Hi guys, I'm not really that happy with this chapter. But anyhoo here it is. thank you guys for all the reviews, they mean a lot :')

Party my house. I hate u if u can't make it... - Puck

Rachel and Santana's phones both went off at the same time. They'd been tidying up the living room after the mess they'd made. Santana had practically moved into Rachel's house not wanting to leave her on her own. It had been a week since there arguement and there hadn't been any more said about it. Rachel was hardly eating though, she'd lost lots of weight, Shelby and Santana had both voiced there concerns to each other...

"Are we going to Puck's party? Please say we are! I want to have fun!"

Santana could only laugh at Rachel's enthusiasm, she nodded her head at Rachel:

"Do you seriously think I'd miss a Puckerman party? Come on Rach..."

"Yay!" Rachel clapped her hands and screeched, reaching up and kissing her girlfriend. "What can we do today though?"

"I don't know... What do you wanna do?"

"I'm really tired, I was actually wondering if I could go back to bed for a couple of hours?" The bags under Rachel's eyes showed that she was under-rested and Santana instantly took her girlfriend in her arms.

"You don't have to ask sweetie. You go back to bed and I'll go do some shopping, we're running low on food."

"Okay, thank you. Just take money from my bank if you need to..."

A full day passed, Santana had done the shopping, and went to visit her parents all whilst Rachel was catching up on her sleep. They were ready for 10 o'clock and decided to walk to Puck's house since it wasn't far (all of Lima's Jewish residents somehow lived close to each other).

"Heeeey!" Puck gave then both a slobbery kiss on the cheek. "Hey everyone! The lesbo's are here!"

Rachel and Santana both got greeted by the glee club, since they hadn't seen Rachel since before her Father's passing.

"Hey Rach! It's so good to see you again." A perfectly sober Finn greeted Rachel, Santana had gone off to get them a drink.

"Hey Finn! Thanks it's nice to see you too." The two remained friends and it was Finn who helped set Rachel and Santana up. "You're usually the first one drunk at parties" they both laughed as Finn dangled his car keys in his hands:

"Designated driver I'm afraid. So how are you?" Santana arrived back with drinks for Rachel as she slugged then back quickly, wanting to be drunk.

"I'm okay. I've got people who care around me." Rachel said squeezing Santana who was hugging her from behind.

"That's good, I'm glad. I'm here if you ever need a chat."

After, 5 vodka and lemonades, 3 beers and many shots taken off numerous people's chest, Rachel was drunk. Santana wasn't far behind her.

They both staggered home, holding hands and singing show tunes, it took them 40 minutes for a usually 10 minute walk. When they got in they weren't tired. So decided to stay up and cuddle.

"It was nice seeing all the glee club again. I forgot how nice they all were. They were so nice to me." Rachel said

"Of course they are! And they would never even dare be anything but nice, otherwise I'd release snixx on there asses."

Rachel and Santana both laughed: "it's nice to see you laugh. I've missed it." Santana commented, kissing Rachel's head.

"I know, but now I'm going to get back to myself back on track. Back to the old Rachel Barbra Berry. My Dad would be ashamed of me moping around, not eating properly." Rachel stopped as she felt Santana stiffen beneath her "did I say something to upset you?"

"No but, I don't understand why you weren't eating."

"Santana..." Rachel sat up "I wasn't eating because I felt like there was no point. I was so swallowed up on my own grief that I forgot about everyone else - even you. I'm sorry."

Santana chocked back tears, the girl she loved had been hurting all this time and Santana missed it. She believed the brave face that Rachel was putting on and going along with it.

"Santana? Don't cry baby. Please don't cry." Rachel grabbed Santana and held her while she cried. "What's up baby?"

"You've been hurting all this time and I didn't even realise. I'm such a bad person, I suck so badly."

Santana had always been a soppy drunk but Rachel had never seen her like this before.

"And when you weren't eating I just assumed you'd eat when you were hungry. Not because you we're forcing yourself not to. I'm such a shit fucking girlfriend." Santana soaked Rachel's dress with her tears then got up and ran away. Rachel couldn't keep up with her and returned back inside, leaving the door open for when she came back.

3 hours later and Rachel had fallen asleep but got woken up by Quinn and Puck shaking her.

"What the fuck is going on?" Rachel rubbed her eyes and realised that Quinn had been crying and Puck was on the verge. "What's happened?"

"Rachel, Santana and Finn have been in a car accident. You need to go to the hospital."

Rachel froze. That last sentence all too familiar. As she let herself be taken to the hospital...