Hi guys, sorry it's been so long but there's been a lot of family drama and Iable been too upset to write this. But I've written this today, hopefully some nice reviews will cheer me up!

oh and school starts again tomorrow, so I hope the next one will be up as soon as possible.

disclaimer- I still don't own Glee or any of te characters...

The next couple of weeks were emotional. Santana recovered but she found out what happened with Rachel at Shelby's and discovered how emotionally scarred she really is. There was also Finn's funeral. That was hard. Carole Hudson collapsing hysterically on top of her son's coffin was enough to cause Santana to cry. All she had left now of that horrible accident was a few cuts and bruises on her face.

Right now Santana and Rachel were sitting in Santana's living room, no one was really talking, they were just enjoying being in each others company. Santana was the first one to break the silence:

"Rachel baby. I think you should go see Shelby."

"Why would I want to go see her?"

"Babe I understand your pissed off but do you at least not want to go see Beth? She adores you Rach."

When she got no answer Santana continued on:

"I know what Shelby done to you was horrible but she's here, trying to fix things. And things were going so well. She was here for you when LeRoy died. That was tough you know most people would have ran away from that but she didn't she's here because she loves you."

Rachel sniffed. She was crying.

"Oh shit Rach I'm sorry." Santana said pulling her into a hug. "I didn't mean to upset you."

"No it's okay Tana." Santana smiled at the nickname "You're right. I've been angry at Shelby for nothing. She's trying to make it up to me and I keep pushing her away. I guess I'm just under the impression that everyone I love is destined to leave me."

The tears were threatening to pour over Santana's eyes as what Rachel said hit her:

"Rachel... Rae look at me. I will never leave you. Ever. I will be here to love you as long as you'll want me. And even after you've asked me to leave, I'll still love you."

"I'll always want you here, please don't ever leave."

Santana pulled Rachel's lips to hers in a crashing kiss. There tongues instantly started fighting for dominance in each others mouth. Santana's hands fisted Rachel's hair whilst Rachel dug her nails into Santana's neck. Rachel leaned forward so she was hovering over Santana with one hand travelling over Santana's body.

Rachel's lips made her way down to Santana's neck. She found a spot and bit down, earning a moan to escape Santana's mouth. She traced the bite mark with her tongue.

Santana flipped them over so she was straddling Rachel's hips. Discarding her tshirt while she was up there. Rachel's tshirt was already off. She leaned down and placed open mouth kisses on Rachel's abdomen. She could already feel the blood pounding between her legs. And slipped out of the shorts she was wearing. Taking Rachel's off with her. She almost came right there seeing Rachel's black lacy thong and matching bra.

Rachel bucked her hips, there core's accidentally bumping into each other. Santana kisses Rachel whilst taking off the thong and then Rachel took Santana's own underwear off. Santana's fingers were dancing there way down to Rachel's heat. They stopped when she found Rachel's swollen clit. Santana and Rachel were still looking into each others eyes. There lips crashed together at the same time as Santana squeezed the swollen nub.

Rachel's back arched at the contact and she let out a shaky breath. She started rubbing and squeezing at a quicker pace. Then Santana's fingers moved down and sat at her entrance. She slowly entered one finger and was stopped by a barrier.

"Rachel honey, this is going to hurt okay? But I'll stop if you want me to."

"No, I trust you."

"I'll take care of you baby."

Santana drove her fingers further, breaking down the barrier that was there. She left her fingers where they were for a few minutes, kissing away the tears that had escaped Rachel's eyes. When she felt Rachel relax again she started moving her fingers. The moans that Rachel was letting out almost made Santana break right there.

As Rachel came hard around Santana's fingers. Santana pulled out after a couple minutes and lay down next to Rachel pulling a blanket over them both. She kissed Rachel's sweaty forehead.

"Are you okay baby?"

"Of course I am Tana. I'm more than okay."

"You do realise I broke your virginity right? You're mines forever."

"I wouldn't have it any other way."