Spoilers: 5x12.
Disclaimer: I'm not even going to attempt to take credit for Glee. I don't own it.
AN: I'm not sure if this is any good, but my muse wanted to write it. :/
"You need to be having a life. You need to be out in the world going to restaurants and concerts and… dating." Santana tells Brittany. She wants her to live not just exist.
Brittany leans over and surprises Santana by kissing her. Brittany tries to continue the kiss but Santana stops her.
"Okay, um…it's a bad idea." Santana tries explaining.
"It feels really good to be around you. You make me feel like a girl again. Like, my body wakes up." Brittany tries to convince Santana that their old relationship still exists.
"Please don't do this, okay? I have worked my ass off to get over you." Santana almost pleads; she doesn't want to break either of their hearts again.
"I really want to be with you, Santana. I've seen the world, and I'm sure now more than ever that I belong with you. And I'm sure your girlfriend's great, but you can't recreate what you and I have. So, it's your choice. If you want me, I'm here." Brittany tells Santana before kissing her cheek.
"Britt, that's the problem. I'm not trying to recreate what you and I had. I'm creating something new and amazing with Dani." Santana is finally able to form her thoughts into words for Brittany. "What you and I had was special. You will always be my first love, but I'm not in love with you anymore. I still love you as my best friend, but I'm in love with Dani now. She's the one I see by my side in the future." As she speaks, she sees Brittany's face begin to crumble. "I'm sorry Brittany." She whispers before leaving the choir room and running through the halls to get outside to the parking lot and her mom's car. Once in the car, she takes a deep breath before starting it and driving to her parent's house. She needs to get home, to New York, to Dani.
...
Santana got back to New York City five days early. She didn't want to go back to the loft and be there all alone with everything weighing so heavily on her mind. Even though she knows she did nothing wrong, she still feels extremely guilty. She needs to see Dani, explain everything, and then just cuddle with her blue-haired girlfriend.
She knocks on Dani's door realizing her key is at the loft, and she's not wasting any more time than necessary to see her girlfriend.
Dani opens the door and stills before a giant smile crosses her face. She gathers Santana in a huge, full body hug and passionate kiss, before dragging her inside and to her couch. "What are you doing here? I thought you were supposed to be gone for the rest of the week?" Dani asks quickly.
Santana shakes her head trying to regain her bearings. "I was, but umm…something happened." Santana starts immediately playing with her fingers to keep from having to look at her girlfriend.
"What happened?" Dani asks slowly, picturing the worst-case scenario and hoping she's wrong.
Santana takes a deep breath. "Glee club was cancelled, which is why we all went back. One last hurrah or whatever. Anyway, Brittany was there and she…wasn't herself. It was…disconcerting. She used to be all sunshine and rainbows, but when I first saw her she was all sad panda math girl. So, I tried helping, I made her dance again and she was almost back to the real Brittany. Then…" Santana pauses. She closes her eyes and breathes deeply, trying to force the next words out.
Dani, seeing Santana's struggle, grabs the brunette's hands and squeezes them.
Santana looks deeply in Dani's eyes, and continues. "She kissed me. I stopped her and told her it wasn't a good idea. When she told me I couldn't recreate what she and I have, I told her I didn't want to, that I was creating something new and amazing with you." Santana squeezes Dani's hands. "I'm sorry. I didn't want her to kiss me. I didn't mean for it to happen." She shakes her head and tries pulling her hands away, but Dani holds on even tighter.
Santana looks back at Dani's face and sees anger, relief, and love. Dani shakes her head. "It's not your fault she kissed you. I'm so pissed at her, but you…" She laughs in relief. "I love you so much."
Santana takes a quick breath. "I love you too. I also told her I'm in love with you, that I see my future with you."
A tear runs down Dani's cheek as she smiles the biggest smile Santana's seen on her yet. "Me too." She says quickly, before leaning in, pushing Santana back onto the couch, and kissing her senseless.
AN: Please let me know what you think!