All I could do was stare at him. I was a cocktail of emotions. I was angry, sad, and happy all at the same time. I know that I should have ran into his arms, held on and never let go. I know that was what you were supposed to do when you see someone you love, but I couldn't move. My feelings were so conflicted. L has been the love of my life since high school, before I was kidnapped I couldn't imagine being without him, but now I was conflicted.

I was angry at him. I was angry that he took so long to find me, that I was kidnapped in the first place, that he allowed my best friend to be killed. It was his fault in my eyes. He failed to protect me like he promised. I have scars that will never heal because he failed me.

"Juliana, are you okay? You seemed distressed" he spoke, breaking the awkward silence.

"No, I've been in a car accident" I replied rather coldly, still partially lost in thought.

"Are you injured" he questioned swiftly walking towards my, his eyes widening.

"I'm fine; I'm more worried about my traveling companion" I declared rather sternly, holding my arm as if to conceal the dulling pain in it.

"Well, let's see about this accident then" he murmured walking slowly down the hill, dragging his feet without so much as a glance at me.

"Hey w-wait!" I managed to shout. "Aren't you going to call an ambulance or something?" I asked him frantically.

"Yes, I would prefer to assess the extent of the damage to both you and Beyond before calling in the paramedics." He said in a level headed tone. His voice made me want to punch him. How could he be calm in a time like this?! Beyond was passed out, the car was on fire, I was suffering from some type of arm injury, and I had no fucking idea where the hell I was.

"Wait.." I declared shakily, he stopped.

"Yes?" he responded turning around to face me, he seemed to be more distant than normal.

"How did you know I was with Beyond?" I inquired; my head bowed looking at his tattered shoes.

"You do understand I'm a detective, right?" he rebutted, stuffing his hands in his pockets. His nonchalant nature pushed me over the edge. I knew how he was, but this was not the moment to be the level headed detective I knew. I wanted him to show some type of fucking emotion.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I finally exploded "Why are you being such an ass?"

"What do you mean?" he responded, turning around walking in the direction of the wreck.

"You're being unemotional" I yelled "I haven't seen you for how long? And you haven't shown one once of concern about me since you walked out of that fucking car!" I ran after him to the site of the wreck "Are you even listening to me?"

"Yes, I just think this is not the time for the heartfelt reunion you're wanting"

I felt my heart sink and fire in my stomach.

"NOT THE TIME?" I screamed "You're supposed to be the 'love of my life' and you have to schedule feelings with me"

All of a sudden he grabbed my left hand and examined it.

"What?" I snarled, attempting to jerk my hand away.

"You're engaged?" he asked, a slight tone of concern and sadness in his voice.

"Yes, I am"

"How long has he been your fiancé?"

"Only a few hours"

He let go of my hand and turned back to the wreckage.

"Why?" he asked breathily.

"Why what?" I snapped back at him, completely ignoring his concern.

He suddenly grabbed me by my shoulders and gripped me tightly.

"Why did you say yes?" he growled at me, gripping me even tighter.

"You're hurting me, ple-"

"Answer me!"

I felt myself begin to cry, I had never in a billion years expected for my L, to treat me this way. He was always so level headed, so neutral, watching him explode was scary, and his reasoning was crazy.

"She loves me" I heard a rough wobbly voice from behind me. L dropped me, and looked at the battered and bloodied Beyond. I gasped as I hit the ground, my right arm in an intolerable amount of pain. I glance up at the two, they were impeccably identical. It was like they were looking in mirrors, the only difference being the shirt and hair.

"How did I know you'd be back?" L said, breaking the eerie silence between the two.

"I wasn't going to just let her go" Beyond replied wiping the blood from the corner of his mouth.

"How'd you find her?" he said, returning to his monotonous, level headed tone. I could see that he was somewhat concerned he lost his temper.

"I have my ways; I was supposed to succeed you after all" Beyond replied with a painful chuckle.

"What?" I thought aloud.

"Oh yes, I was supposed to succeed the great L, but I left." Beyond smirked

"I-I don't remember this" I whispered to myself, but then again I couldn't remember a lot of things.

"This occurred after you were transferred to the American Whammy House," L murmured to me quickly.

"Was that the purpose of the orphanage?" I cried

"Somewhat" he replied, pressing his finger to his chin.

"Are you going to tell her L?" Beyond interrupted.

"Tell me what?" I asked holding my arm, looking up at the pair. I looked at Beyond, his beautiful ruby eyes looked sad. I looked at L, I saw him swallow hard.

"What happened?" I glared at him.

"Julie, do you remember Aiden?" Beyond asked me. I smiled, I loved Aiden, he was my best little buddy. I never heard about him after I left.

"Yeah" I replied gleefully, "He was the best, what ever happened to him?" L was visibly tense, I saw his fist clench in his pockets. My heart sank. I knew it couldn't be. I began to tear up. I clenched my hands together tightly.

"I-I-Is h-he…" was all I could manage to stutter before L interrupted me

"He's dead"