Ross woke up the next morning, in an empty bed. He felt almost abandoned as he looked at the spot where his brother slept last night. He knew he was being ridiculous and that Riker was probably just downstairs, but in the past few days Ross had never felt more alone.

He sighed and rolled onto his back before pulling out his phone and opening up twitter. He noticed that his mentions were full of people desperately trying to get him to notice them. Ross ignored them, and began to type up a new tweet. "Never felt more alone". He knew it sounded really depressing, but that's how he felt at the moment.

Instantly his mentions blew up with new tweets from fans.

"I'll keep you company rossr5"

" rossr5 I'm here for you"

There were plenty more but they didn't make him feel any better. Ross loved being able to share his music with the world more than anything, but he didn't like the fame that came with it. He wasn't one for the Hollywood lifestyle, and constantly being followed or screamed at by his fans. He loved the R5 family so much and appreciated everything they did for him and the band, but there were definitely days where Ross wished he was never famous.

Exhaling loudly, Ross locked his phone and threw it to the side. He decided he should probably get out of bed, considering it was already 10am. This was a sleep-in for Ross, considering he usually had to get up before 6 every morning.

He slowly rolled out of bed, groaning at the stiffness of his muscles. He stood up and stretched his arms a bit before sauntering out of the room. He didn't make it far down the hall before he walked into something hard, and heard the tormenting voice of his older brother.

"Oh hey Ross, Rydel's getting rid of some old make-up if you were interested"

Ross ground his teeth in anger towards Rocky. He was his brother, shouldn't he be somewhat supportive of him. He didn't even know the complete truth about Ross being gay, and he was already treating him like crap.

He decided it was best to ignore Rocky, so he tried to step around his and continue down the hall. Just as he moved forward again, he walked straight back into Rocky.

"She's also getting rid of some of her old clothes, I mean, I'm not entirely sure you're the same si-"

Ross cut him off by shoving him roughly.

"Leave me alone!" He shouted.

They hadn't noticed it yet, but the rest of R5, and Ryland had all gathered at the top of the stairs, after hearing Ross shouting. They could see everything that was going on.

"Woah calm down Ross, I can't hit a girl"

Ross couldn't take it anymore so he pushed Rocky up into the wall.

"I said leave me alone!"

Rocky still had his arrogant smirk on his face, and without thinking twice, Ross raised his fist and smashed it right into his face. Rocky crumpled to the ground, groaning and golding his nose. There was blood dripping through his fingers and onto the wooden floor.

"What the fuck?! What's your problem?" Rocky shouted angrily.

Ross looked down, suddenly feeling guilty about what he'd done. He'd never felt such an uncontrollable anger like that before, but now that it had passed, he instantly regretted what he'd done. He'd never actually seriously hit one of his brothers before.

Riker, Rydel, Ratliff and Ryland were all just staring at the scene before them in shock. They had never seen Ross so angry or violent, sure Rocky had provoked him, but Ross took it too far.

"I-I'm Sorry…..I..I did-didn't mean too" Ross stuttered.

Rocky was still on the ground, so Ross knelt down beside him and reached out to take his hands off his face, so he could see the damage.

"Don't fucking touch me!" Rocky yelled.

Ross pulled his hand back quickly and felt the tears welling in his eyes. He felt himself being overwhelmed by all his emotions, but he couldn't have a breakdown in front of everyone so he got up and ran off to his room.

Riker, Ryland and Rydel hurried over to Rocky and pulled his hands off his face. His nose was all crooked, and flattened. It was already turning purple.

Ratliff was still at the top of the stairs, somewhat zoned out. He knew that what Ross had done was wrong, but Rocky definitely provoked him. He still hadn't talked to Ross since the argument they had in the hotel, over two months ago, but he still considered him as one of his best friends.

What Ross just did was so un-Ross like, Ratliff knew something was up. So while everyone else fussed over Rocky, he quietly slipped into Ross' room.

Ross lay on his bed, with his head buried in his pillows. Tears were slowly leaking out, soaking into his sheets but he couldn't care less. He just couldn't describe the anger he felt when Rocky was teasing him, he actually couldn't quiet remember punching Rocky at all.

He looked down at his fist, that was still shaking. It was covered in Rocky's blood, and the knuckles were all swollen. He was just so confused, and his breathing started to get out of control, as the reality of what just happened began to catch up with him. He started to hyperventilate, and he put his hands against his head, and tugged roughly at his hair.

The door creaked open, but in his current state, Ross didn't even notice, not until he felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Hey, hey shhh….It's gonna be okay", Ratliff spoke soothingly.

Ross slowly calmed down, hardly registering that it was Ratliff who was hugging him. Finally once he had calmed down fully, he turned around and gasped in shock as to who it was comforting him.

"E-Ellington?"

Ratliff just gave a small smile to Ross.

"Hey"

There was an awkward silence that seemed to stretch one forever. Ross was confused as to why Ellington was there. The two hadn't spoken in months, and from what he said, it sounded like Ratliff hated him. He just continued to stare at him, until he finally spoke up.

"Wanna explain what that was back there?"

Ross looked down, and avoided eye contact. He hand't even figured out himself, what that was back there, so there was no way he was going to be able to explain it.

"I…I don't know…." Ross trailed off.

"You can't just go around punching people Ross"

"He was pissing me off, and he wouldn't leave me alone"

"That's still no excuse Ross" Ratliff scolded.

By now Ross was starting to get annoyed. Who did Ratliff think he was? He had no right to tell Ross what to do, he made it perfectly clear that he wanted nothing to do with Ross.

"Like you care what i'm going to say anyway. At the end of the day you're just going to go running back to your girlfriend and pretend that i don't exist, just like you've been doing for the past two months"

"Oh give it a rest Ross. You didn't make an effort to talk to me either. I don't know what the fuck has gotten into you, but you really need to get over yourself before you lose everyone" Ratliff spoke, beginning to get frustrated now.

"You don't know what I'm going through at the moment"

"Then why don't you tell me?"

"You wouldn't understand, you probably wouldn't even care"

"Then why don't you try me", Ratliff challenged.

"I'd rather not"

"See Ross, this is why you snapped before. Because you keep everything to yourself and you don't let anyone help you. You're going to end up alone Ross, if you can't even tell your best friend what's going on, good luck getting into a relationship. No girl is ever going to like you if you don't tell her anything"

"Yeah well maybe a don't want a girl to like me"

Ross didn't mean to say those words, but now that they were out there, he couldn't take them back. The room was now silent as the words finally began to sink in.

"Wh-what?"

"Nothing…"

"No it wasn't nothing Ross….are you gay?"

Ross just stayed silent.

"Ross, I'm not going to judge you. That's why you were wearing Rydel's clothes and stuff yesterday isn't it? I'm here for you okay? I can help you with wha-"

"No just stop…stop saying you're going to be here for me, when you won't"

"Of course I am, why would you even say think that I wouldn't. This doesn't change how i think about you. You're always going to be my be-"

"I'm in love with you Ratliff" Ross suddenly said.

Ratliff just went quiet.

"That changes how you think about me doesn't it"