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Unaccepting Realization
Alice's POV
As soon I spoke those words, I watched as Luke took my hand and guided me into the rose maze. I was confused, but I let him led me on. After many turns, we finally made it to the center of the maze where there is a gazebo with wines wrapped around it to make it look elegant, but also ancient. I watched as he slowly guided me inside and then I saw it. In the middle of the gazebo was a pure white podium with the glass box containing the icy blue rose inside on top of it. My eyes widen as I stared at in fear and hope. I watched as Luke stood behind the podium and opened the glass box slowly to reveal the rose. The moment he opened the glass box, I could already feel it's coldness spreading throughout my body making me shiver already.
"There are two things that may or may not happen to you Alice. One the moment you touch that rose your body will start to cover in frost and you'll start to be filled with ice. Your skin will be paler and you'll feel winter where ever you go. You will feel no warmth ever again. It will be painful and you will ultimately become Fay as well." He explained as I started to become even more frightful of the rose.
"I cannot say what it will be like if the rose does accept you, other than that you'll feel the sun's rays on your body and you will feel the power of summer. You'll feel warmth like never before. Ultimately as well you will turn Fay. It's your decision now whether you'll accept the rose now and become Summer Queen or carry Winter's Touch." Luke explained.
I stared down at the rose once more and saw how it glowed brightly. This rose would determine my fate, but in either case I will become Fay which will led to my dismay along with Shun's. In either case I lose him . . . Still if means he'll live, I'll do it. I have to. I slowly reach toward the rose and could already feel it's coldness as I drew near to it. The moment I touched the rose and held it in my hand it glowed brightly in my hand. I felt frost start to consume my body and fear rose in me as I started to feel ice inside me and coldness build with in me. A surge of pain ran through me as I screamed in pain and fell to the floor. I heard Luke shouting my name and opened my eyes to see the rose in front of me. I stared at it intensely and then noticed the rose had started to change in my hand. The ice that once covered the rose started to melt away. The color of the rose went from blue to pure yellow as I held it. I watched as it glowed brightly in my hand shinning into my eyes causing me to be blinded for a while. Soon though I started to feel the frost that once was on my skin melt away by a warmth. I felt my entire body become warm inside. As I slowly stood up from the ground no longer in pain my eyes widen in shock.
That blinding glow was no longer coming from just Luke, but it flared on my skin as well. I looked to my hands, arms, at the soft gold glow that covered my skin. It felt like nothing I ever imagined before as I looked to Luke who stared at me in wonder and a smile across his face.
"You really are her . . . My Summer Queen . . ." He spoke almost like a whisper, but loud enough for me to hear.
"I am," Was all I could say.
I noticed now a few Summer Fay around me as they noticed my presence as I had just become their queen. I could feel the Fay around me as I drank there happiness, revealing the sense of security that Luke and I gave them. I could taste their emotions of joy and happiness along with Luke's. I gave a small laugh and then suddenly felt Luke grab my arms in his arms, swinging in the air, laughing.
"I finally found you my queen, my lovely Alice!" He cheered.
My eyes widen a little as he said that, but I felt a small smile spread across my face for some reason. It was then that I remembered that Luke and I are now bound together. I felt my cheeks flush the moment my eyes laid on his. I felt my heart beating fast just like it does for Shun. I felt myself becoming drawn to Luke and not wanting to leave his side. I realized that I was having feelings for Luke because I had become his queen . . . because I became his . . . All around me now, flowers sprang into life, and the air warmed. The grass now underneath Luke's feet grew lush, as verdant as his eyes. I let him continued to twirl me, until realization hit me and I asked him to put me down now.
"Luke, I have go to Shun! He's still dying and I can't . . . I can't . . ." I spoke.
I couldn't finish my sentence for some reason. I wanted to say I can't watch him die, but the words wouldn't escape my lips. I felt tears prickling in the back of my eye lids as I tried not to cry. I felt Luke wrap his arms around me and I was surprised I didn't pull him away from me as he spoke.
"Then let's go save him my queen." He grinned.
. . . . .
I felt so light on my feet and free as I ran at Fay's speed. It was incredible! I had never felt so alive until now as I was able to run and run like no tomorrow. I watched as Luke and Devlin were behind me trying to match my speed, but I was too quick. I wasn't sure if it because I had just turn Fay which makes me stronger, or if it's really just because I'm fast. I didn't care though because this was amazing. I watched my trail behind me leaving a similar trail like Luke's, but much brighter. Soon my mood change though as I drew near back at Shun's place now. The moment I stopped in front of the front door fear rose inside me. I was afraid because everyone inside will know what I have become. Shun will see that I am Fay and belong to Luke now in order to save his life. I will end up losing everything once I step inside . . . I felt Luke place a hand on my shoulder bringing warmth to me as I felt more relaxed by his touch. I looked to him and gave a small smile and nod to him before I opened the door.
The moment, I stepped inside I saw no one insight. They all must be with Shun . . . As I slowly ascended upstairs, I saw Raye and immediately she looked to me and I didn't see shock and surprise in her eyes, but I saw her give a small sad smile to me. She knew what I would have chosen and she knows that it will lead to my dismay. I watched as she gestured to Shun's room and I'm sure that's where everyone is. I slowly made my way to the door and place my hand on the door handle. I stared at the door handle for a while, until I took a deep breath. There's no going back now. I opened the door slowly and entered to have all eyes now on me as I saw Shun lay in bed tossing and turning in pain.
"Alice?" Mira spoke with a tone of shock, but I didn't meet her gaze as I could only stare at Shun and how it made my heart ache inside.
I slowly walked toward him and no one said a word. I could feel there emotions though like shock, surprise, confusion, and hope. I was glad they weren't angry, but they all knew that I had become Fay and have become the new Summer Queen. I kneeled down at Shun's bed side and saw his eyes closed as he was trying fight the poison inside him. I turned to Luke who stood by the door frame along with Devlin and spoke.
"How do I save him?" I questioned as Luke spoke.
"Apply your hands to where the wound is and let all of your energy flow through your hands. Let Summer's Light spread into his body. It will heal the wound, but for the poison you'll have to drain it from him. Find the source and take it inside of you. The poison won't kill you as you're much stronger then all of us since you have just become a new Fay. It will make you weak for a while, but you'll heal because of summer inside healing you." Luke explained.
I turned back to Shun and slowly removed the covered that were on top of him. I saw his hands on the wound trying to stop it from hurting him. I slowly placed my hands on his and saw him twitch a little from my touch, but his eyes didn't open. I slowly removed his hands away from the wound as I placed my hand on the wound. I felt his blood spilling a little onto my hand, but I didn't move away. I looked my eyes and did as Luke instructed and tried to push all of my energy and warmth that flowed through me into my hands. Soon I open my eyes and saw my hands glowed as I saw energy escaping my body and into Shun's. I saw him begin to relax more as everyone sighed in relief as a single tear escaped my eye. I still had to find the poison though. Suddenly I felt something dark and shadowy clouding his blood as my hands were still on him from where his wound was. With the strength I still had, I tried to concentrate and removed the poison form his body into mine and I felt suddenly become sick as I kept taking in the poison. The moment I got the poison out of him, I fell back and lay on the ground feeling weak. My vision blurred as people shouted my name over and over, but it was Luke who reached for me and held me in his arms. I felt his warmth as our bodies touched and I felt a little better, but not by much as I started to drift off into sleep.
Shun's POV
"You won't ever leave me will you?" Alice asked of me as I placed we stared into each other's eyes as we laid in a flower meadow.
"Never," I replied, but her smile faded as she spoke.
"You're lying," She replied with a hurt look in her eyes.
"Alice, I won't ever leave you!" I exclaimed.
"Then why did you have to die?" She replied as I looked at her confused.
Suddenly I saw her gaze look down at me as I followed her gaze and saw that I was bleeding. I quickly sat up and saw a knife in me. I pulled it out and screamed in pain. I turned back and saw that Alice had disappeared from my sight as I looked everywhere for her.
"Alice!" I shouted and no answer.
"ALICE!" I screamed.
Suddenly I jolted up out of bed with sweat covering my entire body. I soon felt a hand on my shoulder as I flinched and saw that it was Fang's.
"I would take it easy if I were you. You're still recovering Shun." Fang replied, but I didn't care.
"What happened!? Where is everyone!?" I exclaimed.
"You were stabbed by Beria and poisoned. You were dying Shun, until Alice saved you . . ." He explained as he didn't met my gaze telling me something is wrong.
"Where's Alice!?" I exclaimed and he didn't say anything for a while, but he finally spoke.
"She's in her room with everyone else . . . Shun, I wouldn't-." He spoke, but I quickly got up before he could stop me.
My stomach hurt like hell as I limped out of my room and to hers, but I didn't care. The moment my hand reached for the handle, I saw Fang's hand on the door preventing me from going in as I glared at him.
"Move out of my way," I said sternly, but he shook his head.
"Shun there's something you need to know!" Fang exclaimed, but I wouldn't listen.
"Let me through Fang, I don't care what is you have to tell me it can wait! I have to see Alice!" I exclaimed.
He looked like he was going to argue with me, but then he stopped and sighed in fustraction. He moved his hand from the door and spoke.
"Don't say, I didn't warn you." Fang replied not understanding what he met as I opened the door.
As soon as I entered Alice's room I was overwhelmed to see who stood her room like Devlin, Raye, and even the Summer King along with my friends. I entered the room and my eyes laid on Alice's as she smiled at me weakly as she laid in bed. As I walked toward her I stopped and noticed her hand in Luke's. I looked to both of them and Alice noticed this and before she could say a word, Luke spoke.
"I'm only healing her with Summer's Light, don't go ballistic." Luke spoke as I glared to him and moved toward Alice who gave a small yet sad smile to me.
"Alice," I replied as I felt my heart ache inside as I saw her in this state.
I kneeled down to her bed and was about to reach for her hand, until she pulled away from me much to my surprise. I saw her look to me with hurt eyes as I stared at her in confusion. I saw her hand tighten in Luke's and I felt a little jealous toward that.
"Let's give them some space," Travis spoke up as he headed to the door.
I watched as Mira and Alex came over to Alice and gave small smile to her as they exited the room along with Raye, Fang, and Devlin. I watched Luke as he looked to Alice as she smiled and nodded to him as he let go of her and left the room closing the door behind him. We stood in silence for a while, until she slowly spoke up to me.
"How are you feeling?" She asked as I gave a small laugh.
"I should be asking you that and I'm fine." I replied with a small smile as she still stared at me with a small sad smile on her face as if she was keeping something from me.
"What about you?" I asked as she gave a small laugh.
"Tired and weak, but nothing I can't recover from . . ." She said sadly and my expression changed to a more serious on.
"What exactly happened Alice that's causing you to act this way." I replied much to her surprise.
I watched as she looked away from me though. I saw her hands tighten on the sheets she was holding and tears fell from her eyes making me shocked. I reached for again, but she stopped me.
"No don't! Don't touch me!" She cried as I stared at her shocked and hurt by her words as she cried.
"What happened Alice!? Please tell me!?" I exclaimed as she cried, but slowly spoke again.
"I . . . I . . . didn't have a choice." She spoke up through her crying.
"What?" I questioned.
"To save you, I didn't have choice." She replied as I looked at her with concern.
"What do you mean?" I asked once more worried.
"Raye told me of two choices I had that would determine my future. Both would indicate my dismay, but one would led to your survival. The only thing that could of healed you was Summer Light so with the help of Devlin I was about to make it to the Summer Court and ask for Luke's help, but . . ." She explained choking up now as I looked at her confused.
"But?" I questioned as then turned to face me with sad and hurt eyes.
"Luke couldn't save you because of how weak he was along with his court. I begged and pleaded, but he wouldn't even try. The only I could have saved you in the end was . . . was . . ." She cried as I looked at her in shock as I felt fear rise in me.
"Was?" I asked.
"I had to try and become Summer Queen in order to save you." She admitted and my eyes widen in shock and fear.
I felt myself standing up from her bed and taking a few steps back with my hand on my forehead not looking at her anymore as I was too shocked. Out of my shock I looked over to her and saw how hurt she was be reaction, but then she spoke.
"In the end Luke was right . . . I was meant to become Summer Queen as the rose accepted and I passed the test. However, I've now lost mortality and have become Fay . . ." She choked on her words as she looked to me with sadness.
"I'm so sorry Shun, but it was the only way to save you from dying. I used Summer's Light and was able to heal you along with taking your poison away and into me." She explained as I looked at her shocked with my hand dropping to the side as I walked closer to her bed again and spoke.
"You took the poison?" I questioned and she nodded.
"I'm fine just tired and weak, but I'll heal."
I stared at her with worry, but I was still to shocked to believe everything she had told me. She explained everything to me now about how it all happened and how she healed me. The more she talked though, the more I felt hurt. She was Summer Queen now and therefore belongs to Luke. I watched as she slowly got out of bed and I saw the moment she stood up she almost fell, until I got her and then my eyes widen. I looked down into her eyes as I held her in my arms and I could feel it. She felt so warm as heat radiated her body. I helped her stand, and I saw it. Her glamour was fading and I could finally see her beautiful golden glow on her skin. I saw how radiate she looked and how beautiful summer had suited her. I looked into her eyes as saw how they glowed as well. Her light wasn't as bright as I expected, but I assumed it was because of the poison still in her. As she stared at me with those eyes, I had let go of her and took a few steps back.
"I . . . I . . . I don't how to take this Alice." I admitted as she stared at me with those eyes of hers.
"I'm still the same, just well . . ." She explained as she looked away from me and didn't know what to say.
"You belong to the Summer Court and King now. I'm still Solitary," I replied not trying to sound hurtful as I saw her roll her hands into a fist before speaking.
"I didn't want this to happen to us, but now I fear even though you're alive I've lost you. What scared me the most out of everything is that I can't find control in myself anymore." She admitted as I moved a little closer as she continued.
"The moment I turned Fay and became Summer Queen, I was overwhelmed. I could feel and taste everything around me. I felt a desire toward Luke and his court that I can't get rid of. I know I love you, but my heart pounds for him now as well Shun . . . I don't know what to do anymore as I don't want to lose you both." She admitted and it was like an arrow to my heart.
I knew this would happen if by some chance she became Summer Queen. I knew she would feel this way as she is bound to him because of summer. I knew I'd lose her if I'd let him near her and now I have lost her. I was so confused at what I could do. She now has feelings for both Luke and I and I can't accept that. I want the Alice that loved only me. The Alice that was mortal. I walked to her and cupped her cheeks to make her look at me with sad and hurt eyes that made my heart ache. I was losing her . . . no . . . I had already lost her the moment she turned.
"I love you Alice . . . I don't want to lose you. I am grateful for you saving my life and I will always love you for that. However, you belong to summer now as I am still Solitary. Telling me you have feelings for both Luke and I . . . I just don't know how to take that." I replied sadly as tears fell from her eyes.
"Shun," She cried, but I turned to stay strong and not break down.
"I will always love you Alice, but I can't stay with you if you can't decide between us. I love the Alice that only loved me. The one that was mortal." I admitted as she cried and shook her head.
"I want to tell you that I'm yours, but-!" She exclaimed, but I sealed her lips to mine not wanting to know anymore.
I felt our kiss feel different than ever before. It felt like I was kissing the sun as I felt warmth, passion, love, and misery all in one. I felt her breath warming me up and my body being covered in warmth. It felt like a shower of sunlight radiating on us as we kissed. All at the same time it was loving and heart-breaking. No words were said about it, but we both knew that our relationship had ended. I felt her hot tears fall from her eyes and on to me as I held her tightly in my arms, before I pulled away to look into her eyes and saw how heart-broken she was.
"I love you . . . I'm sorry," I replied before walking away from her and out the door.
Suddenly though I felt a rush of air pass by me and the door swinging open in front of me. I turned to look back and realized Alice had ran. I noticed her trail that reminded me of summer as I watched her run. I wanted to chase after her, but what would I even say. I watched as Luke took off after her leaving just my friends along with Raye, Fang, and Devlin watching her disappear and possibly forever out of my life.
"What did you do!?" Mira explained and I sighed now leaning against the wall for support as I spoke sadly.
"I told her the realization that I couldn't be with her, if she couldn't decide between Luke and I. She belongs to summer now and we don't meddle in other courts affairs." I simply replied, before going back to my room.
As I opened and closed the door behind me, I felt myself sink to the floor. I covered my face with my hands and for the first time in a long time, I felt tears fall from my face as I had lost the one I love . . .