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3) Willow point of view.
After Dr Howard finished calling Rachael she came to me saying she would be here in 30 minutes and we should continue with our normal sessions. So here I was again. Today Dr Howard was talking about imaginary animals and how we use this to comfort ourselves when something tragic has happened.
That's her way of gentle saying that Rhubarbs not real. Meanwhile all I can do is quietly laugh and pet Rhubarbs head as she happily purrs clawing my lap. She doesn't know anything. Rhubarbs real, she always been real. Always.
"Willow, did you hear me?" Dr Howard asked as she put down her note pad and look at me with a worried face "willow, what I am trying to say that there is no one here but you and me, you have no cat on your lap. We are here to help you; you are not alone in this world."
"She is real, you just can't see her. She has always been real. We're the last, the last of my family. The last." I whisper the last part remembering what happened like it was yesterday.
The blood, the screaming. The look on those vampire face as they ripped the throat out of my mother. How he turned and looked at me with her blood dripping of his chin. Mouthing on word to me with will forever hunt me. Run.
"Willow, hey willow. Calm down ok everything is fine. It's only me and you. Come back to me willow" Dr Howards calm voice makes me realised that I was rocking back and forward. I look up to her seeing the sympathy in her eyes behind her purple glasses. "Do you think we will be able to talk about what happened now?"
I just shook my head. I didn't want to remember. I don't want the memories. I just want to forget why I can't forget!
I grip my head, pulling my hair trying to take the memories away but they just keep coming back. Over and over again, like they are on replay and there is no way to stop it.
Screaming. Blood. Mother. RUN!
Taking my now shacking hands, try to free my eyes of the tears that are falling no-stop now. Why. WHY. Why won't they stop? Why won't they leave me alone?
"ok willow calm down!" Dr Howard says getting up and rushing to my side. Pulling my hands, now dripping with blood from where my nails dug into my skin, away from my face. "Willow we have to get you over this eventually ok. We won't today but you need to stop seeing this as your fault. Ok? If you didn't run they would have killed you to. It wasn't your fault!"
It was my fault though. If I didn't run, if I stayed and put up a fight. I could have saved them. I could have stopped them. I was strong enough, I could have killed them. But I didn't and now they all dead. DEAD! My family is DEAD all because I was too chicken to stay. All because I was too selfish to stay and fight, to risk my life for them. So it is my fault that there dead.
I look down to Rhubarb how gentry stroke my face cleaning it of the scares I would have. I can see she blames herself as well. But I wasn't her fault if I put up a fight and stayed, instead I following her and got away while my whole family.
"Ok let's get your face cleaned up here" Dr Howard says once she says I have regained myself. She gingerly wipes my face of blood when a Rachael walks through the door, only to gasp at the sight before her.
"Willow what happened!" she says rushing over and grapping another wet wipe and helps wash my face as I sit they petting Rhubarb.
"It's ok Rachael, willow's nails have got just a bit long again" Dr Howard says looking down at my almost no-exiting nails.
"But we just cut them yesterday?" Rachael says confused.
"Maybe we should try covering the fingers in rubber?" Dr Howard suggests.
"n-no, I'm sorry I won't do it again." I sob to them. One moment it its rubber on fingers, next its getting locked in a rubber room.
"Willow we just don't want you to hurt yourself again." Dr Howard's motherly voice tries to convince me. But no. NO, they can't take any more things from me; I won't let them they CAN'T
"No" I scream shaking my head. They can't, they CAN'T.
"Ok willow ok, don't worry we won't." Dr Howard rescored me. "Rachael can you past me the calmer please." She whispered thinking I didn't hear her. But I did. I always do.
Rachael get up to go get the drug with makes everything slow down. The memory's stop. Everything stops. That's why I didn't say anything. It's the one time I have some space. The one time I FORGET!
"Ok willow this might pinch a bit but it will make everything better ok" Rachael's kind voice called from my right side as she grasped my arm and injected me with the toxin which makes everything better.
Slowly I feel its affects take place and the room stops spinning. I stop shaking.
"Ok you can take her now Rachael" Dr Howards voice came from somewhere. I'm too far gone at this point to care.
"Did you hear that willow? We can go now. Do you want to go back to your room or meet the school that's coming around?" as Rachael mentioned the school the pulling sensation in my chest grow stronger, telling me where I need to go. Just like before when…. When? I can't even remember! What happened again? What did they give me this time? It's great!
"s-school" I answer her staring of into the distances, Rhubarb purrs in agreement to my answer. "You know something don't you Rhubarb!" I say giggling and stroking her head to tail.
"Are you sure that is a good idea Rachael?" Dr Howard asked causing me to look up at her worried face.
"Don't worry, Brigit, Willow will be fine. She just answers a few questions then I will take her back to her room. It might be better her being like this though; she won't freak out when she sees then me." Rachael says trying to convince Dr Howard to let me go.
"ok, but let me talk to them first ok, you guys go off and get food and I will go have a chat with them on what to do and what not to do." Dr Howard suggests.
"That sounds like a plan, huh willow; shall we go get some food? I head they are serving tomato soup today."
"o-o-okay" I stutter wiping the newly formed tears away for my clean face.
"Come on then let us go." Rachael says reaching to help me get up. Quickly I push Rhubarb of my lap so that she doesn't get pushed of by Rachael and then attacks her, like she did with the last person who tried to make me stand with her on their lap. They ended up with both their eyes ripped out….. Opps should have warned them about that. But he was a werewolf he would eventually heal after the potion I sprayed them in the eye with after her attack. Opps again, to be honest he deserved it. He shouldn't have touched me.
Rachael help me stand up and led me towards the door after we said our goodbyes to Dr Howard and we began walking down the white hall way toward the dining room with Rachael telling me more about the school I would be meeting.
"It's my brothers school, there is about 20 of them on this trip" she paused when she saw my panicked face "Don't worry, you want be meeting all of them. We are splitting them into two groups about 10 will be talking to you and the other 10 are going to talk to Mr Ruggers. The people you are going to see are Jacob (my brother), Embry, Quill, Kim, Jared, Paul, Zoe, Emily, Tara and Suzan. Don't worry we will have boys at the back of the room. They come from La Push high school." Rachael kept going but I drown her out thinking about what she just told me. Paul, that name means something, he must be the reason I kept getting density pull in my chest. Something is going to happen with Paul.
"Here we are" Rachael said as we stopped and turned into the dining room door. She slowly pushed the blue small door open with it creaking as the old hinges that need replacing moved. Once the door open we turn into the white big room with the right wall open where the ladies severed us the thing they called us food. In the middle of the room where four rows of tables where we eat the 'food' they give us.
"Shall we go get some soup?" Rachael asked as we started walking toward the trays next to the right wall.
"What do you want Hun?" the kitchen lady 'Becky' asked me with her toothy grin.
"We will both have a small bowl of tomato soup today Becky" Rachael answered giving Becky a sweet smile.
Becky ladled out two small bowls of tomato soup and pasted us the bowls. I and Rachael then went and sat down at the closest side to the door, it helps me not get closterfobic.
I looked down at my bowl of smoking bowl of soup. I love tomato soup, always have. On my birthday mother use to make it for me at lunch, remembering my mother always makes me sad. She was always so sweet, funny that. That is the same thing the vampire said after he ripped out her throat.
"Hey, willow are you ok?" Rachael said snapping me out of the past.
"Yeah, tomato soup just reminds me of my mother." Rachael is the only on, apart from Dr Howard, I can open up to. I trust her.
"You never talk much about your mum" Rachael points out
"She was my best friend. On my birthday she would pull me out of our coven school for the day and we would spend it together. She would make me tomato soup on my birthday, she use to cut the bread in to different shapes." I say laughing. Of course I couldn't tell her how she would have used magic to cut the bread up or that in our school we didn't learn maths or English, we learn charms and broom stick flying.
"Your mum sounds great" Rachael says laughing at my silly grin.
"Yeah she was" I whisper, my smile disappearing from my face. An awkward silence passes between us.
"So you're finished?" Rachael says trying to change the subject.
"Yeah" I whisper still not recovered from my trip down memory lane. Never a good thing.
Rhubarb that drank my soup from sitting on the table pawed my arm trying to cheer me up. I pat her head telling her it's ok, that I'm fine, I will get over it. I always do.
Rachael stands up and grabs my tray; taking mine and hers over to the bin on the far side of the room, when she comes back she helps me stand up from the table.
"I think Dr Howard would be done with the school. Shall we go meet my brother and his friends?" Rachael asks me. "You don't have to. I don't want to put you in an uncomfortable position"
"I will be fine Rachael." I whisper looking shyly at her "I need to get over it. Not every man will proterly murder every member of my family in front of me. They won't will them?" I ask looking up her in panic.
"No. of course they won't" Rachael reassures me. "Those people who did that we crazy serial killer, most men are not like that."
"Ok, let's get this over with then" I sign "you will be there with me, right?" I ask her
"Of course so will Dr Howard. We won't leave you alone in this." Rachael says patting my shoulder as we leave the dining room back into the white never ending hall way.
"Here we are" Rachael says as we stop in front of the white door with a small window going into the room. Pecking throw I could see a small class of ten people young plus Dr Howard and one old woman I have never seen before. "Let me go in and check that everything is ok. You wait here" Rachael says opening the door and slipping into the room giving me a reassuring smile.
2 minutes later she comes back out with a big smile saying it's time to go in. I look back down at Rhubarb how nods her head toward the door, telling me to go in. I give her a small smile telling her thank you, for everything.
Rachael opens the door for me to walk in toward the room full of strangers. Where my new destiny lies. The room was medium size and unlike most rooms here it was light blue. There were 2 rows of people with girls on the front row and boys on the back and elderly women was sitting on the end of the first row. Dr Howard was sitting at the front of the group with two chairs next two her.
As I walk into the room everyone in there stares at me, Dr Howard giving me a reassuring smile, the older lady looking at me with shock and pity. I don't need her pity.
I look at the girls in the group first. They seem sweet except for one girl who had wired stuff all over her face. She looks like she got slapped in the face with a pie.
When I walk and sit down next to Dr Howard I finery I look at the boys. Talking a deep breath a grabbing Rachael's hand who sat down next to me on my right, I look up at the males sitting in front of me with calming breaths.
O GOD! THERE WEREWOFLS!
Witches can tell when someone is not mortal, and even with all these drugs in my system I still have my power of sight. And I can see the wolf behind the man. All five of these males were wolf. All of them! I could feel my panic coming up. Flash backs of last time I meet werewolf.
The screaming only got worse, the blood increase, they did not make it better or safe like they once promised my elders. They lied. They only made It worst.
"Willow are you ok" Rachael whispered to me. I just nodded stroking Rhubarb when she jumped on to my lap comforting me, her way of telling me that nothing was going to happen, that I was safe.
Looking back up at the people in front of me I catch the eye of one of the werewolf. He was strong, good fighter. He wolf was tough I could tell that. Taking a look at the man instead of the wolf I gasped. It was him! From my dreams the werewolf! The one who tells me to run, the one who always ends up trying to attack me.
Suddenly he stills looking into my eyes like he has never seen the sun before. He stands up quickly and goes to step forward when one of his pack brothers stand up and pushes him back "shit" I hear one of them mumble when he goes crazy trying to get to me. By this time all his pack brothers stand up pushing him back.
Rachael gasps and grabs my arm pull me away. "Dr Howard I think this is all getting out of hand. I am going to take Willow back to her room." Rachael does not wait to hear Dr Howard reply as she starts pulling me out the room, but that only makes him go crazier.
"Paul calm down!" one of his pack brothers yell. So that's Paul! That who destiny is pulling me towards! Someone who is trying to attack me! He is going to kill me! Not again! I can't go through that again! No again! No, no, no! I won't let it happen again! Suddenly everything turns black and I feel the floor hit my left side before I can feel nothing at all.
Sometimes it's better to feel nothing at all.
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