Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into two months.

I felt like I was a timer, and once the timer rang there was no more Bella Swan.

Things have settled down some, work was back to normal some what. I published a best seller book called Broken Dreams. Ironic, believe me I know. The author said I related to her main character so well, she swore I could have been her.

Edward and I went for regular coffee, almost every night after work at out usual place now down the street. The conversation was welcoming and I seemed to actually look forward to that part of my day now.

The more the time flew by the more I actually saw the world the way I never have before. Everyone always in a rush never stopping to look around them or stop and see what was happening. I realized that for 22 years I have been doing the same. So many times I have cursed my self for not taking my time with everything, even the little things. Eating or sleeping, even enjoying a coffee with a perfect man every night.

I had 9 more months to go, and it seemed like I could blink and it could be over. The chest pain had worsened and it was a constant reminder that my life was fading.

My physical appearance, seemed to be fading as well. My frame was slowly eating away at its self, my healthy 120 lbs figure now dropped to a small and fragile 107. No amount of eating would change the number on the scale, believe me I tried. My skin was almost translucent and the now permanent circles under my eyes were too dark to cover up.

Of course Alice and Rosalie noticed, even Jasper and Emmett. Always concerned and I loved them for it. I just didn't need them to worry about me when there was nothing they could do anyways.

Nine months seemed like nothing now, before it seemed like an eternity. Which I now wish I actually had.

Jasper and Alice finally got engaged, planning a very elaborate party. In about 4 months. I hope I am well enough to even attend. I was ecstatic when Alice told me, she of course would be moving out. Into Jasper's house, leaving me a Rose to the apartment.

Rose and Emmett were also still dating, and of course I could already see the wedding bells in their future, just not in mine.

I was headed off to work, to speak with the author of a fiction novel I am currently editing.

A novel about a girl who spends her whole life without a soul mate, a loved one. It was a very deep story, in the end she gets her happy ending not with finding someone to love, but realizing that everyone in her life, her parents, friends, family. Were really all she needed and she died old and grey, peacefully.

It was bound to be another best seller, and I was still doing the same thing I have been for years, waiting for my happy ending.

As I entered the office, I was swarmed with people shoving things in my face, screaming nonsense that I could not understand.

"One at a time, please!" I screamed, flailing my hands around trying to get people to back away from my personal space.

"Bella, the best seller from last month just went national, they want a book reading and author signing." The personal assistant told me.

"Okay, call the author's agent and set them up through our publishing company, make sure everyone knows who published that book."

"Bella, the new author is looking for you, says the last chapters are in but she can't seem to think of a good tittle for the book." Another assistant rambled looking flustered with pounds of binders in her arms and trying to balance a coffee cup on top of it as well.

"Okay, put the author in the conference room and send some of the editors from level 2 to bounce around title ideas. Ill be there soon and put the chapters on my desk." I said and moved passed the now dwindling crowd that has moved to other parts of the building.

"Here I thought I was the boss of this company, not you." Edward appeared beside me with a charming smirk on his usual perfect face.

"You still are, you just don't have to deal with the actual work, your the face of the company, not the brains." I laughed and he knew I was only kidding and started towards my cubicle.

"Can, I talk to you in my office for a minute?" He said his voice filled with concern and worry.

"Sure." I said and signed already knowing what this was about.

"Are you okay Bella?" He said signing, running his hands through he messy hair. A nervous tendency I noticed he had.

"I came down with the flu, lost some weight. Ill gain it back in no time, I promise. No big deal." I smiled and tried to reassure him that it was alright.

"You don't have to do that with me you know Bella." He said stepping away from his desk towards me.

"I am not doing anything with you, it's just a flu." I said trying my best not to crack under his intense stare.

"I wanted to know, if maybe you would consider going on a real date with me?" He smiled and stepping closer to me again.

It wasn't that I didn't want to go out with him, I have been waiting for him to ask me for months now.

But now as he stood in front of me looking all hopeful, I just couldn't bare to waste his time on me.

"I don't think that's a good idea Edward." I said and signed, looking down at my feet.

"I know you feel something for me, you can't hide that." He said stepping even closer, he was standing inches away from me. I had to look up to meet his face.

"I do Edward, I think your amazing." I said and my eyes filled with tears not for a man I met merely months ago, but for the possibility that he could have been the one and I don't even have a chance to find out.

"So, why not then?" He said putting his finger on my chin and lifting it up, brushing the freshly fallen tears from my cheek.

"I just don't think I can handle anymore disappointment right now." I said truthfully, it wasn't that I didn't have enough time, because honestly I should go out with him because my life was so short. It wasn't because I was scared shitless, because I was but even that wasn't holding me back. It was because I couldn't go out with him and find out that he could have been that person that I have been looking for, forever. The person Alice found with Jasper, and Rosalie with Emmett. I would find him and then after a short 9 months have to say goodbye.

"I promise you whatever happens, weather we just stay friends or not. Ill deal with whatever comes our way, I never have felt this way before for anyone Bella. I have talked to you and got to know you for over two months now. I can't bear it anymore not to try to see if there is anything else here, between us." He said, rushing through his words as if they would disappear from his mind before he could get them out.

"One date, on one condition." I said closing my eye and leaning into him more.

"Of course, anything." He replied, excitement already evident in his bright green eyes.

"Don't fall in love with me." I said and stepped away, looking at his eyes as they registered surprise then confusion.

"Ill try not to." He said nodding, and I nodded back and smiled. Walking back to the door to head to my cubicle.

"Tonight, eight o'clock. I'm driving." He said and I turned around to see that favorite smile on his face, but a look in his eyes that was unfamiliar. A look that warned me I was already in big trouble.

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