Chapter 4 – Pookie
It was nearing the end of the school day and Santana was getting happier by the minute this meant choir practice with Shelby. After their discussion in the classroom Santana really just wanted to spend time with her and even though it would be with other people she didn't mind for now as long as she was with Shelby. The bell started to ring signalling the end of school and Santana hurried off to her locker to collect her things then to choir practice. On the way she met up with Brittany, Sugar and Mercedes and they all made their way together. When they entered the room Shelby was leaning against the piano sporting a soft smile,
"Hi guys, ready to show me what songs you have chosen?" Shelby asked enthusiastically.
Brittany spoke first,
"Well I'll be doing I love rock and roll the Britney Spears version." Brittany innocently said,
"Why are you choosing that song Brittany, remember you have to write a small essay on why you have chosen it." Shelby replied.
Brittany screwed up her face whilst thinking then she grinned,
"Well it's obvious Miss C because Britney is the best singer…duh."
Everyone laughed at how sweet Brittany was including Santana, she loved Brittany as a friend sure they had been close at one point but Santana's heart just wasn't in there and she loved Brittany too much to hurt like that so they remained the best of friends. Shelby nodded and swiftly moved on the next person who was Mercedes, she had chosen Beyonce's I Was Here because of what the song represented and Shelby liked this and then she moved onto Sugar. Sugar was singing Tomorrow from the musical Annie as it had been a childhood favourite and last but not least Shelby asked Santana who just shrugged saying she hadn't picked a specific song yet but she had a few to choose from, Shelby was curious as to what these were but didn't pry just yet. Shelby was going to each student going through their notes and helping with the singing part she had yet to really say anything to Santana or even look at her the way she had looked at her before. It was getting a little frustrating for Santana one minute Shelby was all for her and the next like she didn't exist…little time was left and Shelby still hadn't spoken to Santana. It was the end of practice and before Shelby could turn around and talk to Santana she had left, Shelby sighed deeply she had took quick glances at Santana when she wasn't looking and she could see something was bothering the Latina and she wanted to wait till after practice to speak to her maybe she left it too late.
Santana was at home she stormed through the front door and went straight to her room sure she was acting like an immature child but why was it so hard to have feelings for another person! She just didn't understand why Shelby hadn't spoken to her at all. She groaned into her pillow, she hated that she was even getting like this. Her phone buzzed next to her it was from Shelby asking if she was okay so Santana texted back.
Why did you ignore me today at practice?
That's all she sent when she looked back at it she grimaced because it was shitty text and she was being childish she was about to send an apology when Shelby texted back.
Ignore you? Santana there are others in the group despite what has happened between us I have other important things in my life other than you, that may sound harsh but it's true. I'm still getting my head around what's going on between us I don't know what to do, you make me feel things I've never felt before but I don't know if I can do this. Shelby.
Santana could feel tears coming she tried to push them back but a single tear escaped she had just been the biggest bitch to Shelby and she was truly sorry she really did understand that she had other things in her life she was being stupid and she knew it. What was she going to do now she couldn't reply back to Shelby she had a feeling she would be ignored so she was going to do the next best thing she instantly knew what her song would be and she was going to make sure Shelby knew it was about their relationship.
The weekend had passed and no it did not consist of Santana spending time with Shelby in fact they had no communication at all it was Sunday night and Santana was still finishing up her song to perform tomorrow in front of Shelby and the rest of the group, she didn't want to admit it but she was nervous she couldn't carry on not talking to Shelby it was making her miserable. She laid her head down on her pillow and willed herself off to sleep ready for tomorrow.
At Shelby's she had just finished comforting Beth who had woke up crying when she made her way to her bedroom she sighed as she got under the covers this weekend had been terrible firstly getting that text from Santana and the one she had replied with after that she had heard nothing from Santana and Shelby wasn't going to apologise for something she said when she knew she was right. Tomorrow was going to be stressful seeing Santana, after saying she didn't know if she could do this meaning the relationship between them she knew they had talk and she didn't want to cause a scene at work when it wasn't needed. She willed herself to sleep but was still thinking about Santana as she slept.
Monday morning came far too quickly Santana woke up more nervous than ever but she was more than confident she was going to win Shelby back. Shelby had woken up even more tired than she was if that's possible. Both were nervous about seeing each other which they knew they would, god they wasn't even in a relationship yet and it was already hurting the two when they weren't speaking.
At school it was a relatively slow day, Santana had arrived in a horrible mood and was taking it out at almost everyone who crossed her and boy did they even regret going past the Latina. Shelby was covering a few lessons none with Santana in and it got to that point the end of the day when it was choir practice doing what they always did making their way to the room. Santana entered behind Brittany she didn't look at Shelby first she didn't know if she could without becoming emotional, and when Shelby spoke she couldn't help but look up at her and she was met with Shelby staring at her. Shelby could see that Santana was sad she could see through the bad ass portrayal and it hurt her inside she knew it was because they hadn't spoken over the weekend, she sent sympathetic eyes at Santana who just looked like she was looking straight through Shelby. Just as Shelby was about to continue Santana interrupted,
"If I may Miss C I have a song I want to share with the rest of group and you…" Santana pointed to Shelby and she became uncomfortable wondering what the song was going to be.
Everyone's eyes landing on Santana ready to hear what she was singing the beat kicked in and everyone knew instantly what it was including Shelby who just looked wide eyed at Santana she knew this song was meant for her well the two of them. Santana started singing.
"Every single day,
I walk down the street
I hear people say 'baby so sweet'
Ever since puberty
Everybody stares at me
Boys girls I can't help it baby
So be kind and don't lose your mind
Just remember that I'm your baby"
Santana started dancing around the floor and around Shelby who was still stood wide eyed the rest of the group were cheering and clapping along, they had all stood up and started dancing with each other.
"Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby
Or leave me"
Santana had finished the first verse as she continued to look at Shelby she seemed to relax a bit and she could see her tapping away, Santana just hoped this would work sure it was a risky song from the musical RENT and it did split the two characters up for a bit but this song just seemed apt for now. Sure people did look at Santana and Shelby had already said she was insecure thinking Santana would go off with a younger woman.
"A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage
Baby lets have fun
You are the one I choose
Folks would kill to fill your shoes
You love the lime light to now baby
So be mine and don't waste my time
Cryin' 'oh honey bear are you still my, my, my baby?'
Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me"
Santana was now all over Shelby, dancing around her and making her dance with her to the others it just looked like Santana was being her normal flirty self but to Shelby and Santana they knew the truth behind this. Shelby started to smile how could not but then she looked mortified when Santana got on the floor singing the next bit.
"No way, can I be what I'm not
but hey, don't you want your girl hot?
Don't fight, don't lose your head
'Cause every night who's in your bed?
Who?
Who's in your bed?"
Santana was riding her hand up Shelby's leg as she sang, Shelby blushed bright red and Santana smirked she looked back at the group and raised her eyebrows smiling and they laughed thinking it was all a game to Santana. She then turned back and spoke to Shelby in a playful mood.
"Kiss pookie?"
This was so on now, Shelby took her jacket off and she was applauded by the group and she carried on with the rest of the song needless to say Santana was a bit shocked she was just going to finish their but stood their speechless when Shelby joined in.
Shelby spoke at first.
"It won't work!"
Then she jumped into the song as she faced Santana,
"I look before I leap,
I love margins and discipline,
I make lists in my sleep baby
Never quit
I follow through
I hate mess but I love you."
Shelby just gave a knowing look to Santana at that last line and it caught Santana completely off guard.
"What to do with my impromptu baby?
So be wise cause this girl satisfies!"
Shelby placed a hand on Santana shoulder,
"You got a prize so don't compromise,
You're one lucky baby!"
Shelby really came alive then she turned to the rest of the group and walked over to them singing at the top of her voice,
"Take me for what I am."
Everyone cheered when Shelby came over, little did Santana know RENT was actually a favourite of Shelby's and she loved this song. She turned around and quirked an eyebrow up at Santana when she heard Santana.
"A control freak."
Shelby continued,
"Who I was meant to be."
Santana –
"A snob yet over attentive."
Shelby –
"and if you give a damn!"
Santana –
"A loveable droll geek."
Shelby –
"Take me baby or leave me!"
Santana shouted,
"Anal retentive."
They were both into this song more than they liked but they needed to finish it as they both started singing together.
"That's it!"
Shelby continued solo,
"The straw that breaks my back."
"I quit!" they sang together.
Shelby on her own again,
"Unless you take it back?"
They both looked a little frustrated knowing what this bit was about their little text argument then they both shouted the next line.
"WOMEN!"
Santana sang the next line,
"What is it about them?"
Then together,
"Can't live with or without them!"
"Take me for what I am."
Shelby stood in front of Santana blocking her voice out,
"Who I was meant to be."
But then Santana did exactly the same to Shelby,
"Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn." She emphasised the I part.
Shelby sang her last solo line,
"and if you give a damn then
Take me baby or leave me."
She held her hands up to Santana as she stood tapping her foot with her arms crossed as Santana leaned in to Shelby's ear and spoke seductively,
"Take me baby, take me or leave me." She winked at Shelby as she backed away then for the last time together they started walking around each other as they sang.
"Take me baby or leave me!"
They spoke the last part as they stared deep into each other's eyes,
"Guess I'm leaving, I'm gone!"
Cheers were erupted from the group as Shelby looked at Santana with a smirk that felt amazing and it felt almost therapeutic which made Shelby laugh to herself, she smiled at Santana who returned the smile.
"That was amazing San!" Brittany chirped and Mercedes jumped in,
"And of course you Miss C."
They both turned to the group and bowed as they grinned saying thank you, the song had been a success well it seemed that way and now came the hard part for Santana talking, she hated talking about her feelings at the best of times she stayed behind as the group were dismissed.
She nervously walked around the room and then she spoke to Shelby,
"So can we talk?"
Really hoped you liked the new update! Yes I put RENT's Take me or leave me…pretty ironic Idina Menzel playing Maureen in RENT and singing it as Shelby on here sorry guys I had to put it in! I don't own any characters or songs just do it for fun hope you enjoyed it!