Jace's POV

Buzz Buzz Buzz. I groggily reach around for my phone. 10:30 my phone blinks. I have text from Alec.

Night Jace. Magnus are upstairs

we are going to bed now. Good

luck with Clary. ~Alec

Nighty-Night Alec. Say

Goodnight to Magnus for me.

Sadly nothing happened between

us. And I don't think anything ever

will /: ~Jace

You never know, my dear Jace.

Talk to you in the morning. ~Alec

I must've fallen asleep. I look down and see Clary asleep in my lap. She looks amazing! She is so peaceful. The way her skin feels against mine makes my skin burn like a wildfire.

"Jace? Why are you staring at Clary?" Simon asks. Crap! I didn't even notice them walking in.

"I...I... Uhh... I just woke up and she was lying on top of me. I was about to wake her up." I stammered

"Sure you were..." Izzy grins

"Anyways... How was your date?" I ask Izzy and Simon. I put head down to hide the reddening in my cheeks from earlier. All I end up doing is putting my face in Clary's hair. Wow! Her hair smells amazing! Now I'm blushing even more! I can't let them know what is happening. I slowly get pick up Clary from on top of me and move her on the couch.

"It was...uhh good!" Simon says while smiling at Izzy. You can see the love in his eyes. She looks right back at him, just as lovingly. If not more. They will end up great together. I wonder if Clary and I will ever be like that... I doubt it. I don't deserve her. I've hurt so many people in my short life. I couldn't live with myself if I ever hurt her in anyway.

"Should we wake her up?" Simon asks about Clary. How could you ever wake up somebody who looks that peaceful?

"We might have to." I reply

"Or Simon and Clary could just spend the night. Plus it's getting dark." Izzy suggests. I've got to hand it to Izzy, sometimes she is actually pretty smart.

"That's fine by me." Simon says. "Anyways she looks so cute!" My stomach twists into painful knots. Why do I feel like this? Jealousy? No! I cannot be jealous of Simon. He is with Izzy NOT Clary!

He probably only meant it in a brotherly way. Looking at Izzy she seems fine with it. God! How can Izzy be so easy going? Her boyfriend just called her friend cute and she is standing there all calm. Why aren't I calm? Clary and I aren't even together yet. No not yet. I mean ugh! I wish I could be somebody Clary deserves. That's impossible though. Nobody will ever deserve Clary. It is like she has angel blood running in her veins and I have demon.

"Clary can sleep in my room." I suggest. Did I just say that aloud? Izzy gives me a questioning look, but Simon just looks grateful.

"Uhh yeah..?" Izzy tested. "Simon you can sleep with down her with Jace. I'm sure he won't bit.

"I don't bit but I do stab." I smirk.

"That's reassuring." Simon teases.

"Don't worry babe. I would never let Jace hurt you." Izzy says reassuringly.

"Isn't the boyfriend supposed to protect the girlfriend?" Simon laughs. Girlfriend? Are they official now?

I carried Clary up to my room. I tucked her in my bed. I also wrote her a note so she wasn't confused when she woke up in the morning. I took the big couch in the entertainment room, giving Simon the smaller one. I can't let Izzy's 'boyfriend' get away that easy. But that boy was also the girl I've been crushing on for months' best friend.

"Hey Jace?" Simon says, interrupting my thoughts.

"What do you want?" I bark.

"Why?" Simon asks.

"Why what?" I glare.

"Right there! Why do you act different around Clary? You act caring and gentle with Clary, but when you are with anybody else you are hostile."

I act differently around Clary? I guess I wasn't as in control as I thought. I don't know what to say to Simon. So I just shrug hoping he doesn't say anything else. But it's Simon. He can never stop being curious.

"Do you like her?" Simon asks, "Clary that is." Simon must catch me blushing because he adds, "Good. I think she would be good for you."

On that note I roll over and close my eyes but I don't sleep. I just lie there thinking of Clary and wondering if she thinks the same about me.

Sorry about not updating recently. I was at camp. I had a great time, but I found out that my best friend has cancer and it is 50% in her blood stream. Because of that I have been having a hard time updating sorry… review and follow