Tuesday July 3rd, 2012
Blaine's been gone for a couple days now. I've been trying to distract myself because I need to get used to not having him around. Especially with college and all.
After Blaine told me he told Jeff about the kiss he said Jeff was there if I needed to talk too. I said no at the time but now I might be reconsidering. Maybe Jeff will have more insight to what to do. And he knows what Blaine told him and I really want to know. Why was Blaine so confused? Does he have maybe a crush on me? I don't know what I have to say to Jeff, cause, well, I was okay with it just happening and forgetting it.
I don't know if Jeff would tell me what Blaine told him, because he's been Blaine's friend a lot longer than he's been mine. I also don't really want Jeff to tell Blaine that I just wanted to know what he'd said about the kiss.
What details did he give? Did he just say we kissed or did he say we madeout? Because it was definitely more than just a peck. We kind of cuddled afterward and then he left. It was a really intimate moment for me and I just hope some of it stays between the two of us. That's why I didn't tell Mercedes everything, because I like having things that just I know about. Like the songs we shared or the way he touched my neck or how his hair was so soft and he smelled so good.
You don't count though because you're a journal and I needed to write this down so I don't forget. I want to remember my first kiss with a guy, even if Blaine wants to forget his first kiss with a guy.
Author's Note:
Thank you to anyone who's read any of this. I don't know how much more i have to write about because nothing else has happened. If I end up talking to my "Jeff" I'll probably write another chapter. Until then, this is pretty much the end until "Blaine" gets back from his trip.