was nothing in this world that could have prepared for him what he found.

Tommy was jumping around trying to get his pants on while Jude was on the floor trying to find something. Looking up Kwest turned around as Jude's screamed as the door opened. Tommy pushed himself in front of Jude to hide the fact that she was shirtless. Spied just starred at Tommy for the longest time as he took in his appearance, the wrinkled shirt, the unbutton pants, the messy hair and flushed skin. Then his eyes went down to Jude who was trying to get her comforter wrapped around her.

"Eyes on me," Tommy yelled at Spied. "Better yet why don't you just leave?"

"It's my tour bus," Spied yelled back.

"Guys," Jude laughed hugging the comforter tightly around her shoulders she always got giddy when he got jealous. The idea that she could make anyone jealous shocked her.

"I knew it," Kwest smirked still having his back to Jude and Tommy. "Since her birthday, you two have been seeing each since her birthday."

"You knew," Jude gasped looking at Tommy, who shrugged. Kwest had always known him better than he knew himself so the statement didn't surprise him.

"I suspected then I knew when Molly came into town," Kwest answered turning to look at them, then looking at the ground when eh saw Jude was only coved by a comforter. "Why don't we let you finish getting dressed?"

"Actually I just need into the bathroom," Jude explained pointing behind him.

"Right," Kwest mumbled still not looking up, getting a laugh from Tommy as Kwest bumped into the door as he tried to move.

"You'd think you'd never seen a naked woman before," Tommy joked as Jude went into the bathroom, then he saw red as he saw Spied was not so nervous. "Could you not look at my girlfriend right now?"

"Oh my god," Kwest gasped shocked getting Tommy to meet his gaze. Now this part did shock him, because he had never heard him call anyone his girlfriend. Heck he had a hard time calling Portia his wife.

"Not one word," Tommy hissed buttoning his pants then running his fingers through his hair.

"I am so never sleeping on that bed," Spied mumbled softly as if he was in a trance.

Jude could not breath right now, she just could not breath. Kwest and Spied had found them together, and she had been naked. Quickly putting on her bra and shirt, she turned to look in the mirror. She began to fix her lipstick, than she picked up a brush trying to make her self look presentable, but also going quickly. Looking down then back up she wanted to laugh, this was not how they wanted people to find out. She could kill Tommy she knew this was how this was going to end, but damn it was worth it.

Kwest watched Tommy he didn't know if he should hit him or congratulate him. Calling a girl his girlfriend and getting jealous were not any two things he thought he would ever see. Yet there they were, as were his watching the bathroom door and Spied who was also watching the door. Kwest could laugh, this was almost too good. If he had been any other guy he would be making jokes right now, but he wouldn't for two reasons. The first being that Kwest knew Tommy's moods, and with the look he was directing at Spied he'd probably hit him just to get his frustrations out. The second was that he was too good of a friend. So he remained silent, because there would be other times.

"How did you know since Molly," Jude asked coming out of the bathroom looking for her shoes.

"Tommy has never said no to Molly or any other model for the fact since I met him," Kwest explained getting brought of his thoughts. "Then there was the lack of social life, Tommy hasn't had a date in months."

"You're having sex with him," Spied grumbled crinkling his nose as it all came crashing down on him at once. "He's like…dude really."

"What the hell is that supposes to mean," Tommy demanded.

"What are your intentions towards Harrison," Spied asked just as demanding maybe more.

"I don't think that is any of your business," Tommy laughed rolling his eyes, as Jude watched them with amusement.

"She is a member of my band, which makes her family so answer the question Quincy," Spied hissed.

"And I'd like to know as well," Kwest frowned coming to stand next to Spied. "Jude isn't like all the other girl you've been with, she's deserves better."

"I can't believe this," Tommy grumbled looking at Jude who was smiling in an attempt not to laugh, than he looked over at Spied and Kwest. "She's my girlfriend, what the hell do you think my intentions are."

"Does that mean you are only using her for fun because if so that would be so not cool," Spied grumbled angrily thinking of her breakup with Shay.

"Not to mention cruel," Kwest agreed with a nod giving Tommy a glare.

"Jude," Tommy begged looking at her with a pleading look. "Help me out here."

"Just answer the question truthfully," Jude smirked coming to stand by them playfully. "Do you have honorable intentions towards me or is this just a game to you Mr. Quincy."

"Jude," Tommy said through gritted teeth not enjoying this game right now. "Jude and I are a couple, we care for each other and we hope that everyone will accept us."

"So you do plan on coming out as a couple," Kwest inquired attempting to hide smile that was forming.

"Yes after the tour," Jude finally said getting a smile from Tommy. This look was all Kwest needed, the look they shared told him all he needed to know about their relationship.

"Listen up Lord Squinty Frown," Spied grumbled coming to stand only inches away from Tommy. "Jude is a music goddess and one that we have all come to love as a sister…so if you cause her once ounce of pain the guys and I will have no problem kicking your pretty boy ass."

"The brothers I never wanted," Jude laughed as Spied walked away from them before Tommy's shock wore off and he punched him.

"Lord Squinty Frown," Tommy yelled back at Spied who was out of ear shot.

The moment that Spied stepped off of the bus Kwest couldn't hold it in any longer he just started laughing. Tommy watched annoyed as Jude started in with him. She couldn't help it Tommy had been so taken back by the question that he didn't know how to answer it. They had been dating for over five months, and in that time they had never had to worry about other people. Even when Chaz found out he was not like that, when told him he cared for Jude that was it. Jude handled Sadie who took it when she said she knew what she was doing, not of them wanted to know his intentions. Until this moment they had not really had to defend their relationship.

Tommy looked down at the ground then back up soon the entire world would know they were together. Soon the entire world would want to know what a twenty-three year old wanted with a sixteen year old. He knew this day was coming, Sadie asked him that questioned and he never fully answered it. Finally Jude and Kwest stopped laughing, than they looked up at him. Tommy looked at her with a stern look that told her he was not as amused as she was. But she could not help it the situation was just too much to handle for her.

"Come on babe," Jude giggled walking towards him to wrap her arms around him. "You have to admit this was a little funny."

"People are going to wonder why we're together," Tommy sighed frowning as the public negative reactions began to form in his mind. Then of course there was her parents she hadn't even been sixteen for even a fully twenty-four hours when they first had sex. "They'll dig up everything from my past and use it against us."

"Then I guess it is a good thing you've been completely honest with me," Jude smiled softly leaning forward to kiss him softly. Tommy closed his eyes kissing her softly as he hugged her tightly.

"You two are just too cute," Kwest replied leaning back against the wall. He had never seen Tommy like this with a girl; it was actually refreshing to see. "But he is right Jude you two might want to think about keep this quiet for awhile longer."

"I think almost nine months will be long enough," Tommy told him, knowing by Kwest look that a lecture was about to come.

"Okay I can see that you two need to talk," Jude sighed feeling the tension. Though she wanted to stay and defend them to Kwest she knew Tommy needed to handle this one. "I'll just see you both inside of G-Major."

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Tommy knew where she would be, since their first time together it had become her hiding place. When she needed to just get away she would lock herself in there and just take in whatever she needed to take in. There had been more than once he had pulled her inside during one of their late night sessions. She would always laugh, and then he would join her when she locked the door. He looked at his watch, they were leaving in less than an hour and her family would be here any minute to say their goodbyes.

There she was sitting on their couch writing away in her journal about only god knows what. He shut the door, getting a smile from her. He walked towards her slowly as she didn't stop her writing. He loved these moments the most, when they could just be with one another. Sure the sex was amazing, well better than amazing. But when he could just be with her, without fear of someone catching them he loved every second of it. It was one reason he could not wait to come out. Then he didn't have to worry about standing to close to her. He could just be her boyfriend.

Jude sighed as Tommy made his way towards her she knew that it must have been some conversation. She had left them alone almost thirty minutes ago, she was actually about to go find them. She had imaging them beating each other up or a huge fight that led to the destruction of their friendship. She knew that Kwest was not happy with Tommy hanging out with Chaz again, and now she knew why. But the idea of her causing their friendship to end killed her, she knew Tommy needed Kwest. Kwest was more than his friend, without Kwest she wasn't sure Tommy could last. Kwest was family to Tommy, Kwest was now and forever his brother.

"So what did Kwest say," Jude asked putting her journal down, then turning to look as Tommy as he settled in next to her.

"Like he said he knew," Tommy sighed leaning back against the couch. The conversation had gone better than he had anticipated but the hurt is Kwest eyes had almost killed him.

"Tommy," Jude said giving him the, do I look stupid look. Tommy had hoped Jude would leave it alone, but than again that was not Jude Harrison's style.

"He was hurt that I didn't tell, and he was really hurt that Chaz knew," Tommy admitted frowning, than looked back at her. "But he's cool with us being together, because I told him how much you mean to me."

"He's really hurt isn't he," Jude asked seeing the pain in Tommy's eyes. This was what she was afraid of, she was afraid that this would cause a wedge between them.

"He gets why I didn't tell him," Tommy assured her, knowing she would hate herself if she caused them to fight. "Plus he admitted if I told him before now, he would have done everything he could to break us up."

"So you two are cool," Jude asked biting her bottom lip, even though no matter what she said she would still feel bad for hurting Kwest.

"It'll take more than a girl to break us up," Tommy laughed then frowned at his wording. He turned to look at her and to see her smile "That came out wrong."

"I know what you meant Quincy," Jude laughed leaning forward to kiss him gently on the lips. And she was hoping that what he meant was the truth.

"You two should really lock the door," Kwest smirked from the door way, though he was amused by their cuteness. He had never seen Tommy be so couple like before.

"Usually we do," Jude hissed shooting a glare at Tommy, who just shrugged innocently. "This is strike two, one more and we're out."

"Darius needs you Tom," Kwest said watching them closely. How could he have missed all the signs that said they were dating, his first clue should have been Tommy no dating. Tommy was known for his dates, actresses, models, singers, and then they stopped.

Tommy got up smiling at Jude in a way that was saved just for her. He walked past Kwest as Kwest stepped out of the way, his eyes going back to Jude. He waited until Tommy was a little out of the way before he stepped inside of the room. He closed the door, he watched Jude look up at him. She knew that he would want to talk to her before her family showed up. She didn't know what he was going to say, if it would be something like Chaz or different. But she knew he better do it fast because her family would be here any second.

Kwest knew he would be in this position, he just hoped she would be older. Walking towards her slowly he knew that she was expecting a speech, about how she was too young and Tommy was too damaged. He could only imagine what Chaz told her, he hide the grunt of anger that came when someone said his name. Tommy did he best to keep them apart, which he was grateful for; because Chaz did not want to talk to him. Not if he wanted to walk away in one piece anyways. Kwest knew when it came to Tommy he could be possessive, but it was a force of habit. He was always waiting for the moment when he would be needed to come in and clean up the mess Tommy would make.

"I love him Kwest," Jude said when Kwest said nothing, just starred at her.

"He told me," Kwest smiled knowing it was genuine. "I know he cares for you a great deal, he wouldn't have told you about Angie if he didn't."

"But," Jude smiled knowing that Kwest would be protective. He was at one time all Tommy had, so she was prepared for him to be different than Chaz.

"But nothing," Kwest shrugged smiling at her surprise. "I can lecture all I want, but in the end Tommy is Tommy, and he'll do what he wants no matter what I or anyone else says."

"He's sorry that he didn't tell you sooner," Jude explained softly, getting a soft smile out of him. "I don't think you know how much you mean to Tommy."

"I know," Kwest told her with a deep sigh. Because he meant just as much to him, no one knew how much Tommy changed his life—for the better. "And I know why he didn't, you see unlike Chaz I care about what happens to him. If he told me, or I found out before now I would have done everything I could to stop you two."

"So you're not mad," Jude asked quietly, getting a little nervous when Kwest didn't answer right away.

"No," Kwest sighed shaking his head. He could see that Jude needed him to be honest, but she also needed to hear she did not destroy their friendship. Tommy was right Kwest realized in this moment, Jude was one of a kind. "Jude you know things about him that few people do…just don't expect me to cover for you two."

"Thanks Kwest," Jude laughed as Kwest stood up and began to leave, than stopped to look back at her. He knew he should ask her this, but it was killing him not to know if Tommy had been telling the truth.

"Did you really make him write down every woman he slept with," Kwest asked smirking at the idea. Because if she had and he did, then he knew Tommy was a goner for life.

Jude didn't need to answer him the sparkle in her eyes told him what he needed to know. Walking out of the room Kwest could not help but laugh, he started to laugh harder when he saw Tommy. Tommy had no idea how far gone he was, he didn't even realize that he was already in love with Jude. He still thought he only cared for her. He knew this summer would be their real test, if Tommy could make it three months this was real. By the way he was looking at her, Kwest knew that he would. Kwest laughed at the irony, of all the women who tried to win the heart of Little Tommy Q, it ended up being a sixteen year old musician.

Soon everyone was there Spied was watching Tommy with a glare. Tommy just smiled at him, making sure he kept his distance from Jude. Tommy looked over at Kyle and Wally who were also glaring at him; he sucked in a deep breath. Then he looked at Spied who just grinned, before walking on to the bus. It was clear right now that both Kyle and Wally were getting into protective mode. Tommy looked at Kyle there was still something off about him, something that wasn't right. He looked over at Portia who was smiling at Kyle and waving goodbye to him and then to Jude. He really needed to talk with her.

Tommy watched Jude give Sadie a hug, than watched Sadie hugged her back tearfully. Vicki was crying as she gave Jude a hug, then Stuart was a little more composed. Jude smiled as he slipped an envelope into her hands; Tommy suspected it was probably money. He was good at putting a limit on how much Jude could spend of the money she made. Jamie gave her a quick kiss on the cheek as he hugged her tightly. Tommy knew he shouldn't but he hugged her as well. To his delight no one seemed shocked actually they all looked like they were expecting it.

The bus moved away quickly and Tommy did not miss the look in Kyle's eyes. Something told him that there was more to Kyle than anyone knew, because he was sharing a special smile with Portia. But Tommy knew it wasn't the same kind of smile that he shared with Jude, he looked at Portia something was off with Kyle. Shaking his head he would worry about it later. Tommy watched as Spied's uncle who came to wish him off had already disappeared, Wally's family didn't even come out to wish him off, so right now it was only Jude's. One by one they all disappeared, so Tommy followed Kwest inside—this was going to be a long summer.

Jude sat down on the spot that she had claimed as her spot. Spied agreed mainly because he was afraid she and Tommy had been there as well. Jude watched Kyle rub his wrists he did this a lot to warm up. Wally was sitting back with his eyes closed, none of them had been sleeping all to anxious about their tour. She saw Wally's head jerk up, then she saw Kyle's jerk his head towards Wally and Spied, they were all talking without words. And Jude could tell right now she was not going to like what he had to say.

"Are you really dating Tommy Quincy," Wally asked eagerly unable to handle the not knowing for real. Not that he didn't believe it for a second, walking into a room with them was like walking into fire sometimes.

"You told them," Jude snapped glaring at Spied who just looked up at her giving her his classic goofy grin. Sometimes he made it hard to hate him.

"I have a promise to keep," Spied shrugged going for his guitar then looking up at her. "If Lord Squinty Frown hurts you, we are obligated to defend your honor."

"Spied right Jude," Kyle argued coming to stand in front of her. The look in his eyes melted her heart it was almost like there was a hidden meaning behind the words he was about to say. "You're a member of the band now, which means you like our sister."

"Our hot sister," Spied laughed, then ducking when each of them threw the closest object at him.

TBC