HAYMITCH'S P.O.V
I'd been looking for hours when I finally gave up looking for Effie. So now I didn't know what to do, my entire schedule for the day had been to help Effie adapt to 13. Showing her around, making sure she knew the rules, double and triple checking that she completely understood how important it was to get stamped with a schedule every morning.
The responsibilities were endless. But of course I lost her! within five minutes. I sat down on the grey chair in the corner of my small, cramped room and gave up all hope and just relaxed. It was the first time in months that I had gotten to take at least a five second brake but of course that was interrupted by a very angry looking Coin dragging a very sheepish looking Effie.
"i would say that I hate to barge in on you soldier Abnernathy but I really find it quite enjoyable. I'll cut straight to it, Why on earth is this Capitol prissy who you are supposed to be looking after wandering around thirteen barging in where she is not wanted!" Coin looked pretty pissed off with me so I didn't push my luck,
"i lost her maam" Coin snorted,
"lost her, well see to it that you don't lose her again" and with that Coin left leaving Effie and I in a rather awkward silence.
KATNISS' P.O.V
Finally Gale, I'd been meaning to talk to him all morning but apparently Beete had been keeping him busy with some sort of weapons assignment. I turned around and managed a smile.
"Hey, Catnip" he returned my attempt at a smile. Finally he stood in front of me he grabbed my hand, Haymitch wants to see you" I couldn't hide the disappointment on my face and Gale noticed and frowned. "hey, look i'm sorry okay? I shouldn't have yelled at you like that and I trust you. if you need to talk to me just tell me okay?" I attempted a smile,
"okay"
As I made my way to Haymitch's room I thought about what Gale had said, of course I can trust him I know that, he's had my back for years and I go and throw it all in his face by yelling at him and saying things I never mean. Gale is my friend and will always be my friend and I should trust him it's just that I'm scared. He needs to understand that this whole mockingjay thing is hard, having to be the face of the rebellion when the man I only now realize that I love is being tortured maybe to death. And i'm pushing my only friend further away.
After what seems to be no time at all I reach Haymitch's room, I knock slowly and the door swings open.
"Haymitch" I whisper
"sweetheart" he replies, I don't know why but I collapse against him and sob, I cry because I hate myself, I hate the Capitol, I hate Snow and I will kill him. I will watch with pleasure as he dies and the life drains from his old, poison filled veins. But most of all I cry for the people that died for me, died trying to protect me. Rue, Cinna, maybe even Peeta by this point.
"i don't think I can do this Haymitch" I look up at him and he grabs me by the shoulders and holds me steady,
"If you want the boy back alive, you're going to have to do this for a while longer yet." I nod and hear a sniffle, Haymitch steps aside to reveal a teary eyed Effie.
"Katniss" she says, just my name, nothing else, my name is Katniss Everdeen, I was in the hunger games, I survived, the capitol hates me. her voice is raw and full of emotion, grief, sorrow, happiness. she chokes out my name again,
"Katniss, i'm so sorry. I'm a terrible person. Look what I've done!" I walk around Haymitch and pull her up from her position on a chair and look her in the eye,
"No, Effie, this isn't your fault. It's Snow's and he will die. Do you hear me Effie, it's not your fault and you will never ever say that it is again" I stare at her and take in every part of her face. No make up, good. her face is dirty, not as good. She's thin, Bad.
"come on Effie, Haymitch and I will show you around thirteen." Effie nods and hugs me,
"i'm still sorry, you deserve so much better than what you got."