Author's note :
Thank you pft980811 for loving me ! ^^
It took me a while to write this chapter since I wanted to start going somewhere and not only casually writing scenes and little stories. So i had to create a litlle list of events who are supposed to happen from now. So I discovered I have to deal with Mao.
So I decided to put mao aside for a little while, and go on with an alternative history.
Also, I hate silence, I need noise, songs, muscis … so i'm Watching all South park, and it's quite hard to focus when Cartman is fighting against Kyle. Yet it's so funny ^^
I'm so sorry for the time it take me to write this chapter, I was wondering how to deal with the elements I wanted to implement, I even asked for help, listened to various styles of music (from dubstep to GoT ost). But here it is, finally achieved ! And this it my longest chapter !
I hope you'll enjoy !
Zero : Lelouch of the Rebellion
Chapter 4 : Lelouch Lamperouge
Lelouch Lamperouge is a legend. He could major in every matter (except gym) if he wasn't lazy. He is always composed, mysterious. He never make mistakes. Well, almost never.
The last mistake Lelouch made have been related to Suzaku. In order to win a chess game, he destabilized his opponent with a lie. The lie was about Lelouch, Suzaku, and sex. Lelouch never had such toughts for suzaku. In fact, he never had such conscious toughts and feelings toward suzaku.
Now, several time a night, he wake up, panting heavily, the legs and the arms shaking and weak, his whole skin sending shivers and itching, Something painfully throbbing between his legs.
What the hell is wrong with me ? was the only thing Lelouch, a britannian noble educated in a rather conservative way could think about. He never cared about those feelings, preferring reason to emotions. Yet, every night he ended hastily stroking his member searching release only to get some sleep.
This was bad. He missed the escape attempt of the Japan Liberation Front, giving Cornellia a glorious victory. He planned on eliminating the JLF members anyway, yet he didn't wanted Cornellia to take back the Sakuradite.
God, he needed to sleep ! He was unable to study well in his room, fighting against his hormones. He was going to go nuts (no pun intended) when someone knocked at his door.
RegainComposureRegainComposureRegainComposure Tought an anxious teenager before allowing Milly ashford to enter the room.
« How are you, Milly ? »
« Better than you, obviously » She sat at the table in the center of Lelouch's room. Lelouch sat on his bed.
« What do you mean, better than me ? I am fine. I am more than fine, in fact. » Milly pouted. Lelouch was really composed, but his eyes always told the truth he was hiding to her.
« You are at lest really tired. What is worrying you ? » Obviously, Lelouch was everything but cooperative. Damn his love for mysteries. « Lelouch, You can do it the easy way by telling me everything ooor … I can just recover the walls of the academy with pictures of you in this oh so sexy maid outfit » She bursted on her feet next to a wide-eyed Lelouch « SO CHOOSE, LAMPEROUGE ! A BIT OF REVELATION NOW OR SHAME FOR A WHOLE WEEK ! » She also was dramatically pointing at him. She was a true devil. Lelouch prefered a private humiliation than a public one.
« Well, let's say that there might be something worrying me. »
« mm, it might be a good start. » Milly waited, and, seeing that Lelouch was really slow, closed the distance between the two of them by leaning against the wall. She looked at Lelouch for a whille, before yelling « GUTS ! », her magical word used for motivating anyone was a bit sleepy.
At this moment, Lelouch was ready to activate his geass and say her to get fuck herself, yet he was unsure the geass would allow other interpretations as the literal meaning.
« Did Rivalz talked about my last chess game? » enquired Lelouch.
« He told me everything for the price of a kiss. On his cheek, of course. » Said a devilish Milly. Lelouch knew he should have geassed Rivalz.
« So you know everything. Except that those feelings were totally unexpected, and that i don't know how to deal with them » replied sadly Lelouch.
« come on, Lulu, you just have to open him your heart » Answered Milly, while walking from a part of the room to another. « Love is one of the strongest emotions, with hate, and it's sure he doesn't hate you »
« He doesn't know everything about me, I have secrets even you can't imagine »
« lulu, you are just impossible ! » scolded Milly, just before falling her back into Lelouch's wardrobe, to lean against it and emphasising her words.
Then a catastroph happened. Just on the top of the wardrobe was Lelouch's suitcase holding Zero's outfit. Milly squeaked as the heavy object fall next to her.
Lelouch was not looking at Milly when this happened, he turned his head only to see the suitcase broke, revealing it's content.
The silence was deafening. Both Lelouch's and Milly's eyes were as wide as possible, but for different, yet evident reasons.
Milly was quick to understand that Lelouch Lamperouge, which true name was Lelouch Vi Britannia, was the man behind the mask of Zero. It was perfectly making sense. Lelouch hated britannia and his father. He surely wanted to avenge him and spit in the Emperor's face. The more direct mean to do so was simple : taking Japan away from his father. But was all he wanted to do ? Maybe also avenging his mother, that would explain Clovis' assassination.
Lelouch was now thinking about the consequences and the actions he could have to take in order to preserve his secret. The first option is to use geass in order to enforce his secret. Yet, he could need to use it on Milly later. Trying to convince her would might me more dangerous, yet more effective. One thing is sure : he would have to move first.
Then Milly pinned him down on his bed, the eyes full of anger.
« You … You little ... » Milly was shaking, yet she was strong enough so Lelouch had no choice but face what she had to say « You little brat ! How could you make such things ? » Milly began to cry, her tears falling down onto Lelouch's cheeks. « You killed … Shirley's father »
Lelouch's face changed at these words. From a slighty frightened yet composed face, Lelouch was now obviously feeling guilty and sad.
« Milly … This is why I am not good since a few day, you see I... » he started to say, before Milly talked back
« Oh, you does not feel very good because you killed so many peoples ? Or because you are afraid your dear su-za-ku (she was emphasising every syllable in suzaku's name) will not love you in return ? »
« You don't underst... »
« DON'T DARE » she inhaled deeply « Don't dare me I don't understand, Lelouch. I know you hate your father, I know you hate how he invaded this country while you were held hostage with nunally. I know how do you feel, being exiled. My family have suffered the same fate. » with anger, she was diving her nails in Lelouch's wrists, making them bleed slightly.
« Milly, may I explain you how much did I fucked up ? »
« For sure, you did fucked up quite well. Explain me, but I want the truth, and I want him whole »
« First of all, I planned to rebel against Britannia seven years ago, when the war began. At first, my plan was to gather enough money thanks to gambling, to corrupt some key members and put Britannia down. »
« But this is not what happened. »
« Exactly. When the truck I already talked you about stopped, A soldier came and helped me he first tought I was a terrorist, but when the capsule which was supposed to contain gas opened, he protected me an forced his gas mask on my face. » Lelouch's eye were teary from the memory
« Suzaku saved me even if ten seconds before he tought I was a terrorist. Then, Royal guards came, and ordered him to kill me. When he refused, he got shot by an officer. I managed to run away, yet I was sure Suzaku was dead. All I wanted was to live, to see Nunally once again, but I was physically outranked. They were going to execute me, in a warehouse, when somethign happened. A girl gave me something. »
His left eye shined, as his geass appeared, before getting deactivated. The display slightly shokec Milly, causing her to tighten her grip on Lelouch.
« The Power of Absolute Obedience, or Geass. With this power, I am able to command someone, to give him one order he will be forced to follow. Thanks to this power, I made the royal guards commit suicide, before taking the lead of the rebels. I gave them Sutherlands, and won. Since this day, I created the character of Zero, to protect my identity and hide to their eyes the fact I am not Japanese. »
Lelouch paused for a little while, only to resume his story
« When i learned that Suzaku was alive, i did everything to protect him, and tried to make him join the rebellion. He had all the reasons to do so : his coutry was humiliated, he have been betrayed by the army. Yet, this baka was as stubborn as ever. So here I am : I lead a rebellion against my father and Britannia, I promised Shirley I would avenge her father from what I have done to him, and even if I have an idea how to do so, I have a crush on my best friend who appear to be the most motivated person to arrest me. »
Milly took a moment to think about all those information, before releasing her grip, and sat on the bed , next to Lelouch, who now was massaging his wrists.
« Why didn't you used you Guess of Absolute Stuff on Suzaku ? »
Lelouch was taken aback by such question, it seemed the asnwer was natural « I didn't for the same reason i didn't geassed you two minutes ago. » Said Lelouch, looking down, as if ashamed by what he was going to say « I care about you. »
« So you started this rebellion in order to avenge not only your mother and nunally, but also for the death of suzaku, only to discover after that he was alive »
« Yes »
« And you promised to kill Zero when you learned what happened to Shirley's father. »
« Indeed. »
« And I tought you were smart »
« Milly, …» Lelouch was even more ashamed as when he confessed he cared about Milly and Suzaku « I need your help »
« There is no way I am going to rebel against the Empire, it is far too dangerous »
« Milly, I don't ask you to rebel. I'm asking you to help me dealing with my feelings. I want to reveal the truth to Suzaku and Shirley. It is my plan, yet i do not know how to do so. »
« Lelouch, you always have been oblivious to your feelings, and I always helped you to deal with them. There is no way i will stop now »
« Thank you, Milly » Lelouch felt relieved.
« Don't misunderstand me, Lelouch, I am more angry than you can imagine, and the next few days are going to be horrible for you. »
« Yet, you won't denounce me. »
« Of course not, it would be insane, asking an audience to Cornellia li Britannia, and tell her 'I and my famili have been hidding your brother to the imperial family for the past seven years ! By the way, he is the terrorist named Zero and killed your brother ! ' . my family would be publicly executed for treason »
« yeah, you are telling me I put you in troubles »
« You put us in trouble we were glad to be put in. Except for the regicide. And the rebellion. »
« hidding me and nunally was an act of rebellion you know. »
« shush. If you want me to help you, than you should agree with me » said Milly while grinning.
She was already creating strategies and tactics to help Lelouch it would be delicious to see all the despair on the faces of Lelouch's fangirls when she will succeed in making the kiss in public. They would have to ! With Lelouch in a dress, of course !
Behind the door, Someone else have been listening the whole affair. Shirley Fenette were coming to ask a little help from Lelouch for some mathematics, when she heard Milly squeaked. Not daring to open the door and reveal something embarassing, she quietly listened. Then tears began falling down. When Lelouch had finished his speach by confessing his crush on another boy, it was to much. She silently ran away. Lelouch lamperou... no, Lelouch Vi Britannia, the man she loved, was also the monster who killed so many peoples, fighting agaionst his country, against his family !
So, she ran, until she was out of the academy, thinking about Lelouch, and this Geass thing that allowed him to do such horrid things. He was... He is...
« … a bastard. »
« Uh ?! » Shirley was totally taken aback. Someone just said loud and clean what she was thinking.
« The man who made you cry, Shirley, doesn't deserve your love. He take everything and everyone you love, leaving you alone and sad. »
« how do you ... »
« … Know ? « The man finished her question before answering « Because he took me the women I loved, and from this time i searched to find her back. Would you please help me to avenge our beloved ones ? »
Shirley was really in doubt, this guy was wearing a really strange outfit : a white coat, purple shirt, black trousers and brown boots, he was hiding his ears with and audio headset in the same color of his sunglasses. Yet, everything he was telling to shirley was hiting right in her heart, she felt he was telling the truth, that he was thinking like her, she felt safe with him, so gentle, near him.
« By the way, my name is Mao. And you must be Shirley, from the Student Council »
« Yes, Mao. « answered Shirley, with a renewed determination. « We will make him pay »
- this Conclude this Chapter of Zero : Lelouch of the Rebellion -
Next Chapter :
Suzaku Kururugi