Hi guys, sorry for the delay this was meant to go up last night but life got in the way...
can I just say? rip Cory Monteith. A celebrity dying has never upset me more than his. #prayforLea
just also... I don't own glee - wish I did, but I don't.
"WHY DID SHE SAY THOSE THINGS TO ME?!" Santana cried into her pillow "I LOVE HER AND SHE DONE THIS TO ME!" Santana continued on like that for a couple hours until she fell asleep.
She saw Rachel standing on the football field smiling and waving at her. She was beautiful, wearing a pair of black skinny jeans and a white tank top. As she was coming towards her Santana held her arms out, expecting her girlfriend to walk straight into them but instead she walks straight past her and into the arms of a waiting Finn Hudson.
"Rachel? What the hell are you doing?" Santana glared at Finn who was kissing Rachel's head, her cheeks, her neck.
"You had your chance Santana. Now I'm with someone who can really love me."
Santana woke up in a cold sweat. She looked at her phone, it told he that it was 4 o'clock in the morning - and that she had 3 new voicemails from Rachel.
"Santana, I'm sorry baby. It's been a long day and I didn't mean anything I said. Just call me back. I love you..."
She deleted that message and moved onto the next one...
"San. Look I understand you're mad at me but PLEASE call me back, I'm worried about you."
"Don't beg Rachel, it's not attractive honey..." She says as she deleted that message
The next one was sent an hour ago:
"Sanny sweetie" Rachel was crying. She sounded drunk "I'm sorry, so, so sorry. I- I didn't mean it, you were only... looking out for me." Rachel cried even harder "you can't leave me too..."
Then the phone cut off. She couldn't face Rachel at the moment, but hated the idea that she was upset, vulnerable and alone. Also anything could have happened to her. She wrote her Mama a note saying where she was and drove to Rachel's house. She was only wearing sweats and let herself into Rachel's house using the key that was hidden under the plant pot.
Rachel was passed out on the couch drunk, an empty bottle of vodka sitting on the table in front of her. She walked over and knelt down in front of Rachel and stroked her hair. Placing a kiss to her temple and wrapping her in a blanket. Santana settled herself on the chair and watched Rachel until she woke up.
"Oh my god" Rachel said, she held her head as it was throbbing and felt dizzy.
"Take that aspirin. It'll help..." Santana said, passing her the aspirin she's fetched.
"Oh Sanny!" Rachel said throwing herself onto Santana and pulling her in a hug "I'm so sorry! I was a cow! I don't know what I was thinking!" Rachel cried
"Rachel, take the aspirin, then we'll talk." Santana said, guiding Rachel back to the couch and handing her the aspirin again.
Rachel nodded in agreement and swallowed the cloudy water. She sat there for about 10 minutes. Head in her hands as she waited for the aspirin to kick in.
"Why did you say those things Rach?" Santana asked. Hurt evident in her eyes. "It hurt Rach. So much."
"I know. I am so sorry. I don't know what came over me."
"Look I get it that you're hurting Rachel, but I am not your punching bag that you can take everything out on." Santana said, choking back tears.
"I just wanted to feel loved... Ever since my Dad died I've never felt so alone."
"But you know I love you Rachel! I put EVERYTHING on the line for you!" Santana was crying now, tears running down her face.
"I know and I love you too! But my dad has just died! You have no idea how much that hurts!"
"I was there Rachel when he died! I held you while you fell to the floor!" Santana cried "and don't you dare say I don't know what it's like to lose someone..." she warned.
"Please don't leave me..." Rachel sobbed
That made Santana stop and walk over to the couch. She knelt down I front of Rachel and grabbed her hand in her own:
"We've had an arguement... I'm not going to break up with you for that. But you need to talk to me babe okay? From now if you're feeling down, instead of trying to seduce me, just tell me your feelings." Santana said, gaining a giggle from Rachel.
"And I did mean it y'know, what I said to your Dad. I will make you happy, and I'll always be here. For as long as you want me..." Rachel and Santana kisses, a gentle and loving kiss.
"Look at the state of us..." Rachel said stating the obvious. "What do you want to do today?"
Santana thought for a moment. "You're staying at my house tonight... I don't care what you say... But TODAY well... We could go see Shelby and Beth? However, I'll need to go home and change first."
"Yeah ok that'll be nice, and you look amazing sweetie."
"Yeah but compared to your Mom who is always so glamourous."
"Yeah I suppose."
2 hours later...
"Aw come on Beth you cheated! You looked while I was hiding!"
"I didn't Tana. I pwomise..."
"Yeah okay squirt..." Santana and Beth walked over to Rachel and Shelby who were laughing at them.
"Thanks for yeno, telling me you two were together..." Shelby said with a wink.
Santana blushed while Rachel stared down at her hands: "I was going to tell you eventually, but things got in the way... Then I thought I'd lost last night after I was a pure bitch to her but luckily she forgave me and we're stronger than ever now." Santana and Shelby both laughed.
"Well I'm happy for you. Both of you, but uh Rachel there was something I wanted to talk to you about."
"Really? What was it?"
"Well, Hiram is going to be in India for a few months and I'd feel really uncomfortable for you to be living in that big house yourself. So, I was wondering if you wanted to move in here? With me and Beth?"
Santana felt like she was in the way so took Beth through to her bedroom and played with her to let then talk.
"Mom, I really appreciate everything you're doing for me, and I love how close we are now. But I want to stay at my house, it makes me feel closer to Dad..."
"I understand sweetie, but please know there's always a room for you here."
Rachel smiled and helped Shelby prepare lunch. Later on that night Rachel and Santana had a quiet movie night and an early bed.
"I love you Santana."
"I love you too Rachel."
I'd appreciate it if you his reviewed, I'll be busy over the weekend so te next update will be Sundaynight or monday - please review!