Chapter 4: Tell Me about Mommy

Every night Lauren ruined her routine. She didn't want a bedtime song. She wanted Finn to talk about her mommy now that he's told a little about her.

And as for Finn, each time Lauren wanted to know something, he felt like crying in front of her. That's how he felt on the first day that afternoon.

"Daddy? Tell me a story about mommy." Lauren spoke up. That's how their conversation started. Finn hasn't told her much. He's only told her that she looks just like her. He never told her the name.

"That's all you need to know, princess." Finn says kissing her head.

"So she has my hair, my nose, and my eyes?" Lauren asked confidently.

"You got that right." Finn pokes her nose.

"And my tantrums?" Finn laughs. "Yes. And your tantrums."

"Does she sing like you, daddy?"

"Of course she did, baby girl." Lauren shot him a look. "Hey! You gave me a new nickname."

"Yes, I did." Finn says pulling her closer. "Is that okay?"

"I guess so." Lauren responds with a smile. "What does she sound like?"

"You're mommy has a voice of angel. She can sing the phone book and you wouldn't get tired of her."

Lauren laughs. "Then she has a good voice!"

"A beautiful voice."

"Will I have a good voice too? Because you and mommy sing."

Finn nods. "I hope one day you will."

"I hope so too." Lauren hugs Finn. "Daddy? Did Auntie Qunnie and Aunt Cedes know her?"

"Yes."

"Were they friends?"

"For most part of high school. Your Auntie Qunnie was so mean to her."

"That isn't very nice."

"I know, baby girl."

"How about Cedes?"

"Auntie Cedes, to you." Finn corrects Lauren. "They always had their fights being divas."

"Is that what I am? A Diva?"

"Well, you could be.."

"Oh." Lauren sighs.

"What's wrong?" Finn asked concerned. He was hoping what he said didn't upset Lauren.

"They never told me about her." Lauren said looking away. "Neither did you or dad or Puck Daddy."

Finn cleared his throat. He wanted to tuck Lauren in bed and kiss her goodnight before he went even farther. "Daddy? What happened to my mommy? Where is she?" Finn took a deep breath.

He thought they already had a long conversation and it was getting late as well. "Alright, little princess. It's time to go to bed."

"Can you tell me more tomorrow?" Lauren asked.

"Maybe." Finn responds. He hugs her and kisses her goodnight. "I love you princess."

"And I love you daddy." She says hugging and kissing Finn. "I also love my mommy, even if I don't know her." He wraps her in her pink blanky.

He tries to keep himself together. He closed the door behind him and leans on it. He lets a few tears stream down his face.

Sam fell asleep early but woke up to pee. He saw Finn standing in the hallway by Lauren's door. "Bathroom run." Sam tells him.

"Go. I'm not waiting." Finn tells him. "Actually I can hold it. Something tells me you told Lauren about her." Sam says.

"Maybe I did." Finn responds.

"And?"

"And I don't want to talk about it. I had a really long night."

"You've been having a lot of really long nights."

Sam watches Finn cover his face with his hands. He starts to cry again. "I had to call it a night. I had too. She asked me where her mommy is and who is she. And what broke my heart is that she says she loves her, even if she doesn't know her." He continued to cry, letting it all out. Sam tried to comfort him but he refused.

"Maybe it's time to tell her who she is." Sam suggested.

"No, no. It's not!" Finn sobs on his hands. "You don't understand. It will just hurt her! She's already hurt..She doesn't deserve this."

"And neither do you. It's killing you because you have to keep her a secret."

"I'm not talking about it anymore. Goodnight, Sam." Finn rushed to his room and cried himself to sleep. He left Sam feeling worried about him.

The next day at school Lauren got bored coloring with chalk at recess. She went over with a group of girls and two boys from her class. "Hi, what are we doing?" She asked concerned.

"Playing house." A girl with blonde hair, named Kelly responds. "Me and Ashley are the daughters. Luke is the dad, and Anthony is the brother. We don't have a mommy cause no one else wants to play."

Lauren smiles. "Well, I can play mommy."

"No you can't!" Ashley responds.

"Why can't I?"

"Because you don't have a mommy! So you can't play!"

"What does that mean?"

"It' means you're a weirdo because you have three dads!" Says Luke a boy with brown curly hair says.

"I'm not a weirdo." Lauren defends herself.

"Yes you are! You have weird family!" Lauren gets in front of Ashley's face. "You can't talk about my daddies like that!"

"I can and I did!"

"You can't!" Lauren pushes Ashley down on the ground. Ashley starts to tear up once her elbow started hurting and saw her arm bleeding.

The boys ran to several teachers. One teacher took Ashley to the nurse and Lauren to the principal's office. Sure, Lauren has had several time outs but she's never needed to be sent to what's known as the bad room of Chelsea Lake.