BPOV

I knew Jake was probably at Sam and Emily's so I went there. The entire pack was sitting in the living room and Emily smiled when I came in.

"Hey Bella. Would you like a muffin?" She asked. I smiled and took one.

"Why are there always muffins here?" I asked. She grinned.

"You know these boys, can't get enough muffins." She said and we laughed.

"I take offence at that." Seth said jokingly. The guys were all in the kitchen now.

"I thought you had a shopping date with that girly bloodsucker today." Paul said. I gave him a look.

"I am so not in the mood Paul, so if you know what's good for you shut the fuck up." I said and they all stared at me in astonishment. I turned to Jake. "I need to talk to you. Alone."

He followed me out of the house and we walked down the beach. Suddenly he grabbed my arm and turned me around to face him.

"Hey are you alright?" He asked.

"No, not really. I just found out I'm going to be a mother." I said and he started shaking.

"You slept with that monster?" He exclaimed and I realized how what I said could have led him to that. I grabbed his arms and felt him still vibrating.

"No Jake. That's not what I meant. Relax." The vibrating slowed then finally stopped. I told him about Marie and Noah. We sat on a drift log and were silent for a time.

"So you're going to raise them with him?" He asked. I heard the anger in his voice but at least he wasn't shaking. I studied him for a moment.

"No, I actually don't want them around the kids. Does that make me a bad person?" I asked. Jake turned to look at me.

"Why don't you want them around the kids?" He asked.

"Because, I've seen them at their worst and they're dangerous. I can't bring the kids around that." I said.

"You've seen the pack at their worst. You don't think we're too dangerous?" He asked hesitantly.

"No Jake. I don't think you're dangerous." I laid my head on his shoulder and he sighed happily.

"It makes you a sane person." He said and I looked up at him in question.

"You asked if not wanting the leeches around the kids made you a bad person, it doesn't. It makes you sane." He said and I smiled. We sat their quietly for a while and I noticed he was holding my hand. I didn't remember when he had taken my hand but I couldn't find it in myself to care. I liked the feel of Jacob. He made me happy and made me feel safe. I cuddled closer to his warmth.

"If only it could be like this forever." I hadn't realized I said it out loud until Jake shifted to look at me.

"Maybe it can. It's not too late Bella." He said and he started to lean toward me. I knew he was going o kiss me but I stopped him. He looked hurt and I giggled.

"I did actually come here to tell you something else and if you kiss me I'll get distracted and forget." I said and he grinned.

"Well, tell me then." He said and I smiled.

"First of all, I'm never going to become a vampire. I can't do that to the kids, they need me. And second I need to talk to you about the truck." I said. He moved back to look me in the eyes.

"Seriously, you're never going to become a vampire?" He asked.

"Seriously Jake. There are some things about being human that I like." I said.

"And what's that?" He asked.

"You." I smiled. "And I've thought about it since this morning when I found out about Marie and Noah, I like the possibilities of being human. I can have children someday of my own. I can marry someone and not be afraid to sleep with them." I blushed a little. "And besides can you imagine dying as a virgin, how tragic." I cracked a joke and Jake grinned at me.

"Virgin Huh?" He asked and I shoved him a little.

"I happen to know you're a virgin too." I said and he grinned, again.

"Yeah but I'm sixteen. You're eighteen, an adult. How tragic of you." He joked and I pushed him off of the log, but because it's me I fell right on top of him. His hands went to my hips and I looked down into his eyes. Slowly I lowered my face until my lips brushed his. Then suddenly he flipped us so that he was on top and he kissed me hard. I whimpered a little and wound my hands into his hair. Suddenly we heard the cat calls and broke away from each other. We looked up to see the pack standing at the edge of the beach.

"I thought you were coming to talk." Embry yelled, with a grin on his face. Jake and I flipped him off simultaneously. Jake stood and pulled me to my feet.

"So you wanted to talk about the truck." He said and I nodded.

"Yeah, I'm buying a new car because of the kids and I wanted to know if you wanted to buy the truck or if I could sell it. I mean it was yours first." I said and he smiled.

"You can sell it. You think I'm going to drive around in that thing. I could walk to wherever I wanted before I could get there in that car." He said and I laughed.

"Okay cool." I said.

"Can I stay with you tonight?" Jake asked. I raised an eyebrow.

"How you going to explain that to Charlie?" I asked.

"I'll think of something. Besides Charlie loves me." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Let's go." I said and he climbed in the truck with me after explaining to Sam that he was staying over tonight which brought on another round of catcalling. I rolled my eyes and pulled out.

"Bella, what are we?" Jake asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I mean we just made out on the beach. That's not something friend's do." He said seriously.

"I don't know what we are. All I know is that I don't want the Cullen's near the kids so I have to cut them out of my life. I doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would to say that." I said and he smiled.

"Will you promise me something?" He asked.

"What." I asked.

"Promise me, you'll give me a chance. A real one." He said and I looked over at him. I wanted it. I wanted to see what my life would be like with Jake. So I said the only thing I could.

"I promise." I answered.

When we got back to the house Charlie looked at us.

"Hey Charlie." Jake said. "I was wondering if I could stay here tonight."

"Why?" He asked suspiciously.

"I want to meet Noah and Marie." He said.

"How am I going to explain a teenage boy staying here to the social worker?" He asked.

"I look older than I am you could say that Bella and I are engaged and that I live here. She's almost nineteen it's not like it's out of the ordinary." Jake said and I stared at him with my mouth hanging open. The word was bouncing around in my head. Engaged. It wasn't entirely unpleasant to think about being engaged to Jake.

"She'll be nineteen in three months." Charlie said.

"I know. It's not like we're actually engaged relax." Jake said. It was like watching a tennis match.

"Fine." Charlie waved his hand in front of him like he was trying to erase the thought. "But you're sleeping on the couch."

"Okay." Jake said and Charlie turned to me.

"How does Edward feel about your 'engagement'?" He asked.

"He doesn't know." I said.

"And besides, who the hell care what that blo- jackass thinks." Jake caught himself before saying bloodsucker.

"You don't like him?" Charlie asked.

"Hell no." Jake replied.

"Good, because I don't particularly like him either." Charlie said and I sighed.

"Let's go. I've still got a car to buy and I truck to put up for sale." I said and we all got into dad's cruiser. We had to drive to Port Angeles to buy a car.

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