So since I made you guys wait so long between updates, I thought that I would write another one as a 'thank you' for sticking around with me.
This chapter is in Harry's POV again. This is the second last chapter that will be in Harry's POV. Next chapter will be centered around Severus and Albus finding a way to reverse Snape and Harry's soul switch. I just needed to write this chapter before continuing, to give Harry the closure he needs from his father (James).
Warning: Swear words.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything HP related.
"Let me talk to him Lily. Alone." Mum looked at dad apprehensively.
"James, I really don't think-"
"You owe me." He said in an angry, stern tone. She backed off immediately.
"Okay James." She said softly before she disappeared right in front of me.
"Don't worry, she'll be back." He said with a smile, though his tone sounded sad.
"What's going on dad?" I asked. I had a horrible feeling in my gut. Dad sighed loudly and looked at me in the eyes.
"I heard your conversation with Padfoot." He started off slowly. "He's right, that our childhood grievances don't matter up here. Severus has forgiven us for the things we did to him in school and in return I have come to... accept the fact that he is your biological father. But I will never forgive him for sleeping with a married woman; my Lily."
I felt sad for James. If that had ever happened with Ginny I would have been devastated and would have probably killed the other man. But on the other hand, for the first time since I found out that Snape was my biological father I felt defensive towards him. Mum had been the one to initiate what happened between them, he wasn't the only one to blame... Although, it still disgusts me to think about the actions that led to my conception. I didn't say anything and we were silent for a few moments.
"How did you do it?" I asked and James looked at me in puzzlement.
"I mean... How could you have returned to mum knowing that she was pregnant with another man's child?" Dad stared at me and was silent again.
"I loved your mother Harry, very much. Those months that I was away were horrible for me. A part of me never wanted to see Lily again but another part of me wanted to hold her in my arms and never let go. The final factor in my decision to go back was the thought of leaving Lily alone while she was pregnant during a time of war. Especially because she was Muggleborn. And then when you were born... Harry I wanted to hate you so much but it was impossible. You were such a sweet baby and the first time I held you in my arms and you opened your eyes that were exactly like your mother's and I knew that I loved you like a father would their own son." Dad had to look away. I could see the tears welling up in his eyes.
"I used to think that all baby's look the same when they're newborn, but they don't." I nodded my head in agreement. "I'm afraid to say that you looked like Snape, other than the eyes and nose, thank Merlin." He half laughed-half sobbed.
"It wouldn't have mattered to me if you had grown up looking like him; you were mine from the moment I held you." I was shocked by this proclamation. James Potter was a really great man. I envied him for his forgiveness. If he could forgive Snape then maybe, one day, I could too. James continued his one-sided speech and I stared at him in admiration.
"I was jealous of him for the longest time because he was your real father. Since he joined us up here we've had a few conversations. Once he found out he was your father he was actually jealous of me!" He snorted. "I, at least got 15 months with you Harry, raising you as my own. Severus may have been in your life for six years but you hated each other." He paused to consider his next words. "He regretted being so cruel to you, Harry." I was shocked that Snape would confess this to James, of all people.
"I feel selfish in saying this, but... I got back at him for sleeping with my wife in the best way possible, by raising his only son." I stared at him in shock and then burst out laughing. I don't why I was laughing but it felt good. After a few moments Dad joined me. We understood each other in that moment and I felt so proud that I got him as my father, if only for a little while.
"That's horrible." I said between gasps and Dad laughed even harder.
"You know what's even better? The Potter name will carry on but Snape's won't." He laughed even harder. But I couldn't laugh at this. I don't or have ever wanted my last name to be Snape but I still regretted the fact that though he has a son and grand-children, no one will ever know because we are living under another man's name. James sobered up once he realised I had stopped laughing.
"And you know what the bastard does after not even being here for a year?" He whispered bitterly, carrying on as though we hadn't just stopped laughing. I shook my head.
"He stole my wife away from me again. And there is no way I can ever get her back because she is in love with him." I was shocked into silence.
"W-what?" I finally stuttered out.
"And I can't even hate the son-of-a-bitch because he told me he'd back away from her. But I could see that she loved him and I couldn't keep her away from the person she loved. She would have been miserable. She was miserable all those years we were here without him. At least she was mine, if only for a little while." He said wistfully. I simply couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that my mum was with Snape.
"Close your mouth, Harry. You'll attract the flies." He said laughing sadly.
"Snape and mum?!" I finally managed to choke out.
"Is it really all that hard to believe, Harry? He is your father."
"Yeah, but... Snape?" My mouth and my mind didn't seem to want to cooperate. James laughed at me and I glared at him. How could he talk about this so easily?
"It's okay Harry. It took me awhile to get over the shock too." He said with another sad expression on his face.
"I'm sorry." I blurted out. "This is hard for me to accept. I can't even imagine how you feel about this."
"It took a lot of time to get over the hurt I felt. It's still there but it's bearable now. And anyway, the Marauders are back together again and Severus is a good guinea pig for our... tricks." He grinned. "And he doesn't mind it so much anymore." Dad shrugged.
"Only because Lily is there to kiss him better!" I heard a shout from below. There was Sirius, grinning at us as he flew on his broom. Both Dad and I had the same disgusted expressions.
"Thanks for the imagery Paddy! Would you like me to remind you of the time you saw Marlene McKinnon snogging Malfoy in first year?!" I could see Sirius shudder.
"You shagged her in sixth year after old Sluggy's party and she had probably shagged Malfoy before! That's like shagging Malfoy!" Sirius looked like he was going to be sick.
"Shut up Prongs!" He yelled out in a strained voice.
For the first time since this whole fiasco began I felt as though things would be okay again.
I watched in amusement as Sirius chased James (who was now on a broom) around the Quidditch pitch as they taunted each other.
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