My Saving Grace
By: NormanReedus
The Best Ever, Baby
After three quick hours, we pulled into the clubhouse. Kozik got off the bike, then helped me off. He leaned down, pressing his lips on mine; I wrapped my arms around his neck, he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me flush against him. I smiled against his lips, letting his tongue slip through my lips. Our tongues danced in unison, he ran his hands down my thighs, hooking them and picking me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist, holding tight onto him.
We never noticed the guys coming up behind us. I heard a picture sound that pulled me from him. I giggled and shook my head. I kissed him once more, then shimmied out of his grasp. I turned around, laying my head in his chest. He wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed my head.
"We still need to talk." He said behind me. I nodded and looked up at him, smiling. I heard another motorcycle pull up, it was Piney. I smiled and walked over to him, hugging him. He held me against him tightly and kissed my head.
"I didn't believe it when the boys told me you were back." He said, cradling me in his arms. I smiled and kissed his cheek. I moved so he could get off his trike; we walked over to Kozik and the guys. Piney wrapped his arms around Kozik and hugged him tightly.
"Welcome back." He said, smiling. Kozik nodded as Piney patted his cheek. We walked into the bar and got us a shot. Kozik and I sat on the couch, his arms around me. We watched the guys walk around like they were the big dogs of the world; which in all reality, they were. I laid my head on his shoulder, wrapping my arm around his waist and my leg laid over his thighs.
"So tell me, what exactly happened." He murmured, running his fingers through my hair. I bit my lip and entwined his free hand with mine.
"I was taken by Calaveras; Jill and I were walking downtown LA going dress shopping for the wedding and I was shot. From what Lorca told me, Jill said that Mexicans got out of the ambulance. I can't believe she was killed." I paused, "They took me to Lodi; I was holed up in a basement for two years. Salazar never left my sight, it was rare he'd leave me with his wetback goonies. They raped and beat me every day, and some days more than once. I killed them, all five. Then I ran, and got here yesterday to find out that you weren't here."
"What? No, baby, don't tell me that." He pled, "I could've saved you." I put my finger to his lips, hushing him.
"Don't, Koz. You couldn't have found me. I went off grid, I was in a dungeon for two years. No one knew where I was." I said, looking up at him. I hooked my hand behind his neck, and brought my lips to his.
"I did look for you. After two months of nothing, I went downhill. Everything reminded me of you, except for sweet butts, but trust me, I didn't touch them. You are the only one I want." He said, looking at me. I bit my lip, feeling a tear fall from my eyes. He wiped it away and smiled, caressing my cheeks.
"I love you so much." I whispered, looking over his beautiful face. His lips tugged into a smile, then leaned forward and pressed them to mine. I smiled against his lips, biting his bottom lip, making him groan out. I giggled and slid in his lap, his hands ran down my sides, to my thighs gripping them gently.
"Aye! None of dat 'ere." Chibs called out. I pulled away and giggled, then kissed him once more.
"I love you baby, always and forever." He said, pulling me into a hug. The guys behind us hollered and clapped. I pulled away and shook my head. I got off of Kozik and pulled him up. I looked at the time; 3 PM. "I love you brothers, but I want to go lay in my bed with my woman."
"Yeah!" Lorca yelled, making the guys laugh. I walked over to Happy and wrapped my arms around his waist. He kissed my head and smiled, before he pushed me gently towards Kozik. I wrapped my arm around his waist while we walked to our room and took off our kuttes. We laid them on the chair and kicked our boots off before laying on the on the bed. I laid on my back, he laid his head on my chest, hugging me to him.
He laid on his back, pulling me to him. I laid my head on his chest, draping my arm over his abdomen. His arm rested against my shoulders, running his hand up and down my arm. I sighed, throwing my leg over his waist. I closed my eyes, hearing his heartbeat, then fell into a light slumber.
Bang, bang, bang; "Cami, Koz, wake up!" Juice's voice called, pulling me out of my sleep. I opened my eyes and saw that Koz was in the same place as he was before we fell asleep. He had a smile on his face, which made my heart warm. I slid across him, straddling his waist. His eyes popped open and pulled me down, pressing his lips to mine. Juice beat on the door again, "Get a bath! It's 8PM—Cami dress slutty!" He laughed, walking away. I rolled my eyes and shook my head, seeing him laugh below me.
"Good sleep?" He asked, I nodded.
"The best ever, baby." I replied, smiling. I sat up and stared down at him. He sat up and wrapped his arms around me.
"Get a bath and get dressed!" Happy's raspy voice came through the door as he busted in. I looked over my shoulder and saw him gaping. I got off of Kozik and walked to Happy.
"We weren't doing anything, Killa. We were just getting up like Juice demanded." I said, leaning up and kissing his cheek. He nodded and looked down at me, his black eyes staring into mine. He gave me a light smile before nodding at Kozik and walking out the room. I walked over to Kozik, he wrapped his arms around my legs, pushing his face in my stomach. I giggled as he looked up at me. I ran my hands through his blonde hair and leaned down, kissing his lips.
"We're being summoned, let's get a shower and get dressed. I believe we're gonna have us a party tonight." I said, winking at him. He smiled and nodded, looking up at me. I pulled him up by his shirt and wrapped my arms around his waist, laying my chin on his chest. I smiled up to him, he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
"Let's get us a bath baby." He said, making me nod. I pulled away, pulling him in the bathroom. I ran my hands under his shirt, pushing it up over his head. I smiled, trailing my hands down his pecks and tattooed abs. I trailed my fingers down his happy trail and unbuckled his belt and jeans, pushing them slightly—letting them fall to the ground. He smiled and copied my actions, taking my clothes off until I was naked.
He bit his lips and looked down at my stomach, where the scars and cuts were. His face hardened and his eyes became glossy. I reached up, laying my hands on his hands and shook my head, "Don't Koz, this isn't your fault. I'm okay, I promise."
He nodded and sighed, "I know, I just… you should never have to take a beating like that ever, nor being raped. When I find Salazar, I will kill his fucking ass." I smiled weakly, and kissed his lips.
"I know. I think you and Happy are wanting blood." I started, "I take that back, they all want blood."
"Best kind baby." He replied, kissing me once more. I turned and turned the shower on, letting the warm water run in the tub. I felt his arms around my hips, pulling me to him. He took my hair out of the braid, and ran his fingers through my hair. I pulled out of his grasp and stepped into the shower, turning to him and biting my lip smirking up at him. I closed the shower curtain and let the hot water run over and down my body.
I heard him slip in and press against me, then wrapped his arms around me. I turned in his arms and laid my head on his chest, resting my hands on his biceps. I looked up at him and smiled, then laughed at his tattoo on the side of his neck 'Jen'. He was the only one that could ever get away by calling me that. I couldn't believe when he got that of all things tattooed on his skin.
"I've missed you so much." I whispered, before laying my head back down on his chest, "My Surfer Boy is back." He chuckled and kissed my head.
"I've missed you, too. My Jenalay is back." He replied, tightening his grip around me. I shook my head and pulled him under the shower head. He sighed, letting the water cascade over his body. I wanted to talk to him about the drugs, but I didn't know how to start. What could've happened to him scared me.
He grabbed the shampoo and lathered it in my hair, massaging my scalp along the way. I moaned lightly from the missed feeling that I felt two years ago. I mirrored what he done, running my shampooed fingers through his golden hair. Once we were washed, our bodies included, we rinsed off and got out.
I walked to the sink and looked in the mirror; the bruises were visible. I bit my lip and touched the cut on my cheek, wincing at the pain. I looked down at the counter and saw the needles and blood; I don't think I'd ever get that out of my mind.
"Babe, you okay?" He asked, coming up behind me. My black eyes met his blues in the mirror, I shook my head. My lip quivered, the hot tears brimmed my eyes.
"When I got home yesterday, I came to take a shower. I found the needles and the blood." I said, as a stray tear fell from my eye.
"Oh shit, baby, I'm sorry." He apologized, pulling me to him.
"I don't want to ever put you through that again." I sobbed in his chest, "It killed me when Hap told me that you were in Rehab; let alone I knew the reason of why."
"No, no, no, baby. It's not your fault. It's mine." He protested, "I was the one that shot up, and I promise on our lives I will never do that again. No more drugs, just you, me and the club."
"Okay," I said, looking up at him. He smiled and leaned down, kissing my forehead. I walked past him, into the bedroom. I grabbed my dress and laid it on the bed, "Don't wear plaid tonight, babe."
He chuckled and walked up to me, "What? Come on baby, you know that's what drew you to me in the first place."
"No, Surfer Boy, what drew me to you was the hair, those blue eyes and that smile." I said, leaning up to him and kissing his chin. He chuckled and nodded as I walked passed him back into the bathroom. I started my make-up and my hair, thirty minutes later, I was finished.
I walked back into the bedroom, seeing Koz sitting on the bed, shirtless, putting his boots on. I leaned over him, grabbing the dress. I took the towel off and put on a lacey pair of panties, along with a black strapless lace bra that matched. I unzipped the dress and stepped in it, turning my back to Kozik, "Zip me up, please baby."
I felt his fingers brush against my skin, against my tattoo—the one for him. He pressed his lips against it, and zipped me up. I stepped into my shoes that gave me a little height. He stood up and smiled, hooking his arms around me and pulling me to him. I giggled and lifted my head, hissing his chin.
"How do I look?" I asked, turning around, showing him my full attire.
"Slutty, just how I like them." He teased, making me laugh loudly. I grabbed his black t-shirt and put it over his head, then his kutte. I slipped mine on and grabbed his hand, pulling him out of the room. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders, I wrapped mine around his waist.
We walked through the halls to the bar and saw SAMTAC, SAMCRO, SAMTAZ, Nomads, and other small charters in the club house. Once they saw us, the whole room was applauding. I saw Donna, Kenny, Ellie, Wendy, Gemma, most of my best girlfriends there with their Old Mans.
I looked up at Kozik and smiled, he mirrored me and leaned down, kissing my lips. We walked towards the charters and hugged everyone. Gemma wrapped her arms around me and kissed my head, "I've missed you baby."
"I've missed you, too." I replied, looking up at her. Ellie and Kenny stood by Donna, looking happy.
"Hey my babies, I've missed yal!" I said, hugging them both. They kissed my cheeks and smiled up at me.
"We missed you Aunt Camilla." Ellie said, hugging me once more. I smiled and looked at Donna, who's eyes were filled with tears.
"Don," I started, as she rushed to me, wrapping her arms around me tightly, crying in my shoulder. I felt arms wrap around us, big arms, arms that belonged to Opie. "Please don't cry, Don. I'm fine, I'm here."
"I know, I just… with Opie being locked up and everything else, you being kidnapped broke my heart. I didn't have anyone to talk to, other than Gemma and Wendy." She admitted, I choked up and pulled away.
"I'm here now. When I don't have to go on runs, you and I will have the ultimate girls' day." I replied, seeing her smile. I wiped the tears from her eyes and kissed her cheeks.
"Okay." She said, smiling. I grabbed her hand and pulled her to the bar with me, sitting by Chibs.
"Aye, Prospect, get dis' girl 'ere a shot and a beer!" Chibs called out to the Prospect Dingo. He nodded and poured Chibs, Donna and I a shot, then laid a beer in front of us. The three of us clinked our glasses together and took our shot. The burn numbed my throat, I felt an arm around my neck, by looking at the tattoos it was my brother.
"Give her anything she wants, Prospect." Happy's rough voice called from over me. Dingo nodded and smiled.
"Am I dressed slutty enough?" I asked as Juice walked up. He smiled widely and chuckled, nodding.
"You never have dressed slutty, Cami." He said, winking. I giggled and looked up at Happy, who was clenching his jaws together. I tapped his chest, making him look down at me.
"No madness tonight, let's have a good time with our family." I said, kissing his chin. He looked down at me and nodded slightly. I looked around the room and saw Kozik talking with three sweet butts, Jax, Wendy and Opie.
"Excuse me for a minute." I said, grabbing my beer and walking over to Kozik. He looked at me and wrapped his arm around my waist, "Ope, Jax, you two ready to lose some money?"
"Now, you know darlin' that won't be happening." Jax said, looking down at me. I chuckled and nodded.
"If you're scared, say you're scared." I teased, hearing Wendy burst out into laughter. Kozik leaned down and kissed my head.
"I'm never scared. You're on though, darlin'." He said, turning to the pool table. I looked up at Kozik and winked at him, grabbing his hand and pulling him behind me, "You can even break."
"Works for me. Me and you Jax." I said, as Opie racked the balls. I grabbed my black graphite Jack Daniels pool stick. I grabbed the white cue and rolled it in my hand, before I set it diagonally to the right.
"Get em' baby." Kozik said, slapping my ass. Jax, Opie and I chuckled, I hit the cue, sending to flying into the racked balls, dropping two solids; 2 and 5, and one stripe; the 10.
"Your choice, Cam." Opie said, I nodded and pulled out two grand from my bra and put it on the table.
"Two grand, I want the high." I said, smiling over at the two gaping men. I walked the table, seeing Juice, Kozik and Happy smirking on my side. Tig, Opie and Piney stood on Jax's side. Jax took out two grand and put it on top of mine, "You ready J?"
"Always." He replied, as I called my pockets, hitting the striped 11 and 15 in off of his 3 ball. I looked up at Jax and batted my eyelashes. Walking the table again, I saw that was set up for an easy call.
"9 corner pocket, three rails." I said, getting down and taking my shot. I stood up and smiled, watching the 9 go into the pocket I called. I walked around the table and found another shot, "14 and 12 off of your six ball, left corner pocket." I took my shot and smiled, I have one ball of mine left and the 8 ball.
"Fucking hustler." Bobby said, walking up by me. I chuckled and nodded, setting up my next shot. I took the 13 off his 3 ball, into the side pocket.
"Like taking candy from a baby." I said, lining up the 8 ball for an easy shot—calling the right corner pocket. I took the shot and smiled in triumph. The guys clapped, and walked towards me. Kozik picked me up and swung me around, "Love you Jax, even though you suck at pool."
"You didn't even let me shoot!" He exclaimed dramatically, I smiled ad picked up the money and put it in my bra.
"Anyone else want to go?" I asked, looking at the guys. They shook their heads and laughed, "Oh well, that was fun while it lasted."
"Good job baby. I forgot how good you were." Kozik said, kissing my lips. I smiled and winked at him, taking a swallow of beer. He chuckled and held me close to him.
"Think there is a possibility we can get married like we planned two years ago?" I asked, looking up at him. He pressed his lips to mine, and picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he sat on the barstool. Our tongues danced in unison, building up that familiar heat below. This is where I wanted to be, it was where I longed to be. Thank fuck I was finally here.