Ward wasn't interested in talking his feelings out, he grew up learning to let nothing show and so having to talk to Jennifer the psychologist wasn't something he wanted to do, but he wanted to be able to help Jemma and if he learned something in these sessions that could help her he was more than willing to sit through it to find out.

Jennifer knew that Ward wasn't looking forward to these sessions; she could see it in his face when he entered the conference room. So she knew he was going to be a tough one to crack, but she was willing to try and get through to him.

"Hello Agent Ward." Jennifer said kindly as Ward sat on the couch across from her.

"Hello Miss. Morin." Ward said as he crossed her arms across his chest.

"You can call me Jennifer, Agent Ward."

"Okay Jennifer."

"Why don't you talk a little about whatever you want."

"I should let you know I don't talk about my past it's something that I don't like to talk about. I'm only here to learn how to help Jemma."

"I'd like to help you too."

"I…I just don't know how to talk about things."

"That's why we're having this meeting. I would like to help you get past that. And I want to let you know everything you're doing for Jemma is exactly what I would be doing. She needs you to be there and you are."

"I just feel so helpless sometimes. I sometimes stay outside their pod just to make sure that Jemma sleeps through the night. I worry about her so much."

"And after what you've been through together, that is normal, but you are not letting yourself need help like she does. This team cares a lot about you and I know that you care about them. They want to help."

"Sometimes I think I don't deserve the help they want to give."

"And why is that?"

"Because of some of the things I've done in my past; I feel like I'm tainted."

"That's normal Agent Ward, but you should know a lot more lives have been saved because of what you did in your past. I know that you feel 'tainted', but you did what you had to, to survive. Think about it this way if you didn't kill one of the people who were trying to kill you, who would have saved Jemma?"

Ward thought for a moment and realized she was right no one was going to be able to kill those guys who hurt her like he did. He was the one who got her out; he was the one helping her through with Skye. Jennifer noted that Ward had a contemplative look on his face as he thought about what she said.

"I never really thought of it that way." Ward finally said after a few seconds of thinking.

"I know that's why I'm here for you to tell you and help you move past this feeling. I'm here for you like I'm here for Jemma. You both went through something you shouldn't have to go through and I want to help both of you move past it." Jennifer said hoping it would convince Ward to talk a little more.

"When I was younger my older brother, he wasn't very nice, he made me do things; things that I'm not proud of, and my little brother was hurt because of it. I didn't know who to talk to about it, my parents weren't…well they weren't the type of parents who cared. I ended up in juvie after my parents died. Garrett came there and told me he could help me be a man and have a real life. He taught me everything I know and when we found out he was Hydra it killed me; he's the reason my parents died. Hydra killed them."

"How do you know that Hydra killed them?"

"When we were transferring him to the fridge, he told me, they wanted me to join them."

"And what did you do?"

"I killed him. I broke contact with anyone associated with him."

"I'm sorry that all that happened to you. I heard Garrett wasn't the nicest SO."

"He wasn't, he use to beat us if we didn't do what we were told."

"I wish some of you would have come forward and told about him. I'm sorry that you had to go through that."

"I'm past it, but sometimes it's hard to get his training out of my head."

"And that is a normal thing getting past things is a part of life. How about we call it quits for today? Why don't you go visit Jemma, Skye, and Fitz. I'm sure they're wondering how today went. I won't tell them anything, but if you want to share it's your choice."

"Thank you." Ward said as he stood up and headed to the lab to see the others. Jennifer sat still watching Ward leave. She had a nagging feeling that he wasn't telling everything, but she was hopeful that he would begin to trust her and would tell her when he was ready.

Ward was passing by the pods when Jemma appeared out of the corner of his eye; she took his hand and led him to the couch.

"So how did it go?" Jemma asked.

"It was okay. She actually isn't too hard to talk to." Ward said as he gave Jemma's hand a squeeze.

"I'm glad you talk to her. How are you doing?"

"I'm okay; some days are better than others. How are you?"

"Still scared, I can't seem to shake that feeling."

"I'm sorry that you still feel scared."

"It's not your fault you did everything you could and I know that."

"I'm glad you know that; you're kind of like a little sister I never had."

"Well you're like a big brother that I never had. Thank you Grant."

"For what?"

"For everything, for being here for me, for helping me through when I've had a nightmare, and for caring so much."

"I wouldn't let you go through it alone. I care about you."

"And I care about you. You know that anything you want to talk about I'm here too, right?"

"Yeah I know. Come on Fitz and Skye are probably wondering where you are."

"All right."

Ward and Jemma then headed to the lab to join Fitz and Skye who were in a debate on who was the most influential president in history, how they got on that subject no one knew, but it did make for a fun afternoon of debating.