I decided to write another chapter to the story but I am taking my time. This chapter was the result being stuck working as a back up receptionist at my job for almost 8 hours. Enjoy reading.
Getting control of himself, Dean moved his lips slowly away from Cas's damp soft mouth. He looked down at her and saw the look of exhilaration and astonishment on her blue eyes.
"Wow." Dean muttered. The kiss felt like fireworks exploding inside him. Of all the women he had kissed, including the two relationships he had in the past, he never felt like this with anyone until now. His body was throbbing from what just occurred a moment ago. Needing some space to collect himself, he moved back a little. His right hand moved away from angel's waist gently cupping the side of her face. "Cas. I'm surprised as you are. I never expected this to happen. If we go any further I want us to take this slow if that's ok with you."
Cas looked up at Dean's ruggedly handsome face. Her lips were a little swollen from his kisses. She enjoyed the feel of Dean's warm hand cradling her cheek and the curve of her jaw. "It's fine with me Dean. This is a totally new experience for me as well... um being a female vessel this time around."
He gave her a piercing stare. "We definitely need to take this slow." Dean pulled her into his arms giving her a fierce hug. He loved the feeling of her soft body against his and her unique scent was becoming overwhelming to his senses. Dean cleared his throat a little. "So angel lady, what are you going to do while we are sleeping?" He stepped away gesturing her to sit down on the library chair.
"Well, I thought about making a quick visit to heaven but it can wait until later." She looked at the man sitting across from the table.
They turned their heads as they heard quiet footsteps approaching the area. Sam looked carefully around the corner to see Dean and Cas sitting at one of the library tables. "Hey guys. I was wondering when you were coming back from your shopping spree." He walked over to Cas inspecting the outfit she was wearing. "Cool. Cas is wearing jeans and a t-shirt. That's a big change." Sam's eyes widen when he saw the jewelry. He was trying to look serious; instead he spewed out. "Aww... you guys got matching rings. That's so cute. It almost looks like wedding bands."
Dean scowled at his brother. "It's not wedding bands Sammy. Cas told me that his vessel has an identical twin so we have to make sure we can identify Cas out in public. So, I got her some jewelry similar to mine."
Sam smirked knowing it's a lot more than the reason. "Ok bro. Next time get her some silver earrings too." He got an annoyed stare from his old brother as a response to his joke.
"Anyway, when are we heading out?" Dean changed the subject before he throttled his little brother.
"Well, I thought tomorrow afternoon would be ideal. Unless you two got any plans I don't know about." Sam said with sardonic humor.
Dean started to frown. "What the hell does that mean?" He wondered if Sam saw them kissing earlier.
Sam raised his hands in resignation. "Hey I am just saying. You two are turning into bosom buddies with shopping and chatting. I am just trying to give you some quality time together to catch up on..." Sam paused for a few seconds and then uttered, "Things." Raising his eyes in a suggestive expression to the both of them.
Dean rose from his chair and snarled. "Listen you assh-!."
Castiel cut him off. "Sam, thank you for the thought but we don't have any plans to do shopping or other things." Presenting a stoic expression in her blue eyes. "Right now, preparing for the trip is primary at this time. We can stop what is killing people in Michigan. Don't you agree Sam?" She stood up facing both brother's.
Dean opened his mouth to verbally blast out Cas for cutting him off but looking at the pretty angel giving him a soft stare made him close his mouth.
Sam saw Dean's reaction and smiled. "So now Cas has Dean wrapped around her delicate pinky?" He thought to himself. "Sorry for riling you up bro. I was only trying to help. Anyway, I am getting some water then I am going to hit the bed. Good night everyone."
Cas stepped in front of the green eyed man. "You should get some sleep too Dean. I will be here in the morning. Don't worry about me. I will watch TV if it gets too boring."
Dean dipped his head down and kissed Cas on the left cheek. "Ok angel. I will see you in the morning. Dean walked toward the sleeping quarters. He looked back at Cas for a second giving her a sweet smile.
Cas heard Dean walk through the doorway until she heard a door shut. She walked to the other side the room toward the kitchen. Sam was placing a pitcher of water back in the refrigerator. He turned to see Castiel standing in the kitchen by the table. "Hey Cas." He grabbed the tall glass of water. "What's up?"
"Sam I know you saw us so please give Dean a break." The woman looked serious.
Sam walked over to the angel. "Sorry Cas. I could not help picking on him. You know how many times Dean has made snide comments to make me the butt of his jokes. I was just getting back at him so no harm done." Sam took a sip of his drink. "I did see you guys lip locking. It surprised the crap out of me. So….How do you feel about it?"
Cas made a slight smile. "I did not expect uh...me and Dean to happen this soon but I guess we got caught up in the moment. It was incredible Sam. I mean… I thought my grace was going to explode."
Sam chuckled. "Dean must have left a lasting impression on you. Your face is glowing Cas."
Her face blushed a rosy hue. "He certainly did. Dean told me that he wants to take this slow."
Sam bust out laughing. "Well you have no qualms admitting it." When his laughter waded, he walked over to Cas to pat her on the shoulder. Sam gave her a sincere gaze. "He is right to do so. Cas, you only been with one person and you were a male at the time. You being a female now is a different ball park. Dean knows this and will handle this situation with care. Not only you are close friends, he's afraid to mess this up so let him go at his pace."
Castiel's cheeks flushed at what her friend's advice. Sam leaned over and said in a low tone. "If you get further you will not be disappointed. I heard women he was….. involved with bragged that he is very skilled in the bedroom. He will definitely turn you out." He chuckled when he saw the panic expression on Castiel's face.
Her eyes widen registering his words. "Sam please. I...I... am not ready for that kind of intimacy with Dean. I know Kathie that owned this body had been in a few relationships that involved sex but I am not in the hurry to experience it for myself right now."
She looked nervous recalling one incident when he watched Dean and Lisa briefly years ago. The male angel popped in to check on Dean at the time he resurrected the soulless version of Sam. Castiel did not expect to see Dean and Lisa on the couch having full-fledged intimate relations when he appeared. Once he registered seeing Dean on top of the human named Lisa, Castiel quickly teleported out of the house with the image of the scene burned in his memory. Every inch of Dean's body was displayed before the angel watching his friend moving on top of the woman. The lovemaking expression on Dean's damp face was something Castiel will never forget.
Sam watched the angel woman appearing to be deep in thought. Suddenly Cas quickly shook her head like she was trying to forget something that boggled her. "Are you ok Cas?" Sam looked concerned.
She nodded her head. "I am fine just trying to forget something I should not have seen."
Sam gave her a speculative glance. He was curious but thought better to ask. There as one thing he did need to know. "I have one question Cas. Are you in love Dean?"
The women inhaled from hearing the unexpected question. Her blue eyes directed at Sam's in a meaningful expression. "Yes I am. I have been for a long time. What amazes me is that Dean had no clue that I feel this strongly for him. In spite of the jokes from some angels and others made about my feelings toward him, Dean never caught on or took it seriously. Everything I did was for him and he thought it was for either both of you, myself or for humanity's sake" Castiel paused for almost a minute. Her eyes turned sincere and admitting softly. "It was all for him."
Sam held up one finger. "Cas you are majority right but he knew you felt something for him. He tried to see it as brotherhood or friendship especially when you picked him over your angel army. It really moved my brother. That situation settled all the moments of mistrust he had for you over the years. It would have been resolved sooner when you did not kill him over the angel tablet. When you disappeared afterwards Dean got really angry that you abandoned us. It's all mended now and I wonder what the future holds for us."
Castiel took in every word Sam said. "Thank you for telling me this. It gives me some closure. I know where I stand now regarding the things I did. Sam, I did whatever I could to redeem my friendship with you guys. I am a little worried Sam. I have no idea if Dean had deep feelings for me. I know he cares for me but I have no clue if he is or can fall in love with me."
Sam put an arm around Castiel. "Don't worry about Dean's heart. I know my brother has feelings for you by the way he has treated the old Cas and especially what you are now. Seeing him kissing you gives me the impression he cares for you and saying to take things slow." The tall man sighed. "He's never done that with any woman. Dean normally does not hold back with women sexually when the occasion rises."
Sam stopped for a moment tilting his head with a thoughtful expression. "Cas oddly enough Dean has not been with a woman since we got rid of the Leviathans. That was over two years ago. It's not like him to go without sex that long. This was around the times the male angel version of you were around us a lot. He even told me he turned down a couple of propositions from women. I knew then something was going on with him but I left it alone."
Castiel stood there looking stunned. Sam continued. "I am just as surprised as you are. I think deep down he feels something for you Cas. When you were a guy he could not bring himself to show it. Now you are a woman he may not be able to fight it anymore. Be patient and he will come around. Perhaps a lot sooner than you think."
Sam walked by female angel toward the doorway. "Cas if you need help sorting things out about Dean, I am rooting for you buddy so don't hesitate to ask. Ok?"
Castiel's swallowed with emotion. "Thanks Sam I always considered you as a brother. Thank you for everything."
"No problem. I'm turning in. See you in the morning." Sam walked away while Cas stood by the kitchen table thinking about their conversation.
After a while, she walked to the living area turning on the TV. She could not get into the program that was playing on the screen. Cas was in absorbed in her thoughts and retracted every memory of her interaction with Dean. She noticed on more than one particular situation she caught Dean stealth-fully staring at the old Cas. Slowly it dawned on Castiel that Dean did care a great deal when she was in a male body.
She rose from the chair and decided to teleport in Dean's room. Even though the room was dark, Castiel can clearly see everything in there in full clarity by sheer will. She made her presence cloaked as she approached Dean's bed. The woman looked down to see Dean lightly snoring in slumber. She moved closer to visually take in every feature of his sleeping face. His hair was ruffled and the man's frown lines normally on his forehead were smooth down making his face look peaceful. His eye lashes were long and lay delicately on his masculine sculptured cheeks. Looking at his mouth, Cas remembered how soft his lips were. She moved her hand toward his face but did not risk touching him. The last thing she needed was to scare him awake to yell at her in anger. Reluctantly, she drew her hand back and looked at the rest of him. The blanket and sheets were low at his hips showing a peak of dark shorts he had on. Castiel had full view of his shoulders, arms, and chest. Her eyes kept moving down his stomach until she saw a thin line of short masculine hairs below his navel trailing down to his shorts that was covering leaving the rest of the trail to Cas's imagination. Her breath started to quicken remembering what Sam said about Dean's bedroom skills. She closed her eyes for a minute to calm herself.
Castiel have seen Dean sleep countless times and each one took her breath away like it was the first time seeing his vulnerable face in slumber. She heard Dean mumble and he shifted to lie on his stomach. His arms were upward curled around his pillow displaying his back down to a small of his waist. The angel took in every span of skin and the deep groove of his spine. Her hands were itching to touch that space there to feel how smooth it appeared to look. Feeling a bit guilty gawking at Dean, she teleported back where the TV was playing an old comedy show. Castel sat down pretending to be engrossed in the program while she really was counting down the hours when Dean will wake up.
The angel spent the rest of the night staring at the TV drowning in her own thoughts until she heard a bedroom door open. She sensed Dean walking toward the bathroom area.
After a while he walked into the living area noticing Castiel watching TV. She turned her face to smile at Dean. "Good morning. Did you sleep well?"
Dean ran his hand through his tousled hair. "Yeah I slept ok. Did you go check out heaven during the night?"
Castiel shook her head. "I did not feel like going so I stayed here instead."
"Oh. I wish angels can sleep. It must have been very boring being up all night." Dean frowned with concern.
Cas smiled inwardly. "It was not entirely boring." Remembering part of the night watching him sleep for almost an hour.
Dean looked at the woman sitting there with a slight suspicion. She must have done something. "So... what happened that was not entirely boring." His eyes bore into her face waiting for a response.
She tried to repress her slight surprised at the unexpected question. Castiel tried to think real quick solution to deter the answer. "Um…. Sam and I had a talk before he went to bed." Cas sighed thinking she got herself out of Dean's questionnaire
He sat down next to her. Reaching for her left hand, Dean scanned her face with his green eyes. "What did you two talk about?"
Castiel did her best to keep stoic expression but inside she felt a bit of panic. Her idea of evading the answer about talking to Sam literally backfired with the man sitting next to her. She was desperately trying to think very fast how to answer the question without exposing everything she said to Sam. "It was nothing significant mostly just idle chatter and he told me good night."
Dean held Cas's hand firmly. "Even if it was insignificant I am still curious what you guy were talking about." He forced a small smile watching the wheels turn rapidly in her head. If Cas continued to be evasive to his questions he will have to ask Sam himself. He had a strong feeling the conversation was about him.
The angel did not want to lie to Dean. "We were talking about future events of how things are going to be with us and everything." She slightly bit her bottom lip hoping Dean will be satisfied with the vague answer. If he kept pressing her she will end up telling him everything and Dean might get angry talking to Sam about personal things regarding him. She knew how private he was about his feelings and relationships with women.
Dean sighed at the angel. He decided to drop it and mentally plan to talk to his brother later. "Ok Cas. I am going to get washed up so go ahead if you need to check on heaven for a bit. Sam and I will be getting ready to hit the road in the late afternoon." He lifted her hand to his face and kissed the center of Cas's palm. "I will see you in a while angel." He rose from the sofa. Standing over her Dean moved his right to smooth her hair down. .
Castiel sighed in relief watching him walk toward the sleeping quarters. She got away from the awkward situation this time around. Feeling the need to get out of here for a while the woman turned the TV off and zapped out of the room.
Feeling refreshed from his shower, Dean walked in the library to see Sam immersed in his laptop. "Hey. Did you get more information about the killings?" He sat down across from his younger brother."
"Yeah. There was another killing last night. A man that left a gym after working out. His wife called the police when he did not come home. This has to be nipped in the bud soon because the bodies are starting to stock up." Sam was reading the article on the screen.
"I agree. We need more information about what we are dealing with. Any ideas?" Dean turned on his laptop.
Sam nodded. "A few and I'm still researching what kind of creatures would do this." He looked up from his screen to Dean. "Where's Cas?"
Dean typed on the keyboard. "She making a pit stop in heaven. Cas will be back before we leave." Dean got quiet for a while checking his email. "Sam I heard you two had a conversation last night."
"Yeah, we talked before I went to bed." Sam briefly looked up again at his brother.
"Would you mind tell me what you guys were talking about? Cas mentioned you two chatting when I asked her what she did all night and she got kind of squirrelly with her answers." A frown appeared on Dean's face.
Sam sighed. "Perhaps she does not want you to know what we were talking about. Anyway, it was not important otherwise she would have told you herself."
"Right….. I don't believe that one bit. I want to know what you guys were talking about. I am not leaving this table until I get an answer." He gruffly said feeling annoyed.
Sam exhaled in frustration. "Alright Bro I'll tell you. We were talking about you. Ok?" Sam was trying to think of something to say that was not to damming to him and Cas.
Dean shut his laptop. "You saw us didn't you?" It wasn't really a question but a confirmation from Sam's snide jokes from yesterday.
Glancing at his older brother he nodded. "I saw you guys kissing and quietly walked away. I knew you would be embarrassed because Cas used to be a guy. I did not want to put you two in an awkward situation with me."
The green eyed guy closed his eyes and rubbed his face. "Damn!" Dean muttered. "So tell me what she said. I'm all ears."
Sam moved his laptop to the side. "Hey I don't want you to be mad at her and me. She was worried that you are only attracted to her body and not the angel."
The older brother moved his hands from his face in startlement. "What? She said that? Sammy it's not true. I have liked Cas since-" Dean stopped his face turning a little red. His younger brother sat there waiting to hear the rest.
Dean blew out air out of his lungs and continued. "I liked him when he was old Cas" Seeing Sam's amazed expression. Dean sputtered. "It was confusing man. Here I am feeling something for an angel that supposedly has a grace with no gender inside a dude's body. It was unsettling but I like the essence of the angel. There were times it freaked me out. You know I am into women Sam. I don't go out in left field. The only manly parts I touch are my own and that's where it stands with me. More than once, I said to myself so what if I really care about this angel but it will only go as far as feeling like a brother or a friend to him. It was not easy Sammy but I am who I am."
Sam gave Dean a sympathetic look. "I understand. Cas understands too. That's why the old Cas respected you by suppressing his feelings. Even doing that, he went all out making sure you got what you wanted regardless of the price he paid. He did it because he had deep feelings for you."
The younger Winchester sat back and crossed his arms. "Now Cas is in a female body so things are developing between you two. How far are you willing to take this Dean? Is she going to a temporary lover which you see her for a while and tell her to leave or...will it be serious relationship? It depends how you truly feel for her not just how good she is going to be in bed. Something for you to really think about."
Green eyes widen hearing his younger brother's words. He felt a little flustered. "Sammy I don't know. What happened yesterday was not planned. It's hard to explain." Dean cleared his throat feeling a little nervous putting himself on the spot. "Cas being a woman made me feel alive and free to show her how much I care. Sam I know all the sacrifices Cas had made for me from the past right up to losing his old meatsuit. Did Cas tell you what I said?"
Sam nodded. "Yes she said you wanted to take things slow. That really surprised me knowing how you are with women. If things get heated up I either get a text from you or a sock on the doorknob of the motel room. I know Cas is not someone you handle that way. Even though he had sex a couple of times when he was a guy he, is not experienced in the sex department. The womanly version of Cas is practically a virgin. She did tell me her vessel has been with men in the past. You don't have to worry about you know..." Sam felt uncomfortable talking about the technicalities of deflowering a woman.
Dean feelings were mutual and quickly said. "I understand we don't have to go into details. I mean, if you asked me if I want to jump her bones I would answer yes absolutely. She's one hot looking woman but it's not the only reason I show affection for her. I will handle Cas with care. I know you are being a concerned brother to her but everything will be alright."
Sam moved the laptop in front of him once again. "I trust you will take care of Cas. I hope this is what you truly want. The last thing I want to see is both of you getting hurt. Especially Cas since this will be the first real relationship the angel ever had."
Sam's words hit home of how serious his involvement will be with Cas. "I hear you and I know what I want. I have for some time but either the problems at hand got in the way or I was afraid to cross that line when Cas was a guy." Dean rose from his chair. "I'm going to get a bite to eat. Keep searching to see if we can figure out what monster is killing people."