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Bruises
Chapter 2
This was an extremely weird occasion, for the very first time Sasha couldn't eat something. Even though it had been one of the toughest days in her life, she couldn't keep something in her mouth. She was hungry; starving. But whenever she put a piece of meat, her mouth wouldn't keep it, she had to spit it. Since she couldn't eat anything, she just started to poke it.
It wasn't her fault. It had been one of the worst days ever. Now they were hiding in a small house where they have found some food. There were no more than 25 people. Although there was food, some of her friends and a safe place, this didn't comfort Sasha at all. The small whimpers of some people made her remember how her team had been eaten.
"You won't eat that?" Connie asked with surprised eyes. She shook her face.
"I just can't eat" She shrugged.
"I get you" Connie nodded.
Thinking that there was something better than just to poke her food, Sasha stood up. Deciding to take a walk out.
"Do you want it?" She asked Connie.
"Where are you going?" He asked while nodding.
"I don't know" She sighed "Take a walk outside"
"All by yourself?!" His jaw dropped.
"Yep" She smiled "I mean, titans don't really attack at night" She laughed without knowing why.
"I think I'll take this with me" She grabbed the piece of bread. Connie just chuckled.
Sasha put on her jacket again, yawned and headed to the exit. She opened the old wooden door and stepped cold air made her shiver. She started to rub her hands, trying to warm them up.
There was a rather sinister feeling outside even though it was quiet. She had always liked to be outside, either hunting animals or just playing around, it made all of her childish problems disappear . Yet, being outside on this particular night, didn't make her feel any better. Seeing all the destroyed buildings, all the bodies lying on the floor, made her remember perfectly all she had seen this day.
She kept walking, lost in her thoughts. Not knowing, nor caring where to go. She snapped out of her thoughts when her stomach growled, reminding her of how hungry she was.
Grateful that she had brought her slice of bread with her, she sat down on a wooden box. She gave it a small bite, feeling an immense joy by the taste of the bread; it felt so good to eat something. She was about to bite it a second time, but stopped when she heard a noise.
Titans? At night? That's impossible. She thought. She started to look everywhere, trying to find where the noise came from. Then, there was the same sound, the sound of something heavy falling down.
"Is there someone out there?" She asked. No one answered.
Looking up at a roof she saw something that seemed like a person. She decided to ignore it until she saw the person taking out a full loaf of bread. Without second thoughts Sash climbed up where that person was.
Before she could say anything, the other person spoke.
"What are you doing here?" She had heard that voice before, that cold voice. Sasha cursed when she figured out who that person was.
"Corporal" She giggled nervously.
"What are you laughing about?" He said quite harshly.
"Well you know" She bit her bottom lip" I surely wasn't expecting to find you here"
"I see" He lit up a lamp
"Corporal" Sasha started "I just wanted to thank you, for today. I'm really grateful" The Corporal didn't say anything, he just stared at her, making her feel uncomfortable. Then he just nodded.
He started to eat his bread. Not talking, just staring at the sky. Sasha, being extremely starving, swallowed before asking the corporal for some.
"Can I have some?" She smiled weakly. At first he didn't say anything, and pierced her with his look.
"Sure" He cut it in half and handed one to her.
"Thanks" She smiled. She doubted about leaving. Should she go and leave the Corporal alone or join him. Making up her mind she sat next to him.
"Do you mind if I sit here?"
"Not really"
They didn't say anything at first. They were staring at nowhere, occasionally turning heads to see the other; they just didn't know what to say.
"So..." Sasha said, trying to start a conversation.
"You ranked 9" She couldn't avoid feeling surprised by this. How did he know she had ranked 9? How?!
"H-how do you know?" Levi gave a small laugh.
"I always get informed of the top 10" He rolled his eyes "Don't get too excited" Sasha couldn't avoid laughing as hard as she could, making the corporal laugh quietly.
"You wish" She laughed again, stopping only when realizing what she had said "No, I didn't mean that. I-I, never mind" He have a small, innocent laugh.
It had been a while since the Corporal felt like this, at ease. Spending some time with what seem to be an enjoyable company, eating, not asking personal questions nor complaining about life in general. During these times, this was Heaven.
"How do you feel?" He asked "I mean your first time with titans" When he finished saying this Sasha's eyes darkened, making him regret what he had said. The sudden feel of joy and warmth was replaced by a gloomy one.
"Well" She bit her bottom lip "I-I don't know" She hugged her knees and rested her head on them. She didn't want to talk about it, she didn't want to complain about it, not with the Corporal. Not with the man who dealt with titans every single day of his life, who risked his life, who had humanity in his hands.
"I loath them" Her fists clenched and she stood up fast, like of something had pulled her up; anger. Her eyes started to get watery and without thinking things twice, she kicked hard the small wooden box in which the corporal was seated.
The kick made a loud but the Corporal barely made an expression of surprise, instead he just stood up calmly.
"You can keep going" He said, almost ordering her.
She did so. She kept kicking the wooden box hard while saying how much she hated titans, stoping only when the box was broken.
Her breathing was heavy and she was trying hard not to cry. She didn't want to do it in front of the Corporal. She turned around and faced him, for a moment she wished he could show some kind of emotion, but he didn't, he had that numb face.
Without being able to keep it any longer Sasha threw herself into the Corporal's arms and hugged him tightly. At first the Corporal just stood there, arms down. But when he felt Sasha so close to him, so vulnerable, he hugged her back just as tightly as she was hugging him. Sasha started to cry very quietly and softly, without losing control. At this Levi started to stroke her hair with one of his hands.
"It's okay" He said with a voice full of tenderness "It's okay to feel upset sometimes"