Gail was in her SUV* out of Holly's house 10 minutes before their date (could she call it "date"?)

She knew what she wanted to say, she knew it days now, but she was afraid, What if Holly just decided to hear her only because she "saved" Lisa?

She was thinking and overthinking about this for 10 minutes and then she went and knocked Hollys door.

"Hey, I was wondering if you'll wait until seven or if you'll knock my door the time you came"

"Hi" she smiled "I didn't want to be late so I came earlier and waiting. Are you ready? Can we go?"

Holly smiled and nodded, she could tell that Gail was insecure, she could see that in her beautiful eyes, she could hear that in her voice.

They walked to a pub few minutes from Holly's place.

They didn't talk until they sat and gave their order.

"So how is Lisa?"

"Thanks to you she is fine"

"You all should stop saying she is fine thanks to me. I didn't save her life, the docs did it, but "thanks" to me somebody else is dead"

"Gail I am so sorry you had to do that"

"No, you don't have to be sorry, I had to do that, I know that, but it isn't easy"

"When are you going back to work?"

"I don't know yet. Listen Hol, I don't want to talk about that right now. I-um...if you came because you wanted to do this talk or because you

feel you owe me about what happened with Lisa you should go back home"

Holly was confused

"Gail, I came here because you asked me and because you wanted to explain yourself, I just thought that maybe you wanted to talk about

what happened yesterday.

It's not easy to keep it for yourself but if you don't want to talk about it we will not"

Gail took a sip from her drink and was trying to understand if Holly really wanted to hear her explanation.

"If you are not ready today" Holly continued "we can do this another time"

"No, I am ready if you are"

Holly just gave Gail her smile and nodded so she continued.

"Listen Holly, that day I was really nervous, I wanted them to like me but I am not good with people, you know that, everybody knows that.

The first time I felt relaxed that night was when you kissed me, it was like I could breath again

and then I overheard what you were saying and you know, it was kind of true." Gail saw that Holly was ready to speak.

"No, Hol let me finish please. All the time people made me feel that I am not good enough. My mother used to tell me 'don't screw up', in her

mind I already did it.

She doesn't believe in me, my own mother doesn't believe in me because I haven't decided what I want to do with my career.

And you know, I didn't have friends for many years because I am a Peck. At the Academy they hated me because I am a Peck, the first year as a

rookie

the same, they thought I was in 15 because I am a Peck, they didn't care if I was on Top of my class, no, I was a Peck. Nobody believed in me.

Until now they think that I don't have feelings, they think that I am cold and I know that a lot of times I am, but they are my friends, they should

know better.

I think that only Tracy really gets me, except you of course"

Holly noticed that Gail's eyes were wet but no tear yet, she could feel her own eyes wet but she didn't care.

"The 2nd time I broke with Chris was because he was thinking that I had a crush with Dov, but it was Dov who had the crush but

he didn't care though. He forgave Dov before me, it's funny he forgave me but I didn't do anything wrong and then came Nick.

You know that story. The second time he never loved me and he left again for 6 months without tell me anything, I was so angry but I forgave

him because

I thought I loved him or because I didn't want to be alone, I don't know anymore.

He hurt me again. And then..." She stop for a second, only to look Holly's face and smiled

"...you came to my crime scene and you changed my life. Like I said before you are the most wonderful person I have ever met"

Holly felt her tear to her cheek but she kept listening her.

"I did my bigger mistake that night, I know that, I should let you explain yourself but I was hurt again because I was thinking that what we had

was serious

and you should know Holly that I love you"

Now Holly was crying but her smile was all over her face

"You," Holly said "You should talk to me, you idiot. You should answer my phone calls, I wanted to tell you how sorry I was because I didn't

stand for you,

I shouldn't let Lisa say those things about you, but I just let her because I wasn't in mood to disagree with her. The only thing I wanted that night

was to have a good time with you and my friends, nothing else.

And I wanted to tell you that I loved you. I LOVE you, maybe you are impetuous, self-destructive and a brat but you are mine brat.

I love your snark and your sarcasm, I love everything about you"

She smiled, stood up from her stool and went over Gail, she placed her hands on Gail's face and pulled her for a kiss.

The End

*Yes Gail has a car :P

In almost every fanfic she hasn't car but we saw her drive an SUV at 3x3