You're back now and watching her as she's in all white. She has finally gotten over you and moved on. You know that you will always be the first person in her heart but you couldn't show that to her if you weren't there. You weren't strong enough to stay by her side. That shouldn't matter though as for the time you're here it's going to be the time of her life.

You didn't watch as she got better, at least from up close. You watched her from above where she couldn't sense you. Where she didn't have to relive painful memories when your nearby. You did stop by to see her once. It was when she was doing a whole lot better and started dating another girl. The girl that stood by her the whole time she was broken. The one that girl that actually slept by her and nursed her back to sleep when she awoke from a nightmare.

The room around you is white and your just standing there, waiting. You're waiting for one person to come back even if it's for a short time. You need to see her at least once before she completely moves on otherwise you will live with regret for what could be the rest of eternity.

That's when she appears. She looks stunning as always and you can't help the smile that appears on your face. She's looking at you with wide eyes. She's watching as you walk up to her and take a hand in yours, squeezing it as to reassure that even though it's a dream, it's real. The moment of disbelief passes and she's got you back in your arms and she's in yours.

"I missed you." She breathes out as she pulls away from you.

You smile at her again and simply just stand there, enjoying her presence. She does the same as well. She just looks at you and the grip she has on you is almost killer. You're okay with it though because you can't feel the pain that it would have normally caused. She looks down at you as if conflicted about what to do.

"Don't worry" You explain to her "I just wanted to wish you congratulations."

She looks at you confused before remembering the ring on her finger. She cringes at that and almost pulls away completely.

But you don't let her.

"I'm sorry." She whispers looking as though she's almost in tears "If I had known you were watching I wouldn't have-"

You cut her off "Stop." You command rolling your eyes, playfully "that's the reason I haven't visited until now. I wanted you to move on. I didn't want you worrying about me while I didn't exist in your world."

That's when she pulls you closer and her lips are on yours. You kiss her back and even though she may not really feel a thing in the morning the sensation will stay with you for a long time to come. Her lips are as soft as you remember and your just hoping that she is feeling the compassion that you're trying to convey.

"Besides" you start, pulling away "we always have eternity to spend together when you do pass away and don't worry, I'll wait."

She laughs softly at that and you just smile at her. You missed these times when nothing around you seemed to matter. The only thing that mattered to each of you is the other standing opposite.

"Does that count as cheating?" She asks jokingly but also seriously and you just laugh at her.

"I honestly can't answer that Spencer." You answer and watch as she pouts at you.

You both end up laughing together. You can hear it echo through the empty space around you. You never take your eyes off the girl in front of you though. You know that your time with her is nearly up but it was great while it lasted.

"I'm afraid our time is up for now Spence." You explain and she frowns "come on it's not like I'm really going anywhere. I'll always be watching you. You should know that by now."

"Are you going to come to the wedding?" She questions, nervously obviously not sure if you were jealous or disappointed in her for planning a wedding without her.

"I wouldn't miss it for anything." You answer and with that the girl at arm's length is disappearing so you just say 3 simple words to her.

"I'll be waiting."

You smile to yourself as you remember the feel of her lips on yours and you slowly make your way back outside. The whole wedding is happening but the weather is perfect and there are smiling faces everywhere. Her partner is already there in a white dress as well as neither of them wanted to wear a tux. It's always a girl's dream to be there in that dress it's only too bad you wouldn't have that opportunity to have that.

The music is now playing and your standing at the back of everyone even though you can't be seen you don't want to do anything to give away your there. You're not sure quite how you would do that but you know that if you're anywhere you would. Spencer is making her way down the aisle and you take notice at just how breathtaking she is.

You watch the whole time at just how happy Spencer is the whole time the minister is talking. The whole ceremony goes without a hitch and your smiling from ear to ear as you watch her. This is everything you wanted from her. You just want her to happy and the other woman as fulfilled that dream of yours for you. You just wish you could thank her for it somehow.

"Emily fields, do you take Spencer Hastings for your lawful wedded wife, to live in the holy estate of matrimony? Will you love, honour, comfort, and cherish her from this day forward, forsaking all others, keeping only unto her for as long as you both shall live?"

"I do"

"Spencer Hastings, do you take Emily fields for your lawful wedded wife, to live in the holy estate of matrimony? Will you love, honour, comfort, and cherish her from this day forward, forsaking all others, keeping only unto her for as long as you both shall live?"

"I do"

You smile grows even brighter at those words coming out of her mouth because it's something you never saw her saying so many years ago. Years ago you didn't really think you would get to see her smile again but you were proven wrong time and time again. If only you could learn your lesson. Yeah, that's something that will never happen and you know it.

"You may now seal the promises you have made with each other with a kiss."

Once you hear those words you pay proper attention again as they pull each other in for a kiss. Emily's lips are on hers but you're not jealous. In fact you're in the background clapping away for them, celebrating them as if this is a way to say thank you for helping somebody you couldn't.

Once they pull away Spencer looks around the room and locks eyes with you. You're not quite sure how that works but you watch as her eyes widen at the sight at you before waving and mouthing a "thank you." You looks straight back at her and just give her a slight nod of your head before mouthing "Your welcome."

You know that Spencer still has years to come in the future filled with fights and tears. You know that you will have to sit there and watch her as she cries to the sound of her broken heart but for now everything's fine.

For now, everything's just perfect.

A/N: So this has appeared again and I do apologies to the person that I gave Sparia withdrawal to. I do hope I've delivered this in time...Only been over a month...
I do thank everyone for the continuing views on this story along with the reviews that have come with it.
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until next time guessers
-guess
(waddles away)