Friday June 30th 2012
Well I hung out with Blaine, Jeff, and Nick today at some park near Dalton. It wasn't as awkward as I thought it was going to be. It was mostly Jeff talking about this girl he met and was sort-of dating, we talked about Blaine's big summer trip because he leaves tomorrow. Then we all went on a walk on a trail nearby to go find a pond. Blaine and I weren't alone for very long and it wasn't really alone cause Nick and Jeff were walking either ahead of us or behind or next to us the whole time. There was a point where Blaine and I were ahead and we talked a bit. It was pretty normal. I didn't know what to say but we talked about that TV show we were watching and had almost finished.
Then we all stood around and I said goodbye to Blaine because I had to go back to Lima, Nick & Jeff didn't say goodbye cause they live in Westerville with Blaine. Blaine said something about bringing me back something from France & I said anything would be great. Then we hugged. Not as long as we used to hug when we'd be alone, but not as short as I was thinking it was going to be.
"I love you, message me on tumblr or Facetime me sometime before I get back!"
"Will do" I said with a smile. I don't know if I'll go out of my way to Facetime him because I won't ever know when he has wifi or if he's even awake. I'll message him on tumblr occasionally. I don't want to not talk for the next 4 weeks.
Maybe when he gets back everything will be back to normal. Or maybe he'll kiss me again and confuse the hell out of me. You can never really tell what Blaine's gonna do. I didn't think he'd kiss me, and he did. I didn't think he'd tell anyone since he wanted to forget, and he did.
I don't know anything anymore.