Author Notes: I just love Patsy for she is the only girl for Jamie, but I was so scared to write her character. Hopefully she isn't too out of character. Over a month has pasted since last chapter.
The section in italics is a flashback.
Pairing: Jude/Tommy; Kwest/Sadie
Summary: Tommy decides to undo a regret from his past.
Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or its characters.
Rate: NC-17
Season: 2
Category: Romance/Drama
Spoilers: I Fought the Law
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Pushing her against the door hard Tommy slammed his body into hers crushing her mouth with his. Yanking her jeans down her legs he lifted her up, while her nails dug into his back nearly drawling blood. Tommy gasped into her mouth helping her to go to his pants to shove them down. Moving her hands through his hair Jude pulled at his hair as he ripped her panties off. Tommy hissed as Jude bit on his lips as he pushed inside of her as hard as he could.
Jude screamed out but that did not stop Tommy from moving. Pulling at his hair as he pounded in and out of her, her back hit his front door hard. Right now Tommy didn't care about anything but getting his anger out and Jude felt the same way. Tommy groaned again as her teeth bit into his lip again this time she could tasted the blood, but that did not register. Finally Jude cried out into his mouth as her body shook, Tommy did not stop moving instead he quickened his pace until he joined her.
Sliding down to the ground she rested her head against him as her breathing was out of control. Tommy had his eyes closed, he did not want to open them and look at her. He did not want to see the look of horror in her eyes. Withdrawing from her, Jude groaned her back was sore right now. Moving away from her Tommy opened his eyes to look at her, not able to keep the guilt from them. He never wanted to be with her like this, he never wanted to hurt her. But their fight had been so bad, and she had been so angry with him.
"Jude," Tommy mumbled softly, getting her to look up at him. Tommy was fighting the urge top throw up, he would never forgive himself if he ever hurt Jude in any way.
"Oh my," Jude mumbled dazed still recovering for their harsh and out of control love making.
"Are you okay," Tommy asked worried when she didn't replay to him. Instead she just looked at him like she was in a trance, "I didn't hurt you did I."
"You could never hurt me Tommy," Jude laughed snapping out of it. She looked down at her favorite pair of panties on the floor, picking them up with a frown. She looked at him giving him a fake pout. "But you did destroy my favorite pair of panties."
"Jude," Tommy said again unable to keep the fear silent. He was not in the mood for games or jokes he had to know she was okay. He needed to know that he did not destroy the only good thing he had.
Jude looked up at him and saw the fear in his eyes, she sucked in her breathe as pain washed over her. She smiled softly crawling towards him. Straddling his lap Tommy moved his head to the side when she touched his face, almost like her touched burned him. Cupping his face she moved his head back to look at her then she bent her head forward to give him the gentlest kiss he had ever received. Jude knew that he had been scared but until she tasted the tears during their kiss she hadn't realized how much. Running her fingers through his hair gently, Jude deepened the kiss. Tommy wanted to pull away but he couldn't she just felt too good. Pulling away from him she pressed a kiss on his forehead as he rested his head close to her heart.
The fight had been stupid, well maybe not stupid but the fight was getting to be an old one. It was mainly caused by Tommy low opinion of himself, which really ticked her off. First they started to argue about Jamie's new job at G-Major. Tommy swore Liam only hired Jamie to tick off Tommy, because he didn't think Jamie had enough experience to be the A/R rep. Liam counted that by asking about what experience he had in doing his job, so Darius voted with Liam. Jude them told Tommy that if it was training and experience he needed he should think about going back to school. That statement was like showing red to a bull because he just went crazy with anger.
Jude had been confused by his anger she didn't understand why he was being so mean and cruel so she got defensive as well. When Jude tried to calm down tried to get a hold of her emotions Tommy would open his big fat mouth and get her angry again. So instead of saying something she knew she would regret she started to walk out. It seemed Tommy didn't like that idea so he grabbed her hand to stop her only to have Jude swing to hit him, she missed and he slammed her against the door. The whole thing just happened so fast that Jude didn't have time to think just react.
"Are you okay," Jude asked quietly as he moved away from slowly.
"No," Tommy mumbled as she moved his hair out of the way.
Jude smiled as she pulled him up and led him towards his bathroom she knew exactly what he needed. Tommy still had not looked at her, still not wanting to see the look she had in her eyes. She motioned for him to finish undressing but he just watched her as she ran a bath for them. He watched her as she took the rest of her clothes off slowly, he was mesmerized by her. That was until he saw the marks on her backs, the marks just made him sick. He could not believe he had hurt her he had to force himself not to move as she came towards him. She met his eyes as she took the rest of his clothes off. The brushed away the tears that were falling down his cheeks.
Slipping inside of the tub he sat down hissing as the hot water came around him, her water was always a little hot for his liking. But right now he took the pain as a punishment. Slipping in behind him Jude shook her head as she felt him stiffen at her touch. Bending forward she kissed his shoulder as her fingers tips went up and down his back. She found the knots in his back, found the cuts and scraps that were there because of her. Tommy closed his eyes as her fingers slowly made it to his shoulders, then back down to his upper back. Then he felt her fingers on his temple slowly moving his headache away.
Tommy felt her move to go in front of him, he opened his eyes to meet hers; the trust he saw in them made his heart ache. Moving forward she put a knee on each side of him straddling his hip as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Tommy couldn't help the smile that fell on his face when she captured his lips in the sweetest of kisses. His hands moved up her back enjoying the tasted of her, than he gasped when she took him into her hands. Opening his mouth to hers Jude moaned as his taste overpowered hers.
Moving her hands up and down Tommy moved his lips to her neck, while his hand found her breast. His mouth attacked itself to her nipple, but the sensations did not stop her hand if anything it increased the pace. Tommy grabbed her hand pushing her back as he took her lips hungrily. Pushing her fingers through his hair Tommy could feel himself at her opening. He broke the kiss to standing up then got out to go to his cupboard. Jude was confused at first until she saw the familiar box.
Tommy groaned as Jude went on top of his lap again, this time pushing herself on top of his swollen member. He held her hips as she moved taking her lips again, he did not care that water was getting on the floor. He kept the pace slow he did not want to rush this he wanted to savor it, wanted to give her what she really deserved. Jude finally pushed his hands away when Tommy tried to put them back she bit his shoulder. Tommy moved his hands up and down her back then through her hair. Tommy let out a small cry as his body gave in the moment it felt her muscles contracting around him.
"I love you," Tommy mumbled into her hair as he lifted his head. Though he did feel a little better he still could not get over the fact he could have really hurt her.
"I don't break Tommy so stop beating yourself up about this," Jude ordered getting him to smile, as she ran her fingers through his hair. "Besides I kind of enjoyed it."
"You know we didn't use anything out there," Tommy laughed seeing the twinkle in her eyes then groaned as Jude moved off his lap. She turned to look at him giving a sigh herself as she stepped out of the tub.
"Lucky for us I'm now on birth control now," Jude replied going for a towel and getting one out for him too. She looked at his back and frowned, there was no way her back looked anywhere near as bad as his. "I really cut your back up."
"It is a little sore," Tommy agreed going to drain the water out of the tub, and then take the towel from her.
Tommy watched Jude wrap the towel around her body as she looked herself in the mirror, her make up was horrible. He watched her as she washed her face taking off what she had left of make up on. Taking a smaller towel she patted her face dry, then ran her fingers through hair sighing. He had managed to get her hair pretty wet so she knew she would be taking a shower soon or her hair would be in trouble. She turned to look at Tommy who had his towel wrapped around his waist, just watching her.
She smiled then picked up what clothing was in here frowning when she thought of her panties that were being held together by a simple string. Walking out she found them again sighing in displeasure, he was going to buy her a new pair. Tommy picked up the few items of clothes he had in the room and took them to his laundry room tossing them in the hampers. When he came out he found Jude was no longer there. He knew exactly where she would be. Opening the door to his bedroom there she was in the shirt of his she had taken as hers sitting on his bed with her journal writing away. Not that this was unusual because this was classic them.
"Jude there is something you need to know," Tommy said climbing onto his bed with her. She looked up at him she had thought he had confessed everything to her. "I dropped out of school in grade seven and never went back…it's not something I'm proud of."
"So get your GED," Jude shrugged not understanding the real problem.
"It's not that simple," Tommy sighed looking down then back up at her. Tommy knew there was no way he could get his GED, he dropped out in seventh grade and barely went before that. There was no way he knew what needed to be known to get his GED.
"Do you regret dropping out," Jude asked Tommy who looked up and nodded at her. "Okay than do something about it, go back and get your GED and then take those college classes…you might actually like college Tommy."
"I'm Tommy Q, I could never go to college," Tommy explained knowing what it would be like for him. He could barely walk into a gas station without being mobbed by fans; he couldn't even image walking into a classroom.
"Most colleges have on-line classes now," Jude told him getting him to look up at that idea. Jude knew this was coming from his low self-esteem and she would not let it win. "You could still take the class that need to be taken and never step foot in a classroom."
"Even in an online class they'll know the name Tom Quincy," Tommy reminded her, than his smile faded when he saw something in her eyes. She was thinking about something before she spoke.
"Is Quincy your real last name," Jude asked softly getting him to look at her, he had mentioned to her once that Tom Quincy wasn't a real person. "Instead of using Quincy you use whatever it is."
"It's Dubois," Tommy mumbled looking at her shocked, he had never told her Quincy wasn't his last name. "How did you know?"
"You told me Tom Quincy wasn't a real person," Jude explained, it was a conversation for awhile back. She had never forgotten the look in his eyes or the fact he never mentioned his family at all. "Tommy all I'm asking is that you just think about it."
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Portia closed her eyes she had spent the entire day helping Sadie and her mother-in-law redecorate her and Kwest apartment. It seemed that both women decided it needed a women's touch, and Sadie had asked her to come over to help. It had brought back memories of when Tommy's mother would visit, or they would visit her. The visits were never fun Ava hated Portia from first look and the opinion had never changed. Opening the door she stopped when she was greeted by a familiar sight—Kyle passed out on her couch.
He was lying on his stomach without his shirt on; she frowned as she saw the new bruises on his back and legs. She walked softly through her place careful not to wake him, because when he woke up he stayed up for days. Living in the household he did, he had conditioned himself to prepare for attacks from his father, so usually the slightly sound would startle him. She quickly grabbed her phone when it rang, biting her bottom lips as he stirred making sounds as if he would wake up.
"Hello," Portia said into the phone going towards her room away from him.
"It's me," Darius sighed into the phone in which she could tell was a half grumbled half not.
"Is something wrong," Portia asked concerned, she knew their brother's wife was not feeling too well lately, and they always called Darius first.
"You tell me," Darius ordered, he knew something was bothering his little sister.
"I'm fine," Portia smiled looking out to Kyle who had gone back to his sleeping position.
"I just…it has been brought to my attention that you might be having troubles because of Tommy and Jude," Darius inquired, because as much as he needed her his family always came first—always. "If you are, I'd understand if you prefer not to work with her."
"Tell EJ to keep her damn mouth shut and out of my business," Portia demanded angrily, shutting the door as not to wake him. "Tommy and I came to terms with our failed relationship long ago and I love working with Jude."
"I just don't want to see you go there again," Darius explained softly remembering the deep dark depression she had been in. Darius forced her to move in with him because he was too afraid to let her be on her own.
"I'm fine big brother," Portia told him softly reassuring him that she was fine.
Portia shut her cell phone imaging the most horrible torture she could come up with for EJ Li. If EJ wanted to go to war then they would go to war, but she would learn fast that no Mills ever lost anything, losing and retreat were not part of their vocabulary. Opening the door she found Kyle still asleep, so she walked out to make herself some tea. As she put the pan down she imaged what ways she could get back at EJ, and she knew exactly where to start. Jude had a premier in a few weeks she knew exactly what dress Jude would wear. It was a dress that EJ told them to burn but Portia stopped them since she was in charge of fashion.
Looking over at Kyle she knew the abuse was getting worse as SME got bigger, his father hated the fact he was not a failure. Sitting down in the chair she saw that Kyle was moving again, which meant he was waking up. She could tell by his forehead that he had been asleep for several hours, because his hair was wet. He had been running a fever the last few days and was supposes to be at home resting per Darius orders, but it looked like his father had other ideas. As the pan went off she saw Kyle start to shift showing he was waking up, she smiled grabbing two cups. Some tea would help him.
"How long have you been home," Kyle mumbled seeing Portia moving around in the kitchen. His voice was horse from his sore throat.
"Not long," Portia told him pouring him a cup, she didn't care what it took he was drinking this tea. She turned to look at him as she put the packet of tea in the cup. "How do you feel?"
"Like hell," Kyle grumbled rubbing his temple, his headache was worse then before the nap. His body was sore before his father decided to show him what happened to slackers.
"Here drink this tea and I'll make you some soup," Portia told him handing him the cup of warm tea. She then put her hand to his forehead frowning as she felt how hot he was. "First I'm going to go get you some Advil you're burning up."
"Okay," Kyle nodded, he felt too bad to argue with her like he normally would. So he nodded his head as she started towards her bathroom to grab a few pills.
Portia walked to her bathroom going inside the medicine cabinet to get what she needed. She then walked to her room to grab the shirt and boxers that she bought for him when he stayed over. This was his home away from home, the place she wanted him to come to when things got to bad. Like right now she knew his father was probably passed out somewhere. She walked back into the room to see Kyle slowly drinking the cup of warm tea. She knew the tea would help his throat just like this Advil will help his aches and fever.
Kyle took the two pills from her and the clothes. He stood up slowly as he swallowed the pills with the aid of a drink of tea, then he started towards the bathroom to change. Kyle took off his shirt he wore here before he lied down for his nap because it was covered in the food his father threw at him. Despite the fact he was running a fever he was actually cold. Kyle groaned as he took off his pants seeing the bruises that were proof that his father stomps on his legs. He slipped on the clean boxers and slipped on the clean white t-shirt taking his clothes out, he knew Portia would wash them. Walking back into the living room he looked over at her as she placed a bowl on the table.
"Eat this and then go and get some rest," Portia told him softly, she knew if he wasn't well soon Darius would interject which meant going to his father.
"Thank you," Kyle whispered sitting down picking up the spoon to begin eating the soup.
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Sadie rushed inside of the Harrison home looking around to see no one on the main level. She rushed up stairs as well to find that no one was there either, so she went down stairs to call Jude. She knew that more and likely Jude was with Tommy, she had known they had been fighting for a few days. The fight really began a week ago when a drunken Jude called him. Jude had not been having a good few days, so she went out with Jamie. Jamie was going to some club to see some singer named Patsy. Seems Patsy didn't take to well to Jamie but she hit it off with Jude. After a few drinks she got Jude on stage and despite the music difference the people in the club actually took to her.
Tommy of course did not hit it off with Patsy, who was just as smashed as Jude was. Jamie had gone on about how he tried to get her to stop drinking, but Jude gave her phone to some guy Patsy knew. This enabled him to call Tommy or Sadie to get one of them down here. Tommy tried to not laugh he tried to get angry with her but he just could do it. Then of course after their ride to his house it was just impossible to get mad at her. The next morning he felt to sorry for her to be mad.
"Sadie I'm here," Jude called coming up stairs from the basement. "I just had to see if I had any clean clothes down stairs."
"Abby wants to throw us a rehearsal dinner," Sadie exclaimed completely shocked, their mother didn't even want to acknowledge her marriage while Kwest's mother wanted to throw them a party. "She called dad and they are make arrangements now."
"When is it going to be," Jude asked sitting down on the couch just as floored as Sadie. "In two weeks, Kwest and I invited Abby to stay with us until then."
"So I take it Mrs. Alexander likes you," Jude smirked knowing she would, no one could hate Sadie it was just impossible.
"When she first arrived a few days ago it was touch and go but after lunch with dad yesterday she's been pretty cool," Sadie explained with a deep sigh. She was sure at the lunch both parents confided their fears and anger over the wedding to one another.
"So have you met mom's boyfriend, Don," Jude asked with a grumble. It had been almost a week since she saw her sister and even then she only said a few words to her before she left for class.
"I heard you two didn't hit it off," Sadie frowned, that was an understatement because they got into an all out argument that led to Jude walking out. Don decided to play dad on their first meeting and Jude put him in his place.
"He told me I couldn't go to my concert because I wasn't finished with my math," Jude hissed getting angry again. It had been a week since the meeting but she could still ring his arrogant neck. "Then he insulted dad and Tommy…if he hadn't been a lawyer I would have hit him."
"He told Kwest we should come up with an agreement for when we get divorced," Sadie told her bitterly, remember how Kwest took that statement. Don had come to dinner the night before Abigail had come. "That way it goes nice and smooth…he even agreed to be my lawyer."
Don March had not made a good impression with either Jude or Sadie. At least Yvette had been making an attempt to befriend the girls, and she even understood why Jude was not ready to meet her yet. Jude needed more time before she met the woman that had been her dad's mistress. After it came out Stuart had called off their relationship and she accepted that. But it seemed they bumped into one another a few weeks back decided to give their relationship a real try. This time both of them wanting to take it a day at a time, mainly because Yvette wanted to make sure this was real.
Don on the other hand wanted nothing to do with Sadie and especially not Jude. One moment her mother was treating her like she was an adult then next she was treating her like she was twelve. Jude felt her blood boil just thinking of his name, but her mother agreed Don would not be coming to any family dinners for a little bit. She then tried to ground her but Stuart intervened arguing on Jude's behave and managed to get her off with just doing dishes by hand for two weeks.
"So how are you and Tommy doing," Sadie asked looking at her little sister wearily, she was hoping they had managed to get pasted their first real fight.
"Actually we worked it out before I came home tonight," Jude smiled getting her sister to shake her head knowing what the smile meant. Jude couldn't hold the laugh as Sadie smirked at her, then started laughing with her.
"What was your fight even about," Sadie said as she stopped laughing leaning back on the couch.
"I really think it was just bottled up frustrations," Jude laughed half telling the truth and half not. She didn't want to tell her Tommy was ashamed of the fact he could not take college classes so he blew up. "It's just so different now that we get to be a real couple."
"Kwest and I are having dad and Yvette over after Abigail leaves," Sadie sighed seeing her sister look up, Jude's smiled faded slightly. "You don't have to come I just want you to know."
"Thanks," Jude mumbled softly looking down at her hands then back up at Sadie. "I just need more time with this."
"So me you, Abby and Portia are going shopping for dresses on Friday," Sadie told changing the subject. This was why Jude loved her sister Sadie knew when to just stop. "And I have one little favor to ask you."
"Okay," Jude whispered watching her sister closely, the last time she did a favor for her it almost got her grounded for two months.
"When Kwest proposed to me we were listening to your album, well "Your Eyes" to be more specific," Sadie grinned widely, Jude smiled because now she knew why she sang that song over and over now. "So we were wondering if you could play it for us as our wedding song."
"I'd be honored Sadie," Jude replied smiling ear to ear. That song had been written about Shay but now she could remember that Kwest and Sadie's wedding song. "Why were you listening to my album?"
"I bought it I just never listened to it and he found it put it in and you know the rest," Sadie explained remembering that moment in her hotel room when he got down on one knee with the very rings she wore now.
Jude watched her sister as she starred down at her hands and Jude could not help but look at her necklace that she wore. For some reason to her it had the same value because it was a symbol. No one until her had Tommy's heart, he kept that from them all always keep up his shields. That way he never got hurt but with her he could not do that. Looking up she didn't pay attention as Sadie went on about the dinner and the plans that have been made so far. Jude tried to pay attention tried to take in some of what her sister was rambling on about but she just couldn't. Sadie must have taken that in because she soon made an excuse as to why she needed to leave. But not before making plans for Jude to meet Abigail the next day; so they all could go over plans for the party.
As Jude walked back up to her room she sucked in a deep breath. She was going to help Tommy undo his mistake of not finishing school, she didn't know how but she was going to do it. She opened the school planner that she got at the beginning of every school year; they were issued out by the school. On the second page it gave a list of the Principal, Assistant Principal, and the different councilors/advisors. She saw the one she wanted, Megan Montgomery, the College and Post High School Planning Advisor, because she worked with teens/adults getting their GED as well. If anyone would know about the process it would be her.
Jude knew that if she pushed it would be disastrous for both her, Tommy and their relationship. But that did not mean she could not at least get him what he needed to know about getting a GED. After that Tommy could do what he wanted, what he was ready for. Biting her bottom lip she thought of Megan Montgomery, she was not like any other adviser in the school. She would go to any lengths for the students who truly needed the help or she would just be a listening ear. Jude knew that Megan Montgomery would help her so that she could help Tommy.
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Tommy walked around his house cleaning up just a little bit; it wasn't like it was trashed just messy from the lack of attention. He hadn't had much time to do it in the last week or so and it had collected. Mainly the collection was caused by his rash love making with Jude. The session from yesterday had done more damage then with a drunken Jude a little over a week ago. He tried not to smile at the memory but it was hard as he picked up the pictures that had fallen last night. Putting them back on the wall he walked towards his kitchen.
Looking out his window he saw his garage than he saw his blue viper parked in the driveway. Turning away he felt his memory go back to that night when he walked into the club. Jude had called him to tell him she was still angry with him from their fight earlier that day about her mother's relationship with Don. Taking a seat in his chair he looked up at the clock it was almost nine in the morning, he didn't have to be in the studio for another two hours. Looking down at his now cold coffee he felt himself being taken back to that night, when he found out he didn't mind when Jude got drunk.
Tommy knew that Jude was drunk the moment she started to ramble because her words were slurred together and she was making little to no sense. The next clue was her groans and snippy remarks to Jamie as he took the phone from her. Jamie went on to tell him to come and get her because there was no way she could go home that night. He rushed over to a club that Jude had no place being in. The moment Jamie said the name of the club he hung up the phone and rushed to his car without bothering to get his jacket.
Tommy parked his car the closeted to the club not that it mattered, he was going in grabbing Jude and leaving. His crinkled his nose as the doors opened to the club. A smell of only god knows what hit him; he knew it was alcohol mixed with vomit and something he didn't want to know what it was. All he knew was that it smelled horrible. The men and women in the club were rough to say the least. Most of them had a minimum of four tattoos, either one their arms, hands, neck, and even a few had them on their face. The man on stage was screaming to something that Tommy thought sounded like an animal being torn apart but the people here were so drunk and/or high they didn't even notice.
Tommy's head snapped up as he heard Jamie's voice calling to him, and then he saw her, his Jude. She was standing with a taller woman and a few guys, the said woman handed her another drink. Jude was wobbly but took the drink even while Jamie was trying to stop her still yelling at him to come over. Jamie was being held back by some big guy that if he wanted to could crush Jamie in a second. Tommy felt his blood run cold as a man slightly older than he was went up to Jude and started to talk her up. Walking towards her Jamie stopped struggling seeing the look in Tommy's eyes. The look let Jamie know that Tommy would be getting Jude out of here and hopefully making sure she didn't do this again.
"Jude," Tommy snapped getting her to turn to look at him. Her eyes were hazed over and he knew she was going to have one hell of hangover tomorrow morning.
"To…Tommy," Jude slurred stumbling into his arms smiling.
"Come on," Tommy laughed as he caught her getting a look from the brunette woman.
"Maybe she isn't ready to go," Patsy grumbled looking at him as the bartended place a few more drinks in front of her.
"That's Patsy," Jude told him moving her hair out of the way as her bangs fell in her face. "She doesn't like you."
"Isn't that nice," Tommy hiss glaring at her getting her to laugh in response. Jude gave them a wave as she walked out with Tommy who was dragging her by her hand. At least he was sure no one in this place would know who she is or even remember who she is in the morning.
Opening the door Tommy pushed her inside getting a laugh from her as he slammed the door shut going to the other side. She looked over to see that he had locked her door; she turned to look at him. He looked to his side at her to see her shoving her hair out of the way, she was completely gone. He put his key in the ignition frowning when he saw Patsy walking outside laughing. She winked and waved at him as he tore out of the parking lot, he really hoped that he never saw her again. He could tell right now that this Patsy was not someone that he wanted around Jude.
Tommy sucked in a deep breath; he was going to have to have a talk with Jamie in the morning. In that little talk he was going to have to give the kid his number, this could have been avoided. Tommy saw the look in Jamie's eyes he was powerless to stop Jude in her quest to get back at Tommy and to just let go and forget. Tommy had been a little insensitive towards her this afternoon and her ability to accept Don, especially after the family dinner. She had gone to him looking for support looking for comfort and he basically told her to suck it up. He hadn't meant to be so mean but Liam had just announced he hired Jamie as the A/R rep, and that he had plans for Jamie--big plans. It seemed so did Darius, they wanted to mold him change him, make him what Tommy knew he never cold be. They wanted him to be their spy basically, and being as naïve as Jamie could be he would fall for it.
Looking to his side he laughed out loud again he didn't mean to but this was just too good not to laugh. Jude was undressing herself; right now she was struggling with the jacket she had on. The black pumps she wore had already been taken off they were either at her feet or she tossed them behind her. His eyes quickly went down to eye the very short mini skirt her had on. Part of him wondered if the skirt was supposes to fit like that or if it was just too small. Once she managed to tear of the red sweater jacket she was wearing she threw it down on the ground. Next she went for the thin spaghetti strapped shirt she had on.
"Jude keep your clothes on," Tommy laughed as she looked up at him pouting as she made a groaning noise.
"But I'm hot," Jude complained in a child like whiny voice. He couldn't help the flashes of a younger Jude using the same voice and pout with her father when she didn't get her way.
"Once we get to my place you can take your clothes off," Tommy promised trying to stop his laughter; then he saw her eye him wickedly, he did not like that look.
"Or we could take them off now," Jude said scooting next to him, putting her hand on his knee.
"We do not tease the driver," Tommy gasped getting a smile from her as he inhaled deeply. Tommy tried to shift his body as one of her hand went in between his legs and the other on top of his seat. "It is not safe to tease the driver."
"I don't care," Jude whispered against his ear moving to give his ear a nip.
Tommy opened his mouth to say something but closed it as he felt her hand free him below. It had not even realized she had unzipped his pants until this moment. Tommy groaned and attempted to push her hand away as she pulled at his pants. When she took her hand away he thought he won he lifted his butt to pull his pants back up. Jude smirked as he yelped the moment her mouth went around him pulling his pants down to his ankle. Jude sucked as hard as she could on the tip them moving him in and out of her mouth. Tommy moaned as he felt her hand beginning to massage his balls.
Tommy kept his hand so firmly on the stirring wheel that his knuckles were white. He had to fight the urge to close his eyes he had to fight the urge to grab her hair and make her go faster to take him deeper. He had complexly forgotten that this was wrong that a photographer could be anywhere around. Instead Tommy scanned the area for somewhere to park because he felt his body getting close and if he was still driving he was going to crash. He made a quick turn because he did not actually know where he was until this moment. Through this all he kept going straight not actually have the mental ability to think past that. Tommy groaned as her mouth went around his balls. He found the parking lot he was looking for, taking the turn get a little to sharp Jude let out a deep laugh. He shut off the car and threw his head back just before his body gave in.
Moving her legs on each side of him he didn't bother to push his seat back, instead he took her lip in a hungry kiss. He didn't know if it was the taste of the alcohol or the taste of him but he felt himself getting dizzy off of her. Moving his hands up, he pushed her shirt up smiling as he found that she had no bra on. Taking her breast into his mouth Jude moaned as he sucked hard on the nipple as he took it in between his teeth. Jude whimpered as he followed the same pattern on the next one. As his mouth hungrily sucked on her soft mounds his fingers went lower to push her skirt up and her panties to the side. Tommy groaned against her skin when he felt how wet she was. Jude groaned as his thumb rubbed against her clit, taking his mouth in another devouring kiss.
Tommy pushed his seat back just a little crying out in her mouth because the moment he took to do that she pushed her self on top of him. Grabbing onto his seat to help guide her Jude set the frantic out of control pace. Tommy's mouth found her breast again sucked hard as he felt what control he did have snap. Tommy's hand went underneath her skirt to grab her butt as he bent his knees. Jude screamed out as he pushed her down hard so that all of him was inside of her. Then he pulled her up until he was nearly out of her then slammed her back down on him. Tommy took her mouth hungrily as he repeated this motion smiling as her entire body shook by the intensity of her orgasm. Burying himself back inside of her he groaned pushing himself all the way in, he let out a cry of his own as her muscles contracted around him all of him pushing him over the edge.
"I love you," Tommy whispered into the now quiet viper. God no matter what happened; no matter what he had to give up he was never going to get rid of this car.
"I love you too," Jude whispered against his ear nipping down as she moved her hips up.
"Jude," Tommy moaned putting his hands to her hips to stop her movements. He made a mental note that alcohol seemed to make her extremely horny, not that this was an unusual sight. He could never get enough of Jude and vise versa but this was usually the time she slipped off of him while he drove very quickly back to his place.
"Yes," Jude purred sweetly coming to look straight in his eyes he groaned as he saw the lust and desire in them. Bringing her head down he groaned at the taste of her, she still tasted like the drinks that Patsy had been giving her.
"Give me ten minutes to get us home," Tommy mumbled against her lips as he lifted her off of him. Tommy quickly pulled up his pants making sure not to look at her once because if he did he would pull them over again.
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Jude had gone on stage in front of thousands of people, she had done interviews knowing that millions would view it, but none of that felt anything like what having Portia Sadie and Abigail Alexander looking at her did. Right now Jude wore a crimson knee length dress while all of them had her turn around for the tenth time. She saw Sadie smile when the sales lady brought out the matching high heel shoes Portia had requested the night before.
Sadie looked at her little sister with such glee this was the third store they had gone to in two hours to find this dress. Portia had already made the appointment here but Sadie wanted something simpler. But the other two stores were a joke, plus Jude nearly got mobbed at the second so they went straight here. After putting on the shoes Sadie could not help the tug at her heart, she looked so grown. This was proof that Jude was no longer a little girl; she was a beautiful young woman.
Abigail looked at Jude smiling she could see right away how this girl stole the heart of Tommy Quincy. She had a fire in her eyes, a fire that told Abigail that she didn't let anyone push her around. The moment Abigail saw the necklace the moment Sadie had told her what it meant her heart melted. Though she would never like Tommy she could see love. She looked over at Sadie smiling Sadie was everything she had ever hoped for Kwest. Though she and Stuart were both hurt by their elopement they could see the love. The connection between them is what Abigail had been waiting for.
"So Spied and Wally wanted to know if they are required to wear ties," Jude asked as some woman began to take in the waist. Jude was actually pleased they were going here because at the last place they were at the woman probably would have stabbed her she was so nervous.
"Yes," Portia, Sadie and Abigail said together, getting a laugh from Jude and the few other women in the store.
"I wish the guys were more like Kyle," Sadie grumbled imaging what Spied and Kyle would come up with to wear. "He never asks things like that?"
"Don't worry I'll make sure they are dressed properly," Jude swore as the woman motioned for her step down smiling at Portia who helped her.
"Hello Ladies," Kwest greeted walking into the place with Tommy behind him. Abigail smiled as Kwest gave Sadie a small kiss, these two just made her feel giddy inside.
"Mrs. Alexander," Tommy greeted coming into her view, she had to hide her smirk. She knew that she made Tommy nervous after the accidental spilling of hot liquid on his lap. His eyes went to Jude and his nervous faded away into awe. "You look beautiful."
"Thanks," Jude smiled as he bent down to kiss her lightly he was still getting used to the whole public display of love. He never had to worry about it before, but with Jude he wanted to be careful. The last thing she needed was for someone to get a picture of the wrong moment. "If you want to give me ten minutes I'll be finished here."
Tommy let out a deep breath as he and Jude quickly made it to his car neither one of them wanted to be around Kwest or Sadie right now. Abigail had taken to Sadie so good that she was either with her or Kwest at all times. Jude could see from the start that Abigail was attached to Kwest seeing as she always called him precious or baby. Getting inside of his car she let out the breath she had been holding getting a laugh from Tommy as he started up his car.
Looking out the window she smiled as they zoomed though the city of Toronto. Fall was coming the colors of leaves were changing and falling to the ground, the month of September setting in and fading away. Soon Thanksgiving would be here, than Halloween and that meant her birthday would be here too. Looking to her side she smiled, which also meant her and Tommy's one year anniversary. Jude tilted her head to the side to watch the buildings and the people fade by smiling as the music from the radio filled in the empty spaces.
Tommy looked over to see Jude starring out the window as his radio played softly in the background. He smiled it was moments like these that he like the most, moment when he felt connected to her. They didn't need to talk to one another they could just simply be together. Turning the familiar corner Jude smiled when she realized they were headed to his place and not hers. Tommy shut his car off watching her grab her stuff as he slipped out of the car walking towards his front door, knowing she was only inches away from him.
Tommy watched her kick her shoes to the corner then walked over to the couch tossing her bag down on the ground. Leaning against the wall he watched her move her stuff around until she took out her physics textbook and a folder. Crossing her legs she opened the book but she tossed the folder on top of his coffee table. Walking towards her she didn't move she just kept on reading even when he sat down next to her turning on the television. Looking to the side ten minutes later he could not help it anymore. He took her textbook laughing when she struggled to get it back then laughed when he pushed her back settling on top of her.
"I'm supposes to be the out of control hormone driven teenager," Jude smirked as Tommy smiled on top of her.
"You said you had something you wanted to talk about," Tommy sighed moving her hair out of the way.
"Actually I have information to give you if you want it," Jude explained softly seeing him eye curious. "It's about getting your GED; a councilor at my school said that if you wanted she knew the guy in charge, so arrangements could be made that way it does not leak out to the press."
"I don't know Jude," Tommy whispered getting off of her; as much as he wanted to he didn't know if he could do it. "I just don't think I'm book smart enough to do it…I barely made it to grade seven as it was."
"Tommy you are one of the smartest people I know," Jude told her sternly, angry that he thought so little of himself. Jude sat up picking up the folder from the coffee table as she spoke. "I wish you could see you the way I do."
"No one sees me the way you do," Tommy confessed laughing nervously, Angie never believed in him the way Jude did, and with Portia she never saw past him being a musician. She just assumed he would go solo someday, and Darius would hire someone to handle it. "No one believes in me the way you believe in me."
"And vise versa," Jude smirked handing his the pamphlets that Megan had given her. "Ms. Montgomery said that if you had any questions she would be happy to answer them."
"How is she going to keep this from the press," Tommy asked looking at the papers Jude just handed him.
"Like I said she knows the guy in charge and she says that if you are serious about this she and him would make arrangements before hand," Jude explained scooting closer to him as he looked over the papers. "Ms. Montgomery also gave a title to some books that she said has been helpful to others who have been out of school for awhile."
"So she's familiar with the GED process," Tommy asked reading over the process and how it is done. This wasn't the first time he thought about going back for his GED, but this was the first he had actually got the information for it.
"Megan Montgomery is the College and Post High School Adviser at Carlson High," Jude explained softly getting him to look up. "She also works with the Learning Center on weekends and summers in the GED section. Ms. Montgomery is one of the only people who actually treats the guys and me like we're normal students."
"Normal students," Tommy questioned looking at her confused, getting a soft smile from Jude.
Jude knew that it had been around if not more than ten years since Tommy had been in school. She also knew that so much had changed in that time as well. So she was sure that when she said normal students he could not remember what that meant. To her that was being able to walk into a room without the teachers looking at her, walking down the hallway without the whispers. It was her Principal not making almost daily visits in one of her classroom to see how she or the guys were doing because of Darius. Her principal had to give weekly progress reports to Darius so he knew where she stood on her studies which meant he always knew her grades before she did.
When her father told her that they had come up with this plan she about freaked. The worse part was that each teacher was free to give their comments, the first one of these were not good. Her music teacher went on about her lack of knowledge of music, about her lack of focus in the past, and her terrible studying skills. Darius luckily always gave her a chance to defend herself, and he knew that her grades were not always going to be perfect. He claimed all he wanted from her was for her to give her all.
"Most of the staff reacts in one of three ways to me, SME, and now Jamie since it got around about his new job," Jude told him turning to look at him. "The first reaction is they ignore us. The second reaction is the teachers are harder on us because of who we are. Like Mr. Yeats, our history teacher, last week almost gave Spied three weeks of detention for being two minutes late."
"How did he get out of that," Tommy asked, Spied had a reputation of being able to get him self out of trouble. It was another way that Spied reminded Darius of Little Tommy Q.
"He went to Darius who handled it," Jude laughed remembering how upset Spied was. The main reason was because a fellow classmate Jennifer was late five times and never got in trouble, Spied had not been late for any class until then.
"What is the third reaction," Tommy asked trying not to smile when Jude sighed, because this was a majority of the teacher's reactions. It seemed especially the new teachers that just started Carlson High this year.
"Like we're gold," Jude hissed thinking of her English teacher. "My English teacher gave me a B on our last quiz."
"So," Tommy shrugged not seeing the big deal.
"I only answered three of six questions," Jude explained shaking her head, it really annoyed her and the guys. Jamie was a favorite among all teachers but she wondered what happened when G-Major started affecting his school work.
"I'm just not sure," Tommy sighed looking at Jude who gave him the softest smile. He knew that no matter what she would be there for him but he really didn't know if he could do it.
"If you decide to do this I'll help you," Jude smiled bending forward to kiss him softly, than went back to her books.
Tommy looked back down at the papers in front of him including the title of the books this Megan Montgomery had recommended he read. He opened the practice test that she had given along with the collection of papers. Leaning back he scanned over the questions sucking in a deep breath, could he really do this. Sure he had thought about getting his GED for years but it was never an issue really. His skill as a musician then his skill as a producer had always carried him. No one ever doubted his intelligence no one ever thought he was a drop out no one ever saw what he didn't want them to see.
Looking over to his side he watched Jude read her textbook. She had taken out a notebook and was taking notes he could tell by her facial expressions she was confused. He knew that Jamie had always helped her he was the smartest guy that Jude knew. He also knew that Jude would not bring this up again not until he did. She had done what she could she opened the door for him now it was his decision if he wanted to walk through it. So he watched her and thought about what she said; "I wish you could see you the way I do." Maybe it was time he started to look at himself like she did.
"I need your help," Tommy said coming into what Liam had turned into Jamie's office. Jamie looked up at him confused but nodded as he pushed a seat to him.
TBC
A/N: Okay the information on GED is what I found on the ACE site for GED information for US and Canada. I hope you guys liked the flashback scene because it was a last minute add-in for a friend. She read the first finished draft of this chapter on Monday and begged me to write in what happened to Tommy and Jude when she was drunk. So hope you all liked it.
I would have had this up sooner but the power kept going out and coming back and then going back out due to the harsh storms in my area. I want to thank everyone for the feedback. If the storms will ever stop I will finish the next part and get it up soon. For those who have been e-mailing me about Kyle and the abuse, don't worry it takes an interesting turn in chapter 13.