Hey y'all!
I'm still updating. I hate school during the summer. It takes all my updating time away. Please bear with me.
Peace and Love.
-Kat
Disclaimer: I do not own the Divergent Characters. I only own my OCs.
He took my advice. My Tobias is no longer an abnegation. I didn't see him when all the abnegation initiates came back and his father looked like he could kill someone. I have no doubt that he could. I miss Tobias with all my heart and I can tell that my parents miss him for me.
I spent most of the next year by myself trying to be a better abnegation. I don't think it's working. No matter how hard I try to be selfless and blend in to the crowd, I end up making mistakes that make people angry. The abnegation are not supposed to be angry because anger is a selfish emotion but that doesn't mean that I can't tell when something's up. I haven't made any more friends and I haven't wanted to. I don't want to hurt anyone on my choosing ceremony day like I was hurt on Tobias's.
My aptitude test is today and I honestly don't know what I will get. If you asked me a year ago, I would have said dauntless through and through but now I'm not sure. I still don't want to be in abnegation but I'm getting better at hiding it.
I sit alone in the cafeteria at school like has become usual this past year. Today is a bit different because instead of eating, I am waiting to hear my name called for the aptitude test. I sit and wait while looking at all the other factions. Amity girls are all giggles and playing games that require no skill whatsoever. I don't want to be an amity. At least I know that. The candors are having heated debates on some subject that has no interest to me. Candor would be low on the list of things that I would like to be. The erudites are all reading and pointing out facts (that they probably already know) to one another. I thought life in abnegation was boring. At least we do physical things and not read. Dauntless is farthest away from the abnegation tables. They are talking and laughing amongst themselves. They are playing games with each other. We never play games in abnegation, too selfish.
"…And from Abnegation, Aurelia Williams." Reality hits me as I hear my name. I stand and every eye in the abnegation section looks at me. I have become somewhat of a loner and all of abnegation knows it. When abnegation looks my way it causes all the factions to look my way. Great, now I feel like I'm on display. I hurry to room 6 and go inside. A dauntless woman with long black hair and a grey streak who is wearing tight black pants and a black cropped vest is fiddling with a machine.
"Hi. I'm Tori. I'll be administering your aptitude test today. Please sit down." I go toward the chair in the middle of the room but something catches my attention on the way. It's a mirror and my reflection is terrifying. I must have really let myself go. I guess no friends and losing your boyfriend could do that to you. I don't know how long I've been staring at myself but I hear Tori ask for me to sit again. This time I actually sit down in the chair. She hands me a vile of clear liquid. It smells like grapes. "Drink up." She doesn't have to tell me twice. Grapes are my favorite.
I look over to Tori to get instructions for the next part of the test but she isn't there. Neither is the machine. I look back and there are two baskets in front of the mirror. I get up from the chair and head over to the baskets. In one basket is a hunk of cheese and the other holds a knife the size of my forearm. "Choose." The woman's voice commands respect and I give it to her. I choose the knife. I hear a growl from behind me. I turn and see a dog with its teeth bared. I do the only thing that comes to mind. I throw the knife with all my strength and it hits the dog in the chest. The dog dies.
My eyes open. It's weird, I didn't even know that they were closed. I gasp for breath. Tori looks at me with pride in her eyes. "Congratulations. You are dauntless." I don't know what to say so I just smile and nod.
The rest of the day goes by quickly. I head home from school and start on dinner. Mom and dad ask me how my test went and I tell them that it was ok. I ask if I can go to my room early because I'll need sleep for tomorrow and they tell me it's ok. I spend the night wondering what I'm going to do. Will I stay in abnegation? Probably not. Will I go to Amity? Erudite? Candor? Probably not. But Dauntless. A lot has changed over the past year. I'm not so sure that I will fit in there anymore. But then again why did I get dauntless on my aptitude test. Ahhh! It's so confusing!
I think about Tobias for the first time in a long time. I wonder where he went. I wonder if I will ever see him again. I would be the happiest girl in the world if I could see him again. Would we pick up where we left off and be together forever or could he already have another girlfriend? Would he do that to me? We had such a history together. Chances are I would never see him again anyway so why am I even thinking about him.
I drift off to sleep in the deepest funk that I've been in for a long, long time.